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found this on nick's blog...enneagrams....well..they have a full test but you gotta pay 10 bucks for tt ..there's free version i feel tts good enough...go do lah!!! ahaha..i had a tie in the 2 diff types out of the 9 that they have...so...yea..gonna put them both...



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Type One
The Reformer
The principled, idealistic type. Ones are conscientious and ethical, with a strong sense of right and wrong. They are teachers, crusaders, and advocates for change: always striving to improve things, but afraid of making a mistake. Well-organized, orderly, and fastidious, they try to maintain high standards, but can slip into being critical and perfectionistic. They typically have problems with resentment and impatience. At their Best: wise, discerning, realistic, and noble. Can be morally heroic.



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Type Four
The Individualist
The introspective, romantic type. Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity. At their Best: inspired and highly creative, they are able to renew themselves and transform their experiences.

somehow...btwn the 2....i'd say i'm more of a type 1...........but type 4 is kinda correct too..but...i dunno...wad you guys think?? ahaha..both lah huh? still missing tt one lil thing tho....hmmm... back to top?

kena hooked again...can't stop listening again...here's UCLA Awaken with Chariot...i prefer the guy in the white shirt...as in the soloist but the other guy has a strong voice as well..esp his high notes are nicely done...............wad can i say man? they rock!!



just wanted to share this...was watching tt retarded show on mtv otherwise known as room raiders..and it was a girl raiding the rooms of these 3 guys...and in one of them she found this guy's grad robe and mistakened it for a choir robe...did look like i guess...and she was like gg all : " er...ewww...ok...i sooooooOOOOOOOooooo do not dig choir guys...i mean.....wad IS up with tt man?? like i need a guy tt can be a real man.......singing just doesn't cut it...as long as you're a piece of meat....tt'll do..." the only thing i can say to that ? yD

also, it goes along with tt whole sports is always cooler crap...gosh...i'm happy my sis got tt award....doesn't matter if its a school's colours award or not...makes a diff.....MWHAAHAHAH!!! ok...i'm still waiting for jon to get back to me abt pract this week...i dunno if my hp is having probs or not...so hard to decide on pract this week man..oh well....

getting my retainers 2mr hopefully....if not i gotta make another trip another time...hiaz...oh well....meeting fio in a while for a short walk..heh... back to top?

man...my pectoralis muscles (on your chest just below the collarbone) are aching like crap...and so are my abdominal muscles...ouch man...my sis and i have been having this 1 hr intensive work out the past few days comprising of badminton and situps and pushups and stuff....OUCH MAN....im hurting...thats how unfit i am...hiaz...to think there'll be napfa in yr 3.....sheesh man...i've had enough napfas to know im unfit....not even gonna bother trying to pass my SBJ...sheesh...

so anyway...i broke my retainers yest..the small wire in front connecting the plastic to the wire broke so i sent it back to the dentist and i'm retainer-less again...feels good...but my teeth are moving again...hope i get it back on thurs...heh..

well...this week...dad's on leave..and mum was on leave yest and today...so we went out as a family...hiaz...even my mum recognizes tt meals are the only times tt the family is REALLY together when we're altogether...when we're out shopping we usually split 3 ways and all..its quite sad but i guess wads impt is the knowing tt we're all making effort to spend time together...tts more than enough for me...feel kinda sad for my dad when we go out sometimes...coz...well..he moves off on his own and to all the shops tt...well..are male-ish and dad-ish....sometimes i think maybe having a brother or being a "jonathan kwek"would have been good...my dad wld have some sort of male company....hiaz...oh well...

but anyway...been clothes window shopping with my sis..gg into forever 21 and fox ( YEA!!) and stuff just trying nice clothes...admiring ourselves in the mirror on how nice it looks then taking it off and passing it to the salesgirl and lying to her telling her we dun like it or tt we'll pass when she asks how it is...hiaz....so sad....saw a darn nice top at forever 21 but its 43 bucks!!! ahhhh!!! and 2 tops at fox...23 and 29 each....its OK but also a lil too much to pay....so......hiaz...oh well..got a cheap top at $12 from some cart tho..so tts cool...my sis is gonna use it for her speech and prize presentation on fri...so tts good..ahhaa..

