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Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 3/21/2010 07:44:00 PM

random

random i know

but suddenly the topic of dreams came to mind again

and you know what?

i have a plan

and i will do all i can to make it work

i needed to write it down here for reaffirmation

the thought of it is so exciting somehow

*shudders in excitement*

music does wonders to your mood.

@ 3/21/2010 06:24:00 PM

ugh

im just digging up roots that i dont want explore

why did i even bother?

i knew i'd get pissed

and upset

its DISGUSTING

the way she promotes and shows her "pride"

is detestful almost

and when she comes down to...oh great....

im sorry but i just cannot stomach it.

its always easier to accept when the person isnt someone you've grown up with

call me disillusioned

but i believe deep down in the crux of it all...she's not.

she has the weirdest/worst coping strategies on this earth.

always been wanting to "rebel" and go against the "norm"

i still believe that she's just experimenting.

and i can only pray that she decides soon.

for goodness sake...shes turning 20 this year.

ok i dunno lah ok

my brain seriously cannot even begin to think straight when it comes to her

how do you address stuff like that?

seriously.

being open-minded doesn't mean that i have to like it

it just means tt i dont impose my values and pass judgement

but if you ask me personally: its disgusting. full-stop.

and she feels injustice when she's not allowed to do the things i do

e.g study overseas, stay out late....ok these are the only things i can think of off-hand now

tell me, what has she done to earn the trust from my parents to do them?

she is so messed up

its just a reminder for me to not bother with her life

i dunno if its the right way

my training tells me no

but my heart tells me yes

we are 2 VERY different people

where do i even begin?

Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 3/19/2010 06:48:00 PM

Nothing Better

wow

im feeling emo again

ok emo-ish

i think these songs are just striking a chord with me recently

like ive like them before

but sometimes it takes time for you to totally fall in love with the song

these 2 are covers of the original

both sound good in their own way

diff feel.

1) 2AM's SEULONG's version ( fantastic falsetto, smooth, powerful)

2) SHINee's JONGHYUN's version (more airy but more feel somehow, heartache factor: A++)

love it man.

maybe its also just striking a chord with the convo topics these few days

i dont even know what im feeling

i dont even know why im feeling this way

its not to a stage where its bugging me and depressing me

but its just...it puts me in that mood.

maybe my heads' too up there in the sky...

oh well...

Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 3/18/2010 05:28:00 PM

i don't want to get it

its happening

the drift

i can feel its effects

changes tt occur

you're not there to experience it

the catching up you can feel you'll need to do

I DUNNO LAH OK

blame the fact tt maybe im kinda outta my zone now from my swim just now

it was good though

i had a headache while i was swimming but yea

i like the feeling once you've settled on a good speed

and you can just keep going if no one stops you

and i like the feeling when you're done swimming, showering and just walking out/home

your whole body feels less tense,muscles all loosened.

and after that you just go into a STONE yet calm and peaceful mode

weirdly it relaxes me,its the only exercise tt calms me.

others get my adrenaline pumping like it should

i love the water.

my mind is in a fuzz now so be prepared for a highly random post ahead.

im just gg with da flowwww~

some ppl have ALL the luck

some ppl have SOME luck

some ppl have a little less luck

i think i fall under the "some" luck category

i dunno

my brain is gg into some weird meditative reflective mode now so i shall just feed it

i've always believed that you win some, you lose some

i've wondered if i or people rather, would be happier if we had the choice which half we wanted to keep and/or willing to lose?

i mean..is anything worth sacrificing at the expense of the other?

every experience no matter how sucky or how great, there will always be something to learn from it

ok this blog post is gonna be full of random thoughts

i just ran from a beatle (ugh) in the fishbowl area

so now i ran back to my fave study room

and im slightly awake

its been some time since i was last here

the stupid rain tt flooded this room made this room out of bounds for some time

OH WELL

well lemme talk abt my new korean friend on my floor

its so cute the way they pronounce it as "Ko-ri-an"..ahaha!

she's new and she needed help with setting her watch

so i helped her with it

she said her name was julian and i thought i heard wrongly and assumed it was julia

julian is a guy's name no?

anyway..i was smsing alethea and sam, telling them abt how when i heard her name the 1st thing tt came to my mind was " JULIETTE! HO~"

then alethea asked me what was her korean name

so i thought...aiyah just go ask lah

(trust me, i had to rehearse how i would ask her...i THINK too much for my own good sometimes)

so i went and yes, her name is really julian

and guess why?

