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due to special request (from the princess) ahaha...here's breaking free...

actually ah princess...you can go youtube and watch lor...ahahaha...anyway...this song is rather addictive...esp the "WE'RE BREAKING FREE!!" part...nice to shout it out and the "we're soaaring...flying" part..ahahaha..and i still dun get the " hugging myself" action zac efron does at the " oooo" part ..ahaha...so WRONG...ahaha...its darn corny..but nice song still..



heh..i'll be like watching high school musical 3 times in the next few weeks...hahaa...my house like movie screening centre lah..heh...but not tt i mind...i'm just scared i'll get sick of it..ahahaha...hiaz..i'm such a sucker for stupid teenager crush here,crush there stories...hahaha..and even BETTER when made into a musical...ahaha..

anyway..tho the tests are taking a backseat for the time being..the projects are manifesting themselves...and once all the projs are done..its tests again..its like every week there's a presentation and then once all the projs are done, the next week has a test...UGH..like i said...worse than JC..oh well..

so anyway..apparently my school is like having a talentime thingy gg on..some of my frens were actually thinking of joining...as a capella grp...i din mind..i thot it wld be quite fun...BUT! auditions are next week? yea..and in the next few weeks are all kinda busy..so..yea...oh well..another time...i notice NYP has many of these kinda singing.dancing kinda competitions and concerts where they invite like some chinese singers to perform ( its free!!) ahaha..the sch sponsors..the last time was stef sun..now is some fan wei qi person..

its quite a nice change tt you know...at least the "arts" are recognised here..not like in JC and sec sch where sports are always the COOL and PREDOMINANTLY recognised ccas and activities..like there are interclass games but hardly any interclass singing competitions..and even when there were..its nt as big a deal..sheesh..the only singing thing in CJ tt was a big thing was rockafella and some chinese singing comp within the chinese cultural club..sheesh..it doesn't even involve the whole sch like those BIG walkathon and interclass games..sheesh..so its a nice change..in the past 3 mnths or so there have already been like 2 or 3 singing competitions and 2 concerts..so its kinda cool lah..hope MAYBE cld have the chance to join the next talent show but NEVER as a solo act..acapella grp is ALWAYS good..ahaha..may be gg to watch the finals of the upcoming singing competition..heh..anyway..ENJOY THE VID!!! back to top?

ahahaha...YAY!!! PHYSIOLOGY TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!!!

-DISCLAIMER : if you dun feel like reading (even thot its not THAT long..) just scroll down and watch the vid -

ahahaha...i spent my whole 2 wk hols agonizing over it and the front part of this week worrying over it...and trying soo hard to cram info...THANK GOODNESS i have bio backgrnd man...i love bio..ahaha...BUT i dun think i can do as well as i hoped to do on this test..a bit too last min cramming...ahaha..oh well..we'll see...i just wanna pass...i dun wanna repeat this module for this sem next yr..AHH..ahaha

so yes...ITS GONNA BE FRIDAY!!!! good and bad..primarily BAD if you ask me...hiaz...BAD coz...it just means MONDAY IS DRAWING CLOSER..and when monday draws near means tt ANATOMY draws near which invariably leads to AGONY and DISTRESS and basically NOT your typical idea of wad a weekend should be like..weekends should be RELAXING...and allowing us to RECHARGE..hiaz...anatomy just sucks the life out of me..oh well..good in the sense tt i get to relax to a certain deg tt i dun have to agonise abt school OTHER than anatomy..see..inevitably everything leads up to anatomy in the weekends..hiaz...

so anyway...i have yet to share my HORRIFYING expereince yesterday...i was nearly late for school the FIRST time in my WHOLE schooling life...its scary...man..lesson was supposed to start at 8am...so i had to leave my house by 715 latest tobe there JUST on time...so yes..guess wad time i woke up? 7.30!!!!!! SEVEN THIRTY AM!!!! wth..i panicked lah..this is how it goes:

