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the weekend is coming to a close...

and wad did i do?!

study anatomy...WONDERFUL..and i haven't started studying for SHS which is on the same freaking day as anat pract test!!! ARGH!!!!and its SOOOO many weeks to read up on..like 14 weeks? shit lah..i'm soo dead...no one pays attn during those lects..its like we have them for the sake of having them..and now we have a TEST?! i'm dead..i need to brun my whole day 2mr studying..LUCKY...NO SCHOOL 2MR!!! WHEEE!!!! coz anat is e pract and no socio and no more cross psych!! WHEEE!!!!! i get to stay at home and study..i prefer tt..heh..

well..my saturday was a really moody one..i started the day off badly lah..hiaz..i just got so caught up with my own flaws early in the morning, went into " i hate myself" mode and the whole day was just bad..i didn't blow at ppl lah..but i got irritated and tired easily..went to marina sq and went watch hunting for my sis..coz both of us now have no working watches ( if you dun count my 10 dollar watch lah) i need a digital watch for swimming and exercise stuff ( not tt i run alot or anything but i need one when i do) so we went watch hunting and after walking inside city chain for SOOO long...finally decided on the same addidas watch as my sis..its really kinda nice..but i was reluctant at first coz i dun really wear watches with small faces..

so walked ard the whole shop looking at other watches and i can tell i was being very picky and fussy..till my dad got a bit irritated..but hey! if i wanna get a watch i'd better damn well like it and make sure all its functions suit my fancy..saw some big faced ones but they look kinda lao tu, or baby colours, the digits looked bad or the light function sucked..so finally decided on the small faced one..same as my sis but her's is black an red tho..heh..if you're wondering why i cldn't just wait and get it another time? its coz there was a promotion tt if got any other watch cld get tt watch at 35 bucks!! cheap huh? so yea..tts why..mine's yellow with dark blue lines..

SO..wanted to wear it down for my swim today..AND guess wad? my sis read the instructions manual AND....its NOT waterproof!!!! AHHHHHH!!! i wanted a digital watch to primarily go and swim..i shld have asked b4 buying dammit..slipped my mind..anyway..mum said its just a spare till we find a nicer one...so yea!! ahaha...they need to get me a bdae present you see..heh heh..not tt i die for bdae presents..i'm ok with no presents..i haven't gotten any from them the past 3 yrs..haha..its just tt hope is not lost for a water proof digi watch!!

i need A LOT of things..but NO time to go and shop!! exams and all are just building up week by week..irritating lah..hiaz..i want a lot of things..need some, want some..heh heh..allow me to share:

NEEDS:
1) backpack--> sis stole my trusty deuter i carried for 2 yrs and i'm stuck with the OLD OLD deuter form sec 3 which is dying rapidly
2) mp3 pouch --> its tearing apart..holes made by the splitter..
3) hp plan--> i need to upgrade to a 1000 free smses FAST..i keep overshooting every month and i dun send out uneccesarily all the time..my incoming always exceeds my outgg ...
4) slippers with heel straps--> i dun wish to run the risk of getting $50 fine for wearing slippers
5) ballet flats--> my black one is dying soon and i need a pair of"dress shoes"
6) spectacles--> i'm getting a bit tired of these PLUS they scratch soo easily on the left side ( dun ask me why) i dun think i look human in contacts if not i wld have gotten them..hiaz..wad a sad life i lead..

WANTS:
1) a new hp --> not tt i hate my current one..in fact i love it..but i need a change
2) jeans--> hard to find jeans tt fit my stupid frame..i've only 1 pair tt fits properly..its not easy to find me bottoms..they are a VERY tricky business for me..i'm not one of those tt can just pick up a pair i like, try and if i can fit i'll buy..its not tt simple..really..its NOT..
3) a denim skirt/kahki skirt--> same logic as the prev one and PLUS my denim skirt the zip ALWAYS makes it seem like a have a bulge at my tummy..i do( every normal female does) but not THAT big..
4) a new mp3--> the memory is killing me and the rubber part tt protects the USB is "melting" =S
5) wallet--> tho the one i got from dan from last chirstmas is still working fine and new..its too guy-ish lah...i like the print and all but..i need a more feminine wallet also..aaha..but the one i have now is good..durable..hmmm...i just wanna spend lah..heh heh..

hiaz..i just needed to write this down somewhere lest i forget wad i need to buy when i finally find the time..ahah..

discovery at swimming today : doggy paddles work your quadraceps
and now my left quad is all tingly..2mr sure pain and my rectus abdominus..or is it transversus abdominus?? haha..the lower region of my abdominal wall has been sore the whole day..mensus cramps in advance ( it happens)? muscle cramp from doing goodness knows wad? ha..

and the week...BEGINS..anatomy dedication week..how fun..really..*yea right* back to top?

finally the week has come to an end...

i thot this week wldn't be as bad as the last but it was only slightly better..PBL report overshot by more than double the limit..spent the whole last night till 2am to slash...now the report is skimpy but HECK!

anat pract on next fri..wonderful..i hope i pass...