korean name : jooyoung ( im assuming tts the spelling)

later she wanted to know how to get the LAN cable and what time menzies was opened

so i helped her check on the internet and invited her into my room, sat on my bed

she's the 4th person to ever enter my room other than myself

its visited nightly by fiona, weekly by the cleaner and the maintenance guy who came once to fix my cupboard

so yea..talked to her and stuff, gave her some of my clothes hangers

and she told me tt i could go hang out in her room next time when she's finally unpacked and settled down

so YAY to me!

see...i can be really friendly when i want to :)

im a nice person lor. AHAH!

it also depends on the person lah

actually, it depends A LOT on the person

with ppl like CLEMENT. nothing he does will EVER make me wanna be more than just " hi bye" acquaintances

disgusting.

and to think he's "singaporean" too. faux-singaporean.

more details if you ask me abt it whenever.

well, ok..looks like i need to get started on my readings

would you believe it? ive got no work to do last night and tonight

and im looking for work to do

i guess i feel guilty? AHAHAH!

rARE HUH?

well its the last night in a long while.

starting 2mr the madness begins again

well the readings were enjoyable anyway

art therapy readings. really refreshing yet insightful.

and im slowly embracing art a little more through the daily journal tt i have to draw in

and Allen, P.B. really wrote some insightful things which i liked

and i think i really like coloured pencils :)

gonna get me some charcoal too for drawing.

OK...losing my train of thought

not tt there was much of it to begin with

so yea...im off to enjoy my evening.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010 @ 3/17/2010 08:03:00 AM

totally braindead

seriously

4 to 5 hrs of sleep 2 days in a row + analysis of research papers for the amount of time you're awake is seriously no joke

my group members are off to ask the lecturer sth now
so im alone looking after the laptops
feeling constipated but i can't go to the toilet

my brainwave is ----------------------------
my eyes are dry
im complaining

ok back to work
hopefully i'll blog sth more interesting later

Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 3/14/2010 03:39:00 PM

OMG i totally LOVE the point at 3.14.

i dont know why

it just climaxes the whole heartache

LOVE IT
and how he does it with such ease
and how the emotions...oh man. im dying inside.

3.00 onwards is where it begins...
not to mention the lyrics are SO TOTALLY my type of lyrics.
AHAHHA! love it baby.

waiting for laundry to dry now then gg back to cook dinner

after that gotta continue my search strategy

goodness

ugh

where can i find ppl that sound and look like that?
if they could dance like them it'd be a bonus
maybe this is why i am destined to be single for life.
ahahaha!

WAAAAOOOOWWW~~

Friday, March 12, 2010 @ 3/12/2010 08:45:00 PM

thoughts

well

ok this is random but i need to get it out of my system
i dunno why everyone is like DYING to go back to sg
i mean i dont LOVE it here
but i dont hate it either
i mean
i guess im just living life as it is
maybe im adaptable?
maybe im easily content?
i have no idea

but its killing my mojo baby
i mean PEOPLE PEOPLE PLEASE
like ive said last sem and i will say it again this sem
you win some, you lose some
you experience stuff here you wouldnt otherwise had you never left sg
im sure youd acknowledge some things here really suck cf to sg
but some things rock cf to sg
so well..im not particularly homesick
in fact its to the point i could give it an ultimatum

i mean
i dunno
you just LIVE
theres nothing to love or hate
sure there is comparison
but to me its an experience
you dont compare experiences coz its just different in all contexts and content
just EXPERIENCE
learn stuff and learn ABOUT yourself

not many ppl have this opportunity
and we have it
so lets just...enjoy it for all its shit and its non-shit moments

i dunno why i sound particularly optimistic
i mean..i dunno..its not a phase if tts what you're wondering
maybe things have been working out for me pretty ok so far so maybe tts why my experience is diff
but oh well
experience. seems to be popping up a lot today. heh.
to each his/her own.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 3/10/2010 06:36:00 PM

new creation

WHEEE

so here is presenting my new experimental dish

KIMCHI FRIED RICE

WHEEEE HEEEEE!!!

it was nice

a little too spicy maybe but yea..it hit the spot for today

well im supposed to be doing my research search strategy now but totally distracted

partly coz ive been doing it over and over again

with shit results each time i do it

just a matter of which shit is better than the other tts all

AHAHAHH!

hiaz

which just means endless ploughing for it

well 2mr tower parties are gg on

guess who's not going?!

im gg for a more controlled kinda fun

free dinner with unicare!

