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the heat is on......

my throat tt is...i have FINALLY fallen ill...its been wanting to come and then gg away for the past 2 weeks and yest i was finally heating up and my throat was SUPER dry and i drank so much and kept gg to the toilet..i went a good 9 times at least..my sup must have been wondering if i was sneaking out to sms in the toilet or sth -_- ahaha..i din go out to sms ...i just did on the way...ahah..

but anyway..yea...bought crysanthemum with wolfberry, 2 cartons on my way home...gotta finish one tonight...ahaha...i hope i can still sing on fri and sat man..anyway..NEXT sat i dun have clinicals coz apparently its a HOLIDAY!!! so no clinicals!! wheeeee!! ahaha..

today i felt so weird telling kids to call me ( i'm SO gonna regret typing this out here but here it goes anyway) AUNTIE VANESSA................... we were having a group session today and we had to introduce ourselves..so the 2 OTs in the rooms introed themselves as auntie____ and when it was my turn i was like trying to put a smile on my face and say "Hi everyone! My name is AUNTIE VANESSA!!" and everyone is supposed to say " HI AUNTIE VANESSA!!" yDyD ahahahaha...felt weird but it was fun lah..and tiring man...3 normal kids playing at once is tiring enough...kids with issues require a lot more effort...but anyway...it was fun..but anyways it was a busy day today..got to play with the kids a lot more this time...but the uniform makes me feel so uncomfy rolling on the floor and stuff..i mean i can move ok in it but its a BLOUSE man...HOW freely can you move unless you wear my L size blouse which i am SWIMMING in -_- stupid me..din wear it today tho..2mr i have to..

OK...i have to finish my report by tonight..been getting distracted every night gg online and youtubing and planning some sessions...HIAZ...now i have to revise my assessment skills for this kid 2mr and think of 2 activities for tt kid AND finish my report...ONCE 2MR is over i can relax a lil more..then i gotta prepare for midway eval which was postponed from this week to next week with the challenging kid =S hiazzzzz....soon my month will be over...damn fast...i think this is my most enjoyable placement so far simply coz i get to PLAY...altho there must be reasoning and lots of observation a times...at least with kids there are no lang barriers like with old folks..heh..

someone tell me WHY are they still getai-ing downstairs? on my way back i even saw the ice cream man standing nearby waiting for the crowd to come in and hopefully make some moola...ahaha..last night have i thot fine maybe coz its zhong qiu jie but TONIGHT? wad? THE NIGHT AFTER zhong qiu jie ah? yD ok...dinner then do report then.....sleep...MUST! flush myslef with liang teh..or STH...heh.. back to top?

whoa...

just read some angry angry post man...i agree tt it was indeed a wrong direction of credibility but...aiyah...i dunno lah..lets just say shit happens and well....it happens...dun suck it up..its not right if you do but i guess apologies have been made and i say just let it go..and if i think i know you enough i wld say tt you already have =)

also..i know some ppl are considering the choices they've made recently and well...i can only say think it thru properly and talk to the right people..whatever your choice is..i wish you all the luck in the world =))

ok...on to ME! ahaha...supposed to be writing my report now due on wed but yea....havent started obviously...need to do at least 1/2 by today man..yeaaaaaa....ahaha..

anyway..went for the pam oei play yesterday afternoon..1stly it was a let down..and EXPENSVE let down actually...not tt it was BAD...its just not sth tt i know how to appreciate..most singaporeans dun actually..these politcally themed plays tt have TOO much detail..1stly the ticket was 42 bucks..and also i had to take a cab down( nt tt i mind but i was nearly LATE if not for the fire drill tt they conducted tt held the play up for 5 mins..) but the fantastic thing is tt i have to admit tt pam oei is a really good actress..the WHOLE thing only involved 2 ppl with multiple characters (esp pam oei) ahah..

ANYWAY...acareak recordings with VP are sounding GOOD...we're TRANSCENDING MAN...but we can do MORE!! wheee!! i was actually grooving to it..one of them i think..anyway......................................

OH!! went to vivo today for breakfast and some shopping..bought this tube ( i dunno wad possessed me but it was quite cheap lah..will layer it DUH) and i TOTALLY did not notice the HUGE stain at the bottom on the left side...hiazzzzz...but anyway..got shoes for my sis too, white ballets and cheap earrings from diva...YEAAA...13 buck earrings now at 2.50...WHOA MAN OF COURSE BUY LAH!!! ahaha..and i think i will really go see the derm man..the scars on my face are depressing me slowly..ahahaha...val: your derm's contact pls! i lost it the last time you gave it to me..heh..