1) i set alarm clock at 645am
2) i open my eyes and look out..realise its TOO BRIGHT to be 645..
3) i pick up my alarm clock and look at it...it says 730..but i thot i was seeing things and went back to sleep..
4) i wake up in abt 2 mins time and decided to check again...
5) i STILL dun believe my eyes and go to check my digital watch..
6) it says : 730 am...i PANIC..
7) i jump out of bed and shout : "OH SHIIIIIIIIIT!"
8) i did a record change and was out of the house all in 5 MINS...BEAT THAT man..
9) walk to tiong..still trying to straighten things out..and deciding btwn taking a mrt or taxi..ahaha...
10) i decide on taxi..thinking 11 bucks in my wallet wld be enough..
11) by the time i get to sch..its 8am ( THANK GOODNESS) coz not considered late till 810..and the taxi fare was ..............$11.60!!!! my goodness...luckily i called kahd to meet me at the taxi stop ..ahaha..

SO....i NEVER wanna be late again primarily coz i dun wanna have to pay $11.60 AGAIN..its TOO much...anyway...in the next few weeks 2 ppl will be flying off..alethea and yien..hiaz..everyone is going away...so sad...and val is BAAACK..ahhaa...WHEE...hiaz...so a lot of things gg on in the next few weeks...

anyway..as promised my OTHER HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL fave..GETCHA HEAD IN THE GAME..i LOVE the dance steps man..its darn cool...heh...ENJOY...

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AHHH!!!

DID YOU CATCH IT?!!!

it would be a SIN not to..
oh gosh...so nice...i mean..yes..cheesy..drama..lame..predictable..but HEY! thats wad makes a disney channel production nice...i love disney shows...gives you hope..duncha think? GETCHA HEAD IN THE GAME...heh..

just to share sth..i actually had a LOOOONG post written out...but yes...somehow only this bit you see above was shown..so yea..

anyway..i was saying abt how much i hate mondays not just coz of anatomy but beacause of the nature of the lesson..its scary...dr uma sacres me...i mean..not tt she is fierce or anything..she's nice..its just her reality checks are scary..abt how some students haven't graduated because of thier clinical attatchments BEACUSE they dun perform to standard..they dun KNOW..there is a student who is doing his/her 5th yr this yr...THAT is scary and how of one of her former students recently lost his job ,fired form a hospital coz he wasn't competent enough..if tt ever happens...WHAT HAPPENS?! wad else can you be? a bad rep from a hospital will never have your records cleaned or overlooked...goodness...its things like tt that make me wonder wad kind of shit i have gotten myself into...seriosuly..its scary...please tell me its the same with every other deg...please...=S

i wanna sing a duet...singing a duet seems sooo nice..haha..before ANY of you have any WEIRD and WRONG ideas (for which i will KILL you for)..PERISH all thoughts...yes...EVIL...PURGE YOUR SOUL!!! ahahhaa...duet...sooo nice...enjoy this..there is a faster version..but prefer the slower one..more emotion..enjoy :



like all youtube vids..you shld know wad to expect ..wait for it to load then watch..if you haven't been using youtube..WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?! GETCHA HEAD IN THE GAME dude!! ahaha..if you haven't watched the show..you'll understand tt verse better on my next post with my new vid..ahaha..until i get out of the craze..it'll take some time b4 i stop putting high sch musical vids up =) back to top?

ha..guess where i am now?

IN SCHOOL....doing my leaflet...well..at least waiting for it to be done...already did my part of the proj...for now lah..ahaha...

UGH..i'm kinda regretting not working hard the 1st week of the hols...like...i only had to go back to school on one of the days and went out on another...other than tt...i was FREE to study ( and do pretty much anything i wanted to) haaha..so yes...but i didn't really study then..like i TRIED but yea...lost my drive..i mean..it IS the holidays ya noe...so yea...

now that this is the last week of hols...i have ALL the projs meetings this week and well..it eats into time lah..as in...if i cld all the 3 cld be squeezed into 2 days but yea..circumstances dun allow tt...so its like...time wasted "spread out" ahhaa...yea...its less productive if you know wad i mean..so yeah..hiaz...and i just read a post of one of my classmate's blog...man..i am starting to NOT like her very much...like..she is sooo quick to judge people based on ANY small little thing they say or do...like...gosh...give them or US a break lah...you're not very perfect yourself YA NOE?! goodness...i mean..i WOULD write her name on my blog but then one can never be too sure on the possibility of her stumbling onto my blog...i haven't given my blog add to anyone and i dun intend to YET..in fact..i dun think i'll ever until i'm clear of my place in class and my relations with ppl...so yes...i'm lying low...its an evilevil world...

