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finally changed the lyrics of the week page huh? tt song was there for almost a 2 months or sth..ahhahaha..

well..last night....it was ok i guess....we could have done a lot better...and well..last night just taught us more things..tt we need to pract with mics and we NEED TO ASK FOR MIC TESTS NEXT TIME.....TZAHHHH!!!!! and he didnt even stop us to tell us we cld mic test..and we also have to smile more...and tt well...we still have a lot of growing to do...but nontheless...i still think we did the best we could given the circumstances....right? heh...well..at least i felt it was better than that OTHER group..ahahaa..er...yea...im not trying to comfort myself here...i mean it....haha..

i just realised i shld have reserved all that for the group blog...but anyway...yea..

more vanessa kwek happenings then..

er..she is dying? of work work and MORE work? she is starting to find school a drag and a pain...but she knows she can't turn back now..TOO LATE....need to excel in it if not her mum will start on the "nvr go uni" thing again...

dun get her wrong tho..its not like she doesn't like wad she's doing now...when she thinks back on why she even got into all this in the 1st place, tts wad tt pushes her...but the road is tough...hiaz...and yes..she IS lazy...but yea...

and coz her classmate came yest to listen to her grp sing, now she can't even "lie" abt anything abt performance tt day...people are sure to ask abt yest...OH WELL....not tt she wld even lie to begin with...she takes pride in wad she does and everything related to it..its just tt its no longer an option tho..ahaha

quite cool writing in 3rd person once in a while..HAHAH!

ok..ive got work to do but im so not motivated to do work......its such a nice day to sleep..the rain is fantastic...thank goodness vesak day is on a thurs.....no BSM! no palpating! no self maintenance, no counselling! YES!!! speaking of counselling...i need to start on tt blasted report soon...OH GOSH!!!!!! why can't i take singing exams??!!?! i wun bloody mind studying or practicing for tt everyday man..not to mention i shld at least scrape borderline...ahahaaha...ok...no..take tt back....aft last night i still need to think abt me and my singing..ahaha..OK....sudden flashback...ive got my motivation again..for now..ahaha..

my dad just comforted me tho..he just came in and said he wanted to watch lollipop again..haha...thanks dad..=) back to top?

HAIYOHHHHHH

school is just getting worse....

deadlines are all piling up...stupid hols are coming..

WAIT

did i just say stupid hols?

yea i did...

the only thing im not looking forward to abt this hols is tt i have to finish my counselling report b4 i fly off..i wun be ard the whole of week 10 and my counselling report is due week 11....NICE...next week is already week 8..HOW?!

next week...another headache...creativity report due on monday...so gotta spend this week doing it..assistive devices due monday also...activity analysis viva voce next tues...OMGGGGG....this is just getting from bad to worse...the only thing keeping me somewhat sane is singing...sounds so corny everytime i type it out but yea...its as true as true can ever be...ahaha...i admit its tough balancing deadlines for sch and commitments to pract but yea...wads life without balancing? ha..

ANYWAY..i'm looking forward to 2mr!!! we will finally see wad we are truely capable of man...those who know wads gg on, know....if you dun..then you dun..ahaha..

anyway...i just wanted to add....ever since i joined the OT course...i have sustained the most number of injuries and overstrained muscles ever in my life...EVERY week one set of muscles will DIE....and its usually my quads and my triceps....weirdly..and today i FELL...HIAZ...NEVER run in slippers man...we went to IMH for one of our lessons today...quite cool...but a grp of us were late...so we ran the moment we got off the bus and yes....careless,clumsy vanessa kwek tripped over her own footing on the 1st step and yep...busted my knee THROUGH MY JEANS....wld you believe it? ahaha...its a small wound lah...but yea...fact remains tt pri sch things can still happen even now...ahaha..and i think i overstretched one tendon in breaking my fall...so.........HIAZ....OH! and i stupidly cut myself on my finger for creativity with a scissors....so total injured body parts this week? 4....in 2 days..

anyway...yea...today was creativity proj demo..and i think ours was the best...the most well thought out and planned and rationalised...and FUN!! i mean..everyones was fun too..so YAY!!! writing our report 2mr shldnt be too tough...HAHAH!! and not to mention i cant stay long coz 2mr is gonna be D' DAY...hehheh..so exciting.. back to top?

i feel soo tired....and drained for some weird reason...