CJ choir gg to PRAGUE...PRAGUE!! well..i mean..i knew tt they were gg but now its been open to us seniors..sent an email out...i wanna go but i got sch..so..hiaz...

hanson rocks!

this is porbably one of the few short entries..tired lah..i leave you with my darling hanson..ahaha..here's the famous MMMBOP..i fouond the ali and jack one! i thot it was gone but..its not! so i'll put it up aft this one.. i like taylor's clothes here..and i like the energy despite it being a nonsensical song..but the harmony and energy ..thats wad i call GOOD PERFORMERS...


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MAN!!!!

this is FREAKING NICE!!! EVERYONE GO WATCH THE VIDEO ON THIS LINK!!! you will REGRET in a million years time if not now should you decide to forgo this link..SERIOUSLY!! and i think their uniform looks a bit like HCI's one at SYF last yr..

http://homepage.mac.com/kokopelliphotos_01/videos/iMovieTheater24.html

ahhh.....damn nice..i miss choir...i miss singing in a HUGE group..so nice...so so nice...and if you all notice the lead singer..well..she is missing a hand if i'm not wrong..and she's got a nice soothing voice...good stuff..and the choir..gosh..dun even get me started man!! THEY ROCK!! damn nice..even if we do get hold of the score..and we sing..it may sound nice but the whole-ness of it isn't gonna be there BECAUSE..not enough ppl..I MISS CHOIR!!!

wld you believe that i was like humming butterfly in school?? ahaha...its been a long time since i did tt...coz well..the atmosphere not there..but today..I DID!! hahaa..i sound so moronically deprived..but hey..I AM..in CJ..this singing thing anywhere and everywhere wld be considered normal ard my friends esp if they were from choir..i miss cj..i miss choir terribly..i notice all my good friends all mainly streamed from choir.."choir i love you ..choir i do..when i'm without you my heart beats for youu..." look familiar? harry potter? replace choir with KRUM..heh heh..

talking abt choir ppl..i saw waisiang in school today..yes CJC choir waisiang..with his girlfriend standing at the lift at NYP..i walked out of the LT and i thot i was seeing things...i actually stood at another angle to take a closer 2nd look..and i was right..ha..kept calling out to him but no response till his girlfriend turned ard and gave me a puzzled look..sheesh man..prob think i'm some yr 1 nursing student calling out her bf's name..haha..then well..he finally acknowledged my presence..asked him why he was there and said tt "he studys here.." right..i TOTALLY believe..then he gave me a real reason but he was mumbling so...i dunno why he was there..ahaha..saw sarah aft tt and told her..apparently..this isn't the 1st time waisiang has been spotted on campus...HmmmmMMMMmmm....

anyway..nth much today..just went to visit the cadavers again to revise..hope i did enough there and i have to do my part of the PBL report by tonight..hiaz..sianded man..2mr is gonna be a long day..sian sian sian...and wad makes it even sianer? NO SINGING AT ALL THIS WEEK!!! even if someone organised it...i wldn't be able to go...coz i refuse to go...sadly..in the real world..studies are the 1st priority..

why CJ rocked? coz ANYTIME and ANYWHERE in the school your a ccapella grp was just a sms or call away..meeting up didn't require you to pull out speical time to sing..just 5 mins or 10 mins (but its never JUST 10 mins) b4 gg home or as a break from studying..hiaz..and pianos available ard the school..so there wasn't a real need to balance it...coz it was PART of school life...now singing is like a external hobby..i need to deal with it myself..so...AHHHHHHHHH!!!! i feel soo nostaligaclly saddened now..=( back to top?

WOOHOO!!

heh heh...been eons since i watched all my hanson videos...and yes...even aft umpteen times of watching them ( phrasing is weird here but ..oh well..) I LOOVE THEM!!!

ah!!! the niceness of 3 part harmony, the energy and passion you can sense it, and the LYRICS..man..coolness...hanson rocks..well..most ppl only know hanson for the puny munchkins who sang "mmmbop"..well..not tt i hate tt song..in fact..now tt they've grown and they sing it..i dunno..still sounds nice..but i'm here to promote the lesser known songs from hanson..actually...its not lesser known..its just i think most ppl just "switch off" the moment they hear its a hanson song..so here's "penny and me"..its not exactly unknown..but..if you're one of those ppl who switch off when you hear its sung by hanson..take a listen:



man...i wish i had another sibling...so cool hor? hiaz..actually..there were many more videos of hanson singing penny and me on various other shows and the quality is better and well..taylor looks better..=)))))) but then i think they've been removed over time..the one on the al and jack show ..man..taylor looked so pure..ahaha..but can't find already..oh well..HSM fad has kinda passed and hanson fad is back again..heh heh..actually..its always been here...just well..it'll be the new trend of vids on my blog..HA!

well..this week i have to be as much of a mugger as i can...anatomy..ugh..pract test next week friday..if it were other subjects i wld do some crash course thing but this is anatomy..dun playplay..