i really miss CJ or STC..a catholic school...sheltered all my life you may say but hey..being sheltered isn't neccessarily a bad thing..at least i get to be ard ppl with SIMILAR mindsets...i could be myself MORE than i am now...well..i dunno..i've been feeling kinda pessimistic abt school recently...like how i dun really like having to come to school and PRETEND abt some stuff...i dun wanna step on any toes yet...so i have to be politically correct for now...as you all know..i dun like fake ppl...and neither do I like being fake...so usually...i be myself as far as the situation allows me to..and i'm SCARED as well...scared on whether or not i made the right choice...yes AGAIN?! yes again...am i prepared to be an OT? is this wad i am meant to do? i dunno if this fits my personlity...GOD PLEASE HELP AND GUIDE ME..i need conviction and trust..its hard...very hard...

with anatomy on monday which i have NOT revised for ( as in NORMAL anatomy lessons) and physiology ICA on thurs...goodness..i need to buck up...projs and stuff...i am practicing the "shelving" idea...i'm shelving everything away as long as i can avoid thinking abt it...to worry abt them all at one time is just too tiring...too too tiring..how do you achieve 100% optimum with soo many things at one shot..its drains...did i make a wise move? did i? back to top?

man...i've finally found a new song to rave abt..

ahaha...corrinne may's if i kissed you...

i know...its kinda ancient...but hey..i dun listen to radio..its only aft ripping the cd into my com and actually listening to the "cd" tt i learnt of the song..and its kinda like the only song tt i like..ahaha...coz..it has a beat...a rhythm..i think it seems to be the only song with guitar in it..ahaha...so it immediatly caught my attention..heh...i din really pay attention to the rest of the tracks..they all started to sound the same after awhile..=X..all the corrinne may fans are gonna come after me..haha...but hey...tts my opinion..you're free to disagree..

the lyrics are sooo sweet...i mean..ok..its easy to have tt misconception tt i'm in some sort of relationship or in love of some sort at the moment coz hey! the moment you arrive at my blog you are bombarded with the lyrics of tt song..i missed out the 1st verse tho..i thought the lyrics aft tt were more creative but i like the whole song ..BUT ANYWAY..yes...i'm NOT in any romancing activity of any sort at the moment..not tt i have EVER been anyway..ahaha...its such a sweet song..as in..the sense of tt possibility..the though of it is soo sweet..=)) i can only imagine how it wld be like at the moment thru the lyrics...ahaha..

dun mind me...i just watched like princess diaries 2 on disney AND again on my vcd, and some stupid taiwanese soap tt my mum is watching now..all the taiwanese soaps i know are REALLY dumb...GOSH..i only watched it with her coz there was NOTHING else to watch on tv..haha..watched all these in the past 2 days..so its kinda the MOOD..haha..the "WHAT IF?" or "I WONDER... "or the "HOW I WISH.."phase. added on with the song..haha..yea...princess diaries...if only huh? guys like THAT don't exist in real life..ahaha..at least tts how i'm convinced...

i may be ovulating..ha...a biological explanation for my behaviour? maybe...

I miss melia...WHERE IS SHE?! somewhere in bloody beijing..been to china only like a million times and STILL she goes there..hiaz..oh well..ahaha..ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING!!!-->those are lyrics to a song btw.. notice the more frequent blogging? coz my verbal outlet ain't here to recieve my info..haha..hiaz..at least i still get smses from ppl now and then..so its not tt bad...not isolated or anything..ahaha..spouting rubbish..

i'm supposed to be doing my cross psych part of the proj..on fertility practices in india..and well..i thot it shldn't be too hard...BOY AM I WRONG..ugh...HARDLY ANYTHING...serious..damn it...and all i dl are like LOONG reports of abt 30 pages long..i'll die b4 reading all of them... and yes...HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DADDYS ESP MINE...ahaha...sth is wrong with me...too random...WHEEEE... back to top?

yea..tts wad has been happening since this morning...esp aft wad happened yesterday..

went back to visit choir yesterday...

i miss choir...

really...you have NO idea...i keep saying it and i guess all you who read my blog prob dun even understand the extent of it..

its like taking something you LOVE soo much away from your life JUST LIKE THAT.

in the blink of an eye its GONE.