actually i know why lah...school was madness last week and the weekends wasn't enough for me to recuperate..and now..its already sunday night and the cycle is abt to begin once more....projs and all...oh goodnesssssssssssssss......and ppl wanna go out....sometimes i welcome it...to run away from the stresses of school for a while but then...yea...doesn't get rid of the work tt i have to do...and tts the frustrating part....balancing...as usual..gets tiring..

cant seem to get down to study man...everytime i open my book my brain swtiches off....WHY?! this is like a repeat of pri school...exceopt now i dun have mum to FORCE me to study......great man..looks like its true : i need to get out of the house to study..and mum's SHE and taiwanese shows are kinda distracting...ahaha...its so stupid its distracting.....

AIYOHHHHHHHHHHH...why does it have to be sunday already??!??! ive been feeling so schizo abt everything and a lot of things recently...one moment im thinking one thing sucks and i know why and the next moment im like "its not that bad...".......hate it man...its like some internal conflict abt anything..AIYERRRRRRRRR....

anyway..jonathan how (MWHAHAHA) still hasn't gotten back to us abt esplanade....i hope he gets back to us asap so tt we'll have something CONCRETE to work towards....i hope he hasn't struck us off his list of potentials tho since we didn't turn up on the date assigned..but anyway.....haha...

random trivia again: my spine hurts.....i think my scoliosis is getting worse man...tt day we were palpating in class and sam was trying to demo to me the extent of my scoliosis..and guess wad? i learnt my spine is curved to the right side at the thoracic level i think and this is the bit : my ribs are more prominent on the right side..she poked it and i was hurting...WHOOPEE!!! im gonna be those ah mahs in the future with the highly dsitorted backs.........................OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! age 35 onwards i gotta start eating calcium like mad.....so scary lah...not to mention i hunch....FANTASTIC...........TZAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! back to top?

ITS OVER!!!!!!!!

this HORRENDOUS week is FINALLY over...

everyday is start at 8am and end at 6pm on the average...plus coz asg was today...my adhoc had to stay back even later to settle stuff and all...not to mention with so much that had to be done this week in terms of group work and all...i am SO GRATEFUL the weekends are here..

not to mention...all my lunch breaks this week were all used to discuss something EVERY lunchtime...so it was ALWAYS packet food and brain work...brain was literally active for 10 hrs straight...i need to sleep now.....so.........................im going off...nth more to write for now..heh... back to top?

goodness...

aft i read sth...i suddenly had a flashback to yr 1 on "What makes a good OT?"...................

and now i just wonder man....how AM i gonna be as in OT? I'm dying at BSM ( palpating class) and mobility havent had chance to pract on thurs coz of ASG and all...and self maintenance and.....and.....and......ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2mr is asg and it'll finally be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then i can have a lil more of a life!!! i need to read up! i need to catch up! i think i need to start limiting my online time again.......goodnesss..since my sats are nearly always gone.........TZAHHHHHH!!!!!!! SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...ive found some motivation to study harder now...tho the competition hasn't begun........i've got a step in advance and im gonna keep going at it.....then when we are ALL out of school..the competition BEGINS!!! MWAHHAHAAH!!!

anyway...i always like fridays...its the day we end earliest and is the slackest day coz the mdules tt day are the least OT-related lessons...no need much brain power...i need to sleep man....everday 8am in school and leave by 6pm...WTH.................ok...better go sleep....ASG 2MR!!! sleeping bag dance! i hope someone takes pic man! ahaha.. back to top?

hmmm...

maybe we were all a lil too fast to "blame" each other......but i'll reserve that for till i know more....which i intend for to be soon...

anyway....how was sunday? lets just say "WHAT SUNDAY?" and tt i hate mondays thru thurs...UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

anyway...online today..everyone was having this self-bashing, self-conscious talk abt pics...ahahaha..we are such a bunch of self-conscious ppl...........i guess tts rather normal...i know i was bashing myself a lot and tannie kept trying to "de-bash" me.....thanks man =) i guess i still have a lot of work left to do with self image man....its seriously.................hiazz.....i even had to use it for my counselling module scenario...we each have to play counsellor and counsellee to each other....we were advised not to use real probs but we all figured tt it had to be sth tt we have at least some feelings abt to develop on it...so yea....heh...OH WELLLLLL....

