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Sunday, September 28, 2008 @ 9/28/2008 04:54:00 PM

this is infuriating

i dunno where to go after NYP

yes i know

australia DUH

but WHERE

i know i thought the answer was clear and obvious

La Trobe right?

but now tt im reading the course and program outline of the other unis..

im not sure anymore

for one..

curtin is back up on the consideration list

and yes melia...curtin is in perth.

before you scream and shrivel up in horror
lets just say tt i havent come to a conclusion yet and im prob just gonna apply both first
and see which one i get

and in the meantime ill think about it
ask more ppl abt it
do my 3C and think VERY hard abt it
and then decide

UNLESS its chosen for me
aka one uni accepts and the other doesn't
then i guess tt someone up there wld have made my decision for me

somehow this is almost as perplexing as the time after A'levels
except the diff was more obvious

this is like comparing
strawberrry ice cream made in Australia
with
strawberry ice cream made in Japan

OR STH LIKE THAT

i cant find a better analogy

i dun even know wad i REALLY want out of my education in australia
i just know i want sth tt reinforces all tt ive learnt and tt goes more in depth
which also offers novel things...skills i cant learn in sg

am i being greedy and unrealistic?
i dunno

but cum thurs..ill apply both still i guess..

but i still need to think

and its scary knowing tt my class is splitting next yr
we'll all be certified clincians
we wld have had been expected to grow by then
know more than we already know
be a working individual
or be ready to throw ourselves into a whole new culture and learning experience
with new friends
new challenges

THAT is scary
but at the same time exciting

my parents are actually thinking of gg over to work there as i study
but
i wanna try living on my own
dealing with me and my own probs
a taste of true independence in a way i guess?
but everything is still flying ard

but curtin and la trobe are gonna earn my application fees on thurs tts for sure
oh wait..
oh no they wont
right?
since i might be gg through idp?
hmm

@ 9/28/2008 11:28:00 AM

WOOHOO!!

i LOOOOOVE my new blogskin

its SOOOO colourful

and i love colours as you guys can tell from my posts..heh..

and so i decided to change the title of my blog

in case you guys never realised..it has been :
ARE WE READY FOR TAKE OFF??!!! IN 3..2..1..BLAST OFF!!!

and now it tt funky quote up there tt found on the internet from Hans Hoffmann..

"The whole world, as we experience it visually, comes to us through the mystic realm of color."

thought it was fitting of a blog

WAHAHAHA

im bored as you can tell..

im gg down to swim again later..
my skin is gonna die
my hair is gonna die
but my muscles ARE dying
and they need a good stretch
not to mention they need toning which i somehow have never been able to provide them with since forever

bleah

ok...im off to read my book now...

i came online for jon to send me stuff and he aint here...

so this is me saying

I WAS ONLINE.

maybe he was online earlier but i din catch him
ahahah!
OH WELL..

i STILL was online.

and i guess ill just stay online as i read my book.

WICKED.

Saturday, September 27, 2008 @ 9/27/2008 12:11:00 AM

the wonderfully rainy and cold day

I had a very interesting morning

ok..its 12.14 so i guess i mean YESTERDAY morning

yes

1st

i woke up to the THUNDERSTORM

it was like a curtain of WHITE when i looked out

i cldnt even see TBP from my room

so nvm

i had to get out of the house by 830

but i left at 815

and thank goodness i did

i left my house and walked out towards the guard house like i always do

only to be greeted by the indus river

or the ganges lake
or wadeva you wanna call tt road outside my house...

WHICH WAS FLOODED

and i really had no other choice

i HAD to walk thru the muddy water which was on the pathway as well

and tt whole pathway is really like a bowl kinda shape

so it started out ok..ankle level:

( i just realised this looks kinda obscene..AHAH!)

then it got to mid shin level

and i was TRUDGING through the water

it was like water therapy

or swimming ( sorta)

in dirty water

with dead leaves and goodness knows what getting in your slippers

so i get to the end of the path thinking it was the end

but NO

the ROAD was flooded as well

the road where i cross and risk my life on a daily basis to get to...