speaking of which..she's got the colours award for cca aka CHOIR!!!! ms goh nominated her...its soo cool coz usually...well..it seems like colours awards is only for sports ppl...at least when i was still in STC...so YAY!!!!! and im supposed to go see her and prob bringing fio and melia along ....YAY!!!!!!!! CHOIR ROCKS MAN...........................gawd i miss it like crap....but having the gang is just as good...besides..the only thing i miss abt choir is the group sound....other than tt...heh...its always been the lil grps tt im in tt makes being in a choir so damn SHIOK!! all my good friends are somehow weirdly enough ALWAYS from choir...in STC and in CJ....no wonder i have no good friends in NYP...as in...all we talk abt is class and sch work...missing out on that ALL IMPT part of MY life...MUSIC.....at least sam is somewhat a music and singing person....maybe we SHOULD have tt talentime she's been proposing for soo long...hmmmm...wait...i thot im leaving the SC......? heh...

listening to imogen heap now...and all my new songs i got today..heh...wheeeeee... back to top?

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i feel soo messed up and confused and irritated..

i dun wanna go school 2mr lehhhh....hiaz..but i dun have a choice..they've even threatened us with a lit review tt we have to do if we're absent...goodness....we're 19/20 man...surely we shld be given the righ to decide to go for sth or not right?? if it was an NYP thing...ok..i get it...but ...hiaz...dunno lah...just being a brat again today...

and i can't believe i TOTALLY forgot abt sarah's brirthday thing and i was putting it off until i forgot abt it and then it happened tonight..fantastic..thanks for reminding me tannie =) i've got sth for sarah 2mr in school so ...i hope its good enough...=S

anyway...another bdae coming up which is a lil tricky.....totally unsure of what the state of things are man...dun even know wad we're supposed to do...do drop any of us a msg if you're reading this and let us know what is the state of our friendship is now...coz to me...tho you're out of the singing...i dun think the friendship is exactly over unless you want it to be...so yea...free and easy man...FREE AND EASY.....i think..heh..

ok...i need to be in school by 830 2mr..i shld sleep now if i wanna be on time...i wun be online 2mr.. so..sms me guys!!!! a night at swissotel coming right up !! back to top?

ahahaha...

ok...what has happened?

well..melia went to get her wisdom tooth out yest..to think she was looking forward to it..ahahaha!!! well..yea i guess in the long run..but the op itself and the aftermath is just *shudder* bleah...my sis and i went with her to her dental appt at 9am...oh goodness..i was a shlump and so was my sis..so well..had breakfast and waited for her tooth to be out and then..for the first time in my life..i see melia life-less...ahaha..ok..not 1st time but yea...and its soo cool her whole wisdom tooth cmae out in a whole piece...mine were in pieces...but oh well...not looking forward to my next 2 wisdom teeth tt have to come out on the upper jaw...i dun have a choice abt it somemore...

we then all took a taxi back to her house..my sis cooked porridge and i fell asleep on her couch..i went to get some dishes to eat with the porridge and then had lunch and well..went home..tt was wed...

today........made earring stand with fio then went for lumch at gwc and came home to do chores..whoopee.....tired as of now..

2mr..supposed to go with fio to her sewing machine exhibition at expo (O.o??!?!) ahaha...yea man...she wants to get one but we'll see how and later at night suppposed to go catch music and lyrics but well..everything abt 2mr is so tentative and i'm too tired to even wanna plan anything..

and i am NOT looking forward to saturday man..i mean..the day time tt is...got the stupid student conference thing...where all the yr 3s present their final yr papers...like WTH...i thot it wld be from like 830 to 12 or sth...NO..its 830 to 230pm!!!!! OMG!!!! and we're just gonna sit there and listen to their papers and all...my goodnessss.....i mean..it might be interesting but the thought of it all is just disturbing..its so tiring..and it doesn't help tt we have an SAOTSC meeting aft tt which usually takes FOREVER and not to mention the EVEN longer adhoc meeting for the ASG after that...wad time will it all be done? i say safely 530 pm...UGHHH!!!! my sat wasted away in sch...not to mention a sat where my mum had booked a room in raffles hotel for the family to spend the weekend together...that is the only part of sat tt i will be looking forward too....

seems like i hate school and the SC now right? yea...lets just leave it tt way for now...none of my classmates know the existence of my blog so i dun really give a shit now..i am gonna quit the SC....at least tts wad my current state of mind tells me to do...all tt i do..my attendence and all and my "voluntarism" is all just obligatory..its been soo long since i actually participated in sth outside of academics for the school so reluctantly........know why?? its NOT music related in any way...its not CHOIR RELATED......i dun even know how i can help..tts why i think its a waste of my time.....and this is why i need acareak if not i WILL go mad..

