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Saturday, October 31, 2009 @ 10/31/2009 11:17:00 AM

i know its an old song..

but im hooked on it nontheless somehow

and the lyrics are cute

and why this random post?
coz i cant seem to get down to work
so here i am again trying to get into the mood
its somewhat working though
and this song is helping LOADS
getting my brain into the right brainwave
i tell you its so hard to find songs tt get you into the right brainwave
coz one day it can be sth tt you just wanna groove to
and another day it turns out to be sth tt helps you to concentrate
like this song

well im compiling my study music list
or rather editing it
AHAHAH!

well since im here i might as well blog a bit and update a bit
its YET another weekend to be spent indoors
im actually getting used to it actually..
i mean its nice to spend weekends not waking up early to rush off to catch a tram
although you get to go out and have fun
but yea...
everything at the end of the day is just a matter of getting used to

so well i had an evening in my room exepreincing sg weather which was absolurte torture esp when you don't have a fan
and a heater that WORKS whens you switch it off
WTH right
but yea it resovled itself
hiaz
complain like hell when i go back to sg man...i'll turn into a daniel! AHAHAH!

hiaz
ok i think im getting sleepy
i think it was lunch tt was calming my brain down rather than the music
oh sheesh
thanks SHINee -_-
AHAHAH!

OK! im off to essay my life away
or try to at least..
wait...i dont have a choice...its due monday!

Saturday, October 24, 2009 @ 10/24/2009 12:23:00 PM

saturday? wha?

and it is YET another weekend
and saturday is almost over
spent the 1st 1/2 of it sleeping

i tell you my body clock has never been more screwed than this
i sleep at 4am on average now ( and i toss in bed for at least 30mins)
and i wake up at 1.30pm
im starting to wonder if im suffering from insomia
i hope not
but honestly
i just cant sleep
so i end up staying up at my comp till i feel the slightest bit tired
then i run off to bed
but when i do lie in bed, i cant sleep again
and i need to watch vids on my ipod or sth to tire my eyes out
and when i feel them straining i take advantage and try to sleep but i cant

i wanna go back to sg soon
so tt i dont seem so much like a freak
sleeping at 4?! at least in sg its like 1am
i dunno man..is this my body preparing itself to return home? rewiring itself?
AHAHAH!
BODY! NOT SO FAST DAMMIT! there's still loads of work to be done

and speaking of work
i cant get down to it
i cant usually get down to it till weird hours of the day again
i think im dying slowly
but arent we all
ahahaha
how terribly optimistic i am

im hoping that this typing gets me in the reading and typing mood again
its saturday and it doesnt feel any different from the previous days really
i sleep late, wake up late except on days with lessons
then i spend the rest of my day sitting and typing or watching shows online
freakin hell
freakin hermit lah..UGH
but compared to working...HA! i dunno which is better honestly.
i guess studying..
and i just dont get why other ppl are so FREE
ppl are running ard, walking ard talking to their friends, baking...
i forgot i was boiling milk for my creamy pasta shit thing just now and made a mess over the stove
ARGH! i dunno lah
ok i dunno wad im ranting abt anymore already
i might blog again later tonight? i dunno...

Sunday, October 18, 2009 @ 10/18/2009 12:25:00 PM

the dreary weeks to come

oh gosh

why do you always have to work for the things you want in life?!?
I DON'T LIKE IT!
it makes life too tiring...AHAHAH!
but i guess thats what makes meaning out of life
OH WELL
no use fighting with the ways of life

well..school is about to be over in abt 2 weeks or so
things are JUSt abt to get busier and busier
2 presentations next week
exam the following week plus the writing of my essay due the monday after
HOW! the essay!!
i think the last essay i wrote i could have gone off point
but i hate their guidelines i tell you
its NOT detailed
like they dont tell you WHAT exactly they want you to do
maybe its their way of not 'stifling' you but REALLY...being brief ain't help no one baby
so i gotts try to do my best on this last one if not...i also dunno man

