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I AM SOOOO SAD!!!!!!!

i lost my pencil...

MY trusty GREEN pencil..

the one tt saw me through my O's and A's.. did it see me thru my O's? i think so...but wadeva...=( and the worse part is tt i think i lost it somewhere in singapore nvr to be seen again..i threw my pen into my bag but i dunno if i did the same for my pencil...and well..i din use it when i returned home and not on the weekend and din have it with me today in sch..came home and...its not here either!!!!!

THIS IS DEPRESSING...first i lost my calculator ( my sis ) and now my pencil...shit man....i need to go get a new pencil..gonna get the exact same kind...but it will NEVER be the same.....=( so sad....so so sad..

so anyway..2mr's RM presentation..finally..all the projects will be done 2mr...no need to worry abt projects anymore till next sem starts...need to worry abt exams tho..and clinical final eval on wed...AHHH!!!! i hope i do well....PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!! i'm a good student no?? yes?? ahhhhh!!! ahahaha...i'm tired...i need rest...supposed to start at 2pm 2mr (wheeeee) but meeting at 1pm to do RM...THEN i realised got meeting for the vocational dialogue with seniors at 12...ARGH!! sheesh...and the thing is gonna be held on the 31st lah...wth...too bad man...i got phantom on tt day...so i'll help plan and all but wun be there...unless its in the morning then i can come...if not...TOO BAD...i thot we all voted for 24th lor...in the end...SHEESH...oh well..

i need to sleep but i gotta do my RM speech for 2mr...crapping is soo tiring..and i gotta finish my clinical diary man...CANNOT drag liao....but i'm proud of myself today...i studied 4 chapts of physio today in 2 hrs with melia in church...ok...the 4 is REALLY short chapts...but it still counts no? ahahaha...aiiiyohh...wad am i gonna do when you go meliaaaaaa????? who is gonna study with meeeeeee?? =(( back to top?

its been long huh?

so where did i disappear to the whole of this week?

well...marjoity of the time was spent studying.....for anat pract that FINALLY came on fri...yes i suck at anat and yes i studied relatively last min ( so did everyone else ahaa) and thank goodness for melia ( thank you !) for studying with me the past week...yes.." ...we need each other...to have to hold.." ahah! but yea...you're my only study buddy left in singapore...once you go.......i dunno wads gonna happen man..=(((((

but anat pract was OK lah...i dun expect to get A...a B wld be a surprise and well..a C is expected...D and i will slap myself soooo hard...ahahaa...oh well...and then i got my physio results from my pract test last week....and well..i expected to fail and well i passed but it was only coz the lecturer was SUPER lenient....like the answer shld be 4th ventricle but ppl put 3rd ventricle...he gave mark for the ventricle part of the answer...ahahahah! but yea...need to study hard for the end sem man...3 weeks time.......so is cny...

hiaz...i can be a lil more relaxed this coming week..i think..have final eval tho..and ottp jump1..ahaha...i dunno wth supposed to do for tt..but yea..and RM presentation...crap man...exams are drawing closer........too fast....................and we haven't met to sing in AGES....and i dunno whether its coz i'm losing it or wad...but i'm having a rather hard time trying to learn my part for hide and seek..yes we got imogen heap's hide and seek..for 50 US dollars...WTH right? nvm..and jon went to photocopy swingle...for 4 ppl...guess how much? 24.80....YES....TWENTY FOUR EIGHTY....SIAO man..but the quality was good lah....BUT STILL..ahahahahah..kena cheated sia...

ok..had open hse today..aft wandering out in the early morning in bishan and thomson plaza...it was not too bad..finally got to see the snoezelen thing...DARN COOL....and had to intro all the OT equipment and of course promote the profession and course...it was really fun..and i guess it was a lot easier to explain stuff coz the ppl who came to visit our rooms were people who ACTUALLY wanted to KNOW abt the profession....so it was good..i liked it...esp when valerie and i were "entertaining" this family...tho the mum looked more interested in knowing wad OT was but yea..it was nice for a change for people who WANT to know what OT REALLY is...coz its such a complex profession which needs a lot of distinguishment from so many occupations and how we seem to "kick up a fuss" over the "simplest" of things tt we can "normal" ppl can do..

