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somehow or other...i seem to have problems rmbing my password to this new google account for blogger..everytime i think i rmb it..i can't seem to get in so i end up changing the password everytime i come on....if the next time i try and i can't get in...i'm just gonna revert back to my standard set of passwords...ahaha...

so anyway...in a while i'm gonna leave for my class's cny "GREAT HANG OUT"....whoopee.....do you see the enthusiasm? i'm ok ya know? i mean with meeting them..somewhat...but the fact tt i'm gonna travel all the way to yishun to go to someone's house to watch ppl play mahjong and help finish CNY food stock....like...seriously...i'm fine with such activity except tt....well..not playing mahjong is one thing but tts not impt...the fact is tt i can't REALLY chilll as much as they would say i can...say what you like but i still don't really know anyone in my class properly...i wldn't even say i know sam and khad properly..and what abt the rest of the class?? i'm still..i admit..at the "trying to not step on anyone's toes" stage..and seriously...now tt we're on hols...i dun wanna have to subject myself to tt as well...its quite tiring..i really dunno what is wrong with me.......by now i usually wld be a lil more comfy....or maybe not....i am such an antisocial freak.....or lets just say ...it hard to earn my trust...

anyway....melia's birthday is VERY soon....finally got settled on your present and i really hope it turns out fine and tt you like it...and still have yet to get may's present.....goodness....what to get you ah girl?? ahaha..but aside from tt....i just have to say sth..and tt is the fact tt i'm getting very sick of all this one-sidedness.....and how some ppl can be SOOO SOOO SOOOOOOOO DENSE?!?!!?!?! carry on with this and i tell you..the obligatory friendship ( on my side) is gonna explode and reach the point of no return..........ok..maybe tt might have been a lil too extreme but ....really...hiazzzzzz....ppl ppl ppl....lemme teach you sth....if you know something is not gonna work out...DUN PUSH IT...coz other than the horrid consequence which might be somewhat predictable...other things are at stake and these are the same things tt may or may not be a contributing factor to tt eventual explosion...........am i making sense? talking in riddles again..if you get it then you do..if not...its ok..ahahaa...

i am off.....wish me luck...i hope there's sth to entertain me there... back to top?

WOOHOO!!!!

i am FREEEEE!!!!! how were the papers??

BAD

except maybe HSM...no not high school musical...heath,society and medicine...physio was BAD...so was anat and i missed 15 marks from LLD today...due to lack of time..spent too much time on the childhood part and missed out on the adolescent and elderly part...so yea...hiaz...OH WELL...so anyway...i just really wanna pass everything....its been a long time since i worried about passing.....like REALLY worried...i dun wanna do any sub-papers lehhhh....pleasepleaseplease....hiazzz...

well..the studying can shift gear for now...shift and not taken out of my life sadly...had a briefing by HB today abt 2nd year and boy..is it gonna suck the life out of me...more is demanded...my basics have to be good ( which they are not at the moment) so i need to revise my anatomy and refine my physio...coz physio torture continues next year and anat is applied anat in the well anticipated biomechanics and sthsth aka the palpating module..sheesh..ahaha..i need to go brush up on my anat man...HB doesn't look like the kind to be trifled with so yea...hiaz....upper limb esp...UGH...OH WELL....

anyway.....what am gonna do with all my free time? we were advised to really ENJOY this hols..coz well...from seniors, lecturers and my own perception of things...the next 2 years are gonna be hell...HELLLLLL.....hiaz...oh well..so i'm gonna swim and badminton-ise my life...WOOHOO!! i've got a counselling module too..and a creativity module too...COOL HUH?? and load of other OT related modules like how to transfer people...how to massage and palpate muscls...abnormal psych and all...being leaders of the new SC..i hope i dun get nominated for exco man................NO THANKS...and we're gonna be seniors and all...oh goodnessssss.....what an exiciing year this is gonna be...yr 1 passed just like tt....yr 2 and 3 are gonna too...and before you know it....i'll be gg to aus and then before you know it...i'll be working and pay for OTs have increased...WOOHOO!! by 7%..its sth....YAY....oh well...gg off to the airport later to send val off...hiaz....ok..i'm off... back to top?

