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HIAZ...

sick man..today was the last day of school...which also meant a lot of things:

1) a change in venue-------> which made valley walley cry..haha
2) a change in identity the next year-------> we will all become J2s!
3) chinese A's are juz next week----------->i'm screwed!!!!!!
4)no seeing of fellow classmates for at least 2 mnths...----------> quite saddening
5) Christmas is coming!!!!!!!! -----------> concert and presents and time with family,frens and God
6) PW is coming to an END!! --------> WOOHOO!!! too bad my grp 's OP is on the 9th ( the last day, so evryone else is partying while we still kancheong-ing)
7)more of my time dedicated to choir and its activities...esp with the concert tt we are SOOOOOOO not prepared for...
8) A's are COMING!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
9) holiday assignments and SPA project

ok..so now i dunno whether or not to look forward to the fact tt we have hols... WAITWAIT!!!! the qn shld be:" WHAT HOLS?!" with the amt of things going on..i really have absolutely NO IDEA if this is even gonna be a hol for me lah..most of my time will be to studies and choir...sheesh man.. moreover my PW OP ends on the last day of all the oral presentations...so all the grps tt end b4 tt are all free as a bird aft the chinese A's..grps like mine tt are ard the 8th and 9th will be slogging and kancheong-ing...sheesh man...so sick..dun even noe if i will have time to meet up with my dear sec sch ferens man...

Guess wad? i haven't started studying cheena A's and its on friday lah.. A LEVEL leh! i'm mad man...okok..i gtg and force my sefl to study lah... see ya man!
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WHOA LAO!!!!!

i nearly died from a heart attack this morning..ok..no..make that FOUR heart attacks..yes 4..so sick man..let me tell you story...=D

6.04 am..woke up from my short nap on the sofa and went straight for my shoes and bag and out of the house i went..( in case you are wondering..i was already dressed and what not for sch liao..i alwys end up in the sofa sleeping while waiting to hit 6.03am b4 i leave home...) AHEM!! as i was saying...yea..i made my way down to the bus stop which is abt a 3 min walk from home...i left with my sis... as i was walking to the bus stop i was telling myself that i HAVE, MUST, WILL practice my speech for PW OP dry-run today on my journey to sch since i like slept SUPER-DUPER early the night before(came home late and my braces were giving me a headache of a lifetime)....thinking that my sis put my speech on the table in my bed-room(coz i was fast asleep with the speech in my hands, she took it away and tucked me in..FOR ONCE =P) when i woke up,i blurly juz took my file and pencil case and dumped them in my bag, thinking my speech was in my file and had NOTHING to worry abt...i left the house with a peace of mind,hoping that today would be yet another wonderful day...

i got to the bus-stop and soon Wenshan came and soon 186 came..happily boarded the bus and was all ready to take out my speech and start working on it...i settled down and took out my file from my bag...i opened my file and flipped thru it paper aft paper...as i progressed i realised that sth was SERIOUSLY wrong..i started to panic...WHERE THE HELL IS MY SPEECH??!!
it was damn sick lah...i scrambled thru the whole file looking for it...and i juz cld'nt find it..i was "oh shit"-ing the whole while..i then told myself :" I HAVE TO GO HOME!" so i got off the bus at the nxt stop and was at the opp side waiting for a bus to go home...

i called home hoping for my sis to be at home so that she cld send the speech vis email so tt i cld print it in sch...then i rmb...she left the same time as me..i called her and wanted to ask her where the hell my speech was but she did'nt respond..i was panicking...i called home and asked my maid to look for it and come down tot the bus stop with it..she cld'nt find it...btw..all this was happening as i was WALKING back home...there was no bloody bus lah..i decided to walk home..tt was abt a good 10 min walk considering the speed i was walking at- VERYVERY fast newae...she cld'nt find it...so i was all ready to go home and print it and told her to switch on the comp tho i had little confidence she knew how to...=S so as i was walking home...i recieved 1 msg from marianne telling me to print the choir report we had done for the yearbook and with it came "MUST MUST MUST" print..it did'nt make things any better coz i did'nt switch on my phone the night b4 and did'nt print it out...i was like :" OMG!! if i really have to go home ah...i'll be late for sch for SURE!!!" i usually take the 6.15 bus..the nxt bus wld be at 6.30 and at tt time it was already 6.21...to go up and print and come back down all in abt 9 mins is IMPOSSIBLE!!!