2dae..the mark of the beginning of 7th month..i tell you..my place is literally like "7th month land"..seriously..i haven't heard of anywhere else tt has as an extensive "celebration" ever..those who have been to my house b4 wld know there is a huge field in fornt of my estate..it has a humongous tent on it and i MEAN HUMONGOUS..it has like life-size paper cars,houses and all tt just under one part of the tent, there's like a cooking area also and tt area is BIG..nearly the whole coffee shop tt size and you can only imagine the number of tables..

just when you thought tt s bad enough..there is ANOTHER tent on the left of my condo..wonderful..not as big but still big enough..and you know..they have those auctions tt go on? well..lets just say BOTH the tents are having auctions now... yelling "ngor chap..ngor chap" into the loudhailer in a generator voice.. and you know..the extent of the effects dun just end there right? the area ALL ard it has ppl burning HEAPS of hell money and TONS of joss sticks and candles stuck into any available grass patch..i can only imagine the amt of ashes flying ard the area 2mr..and hiaz..it doesn't help tt there are 2 7th months this year..how nice..double the agony..

and there is a temple down the road..so you are welcomed to just predict the vibrance..ha..and well...it IS scary...if you know wad i mean..malignant spirits..they actually have processions with all the statues of the idols in sedans and the sedan can move on its own from left to right..its THAT scary..yea..so tt why..during 7th month...esp during the peaks where the spirits are said to be ESP rampant..my mum is particular abt me returrning home early and i TOTALLY understand why..its freaky...esp where i live...

trying to drown out the yelling from downstairs now with hanson..wait till the "ge tai"s come..WOW..the "circus" has come to town.. back to top?

LOOK WAD I FOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!
well.its not rajaton lah..but its by some college acapella grp..not bad leh..so i'm putting it up..and look at the small guy on the left in the centre..ahaha..soo small and soo cute!!! he's like bobbing..ahahaha...



well..dun ask me why but the fad for butterfly has returned..for me lah..fallen in love with the song again..actually primarily coz i wanna get the part right..my ACTUAL part..i mean..good job to our transcriptor/transcriber/wadeva but..still sounds a bit wrong..so..heh..some of you shld noe wad i mean and hopefully this helps..hearing other ppl singing the same song may help..coz no special effects in the recording..and some voices tend to be more obvious so yea..haha..i really wanna get this bloody song right..its a nice song..

also..i'm having LOTS of plans in my mind now..regarding singing of course..i REAAAAALLY wanna do sth for christmas..but i dunno man..need to like sit down,plan and discuss..but i want it and i will do it as long as ppl wanna join me..as in..ENOUGH ppl..scully lack of manpower..damn sad..and i REAAALY mean it literally..like MAN power..haha..WOMAN power lack oso crucial lor..but guys more jia lat..army..girls..got work lah,flying out lah,studies lah..but we can work sth out for sure..=)

SO...WHO IS WITH ME???!! whenever i think of you guys..i start thinking abt how far we can actually go..its so hard to find a grp of ppl who love singing as much as you do and well..when you actually have voices for each part..makes you wonder how far you can actually carry this THANG..i mean..we might as well work towards an aim and for me tt is to share the music we make with others..for others to appreciate it as much as we do...doesn't need to be like large scale like concert or performance at hotels ( i think it'll take up too much time to prepare for anyway)..guys in army makes it abit harder and how those of us schooling need weekends to catch up..was thinking singing for a home..like the children's home and stuff like tt..its a nice way to spend chirstmas...and not AS stress..so yes..recruitment drive: pls sign up here.. heh..

ok..better get back to my cross psych..UGH...dun understand wads it abt and got test on monday..wonderful..so sad tt i told my mum tt i wld make this week the last week tt i wld go out on saturdays...until a while more..as today drew closer i felt so sad...OH NO!!! FURTHER deprivation..i am gonna die at this rate..seriously...its like DRUG..NOOOOOOOO!!!! i feel so sad just thinking abt it..but i guess it can't be helped..everytime i sacrifice a saturday away..i feel the consequences of tt action on saturday..but..tt sacrifice is DEFINITELY worth it..NO REGRETS..even tho always at a lost as to wad to do next but its nice nontheless..i seem to be talking in riddles and rhymes hor? so if you know wad i'm talking abt..then you know..if you dun ..then you are always welcomed to make a guess..heh.. back to top?

the week has come to an end...well the SCHOOL week has come to an end..it was a long,tiring and "piss me off" week..but i'm glad its over..WHEEEE....