SUDDENLY you're left stranded... a part of your LIFE is GONE...

UGH..it sucks..it really does...and the thing i miss most abt choir is....THE PEOPLE...esp ppl from the gang..gosh..even tho the turn up yesterday of the gang wasn't complete it was enough to remind me why we all got together in the 1st place..no matter how bad things got along the way..well..it still doesn't change the fact tt we all have good and fond memories hanging out together:

-singing till 7pm in LT2 aft choir
-singing at st cecilia's when we were chased out of LT2 or on days with no choir..
-gg to serene centre aft choir practices to have dinner, crap and sing somemore..
-gg to far east's BK to eat,sing and crap
-gg to various ppl's hses to sing

times spent together...goodness..those were one of the best moments in my life...i actually had FUN..i grew to explore music to depths i cld never imagine..i mean dude...i ACTUALLY learnt to read notes and play a song on the PIANO and pick up guitar..and i grew to love singing even more than i already do..

very DRAMA hor? but i'm NOT over-exaggerating..

dinner with the juniors and the "gang" was good...crappy..tired so i din talk much but yea..it was just nice to be ard them..ppl who are part of my good memories..i think all the seniors were tired...haven't sung like we did in such a loong time..we did the normal sing like 5 or 6 songs at a shot...

next...i miss actually having TIME to study..time to PLAN..my DRIVE to study...i just can't seem to start studying..but i guess like wad khad just told me online : have to start seeing this as UNI life..and she's right...one of the reasons i can't seem to push myself is coz of the environment..and i guess one of the main things tt got me gg was BRO PAUL...serious..he wld always talk abt how we better buck up and lecture us during assembly and remind us of the severity of not doing well...he was one of those factors...hiaz...and it doesn't help tt i've got projs ,tests and tt kinda shit stuff due all in the next few weeks..

if you ask me how i'm doing in poly now, the TRUE answer is...NOT TOO GOOD..i still haven't gotten used to it..i think even if it were in uni i'd say the same...coz its not like JC and sec sch where we studied GENERAL subjects..things that we studied just for knowledge input and whether we retained it in the future aft graduation wld not be such a great thing..coz it wld be recapped in the NEXT stage and the focus was to study to pass the test or exam to get onto the next yr...nothing other than tt...

wad we're doing now? we're studying things on wad we need to KNOW to live our lives the next few years..so i guess i'm giving myself the stress tt i HAVE to know all tt is taught coz i'll need to know it ALL...its not like A's and O's and in studying for it some things are not THAT impt and wun be tested..and there was agenral cirriculam and TYS.. BUT all tt we study now will be tested SOMEHOW , SOMETIME in our lives...its soo scary tt i choose to switch off..

hiaz..and yes...yesterday was weird ..too many AMBIGUOUS and SUGGESTIVE comments and gestures flying ard thruout the WHOLE day..it got me a bit paranoid and confused...wad shld i make out of them? am i supposed to DO sth?! gosh...like...i'm CONFUZZLED... back to top?

well..

melia's out of singapore...thats one less person to talk to on the phone...wait...hang on...tts the loss of my phone buddy for the week...hiaz..oh well...just one day already and i have soo many things to tell her already..ahaha...oh well..when she comes back we're gonna have a LOOONG convo..ahaha...

well...2mr is hopefully gonna be a nice day..meeting up with some choir buddies..YAY!! then maybe we can sing some stuff!! WOOHOO!!! i miss singing...i've said this only a million times huh? ahaha..oh well..you shld be used to it...i mean...you ARE reading MY blog ya noe...ahaha...

and if i'm not wrong..we're gonna have another choir meeting soon? for lunch or sth? so yea...make time ppl!! make time!! hiaz...it'll be kinda funny to see all the guys in their "hair-less" state together..ahaha...and all of them like chao da...heh..it shld be fun...