so i called home to confirm tt my maid really cld'nt find the report..PRAISE THE LORD!!!! she FOUND IT!!!! so the nxt prob came...cld she come down by 6.30? my maid is quite short lah..and she has short legs lah...so she can't run fast lah..EH! i'm not being mean ah ..she herself admits it...newae..i was relieved..then as i was waiting for the 630 bus..i realised i 4got to buy cup noodles for hte OP today..i quickly msged ML but no response...so i got to sch lah..heart attack no. 4 came...I 4GOT TO LOG IN COL@C!!!!!!! had to do it for the chem thingy lah...so went down to the comps downstairs with val and lina to try to log in but cannot coz server was down...hiaz...so yea..tt was my frantic morning in short..actually quite long hor.. but believe me...its damn short liao lah... =D

newae..OP was fine lah...then aft tt came the exciting part... okok..i'm gonna make this sound really lame ok...=D :

we were on a quest to rid evil off our mission...terror and i went to our hideout in the "sewage deposit area" to hide from the enemy..it was the perfect hideout coz... the enemy had no way of entering there what-so-ever..unless he underwent a major operation...terror and i stayed there for some time...communicating with potatoman and shadowfury regarding our present location and next course of action thru our hand-held voice transmitting devices...the hideout was the only safe place to do so coz the device seen anywhere else on enemy grds wld result in serious consquences...once we were sure the coast was clear of the enemy we took our 1st step out of safety..once we were out...shld the enemy be there..our ears and brain wld then have to suffer the consequences...

The coast was clear...we made our way to the pick-up point out of enemy grnds..as we approached we saw the enemy there..standing there with his many packs of ammunition (?)..waiting for his pick-up truck to bring him back to his naval base... terror( i mean the emotion) struck our hearts,terror and i were wary and started thiking of possible scenarios shld we have been identified on how we wld throw him off our back...the ideas were out-of-this world but hilarious and of coz...logical... they ranged from saying that we wld be going to shop for gal stuff and if he persisted furthur in his interrogation i wld have told him that we were going to buy sanitary pads..but then again tt wld not work...so i decided on telling him tt we wld be ...nah..i wun say it...if not i can use it again nxt time...msg me if you wanna noe... but yea...hopefully telling him that wld burn his ears and brain or sth..but then again he's quite a sicko lah so ...oh well...newae...we were safe until the enemy caught sight of us..terror and i panicked..but then..thank goodness his presence was short-lived and soon the enemy was out of sight..mission accomplished...

MWAHAHA...i noe the ending a bit the weird liao lah coz my creative juices dried up liao...but yea...wanna noe more then msg me on msn lah...i not enuff guts to put all the real names and the actual happenings up ...
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ONE WAY*oot oot* JESUS!!! You're the only one that i cld live for!!!!

mwahhaa...retreat was good man...was not looking too forward to it before the retreat..like juz BEFORE the retreat when i heard tt we wld be split into grps...melia and i were like whining and whining ...all that whining for nothing lah coz it was DAMN COOL!!!!!

there was praise and worship (those were REALLY GOOD),prayers,talks and sharing..it was one of the best "church" camps i ever been to..i mean the content they presented was more relevant..if i may say it was kind of a "faith rescue mission" for ppl who's faith and relationship with god was becoming weaker and drifting furthur from god...so allt he issues addressed were more relevant in that sense..and they went in depth by really telling us the real meaning behind jesus's death and all tt..it was really good lah...they really explored like many things lah in one issue...it was really good lah...plus the facils were great (YPMers)!!!!! really enjoyed myself there..ESP the priase and worship sessions..i used to be really skeptical abt tt praise and worship sessions coz i was never really comfortable with raising hands and jumping ard while singing praise to god..seemed wrong... guess coz i was brought up in a wad you might call "old fashioned" catholic environment...raising hands and all seemed like it was an attempt to look like they were truly touched by god and aft awhile it stared to seem as if they HAD to raise hands and i started to think :"how can you be touched and feel fully empowered by god at like very 5 mins?" so i never really was open to the idea...BUT NOW..aft the retreat i finally understand why...in the past during praise and worship wheni felt really emotional while singing the most i wld do was juz clench my hands harder together ..i wld'nt even like stretch them out like when you sing 'our father'..but now tt i did it i realise i feel so much better...and i really enjoyed all the jumping ard..its like really basking in the joy of God's love and it was great...=D