SHEESH MAN...

i was actually feeling...well...all frustrated and stuff..studying anatomy and gawking at the lack of time left to study pretty much everything...i was getting so angry at myself i nearly wanted to LITERALLY kill someone...yes...THAT angry....i could feel my heart pumping like...siao lah....GOSH...wanted to come on my handy dandy blog here to vent all my frustrations ( whats new?) but in trying to set up a google account for this damn blog i kinda lost all energy to get angry with anything...i'm just tired now...

well..physio on thurs was....bad-ish...i dunno lah..nobody ever believes me when i say its BAD....ITS BAD people!! wad does this mean?? tt i'm gonna die....but before that...

well..stuff has just gotten me thinking about a lot of things....and i mean A LOT.....somehow just something like seeing someone read can lead to this whole chain of thoughts tt end up well...in a totally diff context...its nothing sick in case any of you are wondering....hiaz...dunno..thinking too much...BAD.....

and you know some ppl ah...really are just DENSE....DENSE BEYOND..........DENSE...i lost all my chem knowledge to CJ once i graduated so i can't rmb which is the most dense metal..but yea...seriously..i dunno whether they can't see it or they chose not to....if they can't...its quite sad and i guess more forgivable but if its chosing not to...they are just STUPID...SERIOUISLY..........GET A LIFE....DIG DEEPER....just deluding yourself lah...morons you know...seriously....i dun think i ever will have the heart ( much less the capability) to actually totally slam someone till they are like helpless.....but seriously...sometimes i feel like just doing it...since subtle ( actually ...not really) means are NOT working...perception problem.seriously man....UGH!!!

and well..went back to CJ with princess and melia today to pei princess to visit some teachers and have LUNCH!! yes......i miss CJ food...wanted noodle king but...got tempted by chicken at yong tau foo again...and aft tt...went off to study again...well..saw my fave teacher aka ms teh....can't rmb the husband's surname but nvm ...yea..she cut her hair and she looks nicer...recognized her by her jacket..and she was like...asking me to take over he H1 chem class =_="...sheesh man...chem B...cannot teach lor.....

and well saw mrs lok and she greeted me with a

" EH! i tell you ah...i'm teaching this girl now ah..and she looks EXACTLY like you!!"

i was like O.o is tt good or bad? ahaha..and she askd if she had a sister aka me and obviously the answer was no....ahaha...i was like " yea...got common face lah" then she replied with a v unexpected answer " no lah..its exquisite beauty" or sth to tt extent...i was like " yeaaaa ahaha", inside i was O.o...ahha...and well...priscilla lee...dunno since when become so chummy with her...the moment she saw me she started talking to me like i was damn close to her in sch liddat...asked where i was and when i realised i was in NYP she gave me the pitying look and went " aiyohh...you did VERY badly in your A's ah?" i was like ...did badly i still can accept...VERY badly somemore...

and it was just a whole string of qns fired at me....was trying to answer the more important ones...then aft i said i din "do badly" she went " then why nyp??" then yea...din even bother...just said interesting so i go..then asked abt marianne...ahaha...yea...hiaz..i know deep down in her heart she thinks i'm just trying to make it sound as if i chose to go nyp when i really did crappily...SHEESH PPL...GET A GRIP....but then again.. really..i'd better with the fact tt she asked compared to those ppl who just to " oh..." and avoid...COME ON!! ASK ME!! GIMME A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN MY UNCONVENTIONAL ROUTE!!! ahaha....oh well...i need to sleep...may not have a chance to come on any more till exams are through..so...HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!! back to top?

hiazzzzzzz

i feel so.....dead....in every sense of the word...

physically
emotionally
cognitively
examination................-ally

hiazzzz...i dun wanna study lahhh.....i keep getting distracted...i can't settle down...now i'm 3 days behind schedule...this is irriating...gg to sch to study 2mr....hopefully its better...i can't even type properly now....having a lot fo typo corrections as i type this entry....i want this to be overrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.................and it hasn't even begun...