well..2mr have the dumb interview...ahaha..dumb coz..i dun really wanna go for it...coz yea...i dun even noe wad i wanna achieve with this committee...i dun mind helping but...yea..tts abt how enthusiatic i am abt it..ahaha...oh well..and cross psych meeting is shifted to 2mr instead of thurs...so no one can blame me for not turning up ok..

just finished discussing PBL stuff with my grp online...to tell you the truth...i'm getting a bit irritated with the bossiness gg on...i dunno...just seems a bit too smart-alecky for me...ha...dunno...maybe i'm just being a lil oversensitive..ahaha..WADEVA....the fact is tt i got irritated and tts that..

well.had LTC yesterday..and my comments on it? it was not very good...it was well..ok lah...but if it went more in depth it wld have been much much better...like on how to manage ppl and all..not just BRINGING awareness to diff personalities but how to deal with them..wad the ideal qualities a leader shld have and not whether or not we make it as a good leader...it was just dissapointing...maybe coz ..aft CJ's LTC where i learnt a lot...this one like SUCKED..and tt instructor guy was kinda IRRITATING...i din like the way they were trying to stimulate us into assuming roles as leaders...i din like the way he organised games and forced ppl to assume leadership roles without even telling us wad was expected of us...it was SHALLOW...either tt or i'm just too old...

and well..if you ask me...they were telling us things tt we ALREADY knew...so it was dissappointing...and he assumed we were ALL nursing students...and the course seemed to be for ppl who have not been in leadership roles b4 and needed GUIDANCE..not for ppl who have been leaders and need to strive for "excellence" the stupid word he kept emphasising...so oh well...wad can i say? hiaz...i'm not saying tt i'm the world's most fantastic leader or anything lah..but..hiaz..it didn't inspire me to be better or anything like tt..ahaha..so oh well..i'm off... back to top?

i feel happy...

1 is for knowing tt i dun have to worry abt wad i wanna do with my life already since the admission date is OVER....i'm staying...STAYING...i LOOOVE OT...( at least i hope i'll grow to like it )

well...was at sleepover last night...WHEE!!! at melia's house...our FIRST EVER sleepover...ahaha..it was kinda fun..except for the fact tt fio and i were too tired and well..kinda dosed off...and well..tt the bed was a BIIIT too small for 3 of us...so oh well..other than tt...i guess it was fun..we watched a bit of the germany-costa rica game...watched till it was 2 -1...so well..then went for melia's dental then well, met dan..we went to get my anatomy textbook..man research books asia is SOO cool...all the medical books, models and stethescopes are there..the stethscope was 299 bucks...so cool...PTs get to wear them...gotta listen for like phlegm in the trachea or sth and help push it out...so cool...i mean the sththescope..like DOCTOR liddat...ahahaha...

then we returned to melia's hse to SING...but not much lah..i think its coz we need NEW songs to sing..getting sick of the old songs...like..this ability of mine to remember all my parts for NEARLY every song learnt since sec sch is not such a good thing...coz...well..i dunno...have to keep finding new songs to learn..ahaha...and we were trying to help dan figure out wad song to sing for his MDC auditions on monday...either matchbox 20's if you're gone or switchfoot's stars..both sound rather good...and dan if you're reading this at chris's hse now--rmb to get your lyrics or...well...good luck...haha...try some the calling song..tts abt your range too...and good luck for your auditions...you'll do fine..

so anyway...went for upbeat's performance today ..they are quite good...i mean..hiaz...why can't i be part of sth liddat? its soo cool and sooo fun...even if we wanted to start sth liddat now..its a bit hard..coz the guys are in NS...so...hiaz...all girls is ok lah..but i still prefer SATB..it sounds fuller...you can do more songs..hiaz...oh well..guess i'll have to make do with SSAA or rather SSA since i'm gonna be the only alto left once ying leaves...oh well..

i need to loose weight...hiaz..i guess i do have to run..ugh...and i wanna get a tan..need to get a healthy look..ahaha...monday have a leadership training camp..i dun mind gg lah...but it ends at 5 PM!!!! AHHH!!! if not we were all supposed to go for some outing org by the yr 2s as part of their module which ends at 2pm!! soo much earlier...hiaz..check out the email :

Dear Jessica, Yen May, Samantha and Vanessa,

Based on recommendations from your lecturers, I have nominated the four of you for the 1 day leadership training course conducted by The Service Learning Centre held at SHS NYP. Attendance in this programme is by nomination only. The cost of the programme will be absorbed by NYP and therefore, its free for you. The purpose of the course is to unleash your potential to be an achiever and to use your inherent qualities to contribute.

