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look at wad i found??! ahaha..

man..tt raoul guy is good lah...love his voice...melt whenever i hear it..haha..and chirstine....sounds better in the movie..ahaha..and she is DARN SKINNY lah..serious..but she's got a butt...ahaha..lucky her then..heh..oh well..ENJOY!

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heh...ok...tt post was a lil depressing..but a SMALL attempt to study today did make me feel a lil less useless...i did some anatomy...head and neck..heh..lets see how much i can rmb..AHEM:

Frontal Belly of Occipitofrontalis
Action: Raises eyebrows and wrinkles skin of forehead as in when surprised.
Nerve : Temporal and Posterior Auricular branches of facial nerve ( CNVII)

Corrugator Supercili
Action: Draws eyebrows medially and laterally, wrinkling skin above nose as in when expessing doubt or concern
Nerve : Temporal Branch of facial nerve

Orbicularis Occuli
Action : Closes eyes,produces winking, aids in passage and drainage of tears
Nerve : Temporal and zygomatic branch of facial nerve

Nasalis
Action: opens and closes nostrils, particularly in forced respiration
Nerve: facial nerve

Orbicularis Oris
Action: Acts as sphincter for oral opening, compresses and protrudes lips as in wehn whistling or sucking
Nerve: Temporal and Zygomatic branches of facial nerve

and tts abt all tt i can rmb..................................die lah...but i guess better than nothing...ANYWAY....on to HAPPIER things...YAY!!!! 2mr is gonna be a day JAM-PACKED with AWESOME FRIEND CATCH-UP TIME...WOOHOO!!! dinner with fio and val (YAY!!) then off to THE SLEEPOVER!! man...i can anticipate good ol crap which i adore at both locations..NICE....i hope its as fun as i anticipate it to be man..and hopefully no last min sch things tt i wld need to settle while i'm having fun...ok..better have it now than when it is REALLY last min..i will panic like crap man...WHEEE!!! gonna have fun while i can..its my last chance...next yr is a year JAM- PACKED WITH CRAP.....serious....so just gonna have my fun while i can..

once sch re opens...its a madhse rush for tests and projs....its a lil too late to do sth significantly constructive now tho i do not deny the fact tt it will help..BUT...OH WELL...i am trying to find a balance...ANYWAY.....gotta wrap ALL the presents 2mr man....ahaha...be a lil elf 2mr...heh heh...anyway...to a good friday and a good sleepover..CHEERS!!!! back to top?

man....i think i'm taking school too easy...really...

i've lost the drive to excel...i dun see why i need to...i even forgot tt i have clinicals next week..at a new placement...OH GOODNESS....i hate this..VANESSA KWEK!!! WTH is WRONG with you?!?!?! TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!! i've lost interest in "studying"...i've lost interest in the challenge it posed...i've just lost it....i HATE it....wads happening to me??!?! feel darn slack lah...i shld be studying for my freaking shit-ass result of D+ for physio but i just can't seem to want to get down to it........................i'm just losing it lah....i've lost control..and the control freak tt i am...when i lose control, i lose direction, i lose drive, i lose everything....wad a loser....AH!!!!!!!!!

my classamte was reminding me....need to get at least GPA of 3.0 to qualify for uni lor...i dunno if its right or not for my course lah...i was like SHIT! last sem i was 2.78 lah..this sem is gonna be worse lorrrr....SHIT!!!!!!!!! i NEED to go to UNI! wad crap is this man?! i studied my ass off to go to uni at A's and NOW i still have to study like SHIT to go to uni...AGAIN! UGH!!!!!!! this is just UNFAIR!! UNFAIR!! AH!!!!! i wanna cry man...stupid NUS....take OT already dammit...UGH!

anyway...feeling darn lost lah...and i think i wan out of the SAOTSC..really....i dun have the passion...dunno why...this just sucks lah...i need to set new yr resolutions man..i wanna UGH!!! i just feel like i'm losing everything!! WHY?? why??? why??? i'm not looking forward to the new yr really...really.....the shittiest thing abt next yr? dec will be spent on clinicals...HOW THE HELL DO I TAKE TIME OUT TO CAROL??!!?! tts one of the things tt holds me together every yr lah....man...i dun wanna think abt it now...i gota finish tt shit-ass newsletter now...im darn frustrated now.. back to top?