THE OTHER SIDE

i look all ard me and its flooded to shin level
and if i took the chance to cross the road in tt water

i might die doing so

simply coz i cant get through crossing the road fast enough

not like the car can zoom either

but yea

you know?

so... i decided to be a model citizen today by taking the proper pedestrain crossing aka the zebra crossing

BUT

( for those more familiar with my place..yes..that is the zebra crossing, which is also flooded)

yea...

i thot the trudging ended aft getting through tt whole stretch of pathway in front of my house

but i guess not

so i trudge

AGAIN

and all the way to my backdoor

and cross the road THERE

i took 30mins in total to walk to tiong today

as compared to my usual 10mins

the last time it flooded like tt was when i was in pri 3 or 4

and if im not wrong

its coz there was a construction site accross the road too

and i could have avoided ALL that trudging

if i had a backdoor card.

and it didnt end there..when i got to tiong to take the train?

i couldnt

i had to miss 5 trains

5 FREAKING TRAINS

too damn crowded to get on

bleah..

and just so you know...i looked like a fumbling idiot trying to take pics of the flood as i struggled to hold my umbrella and my 3/4 pants up and fiddle with my phone and the headphone wires..

BUT OH WELL

interesting day

i borrowed wicked and son of a witch from bishan library

finally reading sth

ill HP some other time

HP is so boring lah the 7th book

hiaz

but i WILL get thru it one day

and i swam (in my swimming pool in case you're wondering..ahaha..the flood subsided by then)when i got home despite me telling myself no more sun for the next few days

but i had to

my muscles were ( and still are) aching

my trunk, abs, pects, gluteals

MY GAD

who knew that swimming with your head above water could work your muscles THAT much harder?!

i still like swimming with my head IN the water though

and i love cold water

the rush to move thru it is so nice

and lucky the sun wasnt really out when i went down

WOOHOO!!

but im peeling at the shoulders from sentosa yest..not burnt but peeling

and aching from swimming with head above water to swim across the "channel"

the fake sentosa channel

AHAHAH!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008 @ 9/23/2008 12:52:00 AM

people take pictures of each other

somehow the jingle is stuck in my head everytime i take a pic

so in case you guys havent seen or heard the advert.

here it is!

people take pictures of each other! =D

and i know the pics i loaded on facebook taken by THE c902 dun seem so fantastic but trust me..its COOL.. =) just tt i need to learn how and when to use the diff functions for good shots...ahaha!

Saturday, September 20, 2008 @ 9/20/2008 10:11:00 PM

im here to announce that im THIS close to giving up on Gravity

the timing is driving me NUTS
live version somemore is ALL the MORE irritating
COZ they're all IN DA ZONE
and being all blendy and all
and i cant get the timing

bloody shit

TZAHHH

ok... so what have i done in my 1st week of hols?
slept in ( not v successfully yet tho)
watched greys and GG online
cooked my skin and now im burnt
dyed my hair a whole head's worth of "divine mango" AHHAH!
tried arranging some music not getting v far with it
discovering how slowly but surely more sec sch classmates are getting engaged/married

its scary

ONE STEP AT A TIME
THERES NO NEED TO RUSH..

theres still time to finish the arrangement too
to start another arrangement
to READ damned HP7
to watch more online tv HAHAHA

ok away from angendagirl issues
( yes ive more or less acknowledged it..happy fio? ahhah)

IVE GOT MY NEW PHONE TODAY!!

yep..changed my mind when i got there and decided on a c902...

lovely...

now i need to start taking some pics with it..

MWHAHAH!

still got a lot of functions i have yet to read abt..so YEA!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @ 9/16/2008 12:59:00 AM

its overrrrr

its overrrrrrrr
its overrrrrrrrrrr

WHEEEE!!!!

that was one heck of a way to spend and celebrate the end of 3B

i cldnt have thought of a better way

too bad fio cldnt join us..we were actually hesistating if we shld proceed but we were all waiting for today to come so...yea...we went! heh...i NEEDED to spend my last day of clinicals away from home...