NO! I CAN...I MUST...i have no choice.....ahhhhhhhhhh

well..CNY is round the corner... mum made pineapple tarts today..YAY!!!!!!!! i only eat my mummy's pineapple tarts..ahaha...used to be my grandma's...but now...mum's ROCKS!! fio wld TOTALLY agree...ahaha...and went to get all the neccessary plants like the kumquat,pussy willows and flowers the angang one..ahaha...and i've put on so much weight and cny hasn't even begun..haven't even been eating any of the goodies....UGH...i wanna swim! i wanna PLAY BADMINTONNNNN....i need to sweat!!! tub of lard man...the need to study just doesn't make things any easier...i hate school...

OH! and congrats to my sis!! she did well...not WELL WELL...but well..=) she's now gg thru wad i went thru a few months back..deciding what to do with her life..nursing at nyp? or psych and social work at np? debating btwn the 2 now...i feel the psych one's better....but..oh well..her choice..if its nyp..we can go sch together....again...like old times(pri and sec sch)..with everyone gg " OMG! you 2 look SOOO ALIKE!!!" ...tell me sth new already...

my lucky parents...if my sis does nursing..man..2 health professionals within on household..fantastic man...it really is an asset..

and wenshan's applying for nyp too..ahaha..she smsed me today to ask me some application qns..heh..she said physio 1st choice and diagnostic radiography 2nd...hmm...good luck man!! then i'll have another buddy to go to sch with me..ahaha..!!! go to CJ together...now oso go nyp together...ahaha...NICE...and yingrui my junior from choir MAY be coming to nyp too..physio too...hiaz...something tells me she won't in the end but OH WELL....nyp is slowly beginning to look a lil more...familiar...ahaha...OK! time to hit the sacks! and then..the mad rush will take place... back to top?

MWHAHHAHA...

thanks to jon..i'm hooked to the UCLA people..whether awaken or scattertones or wadeva...i found some cool stuff....check it out..yes...i'm gg to study soon...heh..

To all the BSB fans out there...i was one too..kings of pop..everyone loves bsb whether you admit or not...here's their classic " TELL ME WHHHHYY" performed by UCLA scattertones...


since you've been gone..this is not bad too...its not easy to sing kelly clarkson songs..the girl's screaming her brains out at the bridge but i guess there's no other way to sing it...so yea...at leats its relatively in tune..ahaha..by same grp..


and i know princess's love for lion-related songs..here's circle of life..same grp again..i only liked the front part tho..the soloist sounds weird-ish...can't reason why tho..the guy actually does the CLICK!! the "!xo" ahahaha...


ok...tts it from me...enjoy!! i know no UCLA awaken vids here...but..yea...heh.. back to top?

new song to hype over again...mwhaha....i dunno why but i am HOOKED to THIS ONE out of all tt i've recieved...which is well..5 out of 15? ahaha...i just think its cool...i love it when all the girls come in..aiyah...i like the whole thing lah..except the front part the soloist is a lil shaky..BUT STILL....=) and the school bell yD here's USC Reverse Osmosis singing Sugar by fall out boy



anyway....i'm one day behind...wait..its already friday..make tt 2 days... thanks to OTTP..was planning for it on tues so my study time was taken up..and i wasn't able to make up for it...2mr's OTTP test...hiaz...hope my research's enough..and i REALLY hate exams....

i realised not only is it gonna eat into my CNY....its also gonna eat into valentine's day...........................why shld i care right? i dun even have anyone....but valentine's day is the day where couples go out and the day tt singles gather to either celebrate being single or moan abt their single lives...either way...SINGLES GO OUT AND MEET...but me?? i have to stay at home with a special "date"..one tt i will be furiously studying every single detail about..ahaha...physio exam the next day lah...good tt i'm not attached...i dun need to juggle btwn work and guy....mwhaha...

and the songs are taking forever...something tells me i'm gonna be up till 2am to dl all these songs... back to top?

