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well...

had the CPF thingy today..my one day job..

it was..well..ok lah..6 per hr was actually good lah...ahaha..but i'm too tired to write evrything..but i'll share briefly..

1) met val at the mrt control

2) got there at 9am..thing starts at 10am..was guessing they wld be briefing us during tt time? NOPE...sat ard and waited..

3) 10 am and stalls still not ready..sit ard somemore..

4) 1030..STILL not ready..are told to walk ard somemore..

5) end up shopping and saw a nice belt..heh heh..

6) 1130..still no work..

7) 12..FINALLY..WORK...but..SHIT work..ahaha..

8) give out lucky draw forms..and its so difficult to QUALIFY to participate in the lucky draw somemore..so it was VERY difficult giving them out..

9) 2pm went for lunch..had roast duck noodles val recommended...see some conflict here?? YES..its FRIDAY and i ate meat..but she was soo EXCITED abt it so yea...eat lor..the only thing i dun like abt it...they use LARD ..as in the oil and the HUGE pieces of it..SPLASHED ( a lot) on your plate..it makes a diff in the taste i agree..but i feel my arteries clogging as i ate it..ahha..but it was nice..

10) back to distributing...stupid insurance agents from the fair were competing with me lah..the floor space..sheesh man..and they all sucked lah..except for 2 women..the rest..WTH..expect clients to COME to you..wander ard..NEVER approached ANYONE in my whole 6 hrs there..

11) went to hide out in t kiddy palace level..WHOA..nice place man..had seats and all..RELIEF...my lower back was dying..

12) back to work and then HARD labour begins...but tt was better than brianless activity like form distirbution..at least i had a goal ( where to take things to) rather than BEG ppl to take my forms..aahaha...

13) packed goodie bags...fun..but tiring...extended an extra hr of work..

14) took bus down to CJ and home from there..SUPER nostalgic..felt tt weird feeling in my chest..yea..HIAAAZ...

AND YES!!! this is the highlight..as i was giving out the stuff...there was this kid, lil girl running ard..but she knew where her parents were lah..this bunch of indian men walked by me and one of them STARED me in the eye...so i was like : " ....yes sir?" and he went :

" is tt your baby running ard?"

i was like : -blank- " er...no..."

then internally i went :" WHAAT THE SHIT!!!!!!!! OH MY GOODNESSSSSS!!!!!"

i look THAT old??!?!!?!? to have a KID?! OH MY GOODNESSSSS.....

seriously..i think he was one of those crazy kind of ppl..ANY normal person wld NOT have arrived at tt conclusion lah..coz 1stly i was in the tee they provided holding forms to distribute..EVEN if i were to have a kid...i wldn;t bring her to work..and its not even like i'm the kind tts sitting at the booth or anything..and 2ndly..SEEERIOUSLY i KNOW i dun look THAT old..SLAP HIM!!!

ok...freaking sore now..ouch...ok..sleeep..good luck melia for..today..ahaha..past midnight now..heh..and to add sth...I AM DISGUSTED AND INSULTED TO BE DEGRADED TO THAT LEVEL...yea..if you dunno wad tt is abt..its ok..really..and no..its not abt the man's remarks..

ha...this post wasn't brief at all huh? ahah..oh well..wads new? heh.. back to top?

haha..

was actually coming online to write a emotional kinda post..but was surfing youtube and found this clip and my whole mood totally changed..darn crappy sia..aahha..take a peek..it reminds me of CJ..my class esp..the kind of crap jason,javier and arun pulled off in class..uncanny resemblance..ahaha..the epee just reminds me of arun and javier..and jason..haha..yea..the 3 go together..and yes..its SI again..call me obsessed but i am REALLY bored..


dun ask me why paul is almost constantly topless and in his spongebob boxers..i have NO idea..and i think tt karen mok part and the bedsheet part is darn corny..too much resemblance..ahaha..and melia..we need to perfect tt "slapping" thing we used to do..watching them "punch" each other reminded me of tt..ahaha..

and just to SHOW YOU how bad energy's performance was tt night:



and just to let you guys know ( tho i think you can HEAR for yourself) the only one who can carry a tune out of the 3 of them is the one who sang 1st..the 2nd one was just BAD and the 3rd one is just really bodering bad..HEAR the diff btwn the 3 morons and the 2 singaporeans...and tell me...DIFFERENCE in QUALITY sia...once the 2 came out..it was as good as the 2 of them singing..drowned energy out man..and i agree with daniel ong :" WHAT a collaboration.." ahaha.. back to top?

ok...

i apologize if you guys (who read my blog) are getting sick of my constant comments abt SI..but hey...i've been following the show...naturally i wld lots to say abt it..ahaha..esp when the news reports abt stuff tt i totally think makes lil or no sense or when wad i predicted turned out to be right...ahaha

but 1st..i found this vid..ahaha...it was performed at SI results finals..they didn't show it on tv..someone( most definitely a guy) recorded it obviously and loaded it..it gets better as the song progresses...i think its pre-recorded again but wth..nice nontheless they did the harmony nicely..ahaha..dan, you shld like this..HA!




well..i woke up rather late today..ahaha..i OFFICIALLY woke up at 11..was woken up here and there by 3 smses but i cldn't pull myself out of bed..too tired for some weird reason..heh..so any way the moment i woke up and walked to the sofa...the today paper was on the sofa with the pic of jon leong staring at me..and it said sth like "in the feet of clay" (aiken tt is..) ....corny lah..aahah..they interviewed him and so did life!..and here's wad i've got to say abt the articles they did on jon and hady..

hady--> they wrote tt hady is still very very media- shy and all those qualities i've mentioned b4..they said he hasn't embraced tt media-loving side of him ..at least not as fast as taufik (???!!) ok..all i can say is " I TOLD YOU SO!!" as in..tt was tt "not-so-idol"-ish quality of hady..like i said...s'pore IDOL not SINGER..idol carries more expectations..for one..gotta be comfy with media..

but i guess he needs time...once he gets the hang of it...i'm sure he'll beat taufik ANYTIME...ahah..the article oso mentioned tt hady and taufik once auditioned for tt band tt hady was once a part of but the owner of the pub or sth chose hady over taufik..HA! says a lot abt taufik huh? heh...i'd prefer hady over taufik ANYTIME..taufik has tt " act cool" thing gg on..hady tho not truly being himself yet..you can tell wad he does is not FAKE ..its just..wary-ness..yea..

jon--> the thing got me a lil irritated was tt they kept mentioning tt he shld be in the mandopop industry..i was like...HELLO?! are you ppl stupid or wad?! JON LEONG?! MANDOPOP?! *smacks forehead* now i know why local talent isn't blossoming as fast as it shld..coz ppl are thrown into wrong genres to develop on.. LISTEN to his voice man..he CAN'T do mandopop..it totally clashes...he does rock, soulful songs...esp ROCK...

i think they're just trying to create another sly out of him..really..the way they write abt him..i think its just the hair and the fact tt sly is a "rocker" too..and just coz sly is more mandarin-ish..doesn't mean jon is..goodness...diff in voices man..OPEN YOUR EYES (or ears) MAN STUPID MEDIA PPL!!! ppl dun come as carbon copies of each other..similar triats yes..but please....goodness...they even linked him to F4?! its the hair i tell you..

why can't ppl just look past the exterior for once? yes i agree looks do play a huge significant role as much as i hate to admit it..but we've got a singer here with quality..there isn't THAT great a need to play on his already "ok" looks to garner support..the voice wld surpass..media-ish ppl in singapore really need to realise tt our taste in music has evolved..more ppl are learning how to appreciate singers for their music more than their looks..looks of a singer is slowly becoming a less impt factor ESP if the singer can ACTUALLY sing...nonsense bands like F4 and energy need their looks to push up their market value...but i dun think its THAT neccessary in this case..not even in hady's case..pls...dun make jon into sth he's not suited for.. *dun kill my singaporean alex band*

not to mention of course..tt they did an article on energy...abt their downsizing from 5 to 3 members..and here's wad they had to say :

"But now each of us can talk a lot more during interviews. We also had more room to showcase our voices and compositions on our new album"