trying to get into the mood here..

somehow this year's christmas isn't very...chirstmas-sy...its like i'm trying hard for it to be as christmas-sy as possible...for myself to enjoy as much as when i was a kid...i looked forward to chirstmas SOOO much...i LOVED it....now..tt i've grown MUCH older and hopefully a lot more wiser...i'm trying to appreciate chirstmas in a different light...i mean...yes...been to sunday school and all...i know wad chirstmas is abt...but i'm still trying to KNOW wad chirstmas is abt....and...well...yea.....i dunno....it feels like ...JUST another holiday..and THAT SUCKS balls....

i wanna sing carols ( with MA HOMIES)!! i wanna have a fireplace!! i wanna have gingerbread cookies ( tho i dun like them)!! i wanna.......i dunno!!! GIVE ME CHRISTMAS!!! ..............=( gang is out celebrating chirstmas at jon's...nice of them to call...wad am i doing at home? just finished a prayer session with family...singing some carols too...i guess it made me less...angsty? ahaha...i dunno...can't find another word...

ANYWAY....i dun wanna go back to school...i have another week of "hols"...so yea...i guess i'll enjoy and i need to work out this week man....i've put on enough weight to be the stuffed turkey on the dinner table next christmas or thanksgiving...ahaha..sianded sia...SWIM!!! i wld play badminton...but...my sis is starting work and she's gg out tomorrow...so.....HIAZ....bloody hell man..NVM...carols and FORGIVENESSSSS and huge amounts of crap await...it wld be a nice way to end the hols and start the new year...UGH!!! physio results.....CURSE YOU!!

watched phantom today ( finally)..so melia...you can have your vcd back..and i totally felt DARn itchy at the part where tt raoul guy and chirstine were on the roof singing "thats all i ask of you"...tt totally BROUGHT all the itchy-ness on man..and the part where the phantom was like TORN...oh man....emotion-ful man..loved it...dunno why everyone hates the phantom's voice...i know its not all tt melodic but isn't it just so......FEELING? NICE...i think tts harder to produce tt kind of emotion...heh...oh well..i am gonna enjoy wads left of chirstmas..HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE AND MERRY CHIRSTMAS!!! back to top?

OOOooooooOOOOOO!!!!!

got new song to be hooked onto..ahaha...walking in the air...i mean i've always liked it...but its particularly nice now...christmas and all..everytime i hear it, i can actually imagine all the nymphs and faries and all coming out into this enchanted lake in this enchanted forest....so nice...so mystical...=)



anyway...today's mum's bdae...went out for lunch,got some christmas presents and went out for dinner later at night with family and we went to watch verve enharmonics..mwhahaa...they sang my FAVOURITE DO YOU REMEMBAAAA...SEPTEMBAAA..WOOHOO!! YAY!! free one at the esplanade outdoor theatre..WHEE!!! and there was this group called agapella singing...how imaginative huh? i mean...the name...anyway..yea..they're like 12 ppl lah..6 parts..2 ppl in each..madness..and they were'nt at all making full use of their numbers lah..with SOO many ppl you can do soo many things man..but even so..they didn't sound THAT good..but maybe they're just starting out? maybe....when will we get a chance like tt? SOON....SOON...i hope..

and did i mention i've got my mum hooked onto acapooku?? ahaha..i mean..not tt she hated it before but she's a new FAN..ahahaa...i guess coz of the constant doses of acapella recently..first it was swingle singers, then US, then verve enharmonics..ahaha..we're on a roll man...heh...

ANYWAY...more chirstmas shopping 2mr...hopefully get it all done 2mr...and then dinner and got projs and all...hmm...nopefully i dun lose track of the days and get all tt i have to get done....done...ahaha..i hope my chirstmas present idea works out!! =S back to top?

crap crap crap...

chirstmas is soooo SOON and....i haven't gotten everyone their presents!! i mean...fine i got most of them done...but the more impt ones are still not done...i am soo screwed...and i haven't sent out christmas cards...i am...dead....

its been a pretty wet chirstmas so far...raining every single day..and tt is not a good thing at all esp when there's so much last min shopping to be done...i'm feeeling bloody cold...jackets and blankets are somehow just not working...evrything is soo rushed...chirstmas is starting to become a chore...HIAZ....but i still love christmas anyhows...

