Cold Nostalgia

Sunday, March 13, 2011 @ 3/13/2011 11:30:00 PM

happy new year?

WOW.

talk about happy new year indeed.

well, yes...it is WELL into the new year 2011

things are alright i suppose

i still think i have A LOT to learn

and a LONG way more to go

i know i should be doing sth about it

but somehow after work

you just dont feel like doing ANYTHING work-related you know?

like i felt it most last week

down to the symbolic meaning of my uniform

its like the moment im in my uniform im in work mode

but just tt day i was on home visit so i had to go in mufti and returned to do the rest of the day;s work in mufti

and i just could NOT function

i think it was also the fact tt i wasnt feeling well

but YAH

sigh

i need to get my act together

i think im getting too comfortable? with my own lousy self.

i need to PUSH

PUSH MYSELF

and there is gonna be a rotation AGAIN

CRUD man.

i dont wanna be rotated out when im not even FULLY competent in this area yet

KILL ME

and i have the stupid EBM paper to present next week

WTH LAH

lucky it all more or less there

i just need to spend sometime revising what the research was about

and i think i have to do the search

but then again i submitted the paper to ASM without doing what L asked me to

AHAHAH! CRAP.

and now i have to present it to the dept.....must i REALLY?

there is NO time people! NO TIME!

screw it lah. i dont even really wanna do it lor.

ah well.

why am i here blogging out of the sudden you may suddenly wonder

i dunno

i just felt like it

i have thoughts and emotions that i need to release

with no one to talk to/listen to

but at the same time its all random nonsense shit like whatever i just typed out up there

so well my blog is my next refuge.

*cries*

i hate you lee jinki aka ONEWWWWW

WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE?!?!

WHERE ARE ALL THE GUYS THAT SOUND/LOOK/PRESENT (even if just a FRACTION of his awesomeness)?!?!?!?

am i asking for too much?!

no right?!

im not even asking tt i KNOW him personally

i just need to know tt ppl like tt exist in this tiny island.

my heart is crying btw.

can i just sing a duet with him? ok thats asking for too much.

can i sing a duet with someone who sounds STH like him? *cries*

ok time to continue working on my home visit report and sleep by 12.