OK! mid way evals are worrying me( the thing itself and the arrangement of it) and there seem to be 5 million things to do..PROACTIVE!! MORE ENTHUSIASM! PLAY !!! INITIATIVE!! i have to do that EVERYDAY..its not tt im not and tt im disinterested..its tt i have to SHOW it...and for me to SHOW it takes a lot of energy coz EVERY time i play, i have to try to make it structured play and its not much easier coz i havent interacted with kids in a LONG time, show interest with asking qns but i dun usually ask surface qns and to think of good qns i need to THINK which takes time with this pentium-goodness-knows-what i have in my skull..AIYOHHHHHH...whoever said attachments are easier?? its not only an exam on your knowledge but also how you present yourself..so dudes...DON'T CALL ME btwn 8 to 5..smses are fine and i'll try to reply whenever my sup's out of sight..haha..

OK! report time..i cant wait for pract this week man..singsingsing with good company and NO exam...not till 24th..ahaha.. back to top?

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Overall you appear to be Left Brain Dominant
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so freaking tired...

MUST sleep early tonight...the past few nights i slept late and i really suffered at clinicals...it was such a torture...not tt its boring or tt im grilled all the time...its just hard to think and observe with tt little amount of sleep tt you have plus walking ard sooo much...my goodness...today was really bad...i actually dozed off for a while, thank goodness it was while my sup and the other OT in the room were documenting...i was supposed to be reading ( which i was btw when i was awake) ahah..but i HAD to sleep for a while...so yea...ahaha..

SO TODAY....aft reading up on SOAP notes..im sleeping....NO DOUBTS ABT TT MAN....in the meantime..mum's not home yet..havent eaten dinner yet...and i cant wait for friday man ( not only is the afternoon block FREE there's pract!!) YES! where i can be more of myself..and i wun need to be in the uniform -_-...

its not tt i dun wan ppl to know tt im an OT student...but...maybe its just my prob...my blouses are always too big..even in JC ...ok..no.. JC is diff, blouses are supposed to be big..ahaha..BUT they said it had to be comfy so tt we can squat,stretch and stuff without exposure...so............yea...and my 2 older M blouses are already baggy...the new one i ordered was an L and i looked like some expectant mother who bought clothes for her to wear into as she grows yD thank goodness for the pockets, i can pull the pockets down and tt way i dun look enclosed in a sack of cloth..ahahahaha..

so how are clinicals? lets just say its really nice to see normal kids screaming and playing despite how noisy they can get when you're out of the centre...when i see those kids really makes me think man..and really...how freaking interesting all the things tt we can do for them are and how one game/toy depending on how its used can assess and train SO many things at one shot..cool but tiring esp when you're trying to understand it..ahaha..i really wonder how all these OTs just THINK of it there and then or 10 mins b4...im like O.o waaaaaaaahhh...

my sup said tt i need to learn how to play with children and get used to it again coz i told her the last time i interacted with kids tt age was a good 4 yrs ago and tt today while she was explaining to the mum some home strategies the kid was running ard..i wanted to play with him but i din wanna be too loud in case i was disturbing them..and in the end my sup was saying tt i shld play with the kid while she was talking to mum...i din argue or anything lah..she was nice abt it, brought it across as a suggestion so yea...2mr...playplayplay!! long time since i did..but the kids are really damn cute =)

ok...see....8pm and already feeling sleepy....dinner, read, SLEEP...MUST..ahaha..ADIOS! back to top?

YAYYYYYYYYYY!!

FINALLY!!!

FINALLY FINISHED TRANSCRIBING COME DOWN TO ME!!!!!!!!

its not perfect but...yea..its a nice conclusion to the holidays and commencement of horror and terror and pain...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok...it might not be THAT bad.....and i need to go bathe dammit....melia and val and online voice convos..sheeeeeeeeeeeesh..ahahaok..9am mass....yikes...i need to pray for divine intervention for one whole month and for 2mr so tt i can read everything in time...ahaha

OH! and fio! check out yimei's blog..im sure you'll be happy to know there's someone who you can talk abt all your jap dramas and korean dramas to =)) haha.. back to top?

MWHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAH!!!!!!