...............you guys know wad i'm gonna say right? but i'm gonna say it anyway..WHAT VOICES?! you guys can SING MEH?! ahaha..maybe they sound "good" (tho i think is ok and ordinary) in the new album but well..know how they have those tuning things in studios to tweak with thier voices? yea...probably needed tt...ahaah..

ok...i now its kinda harsh to slam them like tt and its not as if i have a wonderful voice or anything tt puts me in a position to comment..but i believe as a consumer of music i have a right to comment on the quality of the products i am recieving or being offered in this case ( by energy tt is)...they are just..goodness...now you know why ppl who can't sing go audition for SI and AI and things like tt...coz ppl are slowly losing the ability to tell what is GOOD and wad is just plain painful kind of music..i feel sad for future generations...if i ever have kids...i'm gonna make sure they stay away from CRAPPY music...i beleive there's more to come..seriously..hilary duff singing beat of my heart on disney is enough to worry me... back to top?

man..waste time sia...

went thru all the trauma last night for nth..

in the end the post was posted...ahaha..

i deleted the old one liao...so it wldn't make my efforts go to waste..heh..

well...wad did i do today?

go to the dentist...my teeth now hurt..trying to move my teeth all one by one...ouch man..

then aft tt it was to melia's to study with her...fruit lunch...ouch man..my poor teeth...

my face is crappy..its better but still crappy...my mum was like panicking ovr my face more than i am...ahaha..she said tt if my complexion doesn't improve in the next week...its time to pay a visit to the derm...stupid man...i want my sec sch complexion back...tt was purely wonderful..

seems like everyone ard me is looking better as the days pass...but for me...i just seem to be stuck in a rut or looking worse...my goodness...maybe i'm meant to grow old and ugly.......tts it...destined to stay single forever sia...ahaha..

so anyway..thanks to tannie...now i've gotten this program tt can dl videos from the internet and i can SAVE THEM!! ahaha..i've got my fave jon leong vid...WHEE!!! UNNNNforgettable....man...i love his voice..are there more of you guys tt sound like tt out there? please show yourself!! ahahah..despo sia...

well...2mr..good luck melia...do well..make those babysitting hours count..ahaha.. back to top?

OMG!

this is soo dumb...3 rd time writing this...so all the tonights actually refer to yesterday ok?

ok...so the results are out...

lemme do my gurmit singh impersonation *ahem*

"singapore...............you have voted....WHO have you chosen to be your new singapore idol? is it jon? or is it hady? we'll let you know..........aft the break.. stay tuned.."


ahaha..no lah...he didn't do it this time...went straight to.. " HADY MIRZA!"

but somehow...there wasn't tt air of victory...there wasn't the YEA!!! I DID IT!!! kinda thing from hady...there wasn't LOUD LOUD screaming from the crowd..maybe it was loud at the stadium...but at home...it seemed like it wasn't EXPLOSIVE enough..oh well..

welll...hady deserved to win lah i guess..he is def a better singer than jon..but overall..i still support jon..hiaz..go jon! i'm sure he's gonna be offered a recording contract oso lah...aft the results were announced ken said to jon tt he still believes he has wad it takes to be a regional star..so yea..we'll see...can see ken was hoping it wld be jon lah( to me)..he's been saying jon is more marketable..oh well..

anyway..the best part was when all the guest stars appeared..for me..the most interesting was when electrico appeared...they were to sing runaway with jon and hady...and i tell you ah...jon totally outshone the lead and hady in tt song...esp outshone the lead..he sounded WAAAAY better than tt lead himself..my goodness...jon sang runaway b4 in one of the spectacular shows and he sounded better than the lead when he sang it tonight..and when singing side by side tonight...even more apparent...weird..ahaha...but yay! heh..

and energy...tt one was the worst performance of the night...3 taiwanese( or wadeva nationality they are) morons who truly just SUCK....can't sing for nuts...they sang one of their own songs..and they sang in unison..nvm...i can't make out the tune...nvm...check this out...i can't make out the tune and YET i know tt they zao siaed..coz its in unison yet they all sound diff and no...they weren't harmonising..ugh...then later they sang "stand by me" with the top 2...they started off 1st..and 2 out of the 3 of them ZAO SIAED!! such a simple song and they ZAO SIA?! goodness....and once jon and hady came to sing with them..man..energy really paled in comparison..not being able to pronounce the eng words here is not the issue..is tt they can't even sing tt tune properly...goodness..my dad and i were screaming for those clowns to just get off stage man...ugh...please jon..now tt you're not the idol..go coach them or sth..

and the top 10 medley..i thot it was quite good..norman was really good..nice voice..he shld have sung like tt then he wldn't have been kicked off 1st...gayle too..sounded better than rihanna..less whiny..only cringe-worthy person? joakim as usual..ahaha..and mathilda ah..of coz her song was good but her DRESS!!! MAN!!! like ba zhang lah..her tummy was bulging out..and she wasn't wearing a bra...darn obvious..but her tummy was more distracting..haha..they all sounded better lah actually..i think coz songs chosen for them to sing was appropriate for their voices ..and yes..pre-recorded...but some still sounded bad aka joakim..ahaha..ok lah..not bad..just not as good..

well..ok...last time i'm writing this..if this doesn't appear...i give up..my face is crater-fied...i declere myself at the peak of disfigurement... back to top?

after tonight's perofrmance....

i really dunno who's game it is man...

hady's voice is undeniably better than jon's...even tho he zao siaed a bit in at the high notes...and yes..dick was right, hady did lose pitch in tt song..so anyway..yea..but it was still good..i dun blame them for gg a bit flat or sharp really..its THE indoor stadium..its a bloody big place..and in big places..tendency to zao xia is higher coz sound kinda goes out and nvr comes back ( at least not fast enough) so you can't hear yourself..but still in tt original song wadeva wingwing song...diff interpretations of the song..which did you like better? for me..i think hady did a better job vocally (as usual)he sang it like the way the lyrics directed.. but i liked jon's interpretation..so ..well..summary: vocally..hady..

and notice sth? last yr's original song was i dream right? and the lyrics?
"i dream, i can run, like the wind and be strong ..."---> to me...close enough to flying really

this yr?
i dunno wad the lyrics are..but the title was sthsth wings..all flying one...sian man..ahha..

and its all those inspirational, I CAN DO IT!! kinda songs...( who writes these songs man?)

and jon..seemed like the songs he picked weren't great enough to leave an impression tonight..but it was still good nontheless...

BOTH can sing...

its just a matter of :
who's voice do you like better?
who do you like better?
do we vote based on tonight's or based on the whole season?

also....the STAR quality...tt one...undeniably...jon has it..i mean jon leong btw..ahaha..

really lah..just see the way he dresses, the way he carries himself on stage and answering qns and all...confidence but not in tt cocky sense, calm, collected, the way he speaks, natural...if he wins... i wun have to worry abt him embarassing singapore in anyway during interviews or regional /even international events...

and wad i mean by embarassing is fann wong..when she was doing tt BBC or wadeva interview with tt guy...oh my goodness...you all read abt it right? man..all the words she mispronounced, cldn't speak clearly or coherently until the correspondent even had to ask her while the cam was rolling to clarify wad she said..WHOA LAO!!! PAI SEH MAN!!! can you imagine? SHE is showing ppl outside of singapore ard singapore and she is whether we like it or not REPRESENTING singapore..and can you imagine taufik or whoever in those kinda situations?

i bet your smacking your forehead and gg "oh my goodnesss......" just at the thought of it and gg " why cldn't they have chosen someone better?" ppl like kit chan,tanya chua, ppl like tt.. ppl who can sing and can speak well or at least coherently...act naturally, be comfortable, be an ambassador ( we all are really )..so for tt one reason...comparing the 2..i say jon is a better package deal overall..and no..i'm not being biased here...

but then again..it is true..this IS a singing competition..so vocals shld come as a main judging and voting priority..but then again i say..the competition is singapore IDOL.. not singapore singer...so...hiaz..really..its anyone's game...i will be disappointed and happy in diff areas whoever wins 2mr night...i wun be super dissapointed either way the votes swing..both are great ..yea..=) may the best man win...really.. back to top?