WHEEEE!!! i love free dinners esp when they fall on tower party days

and grocery shopping after that

oh i forgot to add tt we started one of our electives this week

introduction to art therapy

it was kinda interesting

and so is our assignment

at least one of it its not words words words and MORE words kinda thing although we HAVE a report to do

but we actually get to create sth

and we have to keep a drawing journal

so everyday we draw sth in it

i havent done today's post though..just ran ard buying all the art supplies today

heh

well..ive always been apprehensive as long as its got to do with drawing

traumatising memories with art lessons

crushed my confidence totally

but still...art therapy isnt so much abt creating art...its the process

like all types of therapy i guess

so yea...its one of those subjects where you get to discover yourself in the process of learning abt it

love it

no entirely right or wrong answer

but there is a right way of getting to the answer

the answer is sth that only you can come up with

does tt make sense?

anyway

ok i think tts abt it from me today

i was supposed to post pics from my bsb concert (which was DAEBAK!) but i think ill do tt 2mr when im bored from my search strategy again

WHEEE!

go check out my vid on FB! :)

Monday, March 01, 2010 @ 3/01/2010 06:46:00 PM

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY MELIA! :)

this is for everyone who still gives a damn abt my blog

and actually wanna know how melia's 23rd went in aus

WITH MEEEEEE

THE LIGHT OF EVERYONE'S LIFE :)

AHAHAHAHAHAH!!

we went for mass at 1.30pm coz our dear amelia couldnt wake up earlier

after mass we went for korean lunch

with real koreans as the staff..AHAHAH!

so as we wait for our lunch melia finally gets hold of her present

wrapped in newspaper coz i was out of wrapping paper when i wrapped it in sg

heh

so lunch finally ARRIVED
crap im hungry just looking at it again
kimchi stew and beef bulgogi

the bulgogi was sweet though

dunno if its meant to be but yea it was...

kimchi stew had a buttery taste. interesting. but my PS foodcourt $5 version can rival it ANY time

as well as the one at QV market...ok so moving on..

melia wanted to pose(which she doesnt normally do)

she looked like the true inner ahlian tt she is.

AHAHAHAH!

after tt we went to get melia's birthday eggtart

so we settle down in front of the state library to eat our eggtarts and bubble tea

melia flicks the crumbs from the eggtart and pigeons attack

ok not attack but they're like vultures...AHHAHA!

ok so other than melia's bdae
some pics of my new room

its slightly smaller than my prev room
so my table's orientation had to change
which is better anyway

ok...finally done blogging
gonna return to my room soon
lesson at 11 2mr...then its great luggage movement when fiona lands..AHAHAH
ohhhh boyyyyy

@ 3/01/2010 10:27:00 AM

so it begins

so well

im blogging this like a 20 minutes before i have to leave for my 1st lesson of the semester
well today like all 1st days of school is mainly introductory as i would expect
so yea

anyway
so im settled on a new floor of my hostel
but same room, at the corner beside the kitchen again (which is good)
my neighbours are......unfriendly again..or rather cliqueish
im surrounded by mainly ang mohs again who tend to gather
the one asian guy who i see nearby (again...same layout seriously) mispronounced my name as the classic "VE-NEE-SAH" when they were trying to clear the fridge and needed to know if i had stuff inside
and other than tt he's just gaming everytime i walk by his room
i think the new ppl are all on the other side
or rather the OTHER asians (again)

creating excuses for myself again but seriously...this socialising shit is TOTALLY and has NEVER been my forte EVER
its a wonder i even have friends really...ahahah! im amazed sometimes..
OH WELL
been through it last sem...no diff now anyway..
whatever lah huh? ahaha just see how it goes lor
felt super lost last time coz i was new to everything
now tt i more or less know my way ard....
wadeva lah...this place really is a place for me to fulfill my basic needs and study..