WE'RE GETTING THERE........................=))))))))))))))) back to top?

stupid shit...

stupidstupid shit..

it happened AGAIN!!!! I WAS SO CLOSE!!! SO CLOSEEEEE!!!! and then it acted up again...OMG i was gonna cry i tell you...but anyway...nth cld be done to salvage it...so.....one more time 2mr..last chance...coz i'll really have no time for it again...

my attempt to be discret is prob not working now...but i NEED TO LET IT OUT.. so pissed...sososo damn pissed...UGH!!! back to top?

PISSEDPISSEDPISSED!!!!!

STUPID MACHINE!!!!! i get it right and then as i wanna progress more the STUPID thing hangs....TWICE -_-" and everything seems to be messed up..ARGH!!!!!!!!! i dunno why i started..i just felt like it...now i cant stop coz there's not completion...AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! well..it'll just be an attempt i guess...

anyway...ive given up for now...wanted to finish it tonight so tt i cld concentrate on work 2mr but.....well..yea...guess its just not meant to be and the more i analyse it the worser it seems....UGH....ok...im gonna go sleep now man...ill contunue 2mr.. during my breaks...ahaha...I HATE CLINICALS!!!!!!!!!!!! im not prepared and i dun think i will be...i hate this....hatehatehate... back to top?

yeaaaaaaaaa...heh...now to wear it out..and im gonna take good care of this pair...well...better care at least...for one i'll try not to slip in and out of it too much and actually loosen the knot and tie each time...yea..and as for the sole wearing off....tt cant be helped now can it? ahaha...looks kinda guy-ish from here huh? but im not abt to get purple or sth...sheesh..ahaha...if they had green...hiaz....now to get ballet flats....or pumps or STH man...I NEEEEEEEED...aahhaa..queenstown shopping centre was selling those white pri school shoes with prints on them for 39.90...isnt tt freakin ex? my sis was like " its DAMN cheap!!! outside sell for 60 plus k??!!?" im like...STILL?!?!? tt shoe on its own without print is prob 10 bucks max i think...now you know why im still surviving on converses and slippers ( of which i need to replace too)..

meeting on monday has been shifted back to school...10am................whatever happened to city hall man?!?!?? hiaz...if we have pract in the day on mon IN THE DAY tt'll be cool...LAST WEEK OF HOLS MAN PEOPLE!!! USE ME!!!!!!!!! ok..tt sounded a lil wrong but yea...ahahaa...AIYAHHHH....take off leh!! everyone take offf!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..i need to read mary sheridan!!!! TZAHHH!!! soon soon soon...its COMING!!!

ok sleep...so anticlimax..

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supsupsup ma homies??

ahaha..anyway..im bored now tts why im blogging on THE LAPTOP once again..ahahaha..

no one's home yet and im starving..mum's buying nasi lemak back to pei the catered food (which looks quite nice today actually) but yea...no rice..anywayyyy...today has been a rather eventful day even tho all i did was just stay at home..ahaha...

i called my supervisor and shes really nice...it was the longest chat ive ever had with any of my sups before..ahaha...i guess i had a lot more to ask and clarify this time i guess..anyway...clinicals sounds like its gonna be an interesting...hmmmmm...she said the cases are VERY varied in terms of diagnosis and age range so yea...i have to read up dear mary sheridan again and then she mentioned she part-times at the hands dept also and on weds she goes to the polyclinic for paeds also...so....i get to follow her ard and work her hours as well and i have the option of gg back on 2 of the sats coz she said her caseload is bigger then and ill get to see more if i wanna join her..so...hmm....sounds interesting huh? i might..i mean..the main thing abt the placement is tt we have to show interest and initiative so i might go back on one of the saturdays...thing is both sats i have a performances to attend (yes again) at 3pm but the shift is 8 to 12 anyway so i guess its fine...MWHAHAHA...but acareak =S ill need to work it out..

so i mopped and swept the floor today, and folded the clothes out of boredom and i wanted to go down for a swim but the pool is STILL under repair...listened to the RO links tt jon sent out ( they ROCK) and was analysing recordings to set homework for ppl and schedule for 2mr...but chris cant make it again so....ill re-plan..CLARITY'S TOMORROW!!! ahaha...i wanna eat ma shican corrdon bleauuu (chicken cordon bleau) ahah...and MUD OOZE!!! ahaha..AND I GOT THE CHOIR ROOM!!!! sounded like some new guy..he speaks very well though..didnt sound local but yea..he didnt even ask what ignis was and all tt he just guaiguai wrote it all down..MWAAHAHAH!! TAKE TT DEGRADING 'YOU-ARE-JUST-PARISHONERS' DECIEVINGLY-CON-ABLE WOMAN!!! ahaha...ok lah..its not her fault but i need to take it out on someone...the church needs to do sth man...