so many things have happened since i last blogged...

welll...lets see wad i can rmb..and yes..i promise to make this as short as possible..

well..i went for bible study with melia and my dad on wed night at st.bern's..it was good..my very 1st bible study...made lots of sense...they were doing on the book of judges for this week...made loads of sense..and made me think ( sth i haven't done in a long time)...i can feel it ya noe? i'm losing it...i can feel myself drifting away spriritually...i'm not as focused and disciplined as b4...i let my mind wander when it shldn't..like at mass today..my mind drifted many many times...i started daydreaming..and getting distracted...i dunno wads happening..but i want it to stop...its the devil at work...BE GONE SATAN!!! no..really..i mean it..

ok..tt was a bit scary huh? but yea...i need to do sth abt my spiritual life..tts one..i'll be gg again next week..nt just coz i feel i need to do sth..its coz its interesting..heh..

hmmm..wad else ah? oh yes...went to the lib with melia to get val's recording done..and man...you wld think its an easy enough task to complete...at most taking 1/2 hr? *TEHHHHHHHHH* WRONGO! man...even tho we got the reference numbers and titles and all..we found it...took it to view and record on the sly...the tape turned out to be a diff one from wadeva was written on the cover!!! wth lah...spent sooo much time looking for the right one...caused soo much commotion in the AV room..and its like 6 or 7 TVs with headphones to view..so its like...kinda disruptive to the area and we were told we are supposed to view wadeva we borrowed for at least 1/2 hr b4 switching for another tape...WTH man..but we still got our way anyway..coz the librarian was nice enough saying it was our 1st time..heh..

then we had to involve the ppl at the desk..they came looking for it for us...found alternatives...basically..wanted to see LKY crying at the seperation lah..haiyoh...you wld think it wld be easy..but really...when you're there..its a totally diff matter altogether...we finally found a tape..and the STUPID VCRs there can only fast fwd at a max speed of x2 and tts bloody slow( guess its to prevent the tape from spoiling)..so just to get the the part of the tape with the relevant info we had to sit thru 40mins of the prev part and another 1/2 hr or so in the relevant part to get to LKY announcing..WAAAH *SLAP*...and in total.......we spent 2.5 hrs...for 2 mins worth of info..val you owe us...ESP melia...poor girl sacrificed study time to do it for you..so yea...all this cld have been avoided........if the right tape was put in the correct cover...hiaz..

but i must say...the ppl at the lee kong chian referance library are really the nicest librarians i've ever met..they're nice and approachable...only on level 11 tho..heh..

so anyway...hmm...wad happened today? oh..my sis got a new phone...nokia 6280..and watched singapore dreaming...its a good show lah..in they way tt its a good representation of the way life is in singapore..and unless you can appreciate the way life is here and how we JUST are as singaporeans...i dun think you can appreciate it..its a very good representaion..very realistic..for one...they dun just speak in english..and yes..its not just singlish either..there's hokkien,chinese,singlish,english and how quickyl singaporeans can switch btwn the languages in a single convo....its accurate lah..the issues...go catch it if you can..nice show =) i give it 4 stars..heh..

i have 2 tix to give away..well..not really...just tt you pay 6 bucks instead of the normal price or sth liddat..ahaha..if anyone wants...lemme know..its only valid till then end of this month..if no takers...i'm giving them to a family fren...

and yes...b4 sch starts...i have made it my aim..to...
-get a pair of shoes
-a backpack
-anatomy mcq book--> i need qns to do if i wanna brush up on anat..

ANNNNDDD....i GOT ME A NEW JACKET!!! its abercrombie and fitch!! navy blue with white words across with a hood..nicenice...got it at GWC..original 69.80 or sth..got it at 36.90 or sth...WHEE!! and my mum willingly bought it for me without questioning me abt anyting abt it..ahaha..i guess coz she knows i RARELY ask for things...so yea..heh..

and SI finals 2mr night...so exciting...and yes...i'm rooting for..........JON LEONG!!! ahaha..yes i'm kinda biased...but if you watched the interview shows ...jon still wins hands down in the way he handles himself and answers qns..he's got overall lah (esp with a to-die-for-low-voice)...of coz..vocally...hady is better but tts not to say jon can't sing..he SURE can..just not as versatile..but even ken said..jon is more commerical and marketable..well...if not for his beady eyes...he wld actually look good in every angle ( i think) haha..i still love hady's voice ..man...so i dunno man..i'll be happy either way the votes swing..but bcoz i like low-alex band sounding voices (they say its baritone sounding...i guess lah..)..i'm for JON LEONG =) may the best man win! *go jon!* ahaha.. back to top?

waaaaaah...

super sian man..

i can feel my brain wasting away...

i feel like i shld go get a job...but...hiayoh...really lah...worth it enot?

well..next fri i'll be earning me some MONEHHHH!!! money lah...haha..

one day job..at toa payoh cental for some cpf thing as a helper..gg with my classmate..ahaha..not bad lah i guess 6 bucks per hr from 9 to 8pm..sure gonna die man..but i think maybe i'll take a bus down to CJ and go home from there...bring back some memories...tt'll be nice..been a loong time since i went by CJ..gosh how i miss that place...i dun think i need to go into detail just how much i miss tt place now...you guys have heard enough..ahaha...just trust me when i say i MISS tt place..LOADS...my darling 186..hA!

leaving for sch in a while...for some wheelchair talk...hiaz..i hope its interesting...and i hope no jokes abt certain cadaver guys and wadeva...i hope we dun wear the same colour man..or the jokes will just resurface..ugh...so tiring...but other than tt...i guess there wldn't be anything interesting abt sch then..coz almost everyone is attatched and well...singles are always the butt of jokes in those situations..so there you go...yours truly...hiaz..

anyway..speaking abt singlehood again..was telling nick abt all the recent happenings..ok not THAT recent actually..but recent to him...happenings pertaining to all those speculation stories and all..haha..and as usual..tt bloody nick who enjoys putting me down said :

wah... i can't imagine sial... you having secret admirers...... rofl
( and dan and melia..dun you dare comment on tt 'secret' part)

*SLAPS NICK HARD LIKE TT PIKACHU THING* he always does tt...but i guess i kinda agree..ahaha..but can you imagine that this is the same moron tt got triple As at A's in 2004? moron..stupid moron..ahaha..like stealing my brain cells for your usuage tt yr not enough..you have yet to return them to me you lil twerp...hhahah..yet this is the same moron who studied with me everynight of night study during promos and functioned as my free tuition teacher for math and chem..haha..nick nick nick..there you go..tts the "big bro" i nvr had..damn i miss those days..PURE CRAP...intelligent crap i might add..ahaha..

but then again..almost every kind of crap in CJ and STC was intelligent crap..well..at least ard ppl i hung out with ( esp choir ppl)..miss all tt despite how brain draining it was..at least it was worth the drainage and pain processing it coz it was REALLY worth laughing abt and smacking your forehead..unlike.......................hiaz...tiring how some ppl dun get my jokes or certain convo topics and just go silent..it doesn't even go thru the process to decide whether to identify it as crap or not..no discussion of any sort ..so i can't just SPOUT crap..i've gotta think if the crap applies..where's the fun in that?! hiaz..oh well...haha

ok lah..enough crapping..haha..i've gotta go get me some food...then i can go off to sch..and possibly bible study 2night..1st time..ahaha..lets see... back to top?

MAN!!!!!!!!

my poor cd...where are you?!

i get irritated esp when i lose my music...its irritating...

i had good intentions to come and write sth intelligent and thought-provoking esp aft reading sth in the news...but now...i've just lost all my mood to do tt..