its just yea...nice to have ppl who actually stay attentive thru ALL the exhibits and ask qns qns and MORE qns....and tt is just NICE......no other word...aft explaining to the family wad OT was, why we are impt in our own way and more imptly how diff and yet similar we are to PT i actually reinforced for myself why i chose to be in this profession...and yea..tho its tough ( just like every other course whether poly or uni, local or overseas) i guess its....i dunno...all for sth greater =)

one more thing...i noticed sth..tt ever since i entered the OT course last yr...i've been getting more attention from the older adults...really..its just damn weird...b4 i NEVER had ppl approaching me for directions and all..guess coz i've got such an unapproachable face..but yea...apparently not so far..haha..1 auntie and 1 ah mah have offered me a seat beside them this week when on the train...i usually dun take the seats on the way home from sch coz its crowded and i leave it for the older ppl to sit...seriouisly ah..OT is doing sth to my brain..not tt its a bad thing..BUT ANYWAY..yea...the auntie beckoned me to taka seat beside her and the ah ma tugged at my bag to get me to sit...haha..these happened on 2 diff days..but yea..

but today was like..ultimate OT-ish man..as melia, dan and i were walking out of thomson plaza there was this ah pek tt was walking towards them ( i was behind-ish) with a point-stick and asked them sth apparently in dialect..and 2 of them kena stunned..ahahaha....so call who? the OT yr 1 student tt knows a bare minimum of dialect to help..and when i did he spoke in chinese and said he needed help gg up the stairs..i was like " whoa lao...of all ppl approach yours truly...wad are the odds man.." so yea..i helped him lor with ppl behind me gg : GO OT GIRL! -_-" i shld teach you guys the basics on how to support and all when i learn man...its useful..so well...i helped him up and noticed his toes were like RED...WATERMELON RED...i was like EH? ha...shdl go look it..and i held his other arm like i do with my grandma tho i dunno if its right...coz i see the OTs and PTs in my placement support them by holding the back of the client's pants...i know why lah..but outside of clinical setting a bit weird right? so yea...it was nice to help someone tt early in the morning...

and when i got home....COLLAPSE...as if my body was hanging on 1 or 2 hrs of sleep and finally breaking down the moment open hse was over..i was toppling all over the train..standing..ahaha...oh well...tts it from me for now...gotta do RM ppt now..ahah.. back to top?

thats right...

and how did it all start?

watching snippets of my mum's taiwanese soap and there was this scene where the guy calls the girl and wants to break up with her and telling her the whole "its not you..its me.." thing and the 1st lyric that came to mind was "...is this how it ends with a simple telephone call, you leave me here..with nothing at all..." ....YEAAA...O-TOWN..i was never a fan of O-town..only liked all or nothing and liquid dreams..ahaha..i think tts all they were famous for anyway..ahaha..

soooooo....i went to look for the vid on youtube to entertain myself while i did research methods...and one song led to another..reminiscing my pri/sec sch days...boybands then sang better songs...the actions are..STANDARD...every boyband would have tt constipated face, reaching out to the crowd/camera and looking back down despondently...cheesy but it brings out the song somehow..ahaha..then i rmbed my OTHER fave boyband song..LAST FLIGHT OUUTTT....i can always imagine the expressions on their faces and tt was sung by...PLUS ONE...nvr got it right..aahaha..so....ENJOY!! here's O-town for now..


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well well well...

the "worst" week has finally come to an end..tho it didn't really end it the way i wanted it to be...physio pract was just BAD...and coz of that my mood was somewhat affected...i wasn't dissapointed tt i won't do well..i was AFRAID tt i won't do well..it was fear...its not even abt like a "forget abt it..its over..nth you can do now..." kind of thing..there's little chance for that to even apply...i'm SCARED...physio and i are SO not on the right track ever since this sem started...ICA got D and now this pract sure get F ( i hope not tho) and means i'm left with the end sem exam to compensate...the D and the predicted F will already pull my grade down...means to get at least a C for physio i gottsa get a B/A to secure my overall C.....DIEEEEEE!!!