the next fun part was the bathing time!!!!!! ha! bathe time was at like 12.30 in the morning and melia,von,lik,patrice and i wld ALWAYS go to the male toilet to bathe..relax ah...gals were sleepin in the air rifle range tt building so we cld use BOTH male and female toilet and for some weird reason most gals went to the gals toilet ..so the guys toilet was never as crowded...like weird lah...HELLO!! you've got 2 toilets lah! newae...maybe too used to turning right to go gals toilet liao..(notice gals toilet nearly always situated on the right?) newae...on the 1st night we were like playing with the urinals in e guys toilet..so fascinating...we were like :"OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! SO COOL!!!!!" then we wld go stand for awhile at the urinal(like peeing mah) then step away and watch it flush...so cool huh??!!! =P i noe allt he guys are like : =S now but HEY!! how often do we gals get to play with urinals? and dun tell me to go get one installed at home--->nick's "BRILLIANT" idea coz its not like anyone can use it at home other than my dad...so yea...like almost evry gal tt came in wanted to play with the urinal whether they did in the end or not...coz those tt did;nt "dare" to were watching those that did try with must fascination =D YEAH!

on the 2nd night it was juz after praise and worship and we were all high from the jumping and singing and we brought tt same level of hyperactivity with us to the toilet and we were DAMN NOISY...it was ard 1 am lah tt we bathed...so we were in the toilet *oot oot -ing * each other and doing the sugar dance and the dip dip song while waiting to bathe and melia invented the "round-a-bout " where we wld all gather and she will go :" 1,2,3 STC " and we wld all go :" HUH" together...in case you dun get it... try recalling the new american choir ppl tt came and they went :" 1,2.3 laker boys HUH!" and if you STILL dun get it imagine baseball,basketball teams in US before they set out for their games they wld go :"HUH!" and smash against each other tummy on? yea...that is EXACTLY wad we did..actions and all..=D damn fun...and there was also confession on the 2nd night and tts where i balwed my eyes out but then again NOTHING compared to how much melia cried...she ah..before confession cry for abt at least 1 hr liao then confession cry after confession cry oso...i think in total she cried for at least 4 hrs straight lah..nxt moring her eyes were all pain and puffy...i also cried like mad lah...felt so guilty and not worthy of God's love for such a sinner like me but then God loves sinners the most and that is juz simply beautiful...=)...cried like mad..just before confession and all the way aft tt...esp when i was done with penance i went 2 sit down and saw the eucharist and i started crying again..the eucharist was taken out for adoration while we were confessing...so saw it cried and i juz had to go down on my knees one more time and i did my own set of penance...then we had like praying over session where the facils came to pary over us to ask the holy spirirt to touch us..i wanted SOOO badly for God to talk to me and send my a sign and let the holy spirit touch me or "stirred up" as wad they say...but i juz cld not coz i juz did'nt know how to open my heart...then again God has his own time and like the song :"in his time" and he will send me sign when the time is right...when i saw done with praying over..cry again...theni saw this guy some facils had prayed over for and had collapsed ..THE HOLY SPIRIT HAD TOUCHED HIM!! he juz layed there and when he woke up he started cryign like no one's business..i was like:" WHOA! when will I ever get to feel tt way too?" oh well...soon..soon..juz pray for God's guidance..