MY CEEE DEEEE!!!! how can it just POOF off?!?! its the NEWEST cd i have somemore..and its the cd i like better out of the 2..its a compilation cd in case you're wondering..there are 2 discs..and i have the one tt i dun like all that much...CRAP!!!!!!!!!!

i was supposed to be studying anatomy (how fun) but i realised i lost the cd, came on to see if i ripped it in my comp ( i didn't) so now....i'm gg all frantic!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CD DARLING!! WHEREFORE ART THOU DAMMIT!!!! ahahhaa...

i'll be back later to blog if i feel like it i guess...gg down to swim and play badminton with sissy-poo later...aahaha..and 2mr...wheelchair workshop..i hope its fun...or at least interesting..2 to 5...morning wld have had been better...oh well.. back to top?

i know this is one of your fave songs if not THE fave song..ahaha..

randomly surfing youtube and stumbled on this choir which led to a list of this whole disney conert they were doing i think..

this girl is not bad..i like her voice..front is a bit raw..but once she gets to " so the years went by.." onwards..it gets better.. enjoy..


back to top?

yea...tts how i feel at the moment...

i dunno why leh..i feel like i'm missing out on sth...

from last night..

aft watching all those a cappella grps..i really began to qn...could i really be a prt of sth like tt? like...REALLY? SERIOUSLY? it seems too.................... its like so near yet so far...

we've got ppl willing to be in an a cappella grp..not just willing..willing makes it sound like a chore...lets say...ppl who WANT to be in an a cappella grp as much as i do...thats a good start but we have soo many problems to settle other than tt..

1) how regular can we afford for practices to be?
2) how serious are we abt this?
3) wad kind of a ccapella grp do we intend to be? jazz? pop?classical?
4) WHERE DO WE START?
5) any goals?

i mean..yea i knew all along tt if we were to be serious abt this...it wld require A LOT of thinking and planning..coz its almost similar to like setting up your own company ya noe..as in to be serious enough lah..but it was only aft reading the a cappella set up kit bought at the concert yest tt i realised...it became clearer..things like getting a name of your grp shld be cross referenced with his whole list of EXISTING grps and since NOT all grps are mentioned on tt list..they even suggested getting a LAWYER and all..i mean..not just for this name thing but other stuff..ahaha..MY GOODNESS...

things like getting a band manager and all..money earned from gigs and how to split it within the grp and all tt...it really was an eye-opener..

so now i qn....how serious are we? ok..more like..

how serious can we AFFORD to be at the present moment?

NS, school, exams, lessons, family.......

"who is REALLY in the grp?" is my next qn..hiaz..3 girls, 3 guys? 2 girls, 3 guys? 3 girls, 2 guys? its all possible...just...yea..wad is the preferance and wad wld be the best possible solution? of coz an equal mix of voices wld be best..but yea..not achieving tt is not wrong..there are no restrictions in this kinda things...just have to work with it OR around it...depends...

and another thing i'm lacking?

SHOES!!!!

dammit..walked ard whole of far east tt day with may and melia to find and there was NOTHING!!! AHHH!!! ok..i found a nice pair of green flats...had some jap print thing gg on...was really nice...BUT! kinda hard to match lah...i need a BASIC pair 1st b4 i go buy more ...coz my basic pair is DYING...its literally ROTTING...ahaha..

i need shoes..hiaz...please ppl! IMF is here...shldn't you guys be selling NICER shoes so you can rip them off of thier money...oh wait...now i know why i dun see nice shoes...coz the nice shoes are all TOO EX for me to even consider..ahahaha...maybe shld go suntec...SURE got discount man..ahaha...

2mr is yet the beginning of another boring week...i shld get down to studying now...hiaz...and packing..ahaha..yea..abt time... and another thing? my sch has this sports meet thing..org by the SAOTSC ( which i am a part of, not even enthu) but not in the grp tt planned this and well...its on the 7th...i dun mind gg...but...goodness...none of the games are to my interest...NOT TO MENTION...they are taking up a beautiful saturday..a saturday which can be used to SING!!! SING !!!! WHICH nut chooses a sports meet over SINGING?!

hiaz...deprived as you can see..watching the concert last night and seeing those sec sch kids perform..i really envied them and feel like i was devoid of tt opportunity when i was younger...and for 13 yr old kids..those 2 vocalists were good...hiaz..well..at least we got to sing some songs along the "long gang zui" with all the couples and grps tt were smoking or sth..ahaha..nice...but ivanasingsummore!!! ahaha... back to top?

well...

went shopping with melia and tannie yest and BOY WAS IT FUN!!! ahahaah WHEE!! so long since i went shopping for myself man..ahaha and with frens too!!! well..tho i wanted to get shoes and a dress and returned home with none of that...BUT! i got a WALLET!! ok fine...PURSE...its soo pretty..feminine..i mean..HELLO?! one HUGE bow on the front not feminine enough for you ah? ahaha..but its GREY..so its kinda..well..chic? ahah..i dunno...i like it..=) i hope it lasts tho..if not its back to billabong...good ol' trusty billabong..ahaha..

anyway..wad did i do today? wanted to swim..BUT! it rained..HEAVILY...i din even go down to buy lunch..ahah..so well..stayed home the WHOLE DAY!! ahahah..slept a fair bit too...nicenice weather..aahah

anyway..2mr is concert day..WHEE!!! and shoe shopping day!! WHEE!! ahaha..i need shoes lah..so irritating..

and my face...resembles the floor of MARS..no...not the candy bar..the PLANET...man..i dunno why all my pimples are popping out..its darn irritating...not to mention scars form more easily now..man..this is wad AGE does to you..so ugly man..UGH! i have craters all over my face...EEEEEEEEEE..and on my ELBOW!!! goodness..tt one is DAMN pain..it feels like a cut..feel hot and infected..irritating...dun even noe is its a pimple..i hope tts all it is and doesn't manifest into sth greater..tannie is darn disgusting lah..she said scully its some insect larvae inside..EEE!!! can you imagine? like those "when aliens attack" kind of shows...EEE!! i thot the worse thing it can be is like some tendon rotting away...chao sng...you tell me which is worse?? ahaha...

anyway...yes...i think i need to get down to some serious work next week..clear cupboards..do a bit of studying to help my anatomy along..and well...hmm..i dunno..I WANT A DRESS!!! AND SHOES!!! ahahahaaha.... back to top?

someone tell me...

why i don't feel satisfied?

i think i know the answer...

coz i didn't give it my ALL..

i feel like i cld have done a lot better...

not to say my reults are bad...they're ok..in fact they resemble my A's results.. A LOT..ahaha.. but i dun get the same satisfaction..

for things like psych and socio i shld be getting As..tts wad the lecturers said anyway..coz its sth we take with the nurses too..so in terms of simplicity..we shld get As..i know B+ is close...but its STILL not an A..

but i guess beyond tt alphabet..the numerical value is a lil more comforting..B+ is 75%-80% and C is 60-65%..considering how i chiong-ed thru the paper and the frame of mind..i guess its ok lah..the results ARE ok..but...........tts just creating an excuse for myself..

well..good learning point..i've already identified ppl to pit myself against from this thing...ppl who have like no bio backgrnd can get Bs for physio! WTH!! i shld be getting As!! i WANTED an A...I MUST get an A next time..ugh..this is depressing..and ppl ARE getting As for psych and socio..and welll..anat...so far the best i've heard is a C+..ahaha..and ottp..hiaz...i got a C...the irritating thing is tt the only 2 things i got Cs in are the more impt subjects to the profession..irrtating man..

i need to buck up..yes...results, this is the LAST time you should ever see yourselves as such...i am determined to CHANGE you..MWHAHAH!!!

anyway..today..i need to clear the cupboard..i wanted to play the STC grad day vcd but its just NOT working..need to borrow and burn my own...........melia? ahaha...heh..and then i need to go down for my swim..and then...HOPEFULLY i get to go shopping 2mr..i wanna get a dress for ms teh's wedding..hahaa..and..wad else? er..YES!!! SATURDAY!!! CONCERT!!! WOOHOO!!! may be back later..off to get lunch..heh.. back to top?

yes...look wad i found?!

you guys watched tt show " my wife and kids"? well..nvm if you have nvr..i went on youtube to watch some snippets of it since there isn't anything good on tv at the moment..so anyway..i stumbled on this particular clip..its obviously dubbed in french(the show's american)..the person who uploaded it is probably french..but yea..it features this 6yr old singer jamia nash( the one in blue)..her voice is like damn powerful and controlled...duh its whiny lah..she's only 6..but goodness...listen..tts like pri 1 dammit..who could sing like tt at pri 1?! even vocally trained kids at tt age in sg wldn't be this good...NO WHERE near..



here's a complete version of tt song she sang:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09utpMPoTaY&NR

and if anyone has the original of this song..PLEASE SEND IT TO ME!!!

i later found another clip of her singing with this gospel choir.. "what a friend we have in jesus"..man...6! SIX!! its the control man..and they way she performs..she KNOWS wad she's singing..not like kids tt age tt just memorise lyrics and the tune..impressive..man..esp towards the end of the clip (fwd to ard 1:38 and watch from there if you're impatient) ..its like aretha franklin trapped in a kid..or rather the kid version of aretha..when did arethea start singing anyway? anyway...yea...THIS is wad i called born-to-sing/perform..



i believe she's 10/11 now..and comments on youtube say tt she sounds 16..WHOA MAN..ahaha.. back to top?

what to do when you've done pretty much anything you can do to occupy your time today? i was sooo bored i actually took out my GP essays to read lah..ahaaha..it was nice tho..heh..but yea..when bored...do wad the bored do..copy sth off someone else's blog who also copied it off someone else's blog to do...whee!!!