and ok...fine...study lorr...study your ass off i know...but the thing is...i dun have resources to study properly..the notes are really not study-friendly to my style of learning...i can't even borrow martini(textbook) for long to guide me even if i wanted to..tts wad i'm worried abt...tt my grade will eventaully remain the same......AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! ok....no..can one...can....=S

anyway...comm was good i guess....ok..lemme share sth...coz for communications..we're required to come up with a short skit to illustrate communications in the health setting..so my grp we filmed it then put it on the ppt...supposed to be this ah beng recieving treatment from an OT and guess who had to be the ah beng?? YOURS TRULY..wonderful...when i watched the vid i realised my voice is really...can mistake for a guy's...esp if you've never heard my voice b4...i thot i was paranoid..then my lecturer gave us feedback and she actually had to ask who was the person acting as the ah beng!! yDyDyD ahaha..then she said tt i fitted my persona well and she actually had to ask herself if it REALLY was a GUY ..i was like O.o WHAT?! my goodness lah....i dun even know whether to take that as a compliment or not...ahah..

ottp as good too...GOOD JOB GUYS!! at last this horrid week is over...more crap to come but i hope its not AS crappy...got anat pract next week..and neeed to settle RM and clinical diary by this weekend..ahaa..hiazzz..balance balance balance...sianded...

next week is the bbq and open hse...jia lat...morning 9am shift...i dunno if i shld stay over....and still haven't settle the bbq things yet..AHHHH!!! JIA LAT! and 2mr gg to see derm..i'm more interested in knowing my diagnosis...its like why did it suddenly SHOOT up once i graduated from CJ? weird..ahaha...hopefully i can resume it to its normal state aka sec sch state...miss that state..ahaha..hiazzz...oh well..tt remains to be seen...
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ok...

i shouldn't be here blogging but i thot since i'm using the comp ( for communications proj) and seeing that i can't stand the un-updatedness of it...i decided to just put in a short entry..good for me b4 i start on my hectic night........and week..

well...yes..my hectic lifestyle has begun...as mentioned in the previous post..this week i have 2 tests and 2 projs due...2mr is research methods test of which i have not finished studying for....no..make tt haven't finished READING THRU for....i am so screwed but i'm gonna do sth abt it soon...in a while...not to mention comm and ottp proj meeting 2mr of which i have to prepare for tonight as well...hiaz...i really hate projs when its too big a grp or tt its too last min...hiaz..ottp can't be helped..comm not too bad lah..hiaz...i hope all goes well 2mr man...

and PHYSIO TEST!! OMG!!! i'm not done with it!! not even done reading thru...WAD THE SHIT MAN....i am so screwed...and thurs got tt talk somemore...MY GOODNESS...hopefully the lecturers are empathetic..hiazzzzz.....i think i'm only looking forward to wed man..clinicals, like i said to sam, is like an escape from the stresses of school...somehow clinicals just take precedence over everythign else...and tts cool for now..the kind of importance it holds..heh..

exam timetable is out too....and...yea..1 paper b4 CNY and 3 the moment the 3 day hol is over...SHEESH...why can't it be the other way round? hiaz..i guess good and bad lah..at least can pace my studying better...if not SUPER rushed...oh well...just gotta sacrifice my CNY celebrations this year then...speaking of CNY...I NEED TO GO SHOPPING!!!! crap man..need new clothes......oh school is such a drag....and NSmen..you guys are free to disagree as always..ha.. back to top?

aiiiiyohhhhhh

my hectic life started its forst day of work the beginning of this week.....ARGH!!!!!!!! everyone at school is also tearing their hair out over the sudden OVERWHELMING amt of work we have to do and the deadlines......lemme break it down for you:

week 13: this week
week 14: clinical diary, research methods test, physio test, OTTP presentation and Communications presentation
week 15 : clinical diary, anat pract ( thats enough to take up my whole week studying)
week 16 :clinical diary, research methods proj and ottp test ( no idea wad i have to do and wad i have to study)
week 17: clinical report, prepare for sem exam
week 18-20: SEMESTRAL EXAM

WAHHHHHH!!! and exam is like b4 and aft cny hols lah..MEANS i have to study during the hols...do you see how CRAPPY this is??!?!

ok...i shld not complain..there may be ppl with worse deadline schedules than this but.....REALLY LAH!!!!!! its the work you have to do to meet the deadlines and BALANCING it all tt is the SHITTY part.....EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....i hate school......

