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for some weird reason my blog has remained very un-updated recently..well anyway..

its the eve of the eve of the new year....boy am i NOT ready for what 2008 has for me..year 3..more shit..more clinicals..more friends flying away..more stress...MORE FRIENDS FLYING AWAY..acareak probably.................i dun even wanna think abt it man.. =( TURNING 21!!!! MY GOODNESSSSSSS....

i'm not ready for all tt...not at all..im still a kid man.........

anyway...lets leave all tt moping ard till 2mr..ahaha..PRACT 2MR!!! OMG YES!!! ahahaha...and swimming and badminton in the morning YES!!! ahaha..and green curry for lunch YES!! ahaha...ok...random but i love green curry wad can i say? no...not coz of the colour -_- but anyway...i need to finish my report by tonight..its almost possible..except tt im grossly over the word limit WOOHOO...ahahaha...ANYWAY im so happy sch doesnt start 2mr..MWHAHAHAA!! 2nd jan tho and my sat is gonna be burnt in school also...ugh.....so irritating i tell you..but anyway..well...wad was predicted to be world war 3 today didnt turn out too bad so thank goodness for tt..i love you guys for coming to a compromise man..=)

ok..i dunno wad to blog abt...erm...HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!! 20 finally....sheeesh man..life has only just begun man..ahaha

ok..had a very interesting day today...lots of discussions and stuff....ahaha..anyway...just thankful it all ended well..well..sorta...ok..i better be off to do my report so tt i can enjoy 2mr better...heh.. back to top?

a whole emotional rollercoaster ride..

Sleepovers were fun..all of them...sleepovers rock!! I love sleepovers!! ( i sound like melia now..ahah) but maybe not at my own house..ahaha..my house is just too small man..too many things but i hope you guys had fun nontheless..dinner rocked and company rocked even more..planned and impromptu sleepovers they all rock..i seem to be using 'rock' a lot..HAHAH..

1) staying up all night
2) talking about everything and anything
3) enjoying each others' company--> THE HIGHLIGHT

but also..when you talk about everything and anything you learn alot of ugly things...things you are shocked to learn about and you just get hit and you worry and you hate it and this whole wave of emotions but with friends around you somehow it doesnt feel that bad...in fact i am thankful i had you guys around with me when all this happened..im still grappling with it..but im happy i have you guys to turn to when i need to get away from it or just to have someone to hear me out..i love you guys man =) you all know who you all are..

lots of controversy, moral debates and judging and thinking over the past few days...im tired of having to think abt it and come to a morally right or wrong decision coz right now i dun have the emotional energy to even care...i care for these people but i just cant seem to care enough now at least..ive been drained..

i just wanna be away from it as long as i can and to enjoy however i can..be ard ppl i wanna be ard, listen to acapooku performances, gg joomjoomjaybahdaybadahdayday whenever you feel this urge just to sing and with people to chant and move along with you, crap about anything and everthing, shop, talk, eat,wander..anything to take my mind off it i welcome..its when im alone that the thoughts come and i know theres no point feeling this way but it comes and its frustrating..i dun think i can ever be a parent..i'll die..

ok..hotel the next few days...smses will come pouring and streaming from me to release tension so get ready..and CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! went to watch vocaluptuous yest at robinsons...aft walking ard for so long then found out that they were at the 5th floor -_- no one wanted to listen to me lah..i said go and ask the staff but walkwalkwalk..ahaha..anyway...i always enjoy watching live performances..they just add atmosphere whether they're good or not..its part of the ambience of christmas..if they suck ( j-j-j-juisaaaayy) they provide entertainment and bitching material and if they rock they make you feel all warm and fuzzy and well you just cant hate acapooku..so either way you cant lose =)

anyway..not done christmas shopping man..still have presents to buy though i dunno wad lah..hiaz...work to do...MANNN...ok..i better do some now..wanna spend a nice christmas and post christmas time man..ahaha.. back to top?

stumbled on this while youtubeing...you just gotta love september..its DA song of the era man..and DON'T get started on era with me -_-

this group..they're really parrrrrtyyying..ahaha..and the solo's not too bad...heh.. here's Last Call with September..

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WEEK 4!!!!

