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well

its the 2nd day already

and its almost gone

so sad i tell you

i was SOOOOOO looking forward to this long holiday
but somehow it didnt feel like it
and suddenly its over

the only good thing is tt this week is a seemingly shorter week
WOOHOO!!
i cant wait for friday again
i love fridays
i can't even begin to express how much i REALLY REALLY look forward to fridays
in all honesty

HIAZ

but b4 friday comes
lets take each day a step at a time
lets ace this week too
COME ON!! WOOHOO!!
actually i shld just say "ace this week" no "too"

anyway
i feel sleepy but i feel tt somehow i shld stay up till 12
and try to read sth in btwn
JUST SO tt i can soothe my conscience
yes
the physical torture i put my body through
just so tt i can satisfy my mind

AHAHH!!
ANYWAY
like i said
i cant wait!!!
and im missing all the gang terribly somehow
its only been a week since i saw each of you? or something?
i dunno
ahahahaha

ok im off
to rest and conquer the week! back to top?

happy CNY again!!!

well..

the only good thing abt this CNY this yr is tt i dont have exams to study for
but i have clinicals to study for
but somehow tts less taxing in a way
ahahaha

but wads irritating abt this yr's CNY
is wad is happening at home
the spring cleaning
its not so much the hassle of cleaning and the tiredness
its the ppl tt make the hassle and make you emotionally tired
i dunno why they have to be a pain

do they even know they are being a pain?
so they know tt thru their so called generosity
they are actually demonstrating the direct opposite?
its the unspoken tt is always more powerful.

i dont know why but it happens.
with no regard for other things
i wont even say tt im the most noble being ard
or tt im the direct opposite
im prob also causing stress on them without knowing it
but i guess from where i can see the big picture, i have chosen to prioritise with my conscience as my guide

all i can hope is tt
during spring cleaning part 2
my parents and my sis dont experience a cross fire
which means
i have to be the diffuser
and i have to be the one tt netralises ANYTHING and EVERYTHING tt is output from their mouths or actions
its chu xi for crying out loud
i'll wanna kill her more if she acts up on CNY itself though

selfish ppl.
one of the ppl tt i've low tolerance for.
i mean..we are all selfish to a certain extent. comes with being naturally egoistic creatures.
but i guess its when sth happens tt challenges what you understand to be a normal level of selfish behaviour that irks you
OH WELL

OK!
enjoy the weekend!!

HAPPY CNY TO ALL!!!
ill prob blog again soon! =) back to top?

ok

im dying of stress

stress of knowing the amount of stress tt awaits

and the week hasnt even begun

im writing this at 11.03 pm btw. i logged in much earlier.

anyway

yes week 1 was alright as some of you might know
week 2?
i just hope it zooms by
like REALLY
i cant wait for friday!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOODNESSSSSSS
ill be counting down the days
then the hours

never have i been happier about CNY ever
in a long long while tt is
AHAHAH!!

anyway
once i hand in the reports 2mr
i will be a tad bit free-er
for now
i can concentrate a lil bit more on clinicals

and thanks jon for the dvds
ive been listening cum watching them as i've been doing my work
it really helps me get less irritated with myself
in a way
HAAHAH!

its monday in 54 mins
how exciting
OH! cooking session 2mr!
it should be interesting
AHAHAH!!
and then i just hope the week speeds by again.
WOOHOO!!!!
and ill have to go for lunch with my sup on day or 2
HIAZZZZ
lunch time is precious
its sacred
its religious if i may say so
but
oh well
i will do what i have to do of coz not without compromising myself

break me out tonight
i wanna see the sun rise in anywhere but here
lose this crowd
OHHH
BREAK ME OUUUTTTTTT
nananananananaaaaaaaa

someone slap me.
my mind is running everywhere.
again. back to top?

ok

now tt ive got some time to just blog and clear my mind
i will

how has clinicals been?
well its been 2 days
so i cant comment much
but i guess this will be a challenging but also an experience to learn a lot from
so
i guess no pain no gain lah
clinicals always clearly illustrates tt sore point

anyway
AH!!!
i feel so overworked
and like everything needs a portion of my time
and i dont have a portion of my time for myself
the feeling is horrid
and i dun understand how someone can be a workaholic and enjoy being one
some ppl identify it as such but dont enjoy being one but have to coz they have no choice
but ugh
fyp, clinicals, reading FOR clinicals
it HONESTLY is a hell lot
and it just gets busier when i actually have to START seeing patients

i need time for myself
you know?
even if its not to be alone
its to be myself a lil more than i am
and now i am expected to willingly sacrifice tt time?
the day will be a lot harder to get by man
seriously
but i guess i have no choice if i know wads best for me
'best'
i emphasis on the inverted commas