BUT ANYWAY!
ONCE ITS OVER I'LL BE FREE! AND ON MY MINI MELBOURNE TRIP!
anything to get away from this school compound and surrounding areas
havent gone very far from this little " neighbourhood" for the past 2 weeks? 3 weeks?
wekends have been spend here but i guess with the wireless downstairs im fine
seriously..the dependency on technology is disgusting
but i cant help it
i rely on it for more entertainment than i ever have
and my work too...oh gosh..
if anything..the main reason i wanna stay on here is the fact tt i have a place to go to other than my room till 12midnight everyday to use FREE internet
AHAHAH!
ok

i shld be doing work now
and i will
woke up like damn late today
but i slept damn late too
so yea
OK!
im off

Tuesday, October 13, 2009 @ 10/13/2009 01:09:00 PM

bored outta ma wits

well well

looks like its been some time since i last blogged again

well...
since then i'll admit that ive fallen into a super junior phase
a bit late yes i know fio but yea...circumstances have changed...AHAHAH!
i blame the fact that i was deprived of most music expression outlets deemed as familiar
and when i went k-box with sam during the 1 week hols i was !!!!! THEY HAVE SUPER JUNIOR!

and all the memories of k-boxing flooded back and all the talks abt why super junior and wondergirls were'nt out in k-box for our singing massecre pleasure
and when i saw it on the k-box here i was like ?!?!?!?!
and i told myself i'd make it my hobby to learn how to sing "it's you" so tt i could sing it when i went back to sg
watching the dance moves also just reminded me of dance lessons at oschool
even though i suck at it i still just enjoy going and moving to the music. how i look moving to the music is another thing altogether.

and yep
thats how it all started
well princess kinda aggravated it when she told me to go and watch Full House
AND THERE WAS NO TURNING BACK

ive been loading W&G and The Mentalist and some suju show everyday to watch after im done with my work
of coz sometimes when i absolutley cant take it i'll watch one of them in between

im catching this one on youtube now called E.H.B (Exploring the Human Body)
its really quite cool.
the experiments and all
like how to overcome dizziness after spinning round and round, how to win at arm wrestling, what stops laughter, what triggers laughter, how to jump further, what triggers tears........and im still watching!
well..its really in a way testing my anatomy and physiology knowledge
its kinda cool and its bloody hilarious some eps.
go catch it if you can. yes super junior is on it but they participate in the experiments and come up with the questions to be answered each week as well sometimes..
and i must say,...some of the questions are quite good.
so kinda cool...go catch it when you can :)
Ness's reccommendation...cant really go wrong with my review ;)
AHAHAHAHH!!!

anyway
aside from that
things are getting busier
which is also why i feel the frustration when i have to restrict my watching every night
as i try to do work as it loads.
but its all finishing soon also
was supposed to have a presentation today
but the lesson got cancelled
so i basically have had the whole day free
havent been very productive today
not as productive as i had hoped i would be
but yea...i noticed when it comes to work that is not"urgent"
and by urgent i mean "not till at least 2 days before its due"
i wont be giving my 100% each time i do it
but i'll be at least touching it all the time before it gets too late
at least catching up will be within more control.

and possibly i work better at night?
and with people in the same room as me.
i feel pressured somehow. like they remind me that i should be doing work.
or least more work than i am doing now
even if they aren't doing work.
HA! ok i think im becoming confusing

but seriously. time is passing real fast
like....soon my 1st sem here will be over
then plans to explore this land will commence ( YAY!~)
and then i'll finally fly home

honestly in a way i feel like i havent really left home
or rather i havent left singapore
i just feel like im in some remote part of sg
that isnt some industrial land
AHAHAHHA!
but i do rmb when i suddenly wanna eat sth, go swim or go out
HIAZ
but
well...im adaptable..AHAHAH!
and also i have constant contact and support from all at home in sg
and plus the ppl who i hang out with here are the SAME people i went to school with in sg
so its like NYP never really left...in a way...you know?
i still like how i normally do with them...so much that i havent had the chance to actually master the australian accent like i told myself i would before i left this sem.
and no...learning a FEW words in the accent is NOT enough lor..ahahah

and a big woohoo~ -_- i've seen THE WORLD but seriously....the hype i don't get...
i mean i see differences yes. some better than the others, some not so.
but at the end of the day. cultures are different. what you gonna do about it? judge it? you'd be stupid to.
enthocentrism. something one should ALWAYS avoid.
yet some are totally incapable of it.