FINALLY it will end in 5 days time..

im not looking forward to embarking on this last week coz its exiciting and fun and what have you but rather that its the last week that i have to be there..wake up at absurd hours and sleep an absurd amount of time and be idle for an absurd amount of time as well..not to mention put up with absurd stuff...

i'll stop my ranting abt IT ( its not safe to use keywords nowadays so if you guys follow ..tts a plus) coz i think ive ranted enough on the day itself and to ppl online so yea...im done ranting and complaining..what good is it? its not like things are gonna change on their side so wad am I gonna do?i dun really know.. last min stuff and lack of guidance...seriously..ask me what i have learnt? ok..i did learn a few things :

1) i suck at chinese
2) if you meet someone who speaks chinese you should be praising the heavens
3) my hokkien is bad
4) im a freaking anti-social person
5) how people can be so insensitive and lacking in the ability to read personalities
6) i have bad leadership skills...SERIOUSLY..my 1st time hearing it..
7) i can be quite a bitch if you step on my toes
8) i LOVE ENGLISH AND I MISS THE ENVIRONMENT THAT I CAN ENGAGE IN A CONVERSATION in FULL ENGLISH THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY WITHOUT FEELING LIKE I'M SOME JIA KANTANG ASS

sch things? erm..reinforced maybe..

i feel more at ease speaking to the PT sometimes simply coz i know i can speak in english without sounding like im trying to be some jia kantang ass ( JKA)...this is wad you get for being in a convent school all your life and then later to a JC where 90% of the population is from IJ or SJI and in a family where chinese is rarely spoken much less dialect..when i start rattling off in english with them in discussion tho i know they understand but it doesnt feel right...it just doesnt..and mind you my english isnt very chim to begin with -_-

im ok with the TA there thought she speaks chinese but see...this is the diff..i hang out with her..i help her..im with her more and i interact with her more than my sup and im comfy with her..so although lang is a small barrier within staff...seriously..it takes 2 to clap..with clients tts a different matter altogether...HIAZ...NVM...5 more days...I WILL PESERVERE...then SLEEPOVERS!!!!!!! and of course reports to be done and a house to be visited frequently..ahaha..but its all anytime better than IT...

CHRISTMAS!!! CHRISTMASS!!!! I've never longed for christmas this much compared to before.. back to top?

HA!

i din realise how long it has been since i posted sth here..

its been a week!!!! and yes..now its...YAY!! end of week 3 is near!!! its in 15mins time to 2mr and about 18hrs to the end of week 3 !!! ahahaha..weekends will be spent doing CRD but yea..its the price to pay for poor time managment i guess....but no wad!!! i prioritise my time everyday!!! coz theres TOO little time..ahahaa...hiaz...ok lah..wadeva...week 3 is almost over...soon week 4 will come..run 3 groups ( im prob ok with cooking and art and craft lang wise) present CRD, get thru final eval and charmaine's scrutiny and tts the end of 2B...3A will start soon but ugh....lets not think abt tt for now...

anyway..today i truely understood the therapeutic value of activity just from buying brushes for 2mr's session..i assumed there arent enough big burshes in the centre for my painting 2mr...so i did wad i always do aka prepare and bought 4 brushes...all i knew was tt i wanted the rectangular broad kind tt i used in pri sch..when i got there...the OT in me came out.....

1) how much do i want them to work?
2) do i have enough time to occupy them if i give them such a big brush? how am i gonna grade the activity??
3)how broad should the head be? size 8 and 9 though similar brush head size the grip is slightly smaller but theres a substantial difference.
4) if i go cheapo, wil it compromise on ah ma's fingert jts? endurance...how??
5) which bursh gives more control with single handed use?

and i stood there throwing brushes back and pretending to paint and get a new brush and all..i stood there for a good 10 mins thinking and trying just to buy 4 burshes of only slight but significant difference in size...a hell lot of clinical reasoning just gg into buying brushes -_- ahaha..cool but tiring..well..brushes ARE aft all tools that humans manipulate...if they are "un-manipulatable" ahah.. the tool is rendered useless and fx is not supported...im not even quoting anything now..nessa's OT knowledge...

well...though my hokkien still CMI im feeling more comfy conversing in it...which makes it easier for me to interact with them too..i mean..yea..body lang and all comes out a lil easier now and it helps....im getting the hang of it in week 3....lets hope i BRING IT ON on week 4 aka my last week and aka my final eval aka my final grade for this placement..meanwhile im running my art and craft next week and 2 articles presented by me for newspaper group..mwhaaha..we'll see how it goes man..we'll see..

ok..i wanna blog more but i shld take this opportunity to go sleep...been focing myself to say up till 12.30 last 3 days to do work..now i can sleep a lil earlier might as well..heh...OK! off to sleep and to face 2mr like a MAN!!! erm...a WO-man..ahaha.. back to top?