i dunno why i still come to my blog hoping to read sth on my tagboard when i know its down

and no...i dont feel like putting up a new one..

which is kinda pointless? like im talking to an imaginary audience

but OH WELLLL

i dont really care

i dont even know who comes here anymore

so well...its another week passing by

this weekend isnt as hectic as the last

which is good in a way

taking things at my own pace

im gonna miss this "own pace, own agenda" thing

BUT OH WELL

so why am i blogging here?

no particular reason i suppose

just thought i should

if i havent already said it

my mum is coming down again when the sem ends

well...hiaz...im not looking forward to having to do all the planning for or tentative trip to crazy-land aka tas

its not like i dont have things to do

ok i dont have THAT many things to do

but somehow id rather be doing my OWN stuff

AHAHAH

im so into this whole OWN stuff thing

but its true

how's that?

and i really miss singing

like acareak is the highest level i have attained for myself so far performing-wise

like i think sometimes randomly abt whether acareak can still go on

and as much as i want it to, i dont think it can

not in the next few yrs at least

maybe ill have to go solo

or ill have to become a duet group with fio or sth

AHAHAHA!

the thought came to me at mass today, and imagining all the smug looks on the faces of THOSE people if they came to learn of the day tt acareak is officially ke-peesh

then i thought, SCREW THEM.

life is too short to think abt what THOSE morons think.

who the hell cares anyway?

morons are morons for a reason.

sometimes its just better to...

of coz i dont mean go and like freaking do mad stuff THIS INSTANT

but yea...sometimes I have to remind myself to NOT care about what others think

life is too tiring living to be accepted by everyone.

you win some, and there are some you SHOULD lose.

its normal. i acknowledge it.

but the EXTENT to which we go to be accepted.

thats where the line is hard to draw sometimes.

dont ask me why i started talking abt all this again

i think the song im listening to now is putting me in the mood to reflect

and wld you believe it?

my masseter muscle, at my jaw is actually having tt 'sng tia' feeling

i think its from clenching my jaw too much when im feeling cold

ive been massaging tt area but...yea....OH WELLLLLLLL

to educate whoever and to refresh my memory..

This is the Masseter Muscle. One of the main muscles responsible for helping us chew and open and close our jaws basically.

The crosses are where i should be pressing to treat myself but if to stretch the muscle to access the points means tt I have to open my jaw wide then i can't do it now coz im in the common room with a WHOLE bunch of china people AND my jaw structure has changed since i got my braces done and i cant open my mouth wide anymore or it locks.

i thought this description was hilarious:

CONFUSING indeed. what a feeling. AHAHAH!

OK...i think tts enough randomness from me for now

i shall be back again

and rmb....

AHAHAHAHHAAH!!!

i dunno if its coz im getting stressed (about time) over my stupid art therapy essay

or WHAT. MWORAGO! MWORAGO!

i dont even know WHAT I would do now if i wasn't doing this essay

coz i dont even know what im frustrated about

maybe its my menses's sneak attack on me today

GYAH

WADEVA

dont answer that question.

coz im gg crazy trying to do tt within the context of art and not trying to go even further beyond my already exceeded word limit

CRUD.

not even SHINee is helping me lift my spirits now.

AHAHAH!

AHAHAH!

well i was watching glee ep 14 and 15 ( yes i know.. lag)

and well the 2 songs tt struck me were their covers of Hello and Open Your Heart to Me respectively

so i dled them

and well when i was listening to Hello

for the FIRST TIME i actually processed the lyrics

i mean ive heard lionel ritchie sing it like 5000 times

but somehow i never processed the lyrics in my brain and WOW

DAMN FRIGGIN NICE

maybe also coz i was emo-ing abt the same thing last night aft listening to jonghyun and jessica's duet of sexy love

i think the fact tt its a male and female duet on this version, the lyrics really stand out more? love the harmony..

ok im trying to chiong my readings for my stupid CAM essay (which is a humungous pain in the butt SIMPLY BECAUSE.)

and i came accross this term "internal stigmatization"

it just lit a lightbulb in my head

its so fitting

my reading doesnt give much more detail abt it

but its not hard to decipher what it means

i just wonder if it comes with ppl like personalities like mine

ppl who think too much, worry too much, critical/too judgmental of themselves?

or is it just normal?

i mean...no one wants to deviate from the 'norm' as much as they can afford to

ok maybe internal stigmatization might be too strong a word to use in mine and most ppl's cases

but its a nice way of summing it up eh?

AHAHAH!

as soon as i saw it i was like " BLOG IT NOW"

AHAHAHAH!

so yea

ive done my part

now its time to go back to work

this is so sickening

i just wanna get it over and done with

so tt i can start on my art project and art therapy report

both original and this cover ROCK. like a freakin boulder. AHAHA! WOOO~
and well...watching jonghyun just adds appeal to the whole performance of the song...

just love the way he works the mic/body lang/gestures

ok...that was me and my distraction for the day
back to work!
essays to do
readings to read
and art project to make.

KBOX ON WED!
WOOHOO!!
sanso gateun neol~