this morning..wen to sch...val and debra came and told tt God talked to debra ..i was like :" WHAT??!!" tts is sooo GOOD! tho i nvr got to knowing how and wad and why and i dun even noe if its true but i'm assuming it is..now on..i'm gonna make an conscious effort to read the bible evrynight...=D yea...i supposed to do my PW speech now ..i'm late by a day liao..as in i was supposed to get it done by today to rehearse today but cld'nt finish..so now i gotta do it...CHINESE A'S! CRAP! i'm soo dead,haven't even started studying lah..its juz nxt wk lor...*sigh*..OH! and did i mention i got AAC for promos?=D i'm really really surprised lah...i was not expecting do do well much less a distinction...for maths and chem somemore...its the power of God lah...i mean go read my prev entry on promos lah...go and see how i felt for each paper and tell me if i expected to do well...i'm really really contented and i think i need to write a thanksgiving letter for novena liao...my Gp oso pass tho i thot i wrote out of point and i passed my chinese WITHOUT studying...and i quite a good pass soemmore leh..56/100 i think...now tell me if tt is a MIRICLE or wad man...=D like wad miss smith says :" God is SWEET..TOTALLY..God is totally..AWESOME..." and :God is Good..all the time. All the time...God is good.
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JERRY ONG IS OUT!!!! woohoo!!

nontheless...he's a good sport...i admire him for tt...next week...if chris does'nt brush up he's going home man...and did you guys see the grp performance the one they filmed? OMG! chris looked GAY LAH!!! he really looked like a gal..only NO BOOBS...and leandra and maia looked..well...cheap..yea...cheap...=D hahaha..
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heya!

ha! FINALLY!!! i finally finished uploading all the pics!! so GAL PALS!!! its ready for you all to see..all our wacky moments during our outing...=D FIO!!!!! you ah..shld have come..nvm..no worries..i'll arrange sth again lah..

hiaz...i really miss all my frens in STC lah...u guys are the bestest frens anyone can EVER find man..juz looking at the pics i wanna laugh man...so damn corny...newae...you all shld check out melia's blog and her latest entry...ITS DAMN COOL!!!!! anyone who thinks choir is like...lets see..BORING!!! go read it and see how cool it really is lah..all the diff sections...most of the stuff quite true lah...damn funny man...i feel like stealing it from melia's blog man...=P nvm...i'm not tt evil =D

hiaz...sch is starting again...so used to waking up late the past few days..for those who dun noe... wanna noe why?? COZ...PROMOS ARE OVER on mon..so no sch lor..no paper mah...=D so wad did i do? lets see..tues i went to go pluck teeth on the lower jaw...wed went back to sch for a 20 min choir meeting and then went out with STC PALLYS!!! =D..thurs had PW and today went out with mummy dearest and my sis to have a big feast at pan pacific hotel..whoa..the mud pies were like terror man...WHOA!! damn good! gonna have to start running again man...bet all e weight i lost from promos came bck again...nvm..nxt 2 days have hike,kayaking and games...loose wt for sure man...juz hope the hike is not gonna be a re-creation of the torture i went thru at LTCman...tho tt was physically exhausting...it was a really good experience coz of the ppl in my grp..dunno abt my class man...oh well...

waiting for S'pore idol results to be out...actually...s'pore idol actually sux compared to american idol lah...the singers are soo not up to par..the s'pore idol sure cannot make it man...go for world idol competition i dun think can make it lah...but wad keeps me glued to it is the fact tt JERRY ONG IS STILL IN!!! argh! so sick lah...he shld have like been rid of the face of this earth since the beginning of the competititon...here's why:

1) he can't sing
2) in his PATHETIC attempt to bring accross his emotions thru his facial expressions during the song.. he just ends up looking really constipated or like a REALLY freaky kid show host...=S
3) he smiles TOO MUCH..maybe got muscle spasms? i think so lah...
4) he like so does not get wad the judges are telling him..when they "insult" him he still ends up saying "thank you" like...sheesh man
5) he's getting so much attention for sth he does'nt deserve...i mean..its like william hung all over again..ok lah..not tt bad..at least jerry can sing and dance better than william but..aiyah..you get wad i mean lah rite?

yea..tts all i can think of...tonight's the results...evrytime i hope jerrygets eliminated..he ends up staying and causing ppl like jessea,beverly(tho it'll juz be a matter of time b4 they get out..so wad? at least let jerry go 1st man..) and DAVID YEO!!!!! oh man..letting david yeo go was a waste lah..you noe wad? i think david yeo wld make a really good s'pore idol..here's why:

1) he CAN SING!!! (sometimes he reminds me of clay aiken..dunno why but yea)
2) he's soo SINGAPOREAN!!! TTS GOOD!!! this is after all s'pore idol yea? shld not be afraid to behave like one...
3) likeable character...

okok..off to see the results now..juz hope gurmit dun try too hard to work the crowd...he always ends up being really lame lah..=P
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ITS OVER!!! the *shudder* promos..well..at least for me..poor ppl taking econs end on wed...=D

actually i dun really feel like a big weight of anything has been lifted off or wad lah...that can mean only 2 things...

1) i slacked TOO much during my course of study so much so there is NO DIFFERENCE now that the promos are over ...
2) I' M BECOMING A NERD!! so much so that studying is part of my life! ARGH!!

nah...i think its the 1st one lah (trying to comfort myself here ) =P well..now that its over,lets do a brief review on the papers how i think i'm gonna fair...

1) GP- BLEAH! i STILL think i wrote out of point and i STIL think i'm gonna screw it up...
2) BIOLOGY- CRAP! coz i did'nt get to finish the essay much less do it properly...rush thru it lah...1/2 hr for 2 essay qns lah..each with 3 parts weighing 8,8,6...i hope my MCQ n section B will save me man...
3) CHINESE- DUN even tok abt it...chinese is the last thing i can pin ANY of my hopes on..i did'nt even study for it lah...but then again..when i study its of no use too...so yea...
4) CHEMISTRY- i thot it was ok till after the paper i realised all my DUMB and STUPID mistakes...and realised wad i thot was correct for some qns turned out to be wrong..DANG!
5) MATHS- it was ok in the sense i did'nt feel as lost or helpless as compared to mid yrs but i still left blanks that add up to 18 mrks...so yea...good?bad? i dunno...

so yea..judging from that...i seriously have no idea wad to expect for anything...juz gonna take it as it comes..all i ask is to be promoted...seriously...evryone says i DEFINITELY will get promoted..i say "DEFINITELY" is too extreme..juz take midyrs for example...i was hoping my chem wld be at least a C considering all the hard work i put in compared to bio..in the end..chem got D and bio got C...now..promos chem was not as prepared and bio was more prepared but then look at wad happened??? either i'm down on luck or down on luck..I REALLY NEED TO GET PROMOTED!!!! okok..nono...must believe in myself.. I WILL GET PROMOTED!!! just a matter of how well i did to get promoted...=P ARGH! i can't stand this...not being able to do anything abt this..when i cld have controlled it...you noe wad?? its all in God's hands now... *breaks out in song* "Do not worry over wad to eat,wad to wear,or put upon your feet...trust and pray and do your best today..leave it in the hands of the Looord..leave it in the hands of the Looord..." YES!!! leave it in the hands of the Lord..if its his plan that i get promoted then i will...if not then too bad...HA! YEAH RIGHT!! easier said then done ...oh well...

actually..its not over yet lah...there is still chinese A's..UGH!!! witha super-duper-humoungous U...man! CHINESE!!! i really have to get a C6 at least...abt 3 wks time...ARGH!! oh well..break for awhile and then its back to mugging..DAMN OH! and choir concert and all and PW!! man..i'm gonna be a busy girl...
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CRAP is becoming my new favourite word...know why? coz tts how all my papers have been so far...

GP- CRAP!
Chinese- CRAP!
Bio-CRAP!

and fret not! more crap on its way...maths and chem are bound to be crap papers oso lah...judging from my mid-yrs...i dun think i can do any better judging from the amt of preperation put in for chem and maths comparing to mid yrs...hiaz..my BIO!!! i cld have produced better answers lah..only tt i had NO TIME! i was left wth 1/2 to write 2 essay qns lah...and each qn had like 3 parts weighing 8,8,4 mrks..so shit rite? i rushed thru it lah...i ams soo dead...the irritating thing is that i KNEW how to do it...gimme more time i can do it lah...oh well... =(

now gotta chiong for maths and chem...this is SICK!
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