CEEEEEEEELEBRATE GOOD TIMES COME ON!!

k-BOX

hiaz...so sad you cldnt join us fio..there was love song, then there was this i promise you and OUR LIPS ARE SEAAALED...i hope you're feeling better soon...we're still supposed to sing when you believe rmb? heh reply my smses lehhh...

anyway..today at clinicals was like...just miscellaneous work,,,residents who greet and interact with us frequently were shocked by the news tt we were leaaaavin, never to be back again...flyin on a g5, g5...AAHAHAAH...one of them was really sad tt we were leavin...i was too when i saw tt he was starting to cry ( but then again he expresses himself with extremes) and i din know how to react...as a friend? or as an OT? hiaz...but hes ok...he usually gets over it fast...i hope..

SO YAY!!!!

what am i gonna do when i wake up later?
yes, i just got back from kboxing..ahah

well...im gonna read a book...
for starters...lets finish tt boring HP bk 7
then ill try to arrange sth ot rather wait for sth to inspire me to arrange it
then ill meet dan for lunch and to buy hair dye ( yes..we;re gonna do it AGAIN)
then we'll come home to dye hair
crap
then dan will leave for dance
and id love to swim but...ive got IT...

so yea..

ahahaha

MAN...all that belting out killed my throat man and my diaphragm was ACTUALLY tired...like there was fatigue at the area below my chest cavity...hahhaa...YEA BABY..

ok...i need to sleep now....

Wednesday, September 10, 2008 @ 9/10/2008 08:48:00 PM

worn out...hang in there

i feel my youth ( or wadeva little is left of it) wasting away

its being sucked dry by the nights of lack of sleep

by the stress from work and meeting deadlines

i was so tired the moment i got home i HAD to just lie down and sleep for 30mins b4 getting back here to type
and yes

i am STILL freaking tired

my eyes are half opened, red and watery
my brain is in a daze and aching
its cold

save me

2 more days

i still have so much to do

i cant stay up again tonight or i will die

anyway...im thankful there's pract 2mr even though i might just zonk out there
i need a break from gg to tiong to buy groceries and materials, coming home, chionging work till 1am..

this feeling i had at TTSH hands...those mornings tt i was SUPER SUPER tired

result of being overworked

i know i wun be able to finsih all tt i wanna do again today

but i need to try

i drank tea to stay awake

but i still feel dead

ZEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHAHAH!

ooooo....the SONOS vid on facebook just woke me up...

ACAPPELLA RAWKS

Friday, September 05, 2008 @ 9/05/2008 10:32:00 PM

5 more days

WOW

i din expect it actually pass that fast but

YES

CLINICALS 3B IS 5 WORKING DAYS AWAY FROM BEING OVERRRR!!!!

ill miss my residents who i see for my groups
ill miss living in my own world of thinking tt im affecting change no matter how short-lived it might be
ill miss the residents that i see and greet everyday
ill miss doing new things with them

the work is shitty, the environment i have no comments to be posted here.....

but the residents make it all worth while

next week is my last week there already

need to think of sth special to buy for them
i know one of them wants a pen and i think the other might like a chess set.
anyway..having said all that...i still have groups to run next week and ill have to do my conceptualising of the clients into MOHO ( model of human occupation)..

i wonder why i should do it and give it
seriously
when the next student comes
you think it'll be handed over?
i doubt
esp if shes no longer taking students after me

but its ok
its for my learning
ill do it
and i wanna conceptualize them so tt maybe i can get to do the most i can for them in this one more time tt im seeing them all next week

hiaz...i wldnt mind gg back to volunteer SIMPLY FOR the residents
but to work there......

anyway...there are lots of new temp and perm staff at where i am now..
there's this one who is 19...and he's kinda...awkwardishly, weirdishly youngish kinda persona..i really feel like im talking to my junior when im talking to him

but

in the past 4 days tt my fren and i have gotten to know him and his fren
he's been kinda..

i dunno..

weird

like today took the cake

he followed me to my room saying he wanted to show my fren and i sth
my fren wasnt back yet so i said if he wants he can come back later
if not next week then show
only to find out that is a trick that he wants to share with us -___-

ok fine...i wun be a betch

and then he sends some sms to confirm if its the right number that he got in some weird slanty formation that would have taken quite some effort to plan and type out.." DING DING DING!" my weirdo-ish alarm goes off. he makes it worse by claiming his phone had some prob...maybe it it did but its a rare prob alright..ahaha..