2mr's mum's birthday...and i seem to have a lot gg on this week tt i'm losing track of it all..before i know it...my hols wld have come and gone...how nice..next yr and yrs to come..it'll just be worse....hiaz...that is wad you get as you get older...OH WELL.... back to top?

i just feel...a sense of accomplishment...somehow it feels WAAAY better than any other "thing" before..coz it was TOTAL instruction from us and us ALONE...NICE...

on a sadder note...i got a freaking D+ for my physio test...UGH..i was so bummed when i heard i did worse than my classmates who also SUPPOSEDLY studied last minunte...i dun wanna be a big headed ass but really.,..physio...i HAVE to do well...i am supposed to..i shouldn't blame anyone or anything coz it was really..just a matter of my own time management problems..thanks goodness its not the final paper lah..its just a CA...but at least i'll know how much harder i'll have to work ..UGH...i MUSt maintain my B..i NEED TO...RAAAAAAAAAR!!!! for ONCE..my anat is better than physio...wad a cruel cruel world we live in...sheesh..

anyway...finidng progs to convert 3gp files to mpeg or wadeber kind of files tt can play normally...BUT ..UGH!!!! so irritating..and i really have to stop the maid accent..its getting a lil out of control....ahaha..and...............ANNA FARIS ROCKS!!! THE song of the year? FORGIVENESSSSSS..is more than saying sorryyyyy...to forgive is divine , so lets have a glass of wine................man...cannot man..everytime i think of tt toothpaste scene my cheekbones hurt like crap...ahah..she is...indeed a source of inspiration to us all...AHAHAH!!!

and how cld i forget?! HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! back to top?

i just feel...a sense of accomplishment...somehow it feels WAAAY better than any other "thing" before..coz it was TOTAL instruction from us and us ALONE...NICE...

on a sadder note...i got a freaking D+ for my physio test...UGH..i was so bummed when i heard i did worse than my classmates who also SUPPOSEDLY studied last minunte...i dun wanna be a big headed ass but really.,..physio...i HAVE to do well...i am supposed to..i shouldn't blame anyone or anything coz it was really..just a matter of my own time management problems..thanks goodness its not the final paper lah..its just a CA...but at least i'll know how much harder i'll have to work ..UGH...i MUSt maintain my B..i NEED TO...RAAAAAAAAAR!!!! for ONCE..my anat is better than physio...wad a cruel cruel world we live in...sheesh..

anyway...finidng progs to convert 3gp files to mpeg or wadeber kind of files tt can play normally...BUT ..UGH!!!! so irritating..and i really have to stop the maid accent..its getting a lil out of control....ahaha..and...............ANNA FARIS ROCKS!!! THE song of the year? FORGIVENESSSSSS..is more than saying sorryyyyy...to forgive is divine , so lets have a glass of wine................man...cannot man..everytime i think of tt scene my cheekbones hurt like crap...ahah..she is...indeed a source of inspiration to us all...AHAHAH!!!

and how cld i forget?! HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! back to top?

WOOHOO!!!!!

NO MORE EXAMS!!!

till sch reopens!! physio today..er...i just hope i pass lah..it was a easy paper for sure...and wld have been able to ace it..but i wasn't adequately prepared for it...so all i want is to pass..PLEASE PASS!!! and YES! i PASSED ANATOMY!!!!! FINALLY!!! pract exam...WHEE!!!! and i dun mean to brag but..if i dun do it here..where else can i right? ahaha..so....I GOT AN A!!!!! WHOA!!!!! for once man..i kena STUNNED...one of 8 ppl in my class...nice..but i'm happy i passed...WHEE!!!

and NO SCHOOL 2mr!!! and THURSDAY!!! WHEEE!!!! e-practs all the way..WOOHOO!! wad am i gonna do at home? regain my life...plan xmas present shopping..SHIT lah...xmas is just round the corner lah..and i have soo many presents to get!!! HOW??!!?!?
ARGH!!!!and we still have tt VERY special present to work on guys...HAH!! THAT will be interesting..ahha...

and...well...feeling kinda...conflicted at the moment..i know it was no biggie but still....seriously...in my current state of mind...it is NOT advisable to do things like tt to me lor...makes me all paranoid and i have to rationalize things again...its all too tiring man...WHY?!?!? why can't things be more straight-forward?! just when i thought i got over it..sheesh man..IIIiiiiIIIirrritating... back to top?

