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PEEEES MEEE OFFFFF

had the discsssion today about where i wanna go for my clinical 3B and 3C.

Why so special this round?

3B is the LONGEST placement of my life and 3C is the FINAL placement with the HIGHEST expectations.

so they organise this thing where we are supposed to write out preferances as to where we might wanna go for these placements and then they'll try to match it with what they think we need and wad we want.

So well...seeing my prev placements...i know tt i was missing a neuro/acute inpatient placement and mental health placement. so it was just a matter of which one first. i was initially perplexed coz well..i know im not strong in phy rehab but i know i need to throw myself into it if i want to improve but whether to go in 3B or 3C.

3B means tt its prolonged torture if i REALLY suck at it

3C means tt there are new clinician standards imposed on you.

and i cant do that with phy tts for sure.

so with both being potentially bad choices..i went with the lesser evil aka to just piah thru and struggle at phy at worst.im REALLY hoping tt doesnt happen though.

i THINK i like mental health but ive never had a placement so i dunno if its REALLY sth tts for me. i DO know its sth i can catch on and analyse better though but with tt risk of discovering its not for you and dying 2 months or with heightened expectations and dying...how to chose like tt? only a matter of how painful a death you wanna experience. HA!

when i went in to discuss...we were on the same wavelength and i was like..ok..cool...so she knows i need acute inpateint too..and she told me id prob be posted to acute inpatient for 3B so there you go...im just PRAYING its not SGH...PLEASE......PLEASE....and PLEASE send me to IMH for 3C. PLEASE!!! PLEASE!!!

so well..everything was gg fine...i even told the "guru of hand therapy" tt i might wanna do hands in the future when she asked me my interest areas...of coz i said mental health first..so all was fine, she said ive been performing rather consistently well at clinicals so to keep it up and so tts good too TILL she concluded WITH:

" well...the last time i saw you was when you were at NUH and well.....hopefully you have more initiative in learning now?"

and i was like O.o...er....YAh....

if i had a lack of soft skills i wld have gone " HELLO...DUH...but then again how wld that make a diff?"

i was so pissed

that even after SO LONG

she STILL has tt impression

YEA SURE

maybe coz i dun speak up in class so tt contributes to the fact tt i dun take initiative in learning -___________-

please tell me

how does not asking enough questions immediatly translate to not willing to learn?

HELLO.

ive had comments tt im hardworking and willing to take comments constructively. so where is the link??

SERIOUSLY.

then coz we have the option to go overseas. and the penang option is like HOT. i was thinking after the session...EVEN if i wanted to go and EVEN if my grades allowed me ( GPA 3.0 min) she prob wun let me go COZ i might have the lack of initiative to learn mahz......... -________-

if you ask me...i find tt almost as insulting as when i was told tt maybe i shouldnt be an OT and an accountant instead from the psychoanalysis attempt made.

if she reads this...then...well...im just stating facts. if its too much to handle then well..im sorry but as how you wanted to help, im trying to help you too. im a democratic leader yo. my leadership style test says so.

equivox was good. like..i got my acappella/ good music fix from them. HAHA!! and they did HOLD ON BY WILSON PHILLIPS!!! NICE...ahaha..i cant wait for pract 2mr...OH....i still havent evluated the recordings....wonderful...AHAH!! and i shld have made mention to jon how tt we're interested to perform in dec man...crap...we were talking today like those randoms chit chat...AHAH!!! come for 2 acappella perf liao lorr....flenflen alreadyz mahz...AHHAHA!! back to top?

on a slightly sour note to start the morning....

ive had enough of it the past few weeks and ive gotta say it out

know-it-alls

really piss me off

maybe know-it-alls is too extreme a subjective term to use

but i know that theres a diff between being a constructive analyst and being a real big pain in the ass

sometimes they know it..most of the time they don't..

thats why they still go strong at it

sometimes i think i come accross as a know-it-all too

but i guess its they way you make your view known

some freakin insist they are RIGHT and NO ONE CAN CONVINCE THEM OTHERWISE

others want to say it but don't dare

and most others say it without trying to seem like an ass

but...tts life i guess..

how far you wanna tip the balance... back to top?

since im bored.....and well..ive just got the pics from the walk to remember aka to wheelock....im just gonna load it up..ahaha..

i wld load the pics from sat but...well...ahaha...im nice =)
ok..tts it...ahaha..photo blog..ahaha..and well..just so you know..the pics werent this bright...i had to tweak it a lil so tt you guys can see better..ahaha..OK! school in a while... back to top?

ok..

so its been almost a week since i last blogged...i'll get down to it now..