SERIOUSLY

weird BOY

AHAHAHAHAHAH!!

ok...im gonna get my specs 2mr...MWAHAHAH!!

@ 9/05/2008 10:32:00 PM

5 more days

affiliates Amelia Valerie Fiona Ying Hui Maylyn Alethea Yimei Kin Sing Sarah Shu Zhen ACAREAK
Sunday, September 28, 2008 @ 9/28/2008 04:54:00 PM this is infuriating i dunno where to go after NYP yes i know australia DUH but WHERE i know i thought the answer was clear and obvious La Trobe right? but now tt im reading the course and program outline of the other unis.. im not sure anymore for one.. curtin is back up on the consideration list and yes melia...curtin is in perth. before you scream and shrivel up in horror lets just say tt i havent come to a conclusion yet and im prob just gonna apply both first and see which one i get and in the meantime ill think about it ask more ppl abt it do my 3C and think VERY hard abt it and then decide UNLESS its chosen for me aka one uni accepts and the other doesn't then i guess tt someone up there wld have made my decision for me somehow this is almost as perplexing as the time after A'levels except the diff was more obvious this is like comparing strawberrry ice cream made in Australia with strawberry ice cream made in Japan OR STH LIKE THAT i cant find a better analogy i dun even know wad i REALLY want out of my education in australia i just know i want sth tt reinforces all tt ive learnt and tt goes more in depth which also offers novel things...skills i cant learn in sg am i being greedy and unrealistic? i dunno but cum thurs..ill apply both still i guess.. but i still need to think and its scary knowing tt my class is splitting next yr we'll all be certified clincians we wld have had been expected to grow by then know more than we already know be a working individual or be ready to throw ourselves into a whole new culture and learning experience with new friends new challenges THAT is scary but at the same time exciting my parents are actually thinking of gg over to work there as i study but i wanna try living on my own dealing with me and my own probs a taste of true independence in a way i guess? but everything is still flying ard but curtin and la trobe are gonna earn my application fees on thurs tts for sure oh wait.. oh no they wont right? since i might be gg through idp? hmm back to top?
@ 9/28/2008 11:28:00 AM WOOHOO!! i LOOOOOVE my new blogskin its SOOOO colourful and i love colours as you guys can tell from my posts..heh.. and so i decided to change the title of my blog in case you guys never realised..it has been : ARE WE READY FOR TAKE OFF??!!! IN 3..2..1..BLAST OFF!!! and now it tt funky quote up there tt found on the internet from Hans Hoffmann.. "The whole world, as we experience it visually, comes to us through the mystic realm of color." thought it was fitting of a blog WAHAHAHA im bored as you can tell.. im gg down to swim again later.. my skin is gonna die my hair is gonna die but my muscles ARE dying and they need a good stretch not to mention they need toning which i somehow have never been able to provide them with since forever bleah ok...im off to read my book now... i came online for jon to send me stuff and he aint here... so this is me saying I WAS ONLINE. maybe he was online earlier but i din catch him ahahah! OH WELL.. i STILL was online. and i guess ill just stay online as i read my book. WICKED. back to top?
Saturday, September 27, 2008 @ 9/27/2008 12:11:00 AM the wonderfully rainy and cold day I had a very interesting morning ok..its 12.14 so i guess i mean YESTERDAY morning yes 1st i woke up to the THUNDERSTORM it was like a curtain of WHITE when i looked out i cldnt even see TBP from my room ok so nvm i had to get out of the house by 830 but i left at 815 and thank goodness i did i left my house and walked out towards the guard house like i always do only to be greeted by the indus river or the ganges lake or wadeva you wanna call tt road outside my house... WHICH WAS FLOODED and i really had no other choice i HAD to walk thru the muddy water which was on the pathway as well and tt whole pathway is really like a bowl kinda shape so it started out ok..ankle level: ( i just realised this looks kinda obscene..AHAH!) then it got to mid shin level and i was TRUDGING through the water it was like water therapy or swimming ( sorta) in dirty water with dead leaves and goodness knows what getting in your slippers so i get to the end of the path thinking it was the end but NO the ROAD was flooded as well the road where i cross and risk my life on a daily basis to get to... THE OTHER SIDE i look all ard me and