Bold the truths, italicise the "i wish"s and ignore the rest

I have read a book before (Duh)
I have ran more than 2 miles without stopping (now WHY in the world wld i want to do sth like tt?)
I have been to Canada ( i'm guessing its like america..been there)
I have been on some sort of sports team ( maybe the swim team in pri sch..so i wld be away from discrimination then)
I have watched cartoons for hours before ( and getting a scolding for tt)
I have tripped UP the stairs (HA! yepyep)
I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs (does a flight of 3/4 steps count? the ones on the bus? ouch man..scars still here, wad can i say? i'm accident-prone)
I have been snowboarding/skiing ( beginners lessons while in korea..fun! but tiring)
I have played table tennis
I swam in the ocean (hate swimming in ocean..gross..unless its the mediterranian..THEN we may have sth here..ahaha)
I have been on a whale watch
I have seen fireworks (NDP,CNY..whether you watch it on tv or not..every singaporean has)
I have seen a shooting star (this wld be DARN nice man..cool..and well..romantic i guess if i can EVER apply)
I have seen a meteor shower (ditto)
I have almost drowned (thanks to my sis who SUDDENLY clung onto me when we were younger swimming at the deep end)
I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear (only a million times...)
I have listened to one cd over & over & over again (hanson, bsb, westlife, a1, Micheal Buble..tts it i think.. )
I have had stitch(es) (wisdom tooth..wait..TEETH...)
I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there (HA!! COOL..literally)
I have stayed up til 6am doing homework/projects (latest was 4am)
I currently have a job (its the HOLS man!!)
I have been ice skating ( tried..my ankle cldn't take it..nvr again)
I have been rollerblading(aft ice skating..its rules out trying to to rollerblade)
I have fallen flat on my face ( ouch man..not my face..my legs..from the tripping from the bus steps)
I have tripped over my own two feet (i've not been THAT suay)
I have been in a fist fight
I have played videogames/com for more than 3 hours straight
I have watched The Power Rangers before (i liked yellow ranger..ahah!)
I have played truth or dare ( don't like it..but they never resulted in dire consequences..i prefer WATCHING ppl play turth or dare..HAHA!! choc sauce or wearing bikinis or playing modified version aka truth or zhen xin hua!)
I have already had my 16th birthday ( sadly)
I have already had my 17th birthday( 2 yrs ago..lets move on shall we?)
I've called someone stupid. And i meant it. (only at that moment but not as a part of thier character..nvr believed in tt)
I've been in a verbal argument (only have had 4 or 3 in this whole lifetime..but i hated them all..the weirdness of it..ugh..forgiven them all tho..i think)
I've cried in school (it was TRULY traumatic..pri sch..stupid morons those teachers)
I've played basketball on a team
I've sung in a choir( HAVE I?! ahaha...)
I've danced in a group (mass dance and tt charity dance, STC line dancing or sth..FUN! with the right ppl)
I've done cheerleading on a team
I've swam on a team ( it wld have been cool..but sports as a cca? dun think so..)
I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life ( and more..)
I've bungee jumped
I've climbed a rock wall before ( for LTC? ahaha..abt a metre up? HA!)
I've lost more than $20
I've called myself an idiot
I've called someone else an idiot ( nvr REALLY meant it tho..)
I've cried myself to sleep ( in pri sch..or sth..)
I've had (or have) pets ( not really mine..but yea..)
I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape ( only the 1st one..was crazy abt them..HAH!! sporty spice was my fave..)
I've owned a Britney Spears cd ( oh my....)
I've owned an N*Sync cd ( nvr really listened to it extensively tho)
I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd(cdssssss..haha)
Ive mooned someone
I've sworn at someone in authority
I've been in the school newspaper/insights ( in STC..haha..1 big pic of me singing..ahah!! hao lian..)
I've been on TV ( part of my face and for a short while..NDP choir 2000)
I've eaten sushi (i've been craving sushi)
I've been on the other side of a waterfall
I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies
I've watched all the Harry Potter movies
I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once
I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica (once..tt chicken of the sea one..classic)
I've watched Looney Tunes before
I've been stuffed into a locker ( no lockers big enough in singapore schools for anyone to attempt that)
I've been called a geek ( i think..or was it nerd? but it can only be one person who did..thanks nick..haha)
I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade (PSLE..still hurts..but no regrets))
I've not studied at all for a test and aced it (maybe there was one..does GP count? ahah)
I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist
I've written poetry (crappy ones..nvr cld do lit..only 1 nice one so far..written this yr)
I've been arrested
I've been attracted to someone much older than me ( once..and tt was just plain wrong)
I've been tickled till I've cried
I've tickled someone else until they cried
I've had / have siblings(one sis)
I've been to a rock concert
I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it (not TOO classical tho)
I've been in a play ( HA! really really young..christmas play..i was mary in the home pdn and angel in the kindergarten pdn..ha!)
I've cried in front of my friends (only 1 i can rmb..i can't rmb who and why tho..i think it was fio..but dunno why..fio do you rmb?)
I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
I've freaked out over a sports game ( must have been in pri sch ..)
I've vomited in public( everytime i get on a plane to fly somewhere..not soo much recetnly tho)
I've washed someone elses vomit
I've ran away ( who hasn't?! God gives legs..so RUN! haha..but figuratively..yea..i have too)
Ive had a stalker ( thank goodness NO)
I've had a fight with someone on txt ( think so..must have REALLY pissed me off to deserve tt)
I've had a fight with someone face-to-face ( physical or verbal? same reasons to involve in one as above)
I've been on a car accident ( in america..i didn't get hurt..but my mum did..ouch)
I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me (i dun rmb who.. but i dun hold grudges unless they're REALLY bad..but there were 1 or 2 i haven't forgiven..as in tt i told them they are..i think)
I've personally seen something die (goldfish..)
I've been confronted by a police officer but got away
I've lost someone who meant the world to me
I've had crashed a party ( hA! sounds fun man! but its not in my nature)
I've been a member of a school office
I've been suspended back to top?

wellwellwell...

how was my weekend?

more interesting than the weekdays..