clinicals today..was very insightful..confidentiality...so sorry i can't really share...heh...gtg sleep now..8am 2mr meeting and 5pm meeting 2mr...AIIIYERRR and 2mr...HAPPY OT DAY!!!!!! i din know tt the universal colour for OT is green and blue for PT leh....i thot it was just a colour randomly chosen for NYP uniforms...was wondering how come everythign OT-related was green....NOT tt i'm complaining really....in fact its NICE...ahahaa...when used appropriately tt is..ahahaha...gotta wear the OT day shirt 2mr...the sizes are SCREWED and well...i ordered M and lets just say tt its your size daniel...or a lil smaller but yea...i'll be like swimming in it 2mr man..i hope open hse wear clinical polo and not tt one....HIAZ..HAPPY OT DAY and happy ot day 2mr then! the 2nd ot being (overtime).... back to top?

this is just NASTY...

yea...it is...feel soo darn depressed now...thinking abt the future and all this talk of how crappy our lives are gonna be is just too darn depressing..knowing tt we're just gonna go thru life, birthdays year aft year and with tt more challanges with it...its really NOT easy being human....

every yr...i start the yr the same way..as the yrs go by..there just seem to be more things to worry abt..and this year? its just too much to handle..too many ppl leaving me...melia's gg..val will return to melb whether she likes it or not to continue..fio will go too...tts 1/2 my support network GONE.. I'm only left with the 1/2 of which 3/4 of them are in the army....HOW NICE......

when you think abt it...reality is really just harsh...it just HITS you and tells you to WAKE UP AND GET ON YOUR ASS AND DO SOMETHING ABT IT....and tts good when you're slacking or losing control of your life or losing meaning in your occupation...

but sometimes delving far too deep into reality is just UNHELATHY ..really..and same goes for dreaming...like i've always said...LIFE and all its aspects is all about BALANCE...really...everyone's composition of reality and fantasy in their operation varies ( which is wad i believe makes us all diff indiv with diff personalities and outlooks on life and all its lil quirks)..being 100% realistic and practical just leaves no room for aspirations and somehow or other you just lose hope... and based on reality, a person sets his/her own boundaries as to wad they can or cannot acheive or what they can or cannot afford to achieve...and then it just gets depressing coz you realise wad you "can/cannot" do.. BUT sometimes life takes a HUGE U-turn or a detour on you...so while its impt to plan for the future..its also impt to rmb tt your plans may fall thru and sometimes all the worrying is unneccessary..really...WHO KNOWS WAD THE FUTURE BRINGS?!

and dreaming too much is also just bad..caught up in your own bubble..in your own world...once tt bubbles bursts..sayonara man...thats why....BALANCE......

ppl are leaving me...tho only for 1 yr or wadeva...and coming back occasionally...but still....i admit...i'm SCARED....things can happen within a yr...ppl can drift apart..lifestyles are altered to adjust to the change.....wad if i get too used to it? what happens when we're all busy? WHAT IF WE ALL DRIFT AND DIE?!!??!!?!?!? i hate australia man........and soon i'm going there too...WTH....but for now.........i am just...worried...scared.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

i was supposed to do my clinical diary lah..but got distracted and yea....HIAZ...2mr...CHIONG!!! back to top?

HA! this is cool...cuddles...hmm....tts totally unexpected..and yea...i AM bloody nice..HAHA! so i guess this is accurate..AHHA! GO DO!! back to top?

mannnnnnnnnn

2mr i start school...well clinicals too...and tt totally sucks duck eggs...i have NO inspiration AT ALL to write my learning objectives lah...goodnesssssss...I DUN WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!

the hols were great! they were fun! i had time AWAY from school and time to meet FRIENDS..all the ppl who mean the world to me...the hols was just great...chirstmas, singing, sleepovers,family hotel days,dinners and catching up...it was just...everything i expected out of the hols and more..so much so tt i din even study...............NICE...BUT wad the heck man...the hols were great...

and now everytime i watch the vid dan made for us for new yr's...i feel darn sad and at the same time happy tt i have a bunch of friends of who i can share such memories with...bittersweet...tts wad it is..this is not just applicable to the CJ choir ppl...this also applies to my STC pals..all this is not just thru MERE COINCIDENCE tt we all met...i really believe tt we were all given to each other by God...really..literally a BLESSING...if you think abt it...how often is it tt you find friends like tt within a whole mass of ppl??ppl who have only known each other for abt 2 yrs or less? friends tt stick and last till now? it totally rocks lah...and i wld feel like a big pile of crap if i ever had to go.....which will be in 2 yrs time...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i DUN WANNNNNNNNNNN............