SO....how has the past week been?

kinda hectic.

considering how FYP viva is on wednesaday...other projects and presentations slowly due as time passes..the life of a tertiary level student. exciting isnt it? your whole life just trying to catch up and meet up with deadlines one after the other. and before you know it, ITS EXAMS!!! WOOHOO!!

also doesnt help when you're still recovering. my lungs are like officially smothered in phleghm. i cant really cough it out but pract on friday was enough proof to show that my respiratory system is still trying to repair itself. my voice was lacking in power by like a hell lot...AHAHAH!!

BUT other than all tt..YES...this week WAS fun.and it usually only towards the tail end of the week. so YES...friday after a very fattening and somewhat unsatisfying dinner ( not for dan) at spize, we decided to take a walk to wheelock and back in time for dan to catch his last bus. AHAHAH!! yes...we ACTUALLY did it this time. went off to fio's to drop off the keyboard, blacmac and crumplerjunior and then we were OFF!!

so as we walked, we took pics!!!!..............of which i still don't have! ahahah...FIO!!! send em out already!! ahaha...we were posing with street signs, ads along the road for new condos, sitting by a drain to take pics...AHAHAH!! all along tt busybusy road leading to orchard.. so we walked to wheelock and back... by the time we got back...dan missed his bus by a little already...so...more money spent..take taxi..HAHAA..

NEXT DAY: MEETING UP WITH YIMEI AND LISA!!
ahahaha!!! it was good fun! and nice to see old friends again..ahaha...yimei is still yimei..except her long mermaid hair has been chopped off and exchanged for a spunky new fresh do!! fio and i were like trying to identify a stick with long hair but well..lucky i still have a good memory of yimei's features so i managed to identify her with her hair covering nearly her whole face except her nose and chin...

and her classic AIYAH-SHATTUP-LAH and ARE-YOU-STUPID-OR-WHAT tone of voice..miss that man..ahahah!! she's become so motherly...melia, YIMEI is motherly ok...AHAHAH!! but yea...we came to a conclusion at the end of the day tt we all share the same viewpoint on stupidity in general by the younger generation ( stabbing myself) is coz we're just cautious people and we THINK...sometimes too much but we think nontheless. ahaha..Lisa, looks like you lost some weight!! ahaha..so jealous..and well..we had fun with some gossip updates about ppl from sec school and all and well..it just translated to us sharing the same viewpoint of stupidity in general of our generation and how the few sane ones like us are left. AHAH!! we took pics too...i have some but ...fio has the grp pics again -_- SO fio...you know wad to do..ahaha..

had a long long chat with alethea over the phone yesterday too..ahaha...1.5hrs...nice talking to her, hearing her voice aft so long..been a long while since i last spoke on the phone for more than 15mins..ahaha..i usually only do when melia is around..ahaha..come to think of it...i recieved 2 international calls yest... one from princess and the other from jonjon..and i dunno if i really did receive a call from val today or whether it was a dream from one of my afternoon headcahe-reducing naps..

and today.....i had a splitting headache so i ended up sleeping so much without actually wanting to....so...yea..all my work was put on hold...BLEAH!!

so wads up for the upcoming week?

AHAHAHAH!!! im looking forward to wednesday man..WOOHOO!!! except for the fact its viva day
theres napfa on thurs -_- going back to school JUST for that -____-
Soiree on friday, where we get to perform lion sleeps tonight...oh myyy..reminds me...i cant make pract on fri!! we need to change another day!!

and the following week? go mediacorp to watch one of those ch U idol shows..AHAHAH!! so exciting!! only coz ive never been to one of those shows b4...AHAHHA!!! oh what fun we'll have laughing our butts off...sorry we'll be on diff wavelength may but..hey..we still love you =) AHHAAH!! ok!! off to do work!! back to top?