ARGH!!!!

ok..good tt anat pract is FINALLY over( WHEE!!) but it SUCKS tt physio test is on TUESDAY..WTH!!! and i JUST started...how nice...i'm dead....i'm supposed to be better at physio..or rather its supposed to be my best subject..but tt was coz it was A'lvl bio with a lil more...so guess then i cld still PIA..but NOW...........ARGH!!!!! i should have come home early on sat lah...hiaz...i guess i din coz i thought i wld have today to study my ass off...FORGETTING tt i have my niece's 2nd or 3rd birthday party TONIGHT..AND my mum wanted to set up the chirstmas tree today ( so much for constantly smelling xmas tree deco and my tree yest from melia who was wearing jon's tee)..so...well...hmm...its 230pm now..and...well...why am i online then? coz i rmbed i have to print out my CV for my NEXT clinical placement...and since i can't stand the outdated state of my blog..here i am just to comfort myself...

well...hmm...ok...i shld be off...i'm sick btw..and i know many others are too..some flu gg on..so this week its NO chilli, NO fried food, NO anything tt wld kill me..gotta follow fio's example man..she ...wahh...PEI FU man..heh..ok..i'm off and....CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!! good for some...not so good for some...DUN WORRY...i'm gonna try to make somehing happen so tt it'll be OKAY if not GREAT for EVERYONE =) - there's a happy feeling nothing in the WORLD can buy ..lalalalala..- back to top?

for those who went to the be!dazzled concert this year...RMB THIS GROUP?! the one tt sang SEPTEMBER?? THE VID!!! ahaha...i'm quite sure its the same group...i dunno if its the same occasion tho..think so..i know the quality is kinda bad..gg blur and all..just listen lah..i know the falsetto is def not as good at the original EARTH, WIND AND FIRE but...yea..its still good nontheless...DO YOU REMEMBAAA ...



and i found sth else!! boybands of the past were def waaaayyyy better than the ones we have now..




well...today...i did some thinking..how do ppl just GET BFs LIKE THAT?! JUST *snap* they lost one recently and in 2 to 3 months she managed to find another..its soo......weird...its like...on the hunt...you find one to replace the other...madness...seriously..i dun get it...DUH i wun..never even HAD one to begin with..my goodness...weird ya noe? and coupled with the fact she somehow just irritates me....her voice (ESP), her disposition gets on my nerves somehow....she's nvr done anything to me but..yea...weird huh? oh well..i just pray hard i dun get my next placement with her...i'll just...CRY....hiazzzzz...

anyway..yest was torture..had really bad cramps and headache tt lead to fever and wanting to puke..worst one in the recent few months..hiaz...a lil better today lah...yay..and well..learnt to day tt next yr we're gonna have tt muscle palpating lesson like the PTs do..and tt requires us to strip down to our underwear and palpate each other!!

OH MY GOODNESS!!! how to palpate me?! my fats will get in the way...my back is proabably the only place tts not flabby..nice HARD back...right melia? ahahahaha!!! but apparently the back is kinda more impt..coz got a lot of trigger points...so...hmm....HAIYOHHHH....die lah...can i please wear shorts?? i'm not abt to expose my thunder thighs to the world..need to work out so tt i can be more...OPEN abt my body for next yr....AHHHHHHHHHH!!! FREAK!!!!!i think the moment ppl see me in my sports bra they'll die of eye cancer or sth..aahhaa..MANNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!! ok....ok...cool down..its not that bad...right?? =S i heard its sports bra and shorts...tts ok i guess..better than BIKINI or SWIMSUIT (which is wad i also heard)...OH YUCK!! swimsuit to SWIM is fine..swimsuit to parade ard and palpate..man..fats lah...pls...no swimsuit..i will like take MC or sth..ahahahaah...

WEEKEND!!! gotta finish my clinical diary man...stupid..most of everyone finished clinicals this week...one more week for me.....HANG IN THERE!!! anat pract..HANG IN THERE!! physio test...HANG IN THERE!! i need to... back to top?