I am home once again..when the sun has been up for quite some time....tts nice...and with tt...i managed to do some stuff which i haven't found time to do for a damn long time aka swim and play guitar..and with guitar..i threw in more fuel into my already present ignited love for hanson......man...if you guys haven't read the lyircs to "A Song To Sing" ...GO!!! refresh this blog and read it first...you can always read this post later....

i totally love tt song...the lyrics are sooooo nice...i love those kind of heartbreak, love from a far ( a far, a far) kind of 'ouuuuchh..heart damn sore" kind of songs...sadistic i know..and even tho some ppl hate the way hanson sounds..i like the quality...the heartache.....whoa man...GO GO!! READ the lyrics!!! i can send the song if you dun have.....so nice....my fave parts of the lyrics are bolded...love tt last part aka the bridge..so...cool....it makes some sort of weird sense...and the treason and reason part...man..tt is like total "xin teng"-ness man..ahaha...

anyway...one thing's for sure is tt the report is OVER...done!!!!i just hope i do reasonably well...my sup commented the last placement tt i have "good reflective" skills...so please.....give me a decent grade...hiaz..anyway...sch was only to hand in stuff and 1 hr presentation...so lunch in sch and went to check anat pract grades...i got a B!! NICE....need to maintain for sem exam...hopefully my anat jumps to a B this sem...anyway...then went home and....i went for a SWIM!!!!!

and wad did i learn from today's swim? NEVER swim in freezing cold water...BADBADBAD idea...first 3 laps the feeling was damn shiok...then aft a while can feel the muscles tightening liao...then its like an internal conflict..muscles contract normally to conserve heat by squeezing the blood vessels and here i am WORKING the muscle to loosen them...so aft a while i felt a lil weird and then into my 10th lap my ears were aching..EARS leh..yD...i finished up another 4 more laps then i went up..and as i walked up....i felt DOOZY..ahaha...yea....lack of blood flow to my brain lah...aft i rested awhile and took a hot bath..it was fine...but yea....horrid feeling..remind me never to swim in coldcold water again..and never to swim too fast and get out of the pool the moment i'm done without resting....always feel giddy aft tt...hiaz....

ok...haven't studied at all today..crap...and my sis wants me to meet her at GWC later somemore to look at stuff...oh well...we'll see wad i can do...2mr...the REAL work begins...i NEED to beat a "certain someone" in school......yes..i've found my match...and i intend to make her work for her life...MWHAHAHAA!!!! *snaps back to reality* yea...its cool.... back to top?

I FOUND MY GREEN PEN!!!!!

guess where it was?

it was on the floor hidden in some dark corner near the com..i was sweeping the floor when i found my baby...ahahaha....tt sounds so wrong but i dun care...welcome home pencil....=)

anyway....H&S...not too bad really..needs a lil tweaking around with...just like butterfly...we will get there...wheeeeeeeee....

supposed to be doing my report now...but i can't seem to settle down..been walking ard...looking for food...DIE..i still have another 3 more parts of the report to do....BLEAHHHH!!!! once the report is done...i'll have to do OTTP research and planning...and STUDY for physio!!! and everything else too....DIEEEEEEEEE...no...can....can....physio MUST get B man...no less.....how am i gonna do that? study lorr......i hope tts enough....it sucks soo bad tt the exams are AFTER CNY.....heartless cruel people...blame the lunar calender for wad??? its not like we made it that way....the school's timetable is something tt can be changed...seriously...yDyD...

feeling sleepy....but....AHHH!!! NO!!! MUST NOT!!!!!

anyway...recently sth happened within the "family"....it just got me thinking abt the fragility of life.....how the loss of just one person can have such a huge impact on the people ard them...its even worse when the death is sudden, unexpected..the guilt that the living go thru is, sth tt i can imagine,to be very hard to live with.. esp when tt person is one that has had a huge part to play in your life, their influence.....

thats why..living and dying for yourself is just a very selfish thing to do..because in dwelling in the "sucky-ness" of your life..its easy to overlook the seemingly small and insignificant role you play in the lives of others...with the act that you commit..the living have to deal with the pain tt you leave behind....hiaz....the lady tt passed away was a VERY nice and wonderful lady....her death was VERY sudden...but the more i think abt it...i'm quite sure its the work of ...the supernatural...really....no kidding...more details tt led to that conclusion but i won't mention it here...but yea...my heart goes out to the family..i din get a chance to attend the wake...but yea...will try to rush thru my report so tt i can go for the prayer service tonight...

good..i've found my source of motivation to work...here i come report... back to top?