SATURDAY:

went to visit my 5 yr old ( I know i told some ppl it was 6 yr old) cousin..she had constipation so bad its stuck in her intestines..now a persistant fever...i hope she gets better...

when we got to KKH, i was expecting her to be well..lying in bed, siansian kind? i know i was like darn sian when i was hospitalised with persistant high fever..but yea..she came bobbing down the hallway with my aunt smiling and all..didn't look sick at all man..ahaha..

then welll..being really talkative..she opened her animal encyclopedia and well..started talking to me abt animals and all..man..she has always been said to be a bright kid..she is! ahah..she KNEW wad was a salamander and wad it eats and all..5 leh!! FIVE YRS OLD!!! i didn't even noe slamander at 5...i probably just categorized them all as lizards..ahaha...

and then she showed me all her drawings..impressive man..i mean..not the artwork but wad she tries to represent..its not senseless..it makes perfect logic..at 5? she drew a cobra( surprised she didn't call it snake to begin with) with a mouse in its belly..impressive...to me lah..haven't been ard kids for soo long..as in on a frequent basis..kinda forget the mental development of kids with age..the last time i was ard kids frequently was in...sec1 and 2? yea..
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later that night? went over to a relative's house to have a prayer session for my granduncle( yea..i just got it right again)...and this relation is as complicated as the justina-being-my-aunt thing...my dad same ranking as his daughter and all..the complication arises coz its not abt direct blood relation and all..its abt RANK...so yea..i dunno how it all airsed anyway..even my grandma isn't sure..HA!

so anyway..their house is DARN ...well..not really BIG..the floor space is kinda small considering the HEIGHT of the building..darn high ceiling..as high as princess's house's..but princess's house is still waay bigger and nicer..aaahaha..but the kid!! my nephew!! i'm an aunt!! AGAIN!! FREAK!! I'M OLD!! ok..he is sooo damn cute...

his name? DANIEL...ahahaha..

he looks soo cute and well..i've nvr interacted with the kid b4..yest was the 1st time..i've seen him b4 but yea..ok..he's been said to not interact well with ppl..only a select few..so yea..my sis and i were really LUCKY man..initially he shyed away..but aft 10 mins..when my sis went to play peek-a-boo with him ( he's 2 turning 3) he opened up..FAST..and he kept dragging me pulling my fingers with his cute lil hand (aww), beckoning me to go up to his room to play with him..he's kinda cheeky lah..i mean..kids yea..but he was really..man..really...ahahha.. i didn't know he was 2 till we left..the fluency of his speech was levelled to tt of a 3 yr old turning 4..KIDS.........scary how fast they grow and develop..

but damn cute lah..i was msging the BIG daniel while playing with the SMALL daniel..ahaha..it was kinda weird..but yea..anyway..the kid told his grandma (the daughter of the deceased, the host for tt night) tt he likes my sis and i a lot!! ahaha..tho he likes my sis better..i guess coz she spent more time playing with him coz i had to talk his grandma..ha..but yea..

AND!! this is the awkward part of the night..

as we were leaving..b4 tt my aunt aka the grandma (HA!) was talking abt how much food she fed us and all ( trust me..it was A LOT) then she teased my parents (initial intention) tt they wld be getting even MORE food in the future coz they always talk abt how the bf wld have to buy like a supper snack for the girl's dad when he comes to visit or sth..so it can be like char kway teow or hokkien mee or wadeva..to create a good impression..

she went on to say tt my parents are such nice ppl it wld be hard to find out wad they wld purposely request to test the guy..my mum jokingly said to present his bank account..ahaha..ok..tts not the point..

the point is..she then looked at me as we were leaving and as if she were telling me to take note of all tt..as if i already HAVE a bf..i felt so weird.. as in her tone and all..the choice of words..and she's a teacher and a counsellor..she's not the kind tt well..doesn't speak without thinking.. she was like :

"vanessa...must rmb ok? you must tell your bf wad your dad likes to eat and all ah..haha"

i smiled and tried to laugh and but its soo awkward..i hate it when they talk abt you getting attatched and married..I'M STILL A KID DAMMIT!! ahhh!! i wanted to like say tt she shldn't be adressing tt to me but shld be to my SISTER!! *smacks myself* but mum and dad were there..so..heh..i guess she adressed it mainly to me coz..well..I'M NINETEEN!! its THE age to be in a relationship..no one wld be surprised if you were in one at this age..and a bit wary if you said you weren't, aunties wld conclude tt :

1) you're lying
2) wondering wad cld be wrong with you tt you're not in one and discuss behind your back
3) guai kia

i'd prefer the last conclusion thank you very much..

i've gotten teasing like tt since i was like 7? scary..tt one i still rmb..the guy (mum's friend) was teasing me as an innocent girl and asking me to consider his son ( called daniel too! common man) and making him my bf..i was at SEVEN yrs of age...FREAKED OUT...i guess since young i've always acknowledged marriage as a REALLY scared union..so yea..THAT was scary..as a kid lah..

the scary part is NOT in the idea..its WHAT DO YOU SAY?! and i know tt adults talk abt wad kids say and all..and they think you dun comprehend but you do? i didn't wanna be a subject of convo for stupid aka "cute" things i say esp when not abt sth sensible ( scary at tt age already thinking like tt)..but yea..so anyway.. explains why lah..its those awkward family things..

i can predict..by 23, MORE ppl (if not EVERYONE) wld be asking if i had a boyfriend..and wad do i anticipate? i sure hope i do..to spare me the agony of the consequences of saying no..and also more than tt lah..if by 23 still dun have...its kinda sad lah..sorry..make tt VERY sad..hiaz..and then by 26 they wld be asking when wld i be getting married and all..all tt in the next 7 yrs..and bear in mind..TIME FLIES................OH MY...i dun wanna imagine.. back to top?

this is tiring...

i wanna get out of this..

i'm getting all paranoid...

i'm getting over sensitive..

i'm getting selfish...

all i do is keep thinking abt myself and wad I wanna do...

EVERYTHING IS ME!!!

i wanna cry...but i can't..it doesn't wanna come out..

i dunno how else to release it other than to swim SUPER FAST NON -STOP coz there's no one at home..i'm all alone..i dun wanna bother friends coz either they have their own stuff to do or are not ard...this bloody sucks...SUCKS!!! i SUCK at EVERYTHING!!! UGH!!!i can't even sit myself down to do some anatomy..i HATE IT!!! i just want to feel wanted...

and what is the root of all this?! my classmates...staying at home..all i think of if my relationship with them..when i'm alone i tend to think A LOT and evaluate myself and all my recent happenings..and the 3 STUPID things tt keep running thru my brain are these:

1) on the mrt home with a bunch of them..the train was the cadbury train..with tt stupid "wldn't it be nice if blahblah" lyircs written everywhere..one of the lyrics was made into a statement and tho it was correctly phrased tense wise and all ( i think) the 1st time i read it, i thot it was weirdly phrased...having evaluated them the time i've been in sch..i KNOW no one takes note of things like tt...so i didn't wanna mention it..but then it was abnormally quiet so i HAD to say sth.. i pointed it out and guess wads the rxn ?

the appreciated rxn, the rxn usually given:
yes meh?! isn't it right?/ OH YAH AH! why ah? basically DISCUSSION..

the rxn i got :
everyone stares at it..keep quiet then suddenly someone says :"er...ooookay..." and dead silence aft tt...

I WAS LIKE..WHAT THE SHIT MAN!!! this is wad i mean by i can't connect!!! i can't! i JUST CAN'T!!!

with tt...am i weird?! am i gonna be a social outcast at this rate?! i can't!! i can't take it!!!

2) princess came to my sch to get my to write sth for her uni hostel..to help her get a place there...she came and joined my class for lunch..she sat beside me...we came back later than the rest...i told my classmates in advance tt i wld be meeting somone and her joining us for lunch..i intro-ed her when she came they said their hi's not even like they meant it..fine..maybe i was oversensitive..

NEXT! this is wad irked me..

my classmate who was sitting directly in front of princess acted as if there was NO ONE in front of her..she TOTALLY daoed her..didn't even try to talk AT ALL...she just continued and turned her head and talked to the person beside her..i was like OMG!!! you totally suck man!! how the shit do you wanna be an OT?! where are your bloody ppl skills?! NO EFFORT at all to make convo or anything ya noe?! utter rudeness...i still feel pissed thinking abt it...

Not showing respect to my friends is like not showing respect to me..really.. and note..repect is diff from LIKE..i dun expect them to like her..but at least respect her presence...