im still thinking what i should cook for dinner tonight
having dinner on my own tonight
and the STUPID oven isnt working
MY GAD
its because of the oven that i have to resort to can food for the past few days for quick meals
all my meats tt i bought for my own consumption are frozen and require the oven for cooking like nuggets, fish fillets, mini pizzas
AND NOW
WTH!
I guess ill have to try the unhealthy way of cooking the nuggets aka frying them

OH WELLLLLLL
ok i think im gonna have to go back to work soon
then ive go upstairs and defrost stuff and wait to cook them
oh boy

and i need to move man
when i was watching E.H.B ep on flexibility (the subbers referred to the topic as pliability but...ahahah)
and they were talking abt how far you can touch your toes can reflect the level of flexibility of your body with respect to a certain age group.
like if you could touch your palm to the floor your body is that of a 20 year old
fingers to the floor, 30 year old
10cm aboive ground, 40 year old
more than 10 cm, 50 year old

and welll
sit and reach was always my guaranteed 'A' at NAPFA
but in recent years ive become more inflexible
i think its the socliosis
and now even more of a computer chair posture
since most of my time is spent on the computer
and yep...i can only manage touching my fingers to the floor and even that caused more strain than before
hence, i will go swim 2mr.
havent had the time in about 3 weeks now
could have gone today but i decided not to.. no mood..

so i made a promise to myself that i would 2mr.
hopefully no last min discussion pops up.
OK! im off! might as well go back to my room now.
come back down later tonight after dinner....

Saturday, October 03, 2009 @ 10/03/2009 09:47:00 AM

slap me senseless

GAH!!!

HELP!

my body clock needs some SERIOUS re-wiring

i've been sleeping at 3am on average (don't tell mum)

and on some days its as bad as 330am

why am i up so late?

well...partly is coz i can't sleep

and the fact tt i keep my shows tt i load from the common room to the end of my night/morning up

i tend to watch them all before i go to sleep

just so tt i didnt waste the effort loading them

and to 'reward' myself for whatever little work i did and the humungous effort gone into getting myself to settle to do the work

how much work i did is another story altogether

today i told myself i needed to be up early

but i noticed recently that when on ' own time, own target'

i have ABSOLUTELY no incentive to wake up

HENCE i took advantage of this being the 1st saturday of the month and gg to check out farmer's market at bundoora park which is a tram stop walk away

so i left at 9am and took a walk there and met my fellow OT ppl there whoever was there or was leaving

i bought like tons of nonsense

AHAHAHH!

im not even much of a sweets, pastries, biscuits kinda person

but when you're here in australia

you can bet that the purchase will be more or less worth the try

i returned with

1) Carmelised Macademias

($6.50 for this small packet but its supposedly really nice according to OT reviews..ahahah!)

2) Florentines, according to the vendor. i always thought they were something else... (for mum..not sure if its nice BUT im sure as hell am NOT trying it coz it has RAISINS. EW)

3) Assorted biscuits ( this and the florentines were $10 if not its $6 per pack)

4) Lemon tart, mango- passionfruit tart and butterscoth tart ($7.50 for 3..these are yummy)

and i had dutch pancakes there with sam which are these mini pancakes, the size slightly bigger than a 50cent coin

to be honest, and clearly, the things arent cheap there

and if it were in sg i wouldnt even think of paying $7.50 for 3 tarts

or $6.50 for a pack of nuts

but i guess its alright coz its only once a month and these vendors congregate in one place so it saves you the hassle of travelling to get them/try them

PLUS you won't get these back home so yea..

so i came back, had half of each tart and drank my teh tarik

and im trying to get in the mood for work now

but seriously. just from this morning i reinforced another thing for myseldf

what drives me to do work and to wake up early?

responsibility. fear.

what an unhealthy source of motivation but hey! whatever floats your boat.

so im blogging now coz i need to get my mind in the writing, internalising-thoughts-and-expressing-them-in-words mode

when i am REALLY still in a HUMUNGOUS daze

if i went to lie on my bed now i WOULD fall right back to sleep

but no

i will not

OK!

wish me luck....i'll be needing it...