with school starting 2mr already i feel like crap....coz i know tt when sch starts...schedule becomes hectic and meeting up and balancing eveything is just A LOT harder coz everyone wants my time.....not in the " i'm so popular sense" but yea...everyone wants a fraction of your time..you wanna give it to them and even if you dun wanna give it to them they NEED you to give it to them and you need time to your work and yourself as well..i HATE having to balancing it all off during the weekends...tts the only reason why i hate weekends...coz i have to balance...i have obligations everywhere..mainly to myself, school and family...UGH!!!! and it just gets soo tiring aft a while...but i guess i shldn't whine and just get used to it..there's gonna be alot more juggling in the future.......

how i wish we cld all just live in a house together...like "friends"....hiazzzz...but doing tt...family wun be happy....OH GOODNESSSSSS....i just wanna sing everyday, play badminton everyday and crap everyday....RAR!! my gluteal region ( butt) hurts from badminton today..hamstrings a lil sore too..2mr arm sure pain...die...i hope nth extremely physical during clinicals 2mr man...ARGH!!!! I DUN WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOOOOOOLLLLLLL!!!!! I DUN WAN 2007!! busier, more juggling, more stress.....BLEAH!!! ok...no....LETS GO 2007! SHOW ME WAD YOU'RE MADE OF..... back to top?

ok..this is quite a late post and A LOT has happened since the last time i blogged...heh..so well...here i go...i'll try to put more pics...let them do the talking..heh..

SOooOOOoOooO...how did my friday 29th go? AWESOME..met val to go buy food for fio at clarity..ahaha...we're always getting food for ppl..weird..anyway..was at clairty and the guy ah..whoa lao...attitude lah...i think he doesn't like me lah..but wadeva..eventually got our food and made our way to melia's for our lil gathering...exchanged presents and watched devil wears prada...sorry i wasn't really THERE guys...had to do sch stuff..i cldn't really enjoy the movie too but nvm...and sorry if it seemed like we were chasing you guys home so tt we cld rush down for the sleepover and if it seemed obligatory to be with you guys for tt night...i'm sure you guys know better than tt abt our level of friendship =)

anyway..we all took a cab and left melia's..sending fio and val home 1st..then off to bishan st 24..ahaha...and wad was i greeted with the moment i get there? " Ness! gimme your phone!" i knew some baby v nonsense was coming on lah..if not baby v means anna faris..ahaha..so anyway..true enough aft i emerge from the shower i get a whole new profile makeover with baby v ringtone and msg alert and not to mention wallpaper...how nice..ahaha..well..aft tt..we settled for photo taking and all..YAY!! so nice!! so christmas-sy!! love the lighting at jon's man..and the tree and all...NICE...and we opened presents and ate cake..of coz we had to sing sth b4 cutting the cake aka merry christmas in parts DUH...ahaha..

well aft tt...PRESENT OPENING!! and i loved all my presents ..yes..even the mag =_="...and i hope everyone liked their presents too!! =) and well.aft tt...we were attempting chasing cars..not bad lah..got potential..then it was movie time and well..scary movie was such a let-down...really...sexsexsex..and a lil lame here and there..felt so bored and weird-ed out watching it at some scenes..and then it was time to sleep..baby t-rexs and tsunamis and typhoons and all..ahahaa and daniel trying to recreate all of tt..sheesh..haha..it was fun lah..slept for abt 1.5 hrs..aft tt woke...met ying, sang carols, drank bubble tea, played uno...LOTS of it..ahaha...this is a really summarised version..i'll put up pics another time..

anyway...2mr..meeting to discuss and badminton..WHEEE!! its been a long while...and i think i am soo screwed once sch starts aka wed..ARGH!!!!!! BLOODY SHIT LAH!! i tell you i am screwed...everyone is prob charged and ready to battle the new yr and its challenges with the abundance of knowledge they have gained over the hols while i spent it holidaying like mad even till now..ppl are reading anat and all..WTH! STOP IT LEHHHH!!! i am seriously taking life too easy...but...AIYAH!! this is my last chance...so...YEAH!! 2007 is like a crappy yr man...every yr seems like a crappy yr when it begins..but it somehow always turns out otherwise...so...COME ON 2007!! SHOW ME WATCHA GOT!! back to top?