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went disney crazy..and since the lastest disney movie i've watched is the little mermaid...here are my 2 fave songs..isn't ariel so pretty? ahaha...love her hair..and her eyes...heh...and i really love this girl's voice....actually..the movie version of any song is always nicer...

Part Of Your World:


and here's another fave...when the animals get involved its so cute..ahahaa..and the prince has a nice voice....DUH right....like there has ever been a disney prince tt has a crappy voice....has there? ahaha..

Kiss The Girl:
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WHEEE!!!!

BOOK OF LOVE ROCKS MAN...keeps playing in my head everytime there is nth to occupy it..ahaha..we shld do tt once its done and maybe we shld do "Is she really gg out with him "or sth? one of the completed songs? yea..

anyway...my braces are off!!!! my lower jaw one tt is...and now i'm wearing retainers...i got green glitter ones..ahaahaha...DUH right? but it looks turquoise leh...but anyways...yea...i was debating btwn a purple one and well...many others but i thot i'd better just stick to GREEN..and well..the glitter green's the best =) my upper set will be off in 3 weeks time and then wisdom teeth have to come out again..whoopee...speaking of wisdom teeth..melia's are coming out on wed...ahaha...yay for her...heh..

wad else has happened this week? hmm...OH...we went back to STC to perform for the girls in the end...thought we might as well..so we did..butterfly and hide and seek it was...and well..ms goh liked butterfly tho it wasn't our best version but i guess it was ok..heh..hide and seek tho performed for the 1st time..it was a good first time so yea guys...we're getting there...

speaking of singing and all...loads of drama has happened throughout the course of this week...my reaction in general to this whole soap?

MIXED FEELINGS

anger, dissapointment, marvel, a WEE BIT of guilt, sadness and indifference=NUMBNESS...numb ness...ahaha...works both ways...but oh well...i guess its for the better and we just have to keep looking forward...i dunno wad relations are now to be precise since the professional working relation and boundary was apparently not present in this situation and it turned somewhat personal..is friendship still there?? i have no idea..and well...we'll see..

aside from tt...went to esplanade last night with melia,jon,tannie and my sis for the mosaic fest..well...we made a wrong choice of wasting a good 30 mins at the outdoor theatre with some local band...they were not too bad at first then aft a while the guy's voice turned whiny..decided to go inside the concourse to see wad was gg on and well..it was WAAAAYYY better man..the guy was damn cool..NICE VOICE..ernie halter if i'm not wrong..one man show..with the guitar and piano too i guess..sounded like a john mayer and jason mraz fusion kinda thing gg on..could GROOVE man..but oh well..aft tt hung out at HMV and boogied and sang to mika's grace kelly and lollipop tt was playing at HMV...and also sang every backstreet boy song tt i saw on the 5 BSB albums i found...FUN MAN...mwhahaha...i was on a music high..i usually am esp when i see boyband cds...the tunes and lyrics just spill out of my mouth...........wad?? nostalgia mahhh..ahaha..plus they're all in my COMFY range...mwhahaha...

ok...tts it for now...i better stop playing with my retainers...got a feeling they may go out of shape..=S back to top?

OMGOMGOMG!!!!!

i am SOO relieved....i PASSED EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!

actually..i have mixed reactions...as always...

everything B+s except for one B and one C+....tts a somewhat improvement from last sem where Cs and Bs were more or less equal...i'm sad coz my physio got a C+ when it was a B+ last sem but i guess i shld thank my lucky stars i din fail considering how prepared i was...anat has jumped from C to B+..WHEE!!! and LLD which i thot i wld die for i got a B+!!! GREAT HUH?!!! and GPA for yr 1 is 2.992....i dunno if tts good or bad really...to go uni i need 3 or sth.....hmm...ok..i hope it doesn't seem like i'm here bragging abt my results...not tt there's much to brag abt tho..but i just needed an outlet...i was soo worried abt it a while ago i ACTUALLY felt nauseous...ok...at least i can go have fun 2mr without too much of worry...=)) back to top?