BTW. if anyone wants me to buy anything back like the biscuits or nuts back lemme know by the end of the month. ahaha!

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Saturday, October 31, 2009 @ 10/31/2009 11:17:00 AM i know its an old song.. but im hooked on it nontheless somehow and the lyrics are cute and why this random post? coz i cant seem to get down to work so here i am again trying to get into the mood its somewhat working though and this song is helping LOADS getting my brain into the right brainwave i tell you its so hard to find songs tt get you into the right brainwave coz one day it can be sth tt you just wanna groove to and another day it turns out to be sth tt helps you to concentrate like this song well im compiling my study music list or rather editing it AHAHAH! well since im here i might as well blog a bit and update a bit its YET another weekend to be spent indoors im actually getting used to it actually.. i mean its nice to spend weekends not waking up early to rush off to catch a tram although you get to go out and have fun but yea... everything at the end of the day is just a matter of getting used to so well i had an evening in my room exepreincing sg weather which was absolurte torture esp when you don't have a fan and a heater that WORKS whens you switch it off WTH right but yea it resovled itself hiaz complain like hell when i go back to sg man...i'll turn into a daniel! AHAHAH! hiaz ok i think im getting sleepy i think it was lunch tt was calming my brain down rather than the music oh sheesh thanks SHINee -_- AHAHAH! OK! im off to essay my life away or try to at least.. wait...i dont have a choice...its due monday! back to top?
Saturday, October 24, 2009 @ 10/24/2009 12:23:00 PM saturday? wha? and it is YET another weekend and saturday is almost over spent the 1st 1/2 of it sleeping i tell you my body clock has never been more screwed than this i sleep at 4am on average now ( and i toss in bed for at least 30mins) and i wake up at 1.30pm im starting to wonder if im suffering from insomia i hope not but honestly i just cant sleep so i end up staying up at my comp till i feel the slightest bit tired then i run off to bed but when i do lie in bed, i cant sleep again and i need to watch vids on my ipod or sth to tire my eyes out and when i feel them straining i take advantage and try to sleep but i cant i wanna go back to sg soon so tt i dont seem so much like a freak sleeping at 4?! at least in sg its like 1am i dunno man..is this my body preparing itself to return home? rewiring itself? AHAHAH! BODY! NOT SO FAST DAMMIT! there's still loads of work to be done and speaking of work i cant get down to it i cant usually get down to it till weird hours of the day again i think im dying slowly but arent we all ahahaha how terribly optimistic i am im hoping that this typing gets me in the reading and typing mood again its saturday and it doesnt feel any different from the previous days really i sleep late, wake up late except on days with lessons then i spend the rest of my day sitting and typing or watching shows online freakin hell freakin hermit lah..UGH but compared to working...HA! i dunno which is better honestly. i guess studying.. and i just dont get why other ppl are so FREE ppl are running ard, walking ard talking to their friends, baking... i forgot i was boiling milk for my creamy pasta shit thing just now and made a mess over the stove ARGH! i dunno lah ok i dunno wad im ranting abt anymore already i might blog again later tonight? i dunno... back to top?
Sunday, October 18, 2009 @ 10/18/2009 12:25:00 PM the dreary weeks to come oh gosh why do you always have to work for the things you want in life?!? I DON'T LIKE IT! it makes life too tiring...AHAHAH! but i guess thats what makes meaning out of life OH WELL no use fighting with the ways of life well..school is about to be over in abt 2 weeks or so things are JUSt abt to get busier and busier 2 presentations next week exam the following week plus the writing of my essay due the monday after HOW! the essay!! i think the last essay i wrote i could have gone off point but i hate their guidelines i tell you its NOT detailed like they dont tell you WHAT exactly they want you to do maybe its their way of not 'stifling' you but REALLY...being brief ain't help no one baby so i gotts try to do my best on this last one if not...i also dunno man BUT ANYWAY! ONCE ITS OVER I'LL BE FREE! AND ON MY MINI MELBOURNE TRIP! anything to get away from this school compound and surrounding areas havent gone very far from this little " neighbourhood" for the past 2 weeks? 