Details of the programme is as follows: 12th June 2006 from 0830hrs to 5pm. The venue is LT K1 and K Garden. SO PLEASE BE THERE.

i'm like HUH!???!!! i'm not even active enough in class to display any leadership qualities...hiaz...not tt i'm not flattered lah..but hiaz...my potential has already been unleashed..like CJ and STC not enuff ah? ahaha...CJ LTC was enuff unleashing..it was good lah no doubts abt tt..=)) the only reason i dun wanna go for this LTC is coz it ends late but choosing the progs..i'd rather LTC coz i know i'm gg there for a reason which will benefit me in a way i want to..tt outing is benfitting mainly Yr 2s and well.. and i've kinda had enuff "getting to know your seniors" kinda things for now..coz its all soo fake...too much fakeness is...damaging..no doubt we all have to put on a certain fakeness one in awhile ..but hey if avoidable...AVOID..ahaha..

i really wonder how these ppl choose ME to go..its like CJ choir all over again in J1...charlie just came up to me to tell me tt i was selected to go for LTC and i was STUNNED...same reasoning..i was not active outright..i wld attend all the practices religously..but i really wonder how ppl choose me ..haha..got the reliable face ah? or does it say "pick me for LTC" accross my forehead? ahaha..

well..i can't wait for WED!! WOOHOO!!! music music music...other than the fact tt i gotta go back to sch for some interview for the SAOT student committe...i only applied for it coz i thot everyone has to..and i only ticked the music column under the " how i think i can contribute" area..aahaha..tts it..as you can tell...i'm not like KEEN on whether i get in or not...coz i dun see myself having any plans for this org yet so i dun even noe wad i wanna do in the assoc...but oh well..just go lor..hiaz..

and yes..i know its a LOONG post...but its a week's events ..so yea..my tests were the cause of my no show online this week..and well..hols are next week but not really coz of all the projs and studying i have to do..hiaz..and yes...i realised wad kind of voices i like..ahaha...voices like taylor hanson and alex band...they sound kinda strained but its tt quality tt brings out the emotion in the song...ahaha..and gives it the niceness of the song..ahaha..i like josh groban's voice too..ahaha..wadeva lah..i've fallen in love with "adrienne" again...=)))

MELIA'S GG OUT OF SINGAPORE!!! =( oh well..bring back some nice stuff for me...ok...i'm a happy kid today =D back to top?

i'm such a ego-fied person!!!!

i can't bear to bring myself to click the "submit" button...on the joint acceptance page..i feel like such a stuck up moron...i went into NUS site thinking tt i cld turn down the sci offer 1st since i dun even want it and maybe the NTU one later since psych was a big debate..and when i go to the NUS page and log in...it turns out to be a joint accpetance page with

NTU Psychology
NUS Science
Reject all Offers of Acceptance

as the 3 options...

i just stared at it...there it was..all tt i have been debating on for all these months..i am NOT exaggerating ok...its like...hiaz...i guess its hard to understand wad the prestige is all about if one or both of your parents have gone to the university...but none of mine went..its like...the honour and prestige..the one thing i never thought i could qualify for..NUS and NTU ya noe???!!! GOSH...i never thought tt i cld be ANYWHERE near gg in...it seemed like a dream..and now its a CHOICE...do you have ANY idea how hard it is for me to turn it down??!!!

considering the fact tt i have already decided it should be easy...but its not...not a single bit...

i'm such a sinner... a greedy one...one who chases aft fame and all tt kinda things...esp when i jolly well know WHY i dun wanna go ESPECIALLY to NUS..NUS is the one abt the fame and nonsense like tt...to be looked upon your WHOLE life as an AVERAGE kid and now given the chance to be otherwise...how do you reject tt??!!! but no way is sci gonna be my career...no way...psych? it was a matter of interest...which was an even bigger debate ALONG with the uni idea..SEE!!!! LOOK AT HOW STEREOTYPES have SHAPED our thinking...MINE at least...