what am i doing here??

i oso dunno...

i'm just so damn BORED...

well..considering tt i just recieved the hanakimi vcd pack from daniel who got it from may...i shld have sth to do...but then again...i'm not the obsessive type..if i watch it all in a day i'll get bored and sick of it very easily...its coz of the corny moments and the itchy moments...other than tt the storyline is somwhat predictable...so....tts why i can't watch it too much..but...WU ZUN ROCKS MAN!!! =))) i'm sure i have many ppl who agree with me whether you are a closet wuzun fan or a crazy enough fan to self name a fan club with current membershnip standing of one ahaha...today's ep was so damn corny...you guy have to watch it man...ahahah...ep12 on youtube if i'm not wrong...

anyway...2mr gg to melia's to HANG...gonna help her with lunch preperation of which she's gonna prepare for my sis and i..ahahaa...i hear the menu she's serving up consist of sambal kangkong, kung pao chicken ( jia kantang here) and potato soup..ahahaa...then we're gonna try to figure out a score for RAINBOW CONNECTION and possibly amazing grace if we're not too tired...and well...hmm...wad am i gonna do on wed? maybe i'll just stay home...or shld i go shopping for my sling bag? hmm...dunno man....and then thurs...STC day again..i hope all goes well man....and the time and effort is all worth it i hope...hiaz...i dunno lah...

and i feel tt i NEED TO STUDY LEHHHHH...HOWHOWHOW???!!! but everytime i think abt it i just wanna cry and i dun wanna.............how? and when i think abt it...i think abt how melia is gonna fly away soon...and then...i dunno wads gonna happen..i know i still have fio and the CJ gang somewhat..but its still one less person around..one less significant person...i need someone to study with...someone to meet aft sch just to have bubble tea...someone who i can rant my complaints and baised opinions abt sch and my classmates..someone i know who can spare the time to listen.....i feel soo sad just thinking abt it...for the past 3 yrs i've been spending nearly 90% of my time with melia and now in a matter of months she's not gonna be here...its just.....a VERY huge adjustment i have to make whether i like it or not and i..............i dunno lah......its not tt i treasure any of you any less than i do with melia..its just...a change and we all know how vanessa kwek deals with changes right? NOT TOO WELL...hiaz..this is getting soo damn depressing i'm just gonna stop, i'm starting to sound like some whiny sad case..let 2mr be a nice day..... back to top?

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i dunno wad i'm feeling...like this conflict of emotions...i dunno why and whether i shld or not...wadeva the reasoning behind it...i'm feeling it and its not good...

i dunno lah..sheesh man....i dun need this.....i feel like a hypocrite man.......the last kind of ppl tt i ever want to come in contact with........hiaz...i dunno lah... back to top?

dun ask me why i'm up at this time blogging...

i have no idea myself..

well...i guess i just needed an outlet lah..boredom outlet..ahaha

well...we went to celebrate melia's and may's VERY belated birthdays...well..it was nice meeting and and talking and all...even tho it was a short night ...i guess its always nice to see old friends and talk and hang...yea...well..sorry the "cake" turned NUA...ahaha...and tt the candles could not be lit...stupid fans...but thanks to the power of IMAGINAAATION...all things are possible..hahaha =))

well...got some stuff to settle with ppl...later today i'll be discussing with khad abt everything to do with school...then aft tt have to discuss friday with melia and jon abt fri and i have to contact ms goh/ mrs ng...ahaha.. remember ness...remember...

ANYWAY...the hanakimi craze is SWEEPING OVER everyone....you can run but you can't hide..ahaha..my mum is CRAZY over wu zun aka quan aka THE HOTTIE..ahahaa...she's really..worse than me...in fact i'm not even obsessing...haha..she went to buy the 2 mags tt have come out recently featuring fahrenheit..they're mags in MANDARIN..my family's mandarin skills are just ........lets not talk abt it...anyway..she bought them and only for like 2 pages worth of pics in each...i was telling her she's worse than a teenage girl and she just smiled and said " dun worry lah..1 month and it'll pass" as she continued to flip thru the mag...ahaha...goodnesssss...and well..now fio the new consumer of the SHOW hanakimi is also a new fan of the wuzun fan club..ahaha...wad was it again ah dan? WI--......haha..