ANYWAYYYY!!!!
i met melia in the city yest for mass and for her bdae celebration
ill load the pics later when i go to the common room tonight..or later...AHHAH!

what else?
oh my creative headphones kinda died (softer on one side)
so much for hunting and hunting in sg and just hoping in the end it wont die
but lucky i bought AND brought my sennheiser ones
so they are doubling for my laptop and ipod now
lets hope i dont kill it
better tell my sis to buy a pair and bring for me when they come down in a month's time
WHEEE
and they have to take home some of my clothes

so much for summer my ass man
its getting cold again
its like taiwan temperature on a warmer day
or towards the warmer days of winter while i was in melb the last time
its autum tempt lah
so all my shorts can bring back liao..not tt i brought a lot but yea
and i brought too many exceess tees and stuff forgetting i left some here
SO YEA

OK! im crapping and takling to myself again
and i need to leave in abt 5 mins anyway
so yea...ill end off here and return tonight

affiliates Amelia Valerie Fiona Ying Hui Maylyn Alethea Yimei Kin Sing Sarah Shu Zhen ACAREAK
Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 3/21/2010 07:44:00 PM random random i know but suddenly the topic of dreams came to mind again and you know what? i have a plan and i will do all i can to make it work i needed to write it down here for reaffirmation the thought of it is so exciting somehow shudders in excitement :) music does wonders to your mood. back to top?
@ 3/21/2010 06:24:00 PM ugh im just digging up roots that i dont want explore why did i even bother? i knew i'd get pissed and upset its DISGUSTING the way she promotes and shows her "pride" is detestful almost and when she comes down to...oh great.... im sorry but i just cannot stomach it. its always easier to accept when the person isnt someone you've grown up with call me disillusioned but i believe deep down in the crux of it all...she's not. she has the weirdest/worst coping strategies on this earth. always been wanting to "rebel" and go against the "norm" i still believe that she's just experimenting. and i can only pray that she decides soon. for goodness sake...shes turning 20 this year. ok i dunno lah ok my brain seriously cannot even begin to think straight when it comes to her how do you address stuff like that? seriously. being open-minded doesn't mean that i have to like it it just means tt i dont impose my values and pass judgement but if you ask me personally: its disgusting. full-stop. and she feels injustice when she's not allowed to do the things i do e.g study overseas, stay out late....ok these are the only things i can think of off-hand now tell me, what has she done to earn the trust from my parents to do them? she is so messed up its just a reminder for me to not bother with her life i dunno if its the right way my training tells me no but my heart tells me yes we are 2 VERY different people where do i even begin? back to top?
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 3/19/2010 06:48:00 PM Nothing Better wow im feeling emo again ok emo-ish i think these songs are just striking a chord with me recently like ive like them before but sometimes it takes time for you to totally fall in love with the song these 2 are covers of the original both sound good in their own way diff feel. 1) 2AM's SEULONG's version ( fantastic falsetto, smooth, powerful) 2) SHINee's JONGHYUN's version (more airy but more feel somehow, heartache factor: A++) love it man. maybe its also just striking a chord with the convo topics these few days i dont even know what im feeling i dont even know why im feeling this way its not to a stage where its bugging me and depressing me but its just...it puts me in that mood. maybe my heads' too up there in the sky... oh well... back to top?
Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 3/18/2010 05:28:00 PM i don't want to get it its happening the drift i can feel its effects changes tt occur you're not there to experience it the catching up you can feel you'll need to do I DUNNO LAH OK blame the fact tt maybe im kinda outta my zone now from my swim just now it was good though i had a headache while i was swimming but yea i like the feeling once you've settled on a good speed and you can just keep going if no one stops you and i like the feeling when you're done swimming, showering and just walking out/home your whole body feels less tense,muscles all loosened. and after that you just go into a STONE yet calm and peaceful mode weirdly it relaxes me,its the only exercise tt calms me. others get my adrenaline pumping like it should *i love the water.