ok..maybe not everyone in NUS is like SUPER smart but hey..its the STEREOTYPE..

i've been praying abt this for SOO long...for God to give me the guidance and confidence to TRUST in Him and His descision for me..He is my only comfort now...but i'm still finding it hard to accept...i TRULY SUCK...is it the devil at work??! making me think of things like tt? fame, greed..melia told me many times to just go reject coz there are ppl out there who are dying to get in and my place cld be someone's HOPE...i know tt...i know the anxiety they face..i know it all...but has anyone tried to understand MY anxiety?! of making the wrong MOVE?! i'm sooooo disappointed in myself...i shall just go and reject it now to PURPOSELY spite the devil...HA! TAKE THAT you low down moron of a devil!!!
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ok...rejected...i can still go and change my choice as long as its b4 5th june...ARGH...YES! i've done it...now i gotta go look for pics of shoulder girdle...ARGH!!! ANATOMY! ?!@#%$?!!!!!!!!!!!

ok...b4 i go...just wanna say i had a steal today!!! ahah..no i didn't STEAL...i got a bragain..at british india...WOOHOO!!! got this pair of berms for 35 when tis original was 89 bucks!!! 89!! SIAO LAH!!! even 35 ex liao lah...but my mum was willing to buy so yea...i felt kinda bad but oh well...=S ahaha... this is the 1st time i've actually gotten soo many things from the great singapore sale aft all thse years in singapore..ahaha... back to top?

NO MORE BIOMECHANICS!!!!

today was the ICA and well..i guess it was ok...i cld do all the questions and apparently i was the only one i noe so far who din have problems finishing it on time..i started to get a bit worried coz well..i suck at physics...how is it possible i do it faster than ppl with physics backgrnd and not have as much problems...maybe i overlooked some stuff lah..oh well...too late..i just noe tt its over and i'm OVERJOYED..i've been building my castle of looove...( in case you ppl dunno...those are lyrics to a song...i dun ACTUALLY have a castle of love..aahhaha..)

well...supposed to be gg out 2mr but still haven't discussed details..oh well..sms oso not response...sian enot? hiaz..oh well..and i was watching vanessa carlton vids on youtube..i'm not a carlton fan but..well..i guess i just thot of listening to white houses and well..rekindled my fondness for tt song..the thing abt her songs are tt...i dunno..they appeal SOMEHOW...her voice is not the kinda voice i like..its nasal...but its a NICE nasal...the nasal-ness adds a emotion to it...so its kinda nice..ahaha...unlike hillary duff...THAT ONE...BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD...haha..so yes...if anyone has it...please send white houses to me...ahaha..email or msn oso can.. =)

waiting for singapore idol to start..man...did you all watch yesterday???!!! OMG....terrence tay...he's soo cute..hahahaa...ok...not sooo lah..quite cute lah.. ( an attempt to appear less deprived) in case some of you dunno..he is tt living with lydia guy..ahahaa...you noe wad caught my attention? HIS SMILE...yes...its sooo nice...and how it lights up his whole face..man...i sound soo despo now..but hey! i've been deprived of cute guys for WAAAY too long...ahahaa...contrary to wadeva tt NUS biz ad said..ahahaha..well..yes it is singapore idol after all and i agree tt his voice is nothing fantastic..so yea...the only reason i hope he stays on is so t t i can get to see him on tv..ahahaha...am i ovulating? i think so..ahahha...its only aft this tt i realise wad it is tt i look for in a guy..its the SMILE...yea..its true..ahaha...now i can answer those dumb quizzes online properly...ahaha...and tt boy-next-door look maybe? ahaha..

and all tt rave abt jonathon leong? i really dun get it...yes..i dun doubt the fact tt he sounds quite gd..but its not GREAT...he was one of the better few form last night's 7 tho..so ..oh well..aahahah...and PRETTY BOY LOOKS???!!!! no way man...WRONG...ahaha..well..watching the results now...he's in top 12...obvious lah...wonder who the other one is...

oh well...tts it for today...i actually have more to type but if i do...you all may die from overdose of words even more than usual...so yes...till i blog again... back to top?