anyway....i kinda ran out of things to say...i guess tts it for now...heh...hanakimi in 18hrs time...MWHAHAH!!! back to top?

dunno why..

felt so...confused....for some weird reason...i can't even put my finger to what exactly abt..but anyway..i got my "frustrations" and "confusion" and "conflictedness" out of my system...so tho i still dunno why i was feeling the way i did....i'm just feeling a lot better.....=)

anyway...had some inspiration today...felt tt we shld sing some hymns for a change....yea...got the swingle singers amazing grace tho arranged for SSAA...can somehow turn it for 6 parts....it looks simple enough...improvise abit it shld be sing-able..heh...

anyway...session at STC was not bad..the choir has a more united sound compared to before...they really sound like a girl's choir....soft and light...somehow...ahaha..but yea..ms goh still wants our help...thinking of gg back..dun really know how they need my help....coz anymore rectification tt i see tt is needed is really gg intensive liao...coz the A2s now are .....well...good..ahhha...better than when i was ard...they can catch a tune..no one's THAT tone deaf..now is gg into the WAY they sing..which..is gonna be hard to change...and ppl are not willing to change unless they want to...so....tts treading on thin ice...hmm..but as usual..if i think its necessary..i'll do it...heh..

anyway.....lemme rant abt the hotness on ch U every weekday at 7pm....ok..maybe i'm just deprived.........................sue me...but yea..ahahahaa....and other than hanakimi...goodness...i love watching him hug the lead actress.....its soo nice..coz she's soo small sized and he's so tall and well-built...when she hugs him..she's like totally ENGULFED in his arms and shoulders...it looks soo damn comfy..ahaha...looks damn nice...but anyway...other than tt...tokyo juliet (the title of tt other show) is really a reatrded show...i only watch it for the itchy moments (i'm bored,single-ish and deprived) and i like watching them hug and well..there's a hot guy? except his hair there SUCKS.....curls are just BAD on him...ahaha..

but well..the storyline is like BAD..darn predictable..and in every ep they make up and break up at least 2wice..the girl is soo stupid she ALWAYS does sth to piss him off just aft they get back together and aft every 3rd party is gone..another comes long...so...irritating tt she's soo damn stupid..but i guess tts the only way he can be potrayed as the perfect lover character tt he plays...always loving her and protecting her no matter how stupid she is..ahaha..so damn bloody unreal...like a guy like tt REALLY exists...as in like...is REALLY like tt coz he IS like tt and WANTS to be like tt..NOT coz tts wad is expected of him.....well...maybe he DOES exist..tt still remains to be discovered......=))

well...ok...enough bout tt...gg off now....heh...till i blog again...which reminds me...i still have yet to settle with khad A LOT of things regarding ASG and vocational.....hmm...better get down to it b4 i forget abt it and it gets too late....hiazhiaz.....here we go...!!! back to top?

oh goodnesss....

are you all watching hanakimi???? hahahaa....if you're not...WATCH it...tho the storyline's predictable, i guess its the lightheartedness and the itchy-unreal moments of the show tt makes it so....captivating..ahahahaa...such a sucker for stupid teenage romance kinda crap.......hiazzzzzzzzzz....not to mention the lead actor aka wu zun aka quan is HOT....and well..i must say tt ella did quite a good job acting....kudos to her...really..

i know ppl who have read the manga have said tt the show sucks or wadeva but ...sheesh man...people...hot guys.....tts enough to make up for everything...ahahahah!!! ok...fine..tt was shallow but really....i mean...every show tts based on any book just somehow nvr meets up to standard...so ppl..give it a rest..ahaha...

anyway...melia's bdae was this week...tho i've wished her already i thot i shld put it down on my blog so...

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY MELIA!!!

and where did we (melia,fio and i) go on her bdae?? STC!!! hahhahaa...so visit our all-time fave teacher...MISS GOH aka MRS NG....ahahahah...they were dating for 10 yrs lah..TEN...WOW....NICE....anyway...she told us abt the sch system and all now...STC sucks now...sadly...and then she also told us tt they just decided to change one of their syf songs to a la na nita and asked if we cld come back to teach them..haha...and we're gg back 2mr to teach....COOOL....

ok...tts abt it for now...ahaha.... back to top?