its flooded to shin level and if i took the chance to cross the road in tt water i might die doing so simply coz i cant get through crossing the road fast enough not like the car can zoom either but yea you know? so... i decided to be a model citizen today by taking the proper pedestrain crossing aka the zebra crossing BUT ( for those more familiar with my place..yes..that is the zebra crossing, which is also flooded) yea... i thot the trudging ended aft getting through tt whole stretch of pathway in front of my house but i guess not so i trudge *AGAIN* and all the way to my backdoor and cross the road THERE i took 30mins in total to walk to tiong today as compared to my usual 10mins the last time it flooded like tt was when i was in pri 3 or 4 and if im not wrong its coz there was a construction site accross the road too and i could have avoided ALL that trudging if i had a backdoor card. and it didnt end there..when i got to tiong to take the train? i couldnt i had to miss 5 trains 5 FREAKING TRAINS too damn crowded to get on bleah.. and just so you know...i looked like a fumbling idiot trying to take pics of the flood as i struggled to hold my umbrella and my 3/4 pants up and fiddle with my phone and the headphone wires.. BUT OH WELL interesting day i borrowed wicked and son of a witch from bishan library finally reading sth ill HP some other time HP is so boring lah the 7th book hiaz but i WILL get thru it one day and i swam (in my swimming pool in case you're wondering..ahaha..the flood subsided by then)when i got home despite me telling myself no more sun for the next few days but i had to my muscles were ( and still are) aching my trunk, abs, pects, gluteals MY GAD who knew that swimming with your head above water could work your muscles THAT much harder?! i still like swimming with my head IN the water though and i love cold water the rush to move thru it is so nice and lucky the sun wasnt really out when i went down so WOOHOO!! but im peeling at the shoulders from sentosa yest..not burnt but peeling and aching from swimming with head above water to swim across the "channel" the fake sentosa channel AHAHAH! back to top?
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 @ 9/23/2008 12:52:00 AM people take pictures of each other somehow the jingle is stuck in my head everytime i take a pic so in case you guys havent seen or heard the advert. here it is! people take pictures of each other! =D and i know the pics i loaded on facebook taken by THE c902 dun seem so fantastic but trust me..its COOL.. =) just tt i need to learn how and when to use the diff functions for good shots...ahaha! back to top?
Saturday, September 20, 2008 @ 9/20/2008 10:11:00 PM im here to announce that im THIS close to giving up on Gravity the timing is driving me NUTS live version somemore is ALL the MORE irritating COZ they're all IN DA ZONE and being all blendy and all and i cant get the timing bloody shit TZAHHH ok... so what have i done in my 1st week of hols? slept in ( not v successfully yet tho) watched greys and GG online cooked my skin and now im burnt dyed my hair a whole head's worth of "divine mango" AHHAH! tried arranging some music not getting v far with it discovering how slowly but surely more sec sch classmates are getting engaged/married its scary ONE STEP AT A TIME THERES NO NEED TO RUSH.. theres still time to finish the arrangement too to start another arrangement to READ damned HP7 to watch more online tv HAHAHA ok away from angendagirl issues ( yes ive more or less acknowledged it..happy fio? ahhah) IVE GOT MY NEW PHONE TODAY!! yep..changed my mind when i got there and decided on a c902... lovely... now i need to start taking some pics with it.. MWHAHAH! still got a lot of functions i have yet to read abt..so YEA!! back to top?
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @ 9/16/2008 12:59:00 AM its overrrrr its overrrrrrrr its overrrrrrrrrrr WHEEEE!!!! that was one heck of a way to spend and celebrate the end of 3B i cldnt have thought of a better way too bad fio cldnt join us..we were actually hesistating if we shld proceed but we were all waiting for today to come so...yea...we went! heh...i NEEDED to spend my last day of clinicals away from home... CEEEEEEEELEBRATE GOOD TIMES COME ON!! k-BOX hiaz...so sad you cldnt join us fio..there was love song, then there was this i promise you and OUR LIPS ARE SEAAALED...i hope you're feeling better soon...we're still supposed to sing when you believe rmb? heh reply my smses lehhh... anyway..today at clinicals was like...just miscellaneous