OH!! went out with fio yest and well..we're old..tts the conclusion..partly coz fio was having cramps but i wasnt! and we were feeling damn sleepy and tired as we shopped...we had set out to buy shoes from far east and ended up with nothing ( whats new? ive been looking for pumps for the past 1/2 yr) and i didnt even get my converse coz they din have any nice ones anywhere not to mention the converse shop along the way to PS the guy was smiling A LOT and being nice depite his ah-beng disposition...anyway i might have to go to queenstown shopping centre again..im gonna get my green converse and i dun care if gabriel has them or not..and well...we both got tees each and i got all my rubberbands enough to last me till next yr at least and fio got earrings which she took forever and a 1/2 to deliberate on...ahaha.. and did i mention i love the laptop?? the screen rocks and typing on it feels exactly like my comp...hahahah..

OH! I LOST WEIGHT!!! though its 1 kg which i maintained with another 1 just lost, i dunno how!! ahaha..maybe is coz im on the comp most of the time and i dun snack..ahaha..ok...my scoliotic back is aching... back to top?

hmmmm...

im on THE LAPTOP now...ahahaa...yea...in case i didnt tell you...my sis and i got a laptop...to share...aahhaa...went to suntec on SUNDAY at the convention centre ( it was like courting death)...and got ourselves a toshiba...its purrrttyy..ahahaa...and its working fine...so YEA...its vista now but it'll expire in a while..but im getting used to it somehow...heh..and got ourselves a webcam from creative too...

anyway...week 1 of hols have passed already...JUST LIKE TT...is tt depressing or WAD? had food and friendship day in school today...one event down..2 more to go..borrowed some paed OT books from school...i shld be reading up tho i dunno how and wad....chuwen is calling the NUH person 2mr to ask abt the usual stuff...MAN!!! i dun wanna go on clinicalsssssss...stupid mannnnn...actually the main reason why i dun wan clinicals is coz its gonna interfere with pract cant commit properly and die as a result...nvm..we'll worry when the time comes..

anyway..i got my results liao...er...its not anything fantastic...wad im worried is tt if my grades drop too much mum may start to ask me to cut down on pract and stuff or even to STOP altogether and THAT is NOT good...coz i might just go CRAZY....can you imagine workworkwork all day all week??? i cant...its puke-worthy...so.....i need to do sth.......i dunno wad but i have to work it out and get on it GET ON IT get on it GET ON IT next sem...

anyway...gonna enjoy my hols while i can...YEAYEAYEA!!! ahahaa...ive got nth to blog now..had 5 million things running thru my mind just now..oh well..OH! i hope it doesnt rain 2mr so i can go SWIMMM!!!! ahaha.. back to top?

ok...how was chalet? ok lah...went karaoke for the 1st time...was kinda cool except i was made to sing almost all the english songs and a word of warning..kelly clarkson songs should NEVER be attempted at karaoke sessions unless you're ABSOLUTELY positive tt you can carry it off without suffering an asthma attack later..ahahaa.. and if it helps...make sure tt NONE of the singers there go by the same name as you eg vanessa carlton -_-

anyway..night badminton was fun and so was the beach! ahaha..we shld all go there again someday...i mean..the gang tt is =)

anyway..went for singaPOPera today..its not too bad...the orchestra was gooooodddd...i enjoyed it better to the singing..not tt the singing was bad...i think the sound system didnt do them justice...but swingle sounded great there..ahahaa...weird....maybe its the sound manager or sth lah..ahahaa..and this freaky ticket guy was STARING at me...and i was FREAKED...he was handing my mum the ticket stubs but he was looking at me the whole freaking time and facing me while passing my mum the stubs on his left........talk abt WEIRD....

anyway...event on mon..hope it goes well..supposed to go on my long awaited shopping trip with fio for the desperately needed pairssss of shoes..and supposed to call my sup on tues...my goodness its my classmate's sis!!!! yDyD ARGHHHH!! btw...ive been shifted to NUH......so yea...hhaaha...and WHEN are we having pract??! anyone?? make use of my freedom while you can!!!!!! it will be gone in a FLASH!! diudiudiu!! ahaha..ok..serene is supposed to call me 2mr to answer any qns regarding my placement.....hmm..i wonder if she'll rmb......better think of some qns.....heh...ok...off to sleep..acareakers check your email and get the goods from me online =) back to top?