3 weeks? wekends have been spend here but i guess with the wireless downstairs im fine seriously..the dependency on technology is disgusting but i cant help it i rely on it for more entertainment than i ever have and my work too...oh gosh.. if anything..the main reason i wanna stay on here is the fact tt i have a place to go to other than my room till 12midnight everyday to use FREE internet AHAHAH! ok i shld be doing work now and i will woke up like damn late today but i slept damn late too so yea OK! im off back to top?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 @ 10/13/2009 01:09:00 PM bored outta ma wits well well looks like its been some time since i last blogged again well... since then i'll admit that ive fallen into a super junior phase a bit late yes i know fio but yea...circumstances have changed...AHAHAH! i blame the fact that i was deprived of most music expression outlets deemed as familiar and when i went k-box with sam during the 1 week hols i was !!!!! THEY HAVE SUPER JUNIOR! and all the memories of k-boxing flooded back and all the talks abt why super junior and wondergirls were'nt out in k-box for our singing massecre pleasure and when i saw it on the k-box here i was like ?!?!?!?! and i told myself i'd make it my hobby to learn how to sing "it's you" so tt i could sing it when i went back to sg watching the dance moves also just reminded me of dance lessons at oschool even though i suck at it i still just enjoy going and moving to the music. how i look moving to the music is another thing altogether. and yep thats how it all started well princess kinda aggravated it when she told me to go and watch Full House AND THERE WAS NO TURNING BACK ive been loading W&G and The Mentalist and some suju show everyday to watch after im done with my work of coz sometimes when i absolutley cant take it i'll watch one of them in between im catching this one on youtube now called E.H.B (Exploring the Human Body) its really quite cool. the experiments and all like how to overcome dizziness after spinning round and round, how to win at arm wrestling, what stops laughter, what triggers laughter, how to jump further, what triggers tears........and im still watching! well..its really in a way testing my anatomy and physiology knowledge its kinda cool and its bloody hilarious some eps. go catch it if you can. yes super junior is on it but they participate in the experiments and come up with the questions to be answered each week as well sometimes.. and i must say,...some of the questions are quite good. so kinda cool...go catch it when you can :) Ness's reccommendation...cant really go wrong with my review ;) AHAHAHAHH!!! anyway aside from that things are getting busier which is also why i feel the frustration when i have to restrict my watching every night as i try to do work as it loads. but its all finishing soon also was supposed to have a presentation today but the lesson got cancelled so i basically have had the whole day free havent been very productive today not as productive as i had hoped i would be but yea...i noticed when it comes to work that is not"urgent" and by urgent i mean "not till at least 2 days before its due" i wont be giving my 100% each time i do it but i'll be at least touching it all the time before it gets too late at least catching up will be within more control. and possibly i work better at night? and with people in the same room as me. i feel pressured somehow. like they remind me that i should be doing work. or least more work than i am doing now even if they aren't doing work. HA! ok i think im becoming confusing but seriously. time is passing real fast like....soon my 1st sem here will be over then plans to explore this land will commence ( YAY!~) and then i'll finally fly home honestly in a way i feel like i havent really left home or rather i havent left singapore i just feel like im in some remote part of sg that isnt some industrial land AHAHAHHA! but i do rmb when i suddenly wanna eat sth, go swim or go out HIAZ but well...im adaptable..AHAHAH! and also i have constant contact and support from all at home in sg and plus the ppl who i hang out with here are the SAME people i went to school with in sg so its like NYP never really left...in a way...you know? i still like how i normally do with them...so much that i havent had the chance to actually master the australian accent like i told myself i would before i left this sem. and no...learning a FEW words in the accent is NOT enough lor..ahahah and a big woohoo~ -_- i've seen THE WORLD but seriously....the hype i don't get... i mean i see differences yes. some better than the others, some not so. but at the end of the day. cultures are different. what you gonna do about it? judge it? you'd be stupid