UGHHH!!!
gotta break free baby
soarin flyin
theres not a star in heaven that we can't reach
if we're tryin
we're breakin free
yes its from HSM and you're probably gg WHAT?! obsessed ( im not btw)
but you'll be surprised how things like that help you get along when you REALLY need to

ok
i love clinicals
and with respect to that, i hope you right hemisphere is working and highly sensitive in interpreting those words. i cant be direct here for obvious reasons.

i cant wait for friday back to top?

well well well

its 4 days well into the new year

how has it been?

well..some stuff happened

mostly changes
rather reminders that changes are about to happen

yes people
2009 is finally here and travelling well on its cheery little way as we speak
2009 is a year of change
school wise
environment wise
acareak wise

how do i feel about change?
ness has never coped well with changes
she doesnt like it when her plans and visions have to be changed
no one likes changes esp to something that they have come to know and understand
it just brings about a whole lot of questioning again
its normal
its in books
AHAHAH!! sad how i learn how to live my life through books and wad other ppl say
but i guess if someone has generated a thoery or sth out of what im experiencing now then it means wad im feeling is normal
OK
i dunno how it drifted there but in any case lets get back

so in conclusion.
2009 is a year where ness breaks free
*we're breakin freeee!! soaaaaarin'...flyyyyin'*

yes.
this is the year ness has to challenge herself quite a bit
a lot of self-discovery
big decisions to be made
and to break out of the comfort zone to make way for something greater *hopefully*

how will be in years to come?
no one knows
but yes. like many blogs that ive read
have FAITH
thats all
thats not limited to religious faith though it would be based mostly on that..since you know..values and beliefs.
but i guess to have faith that things will go well
to have faith in myself that i CAN
to have faith in others that the love and friendship that we all have can only grow stronger.
to have faith that there is a greater plan in mind.

yes..hope and faith (and i dont mean the tv show. sorry. couldnt resist) very important.
i have this temptation to get all theoretical about this too but i shall RESIST.

if you really wanna know wad i was about to rattle on about.
OT peeps please refer to CMOP mainly on the spiritual section. i think so. i just know its spirituality im talking about here. ahaha. and then please proceed to roll your eyes.
my dear non-OT peeps, thats Canadian Model of Occupational Performance for you.

yes, im disgusting
but it makes a hell of sense in this context.
its disgusting the way my mind draws links. to SCHOOL. freak.
kin is right. i need to start drawing a line btwn my professional life and MY LIFE.
in a way.
AHAHAH!

i shld be studying for my Work paper 2mr but HONESTLY
i cant
its disgusting
more disgusting than me mentioning CMOP on this blog.
i cant wait for 2mr's paper to be over
and then tues's neuropysch
and wed's reduced energy

OH MY LORD!!
then its ALLELUIA!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!
*cue george michael*
FREEEDOMMMM!!! FREEEDOMMM!!! FREEEDDOMMMM!!!
i cant freakin wait
and jon got the dvds!! OMG!! i cant wait to actually watch them guilt-free.
and then there's kbox
and dinner
OH MY GAD
although ive only got 3 weekdays free b4 the clinicals
its better than nothing baby

and OH! i didnt mention that i got my kebaya for CNY day 1!!
woohoo!! its...yes..you guessed it.GREEN! MWHAHAHA!

and we had gift exchange that day.
i loved all the reactions i got from everyone when i gave them my presents. AHAH! i ROCK! =)
and we had fattening milkshake. OH MY GAD. it GOOOOOOD.
i love you guys!!=)

ok..i actually have a hell lot to blog if i really wanted to
and if i could
but yea
its time to start work
so yes.

resolutions?
nah.
not for me.
maybe just something to keep in mind as i go through this year.

FAITH.

thats a lot more helpful than setting resolutions-shmesolutions.

oh and just a reminder:
*MAYLYN MUI. YOU STILL HAVE NOT UPDATED YOUR BLOG. IF YOU ARE EMBARRASSED BY THIS BLOG ENTRY. DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. REPENT!*

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