* my mind is in a fuzz now so be prepared for a highly random post ahead. im just gg with da flowwww~ some ppl have ALL the luck some ppl have SOME luck some ppl have a little less luck i think i fall under the "some" luck category i dunno my brain is gg into some weird meditative reflective mode now so i shall just feed it . . . . . i've always believed that you win some, you lose some i've wondered if i or people rather, would be happier if we had the choice which half we wanted to keep and/or willing to lose? i mean..is anything worth sacrificing at the expense of the other? every experience no matter how sucky or how great, there will always be something to learn from it ok this blog post is gonna be full of random thoughts i just ran from a beatle (ugh) in the fishbowl area so now i ran back to my fave study room and im slightly awake its been some time since i was last here the stupid rain tt flooded this room made this room out of bounds for some time OH WELL well lemme talk abt my new korean friend on my floor its so cute the way they pronounce it as "Ko-ri-an"..ahaha! she's new and she needed help with setting her watch so i helped her with it she said her name was julian and i thought i heard wrongly and assumed it was julia julian is a guy's name no? anyway..i was smsing alethea and sam, telling them abt how when i heard her name the 1st thing tt came to my mind was " JULIETTE! HO~" then alethea asked me what was her korean name so i thought...aiyah just go ask lah (trust me, i had to rehearse how i would ask her...i THINK too much for my own good sometimes) so i went and yes, her name is really julian and guess why? korean name : jooyoung ( im assuming tts the spelling) later she wanted to know how to get the LAN cable and what time menzies was opened so i helped her check on the internet and invited her into my room, sat on my bed she's the 4th person to ever enter my room other than myself its visited nightly by fiona, weekly by the cleaner and the maintenance guy who came once to fix my cupboard so yea..talked to her and stuff, gave her some of my clothes hangers and she told me tt i could go hang out in her room next time when she's finally unpacked and settled down so YAY to me! see...i can be really friendly when i want to :) im a nice person lor. AHAH! it also depends on the person lah actually, it depends A LOT on the person with ppl like CLEMENT. nothing he does will EVER make me wanna be more than just " hi bye" acquaintances disgusting. and to think he's "singaporean" too. faux-singaporean. more details if you ask me abt it whenever. well, ok..looks like i need to get started on my readings would you believe it? ive got no work to do last night and tonight and im looking for work to do i guess i feel guilty? AHAHAH! rARE HUH? well its the last night in a long while. starting 2mr the madness begins again well the readings were enjoyable anyway art therapy readings. really refreshing yet insightful. and im slowly embracing art a little more through the daily journal tt i have to draw in and Allen, P.B. really wrote some insightful things which i liked and i think i really like coloured pencils :) gonna get me some charcoal too for drawing. OK...losing my train of thought not tt there was much of it to begin with so yea...im off to enjoy my evening. back to top?
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 @ 3/17/2010 08:03:00 AM totally braindead seriously 4 to 5 hrs of sleep 2 days in a row + analysis of research papers for the amount of time you're awake is seriously no joke my group members are off to ask the lecturer sth now so im alone looking after the laptops feeling constipated but i can't go to the toilet my brainwave is ---------------------------- my eyes are dry im complaining ok back to work hopefully i'll blog sth more interesting later back to top?
Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 3/14/2010 03:39:00 PM OMG i totally LOVE the point at 3.14. i dont know why it just climaxes the whole heartache LOVE IT and how he does it with such ease and how the emotions...oh man. im dying inside. 3.00 onwards is where it begins... not to mention the lyrics are SO TOTALLY my type of lyrics. AHAHHA! love it baby. waiting for laundry to dry now then gg back to cook dinner after that gotta continue my search strategy goodness ugh where can i find ppl that sound and look like that? if they could dance like them it'd be a bonus maybe this is why i am destined to be single for life. ahahaha! WAAAAOOOOWWW~~ back to top?
Friday, March 12, 2010 @ 3/12/2010 08:45:00 PM thoughts well ok this is random but i need to get it out of my system i dunno why everyone is like DYING to go back to sg i mean i dont LOVE it here but i dont hate it either i mean i guess im just living life as it is maybe im adaptable? maybe im easily content? i have no idea but its killing my mojo baby i mean PEOPLE PEOPLE PLEASE like ive said last sem and i will say it again this sem you win some, you lose some you experience stuff here you wouldnt otherwise had you never left sg im sure youd acknowledge some things here really suck cf to sg but some things rock cf to sg so well..im not particularly homesick in fact its to the point i could give it an ultimatum i mean i dunno you just LIVE theres nothing to love or hate sure there is comparison but to me its an experience you dont compare experiences coz its just different in all contexts and content just EXPERIENCE learn stuff and learn ABOUT yourself not many ppl have this opportunity and we have it so lets just...enjoy it for all its shit and its non-shit moments i dunno why i sound particularly optimistic i mean..i dunno..its not a phase if tts what you're wondering maybe things have been working out for me pretty ok so far so maybe tts why my experience is diff but oh well experience. seems to be popping up a lot today. heh. to each his/her own. back to top?