to. enthocentrism. something one should ALWAYS avoid. yet some are totally incapable of it. im still thinking what i should cook for dinner tonight having dinner on my own tonight and the STUPID oven isnt working MY GAD its because of the oven that i have to resort to can food for the past few days for quick meals all my meats tt i bought for my own consumption are frozen and require the oven for cooking like nuggets, fish fillets, mini pizzas AND NOW WTH! I guess ill have to try the unhealthy way of cooking the nuggets aka frying them OH WELLLLLLL ok i think im gonna have to go back to work soon then ive go upstairs and defrost stuff and wait to cook them oh boy and i need to move man when i was watching E.H.B ep on flexibility (the subbers referred to the topic as pliability but...ahahah) and they were talking abt how far you can touch your toes can reflect the level of flexibility of your body with respect to a certain age group. like if you could touch your palm to the floor your body is that of a 20 year old fingers to the floor, 30 year old 10cm aboive ground, 40 year old more than 10 cm, 50 year old and welll sit and reach was always my guaranteed 'A' at NAPFA but in recent years ive become more inflexible i think its the socliosis and now even more of a computer chair posture since most of my time is spent on the computer and yep...i can only manage touching my fingers to the floor and even that caused more strain than before hence, i will go swim 2mr. havent had the time in about 3 weeks now could have gone today but i decided not to.. no mood.. so i made a promise to myself that i would 2mr. hopefully no last min discussion pops up. OK! im off! might as well go back to my room now. come back down later tonight after dinner.... back to top?
Saturday, October 03, 2009 @ 10/03/2009 09:47:00 AM slap me senseless GAH!!! HELP! my body clock needs some SERIOUS re-wiring i've been sleeping at 3am on average (don't tell mum) and on some days its as bad as 330am why am i up so late? well...partly is coz i can't sleep and the fact tt i keep my shows tt i load from the common room to the end of my night/morning up i tend to watch them all before i go to sleep just so tt i didnt waste the effort loading them and to 'reward' myself for whatever little work i did and the humungous effort gone into getting myself to settle to do the work how much work i did is another story altogether today i told myself i needed to be up early but i noticed recently that when on ' own time, own target' i have ABSOLUTELY no incentive to wake up HENCE i took advantage of this being the 1st saturday of the month and gg to check out farmer's market at bundoora park which is a tram stop walk away so i left at 9am and took a walk there and met my fellow OT ppl there whoever was there or was leaving i bought like tons of nonsense AHAHAHH! im not even much of a sweets, pastries, biscuits kinda person but when you're here in australia you can bet that the purchase will be more or less worth the try i returned with 1) Carmelised Macademias ($6.50 for this small packet but its supposedly really nice according to OT reviews..ahahah!) 2) Florentines, according to the vendor. i always thought they were something else... (for mum..not sure if its nice BUT im sure as hell am NOT trying it coz it has RAISINS. EW) 3) Assorted biscuits ( this and the florentines were $10 if not its $6 per pack) 4) Lemon tart, mango- passionfruit tart and butterscoth tart ($7.50 for 3..these are yummy) and i had dutch pancakes there with sam which are these mini pancakes, the size slightly bigger than a 50cent coin to be honest, and clearly, the things arent cheap there and if it were in sg i wouldnt even think of paying $7.50 for 3 tarts or $6.50 for a pack of nuts but i guess its alright coz its only once a month and these vendors congregate in one place so it saves you the hassle of travelling to get them/try them PLUS you won't get these back home so yea.. so i came back, had half of each tart and drank my teh tarik and im trying to get in the mood for work now but seriously. just from this morning i reinforced another thing for myseldf what drives me to do work and to wake up early? responsibility. fear. what an unhealthy source of motivation but hey! whatever floats your boat. so im blogging now coz i need to get my mind in the writing, internalising-thoughts-and-expressing-them-in-words mode when i am REALLY still in a HUMUNGOUS daze if i went to lie on my bed now i WOULD fall right back to sleep but no i will not OK! wish me luck....i'll be needing it... BTW. if anyone wants me to buy anything back like the biscuits or nuts back lemme know by the end of the month. ahaha! back to top?