Its abt to be a very disorganised and weird weekeend tho..i dunno why..i can just anticipate..not to mention i got cross psych test on monday which i have YET to study and gotta study for anat like every monday AND i gotta stay back for some LAST MIN talk again..seriously..they need a wake up call..they are a committe that well..basically is meant to serve the student's and their needs..NOT for us to COMPLY to their way of doing things and all..seriously...everytime i think abt all the accusations they make against us..i ACTUALLY get all pissed inside...like tt kind of defense you have for sth you are passionate abt? yea..tt kind of feeling..i actually feel THAT strongly abt it..coz why? the ONE thing i REALLY hate? is being ACCUSED ESP by ppl who dun get their facts right..and petty morons..if you have no concrete evidence abt me dun you dare accuse me..

well..*turns schizo* on to HAPPIER things..WHEEE!!!well..not happier lah..just less intense...I BROKE MY WATCH!!! my darling black watch which i paid 10 bucks for..ahaha..well..i knew it was only a matter of time b4 it broke (it was already dying anyway) but i didn't expect it to break the way it did!! ahaha..allow me to share:

1) on my way to the mrt to go to school
2) eating my breakfast (egg sandwich)
3) i walk towards the coffee bean dustbin to throw my plastic bag
4) i use my left hand( my watch hand) to throw
5) i walk away as i throw it in
6) *PIAK!!*
7) the metal part( where you have the thing to stick into the hole..sounds bad..hah) clanks onto the ground beside the dustbin
8) my watch is stuck at the flap opening of the dustbin
9) my watch is spoilt

sth was telling me to change my watch 2dae b4 i left..so i checked all my watches and my white one batt died and my trusty addidas digital watch died a few days ago..so no choice..BUT ANYWAY!! i got a new watch..another $10 but hey! its nice..navy blue..hah..yay..

so yes..today was a good day..my SHS didn't need to present!!! YAY!!! and also my PBL grp presentation went ok i guess..so YAY!! ahaha..

well..another thing to note abt fridays...i am always reminded of how single i have been all these years on fridays starting from last week..coz most couples meet on fridays..so depressing..allow me to explain how this affects me directly..ahah:

the 2 girls i hang out with at sch Khad and sam (samantha) ahah..yes..well..both have boyfriends..well i can usually tell when they're meeting them from the way they dress..they take the effort to wear sth a lil nicer or bother to wear a nice pair of earrings, wear a bit of makeup..yea..so yea..i cld tell they were gg out tonight..but then it cld be coz of the 2 presentations we had today..so in bother asking..when the day ended..i was walking out with them and valerie (yes..another val) then they were saying :

"OH! i'm waiting for my boyfriend"

the other : "oh yah..me too.."

khad: "vanessa!! where's yours?!"

and my reply?

"somewhere..dunno where..hiaz..haha.."

coz val was gg to church tonight she said : I've got a date with God
and coz i was gg to meet melia and seymone : I'm meeting my lesbian partner

haha..but yea..khad did the same thing the last time..as in ask me where is my "boyfriend"..i really dunno..ha..i mean..i know she is just teasing me lah..and i dun take it to heart..the right one just hasn't come along and i'm fine with it..right? ahaha..i'm not insulted or intimidated or anything..it just gets me thinking..and i ask myself :

"yah..really..i wanna know too..if you see him tell him i've been wondering who he is and where he has been all these years.."

haha..i haven't been on the look out for a mate (ha..like animal liddat..HA!)..in fact i saw no point in looking for one while i was still at sch, no point jepordizing my future over a guy..but as i grow older i really wonder WILL I EVER ? coming to 19 yrs of singlehood..ha..its not a bad thing its just a phase and you just WONDER..i'm sure the right one will come along someday..its all in God's time..i sound so despo now..haha..i'm NOT despo ok..just sharing wad are the kinda things i'm thinking of as i approach 19..heh..it just gets you thinking lah..yea..

well..anyway..there has been some commotion over one of my PT friends in sch..really nonsensical but i'm ok with it..i mean..i'm not affected by it..YET...if you wanna know ..just msg me online..ha..its kinda funny lah..ahaha..

and yes..I