SCHOOL..................................................i am not looking forward to all the work i have to do and my lack of life.....i want ASG over and done with....UGH..................ok...i better go sleep now... back to top?

seriously...

ive done all tt i think i shld have...wad is left is to just see wad happens..

my fault i admit...dun take it out on everyone else...it was MY slip-up...

maybe im trying to sound noble and trying to justify why some stupid thing tt shld not have happened, happened...but seriously...you think abt it...sorry...i think abt it and i really dun think i wld have done things any more differently at tt time..

for successful interaction..it requires both parties to enagage in reciprocal interaction........to be honest...i dunno wad goes on...i dunno how its been...and suddenly im expected to act like i know...i am interested.....but it can't keep coming from me....takes 2 hands to clap.....no better way to explain tt man...

we all have a right to feel the way we feel and the feelings are as genuine as.........genuine is....but after all tt is done...do we stop to think and look from another perspective and all the influencing factors that led to wad happened? maybe we have all done it one too many times tt we're sick of it...but if it means sth....means we're ready to talk abt it objectively and find the solution even if its for the umpteenth time......its not abt letting each other down or not..all this doesn't matter if we WANT it....does it sound like im just trying to justify my actions? maybe........but i really beleive in that...no friendship is quarrel-less and dissapoinment-less......whether we all get over it or not is another..its a journey..we all learn sth abt ourselves and others....but if its to a point its TOTALLY unsalvage-able...then....well.............when the time comes i'll let you know...

sad tt you make friends and you lose some....im not talking abt anyone in particular here....throughout life ive lost friends and yet ive gained some tt are like totally irreplacable...wad has kept this gg strong? i dunno....i'd say it really is a blessing............and at the same time...why is it such a cruel process...this process of "sieving" thru..no wonder they say friendship is priceless or like gold or sth.......you gotta sieve thru all the sand and dirt form rivers and stuff with lots of water to wash it all away bit by bit,layer by layer, only to find tt 1/4 of a rice grain piece of gold but tt one piece will be unlike every other piece you find and belongs to the pool of gold tt you are bound to accumulate over time with more sieving...hahaha....why suddenly so abstract? no idea....just reminded me of legoland in london..ahhaa....

ok....on to other stuff..........this coming week is gonna suck ducks eggs BAD......i want the bloody ASG to be over..i want all the projects to be over ....sadly NONE of the deadlines are anywhere nearby so we're still in the irritating prepatory stage...and did i mention i suck at palpating carpal bones? and i hate being a girl for the sole reason of our naturally higher fat content which hinders muscle identification..of coz if you exercise a lot then tts diff...but yea...MOST ppl dun.....ok...im gonna sleep and chiong work later today....mother's day lunch tho...haha..HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !!!! back to top?

MWHAHAHAHAAH!!

this vid rocks man...dunno if you guys watched it b4...but i love its stupidity..ahaha..



anyway...hows school so far? ok lah....my triceps are busted today....with mobility pract and trying the walking aids..ahaha...and well...2mr we end late again coz got some movie screening for OT learning community....i'm 1/2 hearted abt gg...ahaha..i mean...i dun mind watching lah but i dun wanna stay back so late..heh...so anyway.........................................

gotta book st bern's for pract on fri...gotta get feedback 1st tho...heh..i dun even know wad im typing here...just thot id update...ok...done updating....sleep sooooooonnnn =))))))

oh yea..wanted to talk abt australia.. been a lot of talk abt it recently as the date draws nearer.....but i'll reserve tt for another time...heh... back to top?

dun ask me why...but im hooked to our recordings of brightside...ahahaa...esp the 2nd 1/2..ahaha...i think its damn cute......as for the lead ah..........i'll need to work sth out..is it ok not? i dunno...

anyway...long day later....i dun wanna go schooooooolllll!!! not to mention gotta do tt para for the nominations...i thot of sth liao....gonna link it to the greatest passion of my life man...WOOHOO!!! yea....ingenious huh? ahah...just gotta transform all the points into sentences later...and with all the events im helping plan in school..im regretting my choice to run man....dun think i can handle it man....BLEAHHHH!!! nvm...i can always quit....just tt i need to write an official letter on why i wanna quit and submit to big shots and all...sometimes i think its super drama lah....sheesh...

i know im gonna regret sleeping at this time....so i think i better go off now...heh... back to top?