work,,,residents who greet and interact with us frequently were shocked by the news tt we were leaaaavin, never to be back again...flyin on a g5, g5...AAHAHAAH...one of them was really sad tt we were leavin...i was too when i saw tt he was starting to cry ( but then again he expresses himself with extremes) and i din know how to react...as a friend? or as an OT? hiaz...but hes ok...he usually gets over it fast...i hope.. SO YAY!!!! what am i gonna do when i wake up later? yes, i just got back from kboxing..ahah well...im gonna read a book... for starters...lets finish tt boring HP bk 7 then ill try to arrange sth ot rather wait for sth to inspire me to arrange it then ill meet dan for lunch and to buy hair dye ( yes..we;re gonna do it AGAIN) then we'll come home to dye hair crap then dan will leave for dance and id love to swim but...ive got IT... so yea.. ahahaha MAN...all that belting out killed my throat man and my diaphragm was ACTUALLY tired...like there was fatigue at the area below my chest cavity...hahhaa...YEA BABY.. ok...i need to sleep now.... back to top?
Wednesday, September 10, 2008 @ 9/10/2008 08:48:00 PM worn out...hang in there i feel my youth ( or wadeva little is left of it) wasting away its being sucked dry by the nights of lack of sleep by the stress from work and meeting deadlines i was so tired the moment i got home i HAD to just lie down and sleep for 30mins b4 getting back here to type and yes i am STILL freaking tired my eyes are half opened, red and watery my brain is in a daze and aching its cold *save me* 2 more days i still have so much to do i cant stay up again tonight or i will die anyway...im thankful there's pract 2mr even though i might just zonk out there i need a break from gg to tiong to buy groceries and materials, coming home, chionging work till 1am.. this feeling i had at TTSH hands...those mornings tt i was SUPER SUPER tired result of being overworked i know i wun be able to finsih all tt i wanna do again today but i need to try i drank tea to stay awake but i still feel dead ZEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHAHAH! ooooo....the SONOS vid on facebook just woke me up... ACAPPELLA RAWKS back to top?
Friday, September 05, 2008 @ 9/05/2008 10:32:00 PM 5 more days WOW i din expect it actually pass that fast but YES CLINICALS 3B IS 5 WORKING DAYS AWAY FROM BEING OVERRRR!!!! ill miss my residents who i see for my groups ill miss living in my own world of thinking tt im affecting change no matter how short-lived it might be ill miss the residents that i see and greet everyday ill miss doing new things with them the work is shitty, the environment i have no comments to be posted here..... but the residents make it all worth while next week is my last week there already need to think of sth special to buy for them i know one of them wants a pen and i think the other might like a chess set. anyway..having said all that...i still have groups to run next week and ill have to do my conceptualising of the clients into MOHO ( model of human occupation).. i wonder why i should do it and give it seriously when the next student comes you think it'll be handed over? i doubt esp if shes no longer taking students after me but its ok its for my learning ill do it and i wanna conceptualize them so tt maybe i can get to do the most i can for them in this one more time tt im seeing them all next week hiaz...i wldnt mind gg back to volunteer SIMPLY FOR the residents but to work there...... anyway...there are lots of new temp and perm staff at where i am now.. there's this one who is 19...and he's kinda...awkwardishly, weirdishly youngish kinda persona..i really feel like im talking to my junior when im talking to him but in the past 4 days tt my fren and i have gotten to know him and his fren he's been kinda.. i dunno.. weird like today took the cake he followed me to my room saying he wanted to show my fren and i sth my fren wasnt back yet so i said if he wants he can come back later if not next week then show only to find out that is a trick that he wants to share with us -___- ok fine...i wun be a betch and then he sends some sms to confirm if its the right number that he got in some weird slanty formation that would have taken quite some effort to plan and type out.." DING DING DING!" my weirdo-ish alarm goes off. he makes it worse by claiming his phone had some prob...maybe it it did but its a rare prob alright..ahaha.. SERIOUSLY weird BOY AHAHAHAHAHAH!! ok...im gonna get my specs 2mr...MWAHAHAH!! back to top?
@ 9/05/2008 10:32:00 PM 5 more days back to top?