time for one of my random rants/theories in life thought sessions whatever you wanna call it. its been a while but the topic just came and well here i am to vomit it out in writing before it goes into a neverending spiral of thinking. if you wanna read it, dont judge me thats all i can say coz well, you have no right to now do you? ahaha! :

this is why i hate change

ppl say if you cant accept change then = rigid

why cant ppl understand tt it is CRUCIAL that some things stay the SAME ?

and some things just move with the times...

and with so many things on your palate

its quite impossible to devote attention to everything to make sure tt you're moving together with it at the same or if not, a similar pace as we all slide along with time

some things trail behind

its normal

understandable

but the thing is you have to decide WHAT you want to leave to trail behind, well a nicer way to put it is : catch up/tend to at a later time

but everyone and everything fights to be on the top of tt priority list

this is life

but it doesnt mean that i have to be alright with it

PEOPLE

I AM ONLY HUMAN

know that there is a reason why i seem to be 'bo chup' or opinion-less most of the time

easy-going, pushover ...whatever you wanna call me, fine.

my reason ( retarded or not) is tt i save my energy for the "more impt " things which need deciding

if whatever it is can do without tending/attention from me for now, then i will let you be at your comfy spot while i try to settle some other parts of my life...

but dont assume tt im 100% happy, its just tt im pretty easy-going but tt doesnt mean i dont have preferences ALL the time.

needs change with time

diff things happen that change our perspective but not necessarily our personalities

im not a "clingy" person and i try to not expect ppl to "cling" to me too

i know it sounds harsh but ive learnt to let ppl come and go in my life, had tt hard lesson taught to me since i was a child

you could say i have commitment issues at a glance

but it doesnt mean tt i dont treasure the ppl ard me

i just know that things like tt are not indefinite and if there are, its a true true blessing esp to those tt hang in there for the longest :)

this is why i wish time would just stop sometimes

change is shit

but at the same time it makes us grow

but whether we can deal with the outcome of the growth spurt, is another thing altogether

end of the day: its hard to be human but not impossible so well....hwaiting~