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 3/10/2010 06:36:00 PM new creation WHEEE so here is presenting my new experimental dish KIMCHI FRIED RICE WHEEEE HEEEEE!!! it was nice a little too spicy maybe but yea..it hit the spot for today well im supposed to be doing my research search strategy now but totally distracted partly coz ive been doing it over and over again with shit results each time i do it just a matter of which shit is better than the other tts all AHAHAHH! hiaz which just means endless ploughing for it well 2mr tower parties are gg on guess who's not going?! im gg for a more controlled kinda fun free dinner with unicare! WHEEEE!!! i love free dinners esp when they fall on tower party days and grocery shopping after that oh i forgot to add tt we started one of our electives this week introduction to art therapy it was kinda interesting and so is our assignment at least one of it its not words words words and MORE words kinda thing although we HAVE a report to do but we actually get to create sth and we have to keep a drawing journal so everyday we draw sth in it i havent done today's post though..just ran ard buying all the art supplies today heh well..ive always been apprehensive as long as its got to do with drawing traumatising memories with art lessons crushed my confidence totally but still...art therapy isnt so much abt creating art...its the process like all types of therapy i guess so yea...its one of those subjects where you get to discover yourself in the process of learning abt it love it no entirely right or wrong answer but there is a right way of getting to the answer the answer is sth that only you can come up with does tt make sense? anyway ok i think tts abt it from me today i was supposed to post pics from my bsb concert (which was DAEBAK!) but i think ill do tt 2mr when im bored from my search strategy again WHEEE! go check out my vid on FB! :) back to top?
Monday, March 01, 2010 @ 3/01/2010 06:46:00 PM HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY MELIA! :) this is for everyone who still gives a damn abt my blog and actually wanna know how melia's 23rd went in aus WITH MEEEEEE THE LIGHT OF EVERYONE'S LIFE :) AHAHAHAHAHAH!! we went for mass at 1.30pm coz our dear amelia couldnt wake up earlier after mass we went for korean lunch with real koreans as the staff..AHAHAH! so as we wait for our lunch melia finally gets hold of her present wrapped in newspaper coz i was out of wrapping paper when i wrapped it in sg heh so lunch finally ARRIVED crap im hungry just looking at it again kimchi stew and beef bulgogi the bulgogi was sweet though dunno if its meant to be but yea it was... kimchi stew had a buttery taste. interesting. but my PS foodcourt $5 version can rival it ANY time as well as the one at QV market...ok so moving on.. melia wanted to pose(which she doesnt normally do) she looked like the true inner ahlian tt she is. AHAHAHAH! after tt we went to get melia's birthday eggtart so we settle down in front of the state library to eat our eggtarts and bubble tea melia flicks the crumbs from the eggtart and pigeons attack ok not attack but they're like vultures...AHHAHA! ok so other than melia's bdae some pics of my new room its slightly smaller than my prev room so my table's orientation had to change which is better anyway ok...finally done blogging gonna return to my room soon lesson at 11 2mr...then its great luggage movement when fiona lands..AHAHAH ohhhh boyyyyy back to top?
@ 3/01/2010 10:27:00 AM so it begins so well im blogging this like a 20 minutes before i have to leave for my 1st lesson of the semester well today like all 1st days of school is mainly introductory as i would expect so yea anyway so im settled on a new floor of my hostel but same room, at the corner beside the kitchen again (which is good) my neighbours are......unfriendly again..or rather cliqueish im surrounded by mainly ang mohs again who tend to gather the one asian guy who i see nearby (again...same layout seriously) mispronounced my name as the classic "VE-NEE-SAH" when they were trying to clear the fridge and needed to know if i had stuff inside and other than tt he's just gaming everytime i walk by his room i think the new ppl are all on the other side or rather the OTHER asians (again) creating excuses for myself again but seriously...this socialising shit is TOTALLY and has NEVER been my forte EVER its a wonder i even have friends really...ahahah! im amazed sometimes.. OH WELL been through it last sem...no diff now anyway.. whatever lah huh? ahaha just see how it goes lor felt super lost last time coz i was new to everything now tt i more or less know my way ard.... wadeva lah...this place really is a place for me to fulfill my basic needs and study.. ANYWAYYYY!!!! i met melia in the city yest for mass and for her bdae celebration ill load the pics later when i go to the common room tonight..or later...AHHAH! what else? oh my creative headphones kinda died (softer on one side) so much for hunting and hunting in sg and just hoping in the end it wont die but lucky i bought AND brought my sennheiser ones so they are doubling for my laptop and ipod now lets hope i dont kill it better tell my sis to buy a pair and bring for me when they come down in a month's time WHEEE and they have to take home some of my clothes so much for summer my ass man its getting cold again its like taiwan temperature on a warmer day or towards the warmer days of winter while i was in melb the last time its autum tempt lah so all my shorts can bring back liao..not tt i brought a lot but yea and i brought too many exceess tees and stuff forgetting i left some here SO YEA OK! im crapping and takling to myself again and i need to leave in abt 5 mins anyway so yea...ill end off here and return tonight back to top?