3) last day of exams..one of my classmates comes with a new hp..well..wads so great abt tt right? tts not the point..the point is..i was sitting beside my friend and tt classmate came up to us ( her actually), held out the phone to her and guess wad? she responded with : " OH! so this is the new phone!!" i was like "this IS?! there is SUPPOSED to be a new phone?!"

ok..i dun demand to know everything tt goes on..but my goodness.. i just think they are FREEAKING RUDE...tt classmate didn't even like bother explaining the situation to me..didn't even make an effort to make me feel included not even in the SMALLEST way...its like they have their private talking session fine...i respect tt..but for all i know..they may be bitching behind my back..

wadeva...but wad irritates me is tt these ppl just seem to take niceness on a superficial level..its like LEARNT..its not KNOWN..it doesn't come..they dun think abt the ppl ard them when they do certain things.. now i'm convinced..their niceness is kinda fake..and my guard is gonna be higher once sch re-opens..unless i change my mind again with sch re-opening..UGH!!! i HATE THEM!!!!! MORONS!!! I am BLOODY tempted to use tt 4-lettered word but they are not worth it...NOT AT ALL...

so you can tell i'm pretty worked up abt all these right? i'm PMS-ing i think..i feel particularly moody and over sensitive and paranoid and depressed in a way..and all i can say is..

- i want a FRIEND in sch if tt is ever possible
- i dun wanna be a social outcast in my class

tannie was talking to me last night online..she was telling me its the same with her..made me feel a lil better..tt i wasn't the only one like tt and yea..wad she said is true..i need to give it time with my class b4 we get better( hopefully) and as we grow older..we make friends less easily..( not like i had it any easier when i was younger..well maybe lah) and i think its coz..you've already found the best you ever cld and tt trust has already been built..i just wanna say..THANK YOU to everyone who is my friend..really..if not for you guys..i wld have lost my sanity earlier...you guys are really one of my pillars of support..if not one of the MORE impt pillars.. back to top?

bored once again..these seem a lil more accurate..try it out and lemme know your results..ahaah

this is BLOODY accurate..on most things..for once..haha..from blogthings tt is..

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

this is kinda accurate...esp the weakness part for me lah..check it out dan..see if it applies..ha..

Your Birthdate : August 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause. You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too. Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others. You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress. Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities Your power color: Crimson red Your power symbol: Snowflake Your power month: September

this is wad i mean by i'm old and haven't done stuff a teen does..

You've Experienced 16% of Life

You have the life experience of a young teenager - which means there's a lot of life in front of you. And if you are past your teen years, you probably have some catching up to do!

wow...nice..really ah? ahah

People Envy Your Generosity

You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you! People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to.

back to top?

went choir-songs crazy again last night...

didnt know wad to watch on youtube..so i typed VJC choir..and well..tt just sparked off a whole roll of other choirs for me to watch..

and the thing i just noticed...like abt 70% to 80% of the choir vids tt i found..are all nelson kwei choirs..goodness..and well..some of the songs i've heard b4 but sung by his OTHER choirs..like this vid i put up is by a nelson kwei choir called " vocal consort" i guess..and the song they sang? i've heard VS sing it b4.. and yes...VS is a BOY's choir just to refresh memories..aahha.and if you ask me..i think VS did a better job..




i dunno wassup with all these gold choirs you know..not only do they recycle songs amongst themselves within the same conductor..or they recycle songs cross conductor..like SYF last yr..goodness knows why bin nam ma was like sung a million times..ahaha.. ok lah..enough to leave an impression..

but ok..i understand the recycling within same conductor one like IF they were all nelson kwei choirs..i can understand..i mean..if the conductor has soo many choirs under him and if all all of them had diff songs..it'd be kinda hard to rmb the details of each of the songs..so yea..

BUT!

lim ai hwei ( hui?)'s choir..HCI? they sang bin nam ma too..i was like..man..this is wad? choral song of the year ah? hahah..but yea..well..they were all good..i mean..if you wanna go head to head with a bloody good choir with the same song ( which is darn hard to sing) you better damn well be good...which they all are..so yay for them..

always wondered how it wld be like to be in a gold choir..like whoa man..we cld do soooo much more..but then again..if i were in a gold choir and not in a choir like CJ's or STC..i doubt i wld have become the choir freak i am today..coz well..standards there are high..there is no room for ppl like me who 1stly takes eons to read music ( huge disadvantage), who may zao sia occasionally..its just to damn stressful man..

so ppl like me dun get to experiment and fail without feeling THAT bad when it comes to music..when its less intense..you give ppl time to sit down and learn to KNOW wad they are doing and hopefully let tt develop into a passion..PASSION..you dun neccessarily have to be good at it to be passionate..with passion it drives you to be good...

anyone watched SI last night? OH MY GOODNESS..JONATHAN LEONG'S VOICE!!!! i want to cry man..singaporean alex band..they say rob thomas but i think he's more alex band's range..man..do anymore of you ppl like him exist out there? please identify yourselves..ahahaa..bloody hell lah..everytime i hear him sing..i get goosebumps..notice its HEAR him sing..ahaha..he looks darn weird at some angles..and good at some..i think..its the hair..a bit too long liao..time for a trim..he can keep this style..but its a tad bit too long now..hiaz..oh well..

i'm hungry..i need food..went to get the a capella fest tix yest..need to bring verification on tt day lah..bought 3 students and 3 nsmen..the guys and i shld have no prob..but melia and may..man..i really hope they are not close minded--> for melia and scrutinize--> for may and best of all..DON'T CHECK..hiaz..oh well..i can't wait for tt..it shld be good..we'll be seeing a familiar face on stage..aahah..heard tt grp's good..we'll see..dinner out with audrey tonight..aha.. back to top?

was obviously bored..ahaha..melia reintroduced me to online nonsensical quizzes..

and get a load of this!!

Your Blog Should Be Green

Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff. You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas. However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.

and this is for all you ppl who still doubt my gender orientation:

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

AND!!

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

i'm a nice mix..you guys are just jealous..ahahaa...

wow..this is..nice..kinda accurate..child psychologist..hmm..a bit late now huh? maybe a pead OT? ahah..MAYBE..

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you are very loyal. A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

ha...nice..moody internally? i dunno man..

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you. Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show. People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate. But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

HA!! CHECK THIS OUT!! and why its 80% coz well..i've kissed my parents and sis before..in church..when i was much younger..ahaha..tt counts wad..

Your Kissing Purity Score: 80% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed

and dan..you want a grp name so bad? i got one..they asked me wad my name was and here's wad they've generated..ahaha

Your Band Name is:

The Furious Pickles

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look wad i found?

haha..yep..LES CHORISTES VIDS!! ahaha..the ACTUAL les choristes lah..well..tt guy..boy actually Jean Baptiste Maunier is in some pro choir lah(not this one featured i think) in Lyon, sop soloist, offered the role when he was discovered while auditioning tt choir..DUH lah..his voice is like...PURE man..bloody pure..angelic man.. i think the choir invited him along to sing at their concert or sth..i have NO idea man..

not to mention he's got tt intense look..darn..well..its too wrong to write it out..esp when its abt a BOY here..aahaha..but yea..his side profile and his eyes..OH MY.......................once puberty hits full blown and he ACTUALLY becomes a GUY...watch out man..i can only imagine sia...=)) and he changed his hair colour..its diff from the movie..

if you wanna go straight to HIM singing..just fwd it to the 1/2 way mark..and personally..I still like the last few notes tt he sings at the end of the song..WHOA!! darn uplifting..ahaha.he's my sis's age but i think when he was singing in the show..he was 14? yea..



For those who have not caught the film Les Choristes..man..(where have you been???!!) go watch it..its darn nice..esp for choir freaks like myself..who know how to appreciate choral music haha..i've got the dvd..well..its with melia now..hasn't returned it to me..one of those shows you can't get sick of watching..well..maybe lah..but they speak in french (DUH!)..its soo intriguing..ahaha..the way they speak..its like they're swallowing their words but in a very fluid way...ahaha..

and i still like the audition part of the show where all the boys in the school were made to audition for the choir..ahaha..man..darn corny..i found a vid of it on youtube..but with no translation..so no fun there..ahhaa..oh well..i wld watch it now tt i'm bored but..yea..its with melia..so melia..you know wad to do...heh..

well..off to take a bath now..climbed all the way up to my hse today aft the dentist..the lifts were all under repair..OUCH man..and the dentist..obviously was a rushed job today..he was behind schedule..the prev patient took too long..made me wait like 20 mins past my appt time to get in..so he rushed and well..is not closing the gap on my right yet..so irritating..just cleaned and well..did the same arrangement he did the last time i came..he said my teeth are stubborn..ARGH!! irritating..looks like my teeth won't be fixed until another yr's time at this rate man..hiaz.. back to top?

sheesh man

this is a...crappily boring day..

met my sis for lunch at TBP then well..came home with her and then she left again..went off to church for a meeting on the st bern's funfair and then aft tt she's gg to the novena youth rally..so well..i'm basically alone again today..and wad do you do when you're bored and alone?