THIS IS INFURIATING

i blogged this whole thing and its suddenly gone -_-

here's kath good and RO to make up for a lack of post.

she was supposed to be on my original post also ok?

jon- shut up.

HAHAH!



anyway summary of the original long post:

1) meeting up with sec sch mates aka yimei and lisa...hopefully tts fun! lets go OG/THIS FASHION and try clothes again!! ahaha

2) im missing not gg for PE this week..stupid throat.. back to top?

my GAD

my turn to post BSB vids up... AHAHAH!!!

i realised nick actually has quite a good voice...its just tt he sounds whiny compared to the rest but yea...nice voice actually...i found this one...NICE


and one of my favourite BSB hits...SHAPE OF MY HEART ACAPOOKU BABY....


ok...im waiting for RO senior sendoff man...COME ON CHIROJOEL!!! i feel so cheated waiting like tt...ahahahaa...

not to mention i sound like a tranny today...BLEAH! i slept like 5 whole hours i think ...so now i cant sleep..ahaha..anyway..

ITS MOTHER'S DAY!!! i wanted to write 2mr's mother's day but its ALREADY 2mr..so yea..ahaha...i hope mum likes the cafe walnut cake i sneaked out to collect just now...i wonder if she's opened the fridge and seen it but HEY! .............i dunno also..ahahaha...sis made a bouquet of hearts tt she bent with wire and made them look like flowers and we made a card ...so YAY!! ahaha..and broadway beng later...so exciting...i heard a lot of good reviews...ahahaha...hopefully its not TOO hevay dialect...

ok...supposed to have been doing work but well...HEH HEH HEH...

su num zao su num zao na na na na na nao back to top?

things happen

and you just think

my parents just came back from the hospital, visited a long time friend of 30 yrs

they all met when they were abt 18 in a church group

and they've been friends eversince

so yea..some get married...some stay single..

one of them..

complaining of eyesight probs

found out its a brain tumour..

removed it recently and now they found out its cancerous...and the cancer might have spread..

coupled with existing kidney probs...

bad prognosis..

family being an ass..not being catholics..insisting tt she does NOT have a catholic funeral service and "brainwashing" her to do so..

im not even gonna go into the whole denominations thing coz theres no point..wad i DO wanna say is...WHY can't you JUST let the dying person leave this world in peace? theres ENOUGH fear and frustration with having to cope with the news of the prognosis she doesnt need ppl like you to pressure her and challenge her faith...

the only one who is doing all tt she can to fight for a catholic rite is her best friend..but in the end....family still has the final say...

one more thing..

APPARENTLY..

shes had this thing for one guy since FOREVER but nvr did anyting abt it...

now that this is happening..they are all wondering if they shld let the guy know abt it...

but WHY wld you want someone you like so much to see you in this state?

but wld you bear to go without seeing him one last time?

* this sounds like a freaking soap but its REAL*


so i just got to thinking.................

THIS COULD HAPPEN TO ANY OF US...ANY TIME FROM NOW...

what happens then?

we all HAVE to go one day..

just a matter of who first..

i dun wanna imagine it...it'll feel like CRAP for sure...

with ppl flying to australia already like sth weirdly different..

well..if i DO go first....

melia, you know wad i want for my funeral song.......

and make sure ppl like jon and dan dun complain JUST because its HANSON..HAHA!

OH WHAT THE HECK.

If I'm gone when you wake up
Please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up
It's not goodbye
Don't look back at this time as a time
Of heartbreak and distress

Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams

Don't cry, I'm with you
Don't cry, I'm by your side
Don't cry, I'm with you
Don't cry, I'm by your side

And though my flesh is gone, ]
whoaI'll still be with you at all times ]
And although my body's gone, oh ]
I'll be there to comfort you at all times ]

I don't want you to cry and weep, oh ] THIS WHOLE PART FREAKIN ROCKS
I want you to go on living your life ]
I'm not sleeping an endless sleep, oh ]
'Cause in your heart ]
You have all of our good times ]
Oh, all of our good times ]

And if I'm gone when you wake up
Don't ask why
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams
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im feeling particularly antisocial today...

what a great feeling to have on a day like this...

a day when there's a 21st to go to..

esp when what it seems like ppl are just gonna gather round, eat and "gamble"

i dun "gamble"

im not interested in learning either..

at least not today..

my family doesnt gamble anywhere during CNY ( tts when gambling season is peak i hear) so theres no chance in hell tt know..

i tried to learn mahjong at MFTNH but...well...its such a complex game..highly cognitive in nature..my puny brain couldnt take it so yea...hahahaah..

ok...other than tt...i hope its worth gg for tonight...coz i am in no way PSYCHED abt it at the moment...sorry to the bdae girl if you're reading this ( which i highly doubt)...im just not in a good mood today for no reason and i can just imagine the amnt of SLIME.....................whee...way to go at helping me look forward to it...

what is UP with all these weird people?? its like they all belong to some ONLINE clan and they have a database of ppl who they can weird out.....jon shld know wad im talking about...HA! he had a lovely encounter with one last night....HA! ugh...sick...i SERIOUSLY dunno where all these ppl come from...like the one i encountered FACE-TO-FACE on clinicals...MY GAD tt one scared the hell out of me...

i dun think i blogged abt it but i think i told some ppl already...but since im the mood of narrating..HERE I GO!

so yes...i was at my 3A placement..theres this guy tt came for his 1st visit and i interacted with him while treating coz HEY! tts wad you're supposed to do...so yea..so just talk about those usual socialising stuff and well...cld tell tt he was one of those guys who just talk A LOT and abt ANYTHING and EVERYTHING...possibly low EQ kind ( common trait) but yea...so nvm..tt was it...end of 1st visit..

so he comes subsequent visits but i dun attend to him coz ive got my own patients and my sup sees him..so tts GREAT! he seemed pretty harmless from the 1st time i met him so i was ok.. ahaha..so the last week im there he comes again and this time for his last session..so my sup makes me see him..do the usual simple stuff...of which you will HAVE to end up talking to each other if not its just awkward silence which looks BAD on my part..so talk some crap and he starts asking whether i have a blog and how hes bored and all and how he has one as well but doesnt update coz army is a drag blablabla..then he goes "maybe i can find yours"...DEEDEEDEEBUHDEEDEE my alarm goes up...i say " well you cld try but i dun think you can find it.."

"what makes you so sure tt i cant find it?"
"erm..its just unlikely" *turn ard to document with the main intention of ending the convo*
- sup still not back and its time to move on to the next activity-
" if i find your blog i'll stalk you, you know?" * with a serious tone and look*
" youve got to be really bored to have to do sth like tt" * panicking inside*
" the army makes you do things like tt blablablablablabla"
-shoves him exercise to do but having to occasionally check on him-
- cute kid running ard the table in front of mine, meaning behind the dude since he's facing me-
" what you looking at?"
" the kid -_-"
* wants to be involved in the "fun" so he tries to be AS interested in the kid as well -_-*
- my sup returns (HALLELUJAH!) and she asks why he's sitting in such a weird position and he just says he wants to look at the kid -_____- she concludes the session with him and tells him hes discharged from OT -
" thanks and vanessa, rmb my threat." * with hum sup look on face*
"threat? " * act blur to save myself*
" yah.. threat.." * hum sup look 2*
- my sup says " wad threat?" and i go " yah wad threat?" - HA! if you think abt it YAH. WHAT threat?-
" threat? you know? T-H-R-E-A-T. threat?"
" huh?"
" i just threatened your student, arent you gonna do ANYTHING abt it?"
*weak laughter from both my sup and i*
"bye"

i RUN to the locker to get my phone to sms the only person i know who is on the comp at tt time aka daniel to check my blog settings.. UGH! SLIME......1st time in MA face..im blogging it coz im pretty sure he wun find it..BUT if you by some SHEER streak of luck find it....hey dude..

ok..tt was a pretty long post...im supposed to be doing work now...so much work to do but somehow not doing any..ahahah..man...HOW I WISH they offered music therapy in la trobe...only have art therapy..not tt its bad but if i wanna do an extra thing better be sth i like coz its MORE money...only umelb and UTS has at a grad cert level..masters at UTas and UQ -_- so erm...woohoo...

OK...im off to do some OT stuff now...so tt i can make use of all the time i have now in case i regret it tonight...im so sorry for being so negative..i cant help it...i feel sleepy..ahaahaha.. back to top?