-listen to music
-sing along to recordings
-try to play a song on the piano/guitar
-read
-blog abt nonsense

and when you're bored of all tt..

SWIM

wanted to play badminton but no one, wldn't mind cycling but my bike is gone..mysteriouly vanished..

and gonna go for my great granduncle's (thanks melia) wake later...i know my parents went yesterday liao..so when my mum told me if i wanted to join them today i was like : "didn't you guys already go? then well..she explained tt they came to my grandfather's wake, every single day..so we shld do the same..so..yea..might as well anyway..if not i gotta eat catered food ALONE tonight..

and you know wad? i think i'm becoming tt selfish person i hate, i smsed melia asking her if i shld go to the wake coz well..my mum gave me a choice and personally, i wldn't wanna go coz well..
- 1stly my sis wun be there..i'll be left "alone"
- ppl there will all start bombarding me abt school and the usual questions abt why go to poly? wads OT?
and then melia replied and said to go in respect and not to avoid questioning..then it hit me..i was just thinking abt myself..just me and my worries and preferences..sheesh..i ought to slap myself..thanks melia =)

goodness...i better revise wad is OT before gg there..dun wanna embarrass my profession..

in simplest terms availabe:
Occupation : being occupied or employed or engaged in sth
Therapy: treatment of diesease/ disorder

Occuaptional Therapy is the treatment of diesease or disorder by employing/engaging of a person , the mind and attention in occuaption.

and occuaption is not limited to work as occupation, engaging in play and leisure also constitute occupation. Basically involving in any form of MEANINGFUL activity.

Meaningful is relative to the person, say to a stroke patient, wad he renders as meaningful activity to him is watching tv but he has impairments to his extensor muscles in his arm.

SO..

the OT then works with him to help him to attain the highest level of funtionality possible in helping him learn maybe how to reach out for the remote control and later on to fine motor skill such as pushing specific buttons on the remote..

and we do not only help in the physical aspect but also the mental aspect coz we work with schizos, demtia patients..so yea..and our scope of is not just abt helping ppl return to occuaption but we also INVOLVE occupation as a part of treatment. Its very client based and the use of the therapist's abilities and preferances are involved in treatment plan..

i thought abt it and well...here's tt post i promised eons ago..i'm on to it..

i realised..wad if i were a patient and well..i lost my ability to talk properly much less SING due to a stroke tt has affected my entire left side of the body? i wld just....DIE..really...not being able to sing properly..i can only at most hum or sth..for all i know..i may even have my voice box affected..i wld just..be at a total loss..imagine..now i dun even get to sing as often as i wld like and i'm feeling so empty..wad if i LOST the ability to sing? or play guitar? or play anything?!

thats when i realised why i decided to do OT instead of PT..its more..meaningful..its more relevant to a person's needs..do exercises and all to achieve the same mechanical functioning as the PTs but with a real life application that MATTERS to me as an individual..

everyone has an occupation tt means sth to them and once sth happens tt prevents them from fufilling it..it causes
-demoralisation
-breakdown in habits and eventually withdraw from tt occupation
-physical deterioration
- loss in ability to perform competently in daily life

i mean..i can identify with the demoralisation..kind of..i feel like i've lost a part of myself and not as good as i used to be..but not THAT bad lah..i mean..this is more applicable in the medical sense but i can only imagine how devastated they can be and if we din have OTs..well i can tell you the PTs wldn't be able to do much for them tt wld TRULY mean sth to them..ha..

and yes...finally why occupation to treat? BECAUSE occupation is used to maintain body and mind. It influences a person's state of health which involves alternating btwn existing, thinking and acting. Maintaining and balancing health is done by being active in life aka thru occupation. If tts hard to understand. Just substitute the word occupation with ANYTHING tt you simply cannot NOT do..an ACTIVITY..for me..tt word wld be singing/music. I'm sure i dun need to make it outright relevant for you guys right? i'm sure all who read this blog have the ability to read DEEPER and make things make sense..ahaha..

AND SO..since tts wad occupation does..it is used to regenerate function..

and if you guys reached this part of the post..i wld really like to thank you for actually reading this post till the end..it means sth to me tt at least ppl are interested to know wad i am getting myself into..and tho all this sounds easy to learn..its MORE than tt...all tt backgrnd knowledge i have to know..anatomy,physiology..ouch..i'm a sucker for mental pain..really..=S off to engage in some physical strain now..just keep swimming....... back to top?

hah..just before i begin i have to say this : ( think only melia and fio and relate)

My shirt is of polish linen..but it is all torn and jagged..crimson leather are my boots but the soles are ragged..mended then my boots must be..lalala...

man..we need to sing tt soon man..DANCING SONG!! and may..if you're reading this post, tho i dun think you come here anymore tho..i want my dancing song back!!! ahh!! aahah..and well..melia i may have to borrow and photocopy from you then..tho it wun be the same..no alto 2 notes..ahahaha..hiaz..oh welll..or fio..can lend me or sth?

and well..i'm not talkng abt a nationality here..talking abt polish as in to make sth shine kind of polish..in this context its more like fine tuning..was tweaking ard with my mp3 to try to figure out the tenor part for wah wah sha dah..and aft i figured it out..i didn't know the cause for it sounding the way it did..so i didn't know wad to focus on while listening to it or wad to note the next time we meet coz i dunno if it was a case of unsure? not confident? anyhow hamtam( a pretty accurate hamtam actually)? zao sia? just a prob with the 1st note? then since i gave my score to fio i cldn't like tally to see if wad i heard is wad is on the score or not..asked norman online and well..score is diff from wad i figured out..

but anyway..i figured it out and it shld be more or less correct till a point with WAAY too much layering that my mp3 can't attempt to split or make any of the voices mroe obvious..so went on to figuring the bass part there since dan goes mute there..and well..i kinda did..till tt same time with too much layering..and wad i heard may not be accurate..esp btwn semitones..like i can't diff btwn a lowlowC# and D esp with soo many voices and the nature of tt range..i can't really pick up tt diff coz its like deciding btwn a low and lowER vibration ahaha..

i MAY be a "guy" but i can't decipher sounds THAT low in case any of you wanna shoot me abt my guy tones..sheesh..ha..

try it out the next time we meet ok?!! MUST AH...must..ahahaa..then when the score comes..we'll check and incorporate wadeva we need from there..i think we shld stick with wadeva we have and just fine tune with the score..tho singing their song, we shld retain our individuality..ahaha..

gg to novena annual procession later..usually go as a family..but this yr..my parents are gg to attend my grandfather's uncle's wake...i think tts the relation lah..ahah..not sure..but yea..he was really old..goodness..

as i grow older..i dun realise tt they do too and with each yr tt passes..there will come a time where they will have to leave us physically..this is the age..i mean..OUR age..tt ppl( the older folks) start to pass away...we'll see all the familiar faces of the old start to leave us..as kids i mean..tho you see these ppl only like 2wice a yr..being young well, they're relatively young too..you always expect to see them the NEXT time SAME time the next yr and the yrs to come..but then..yea..we've reached the age where..there may NOT be a next yr same time tt we get to see these ppl again..now if tts not a sign of ageing..i dunno wad is..

anyway..on to happier things..since typing all tt abt dancing song..i am determined to find a mp3/vid of someone singing it..used to have it in sec 2..but my comp died and lost it..its been 4 yrs..i will look for it..if you guys are free, try looking..its freaking cool..haha..the composer is zoltan kodaly..its called Dancing Song and its of hungarian origin but the song is in english tho..oh well..tts abt it for now..may blog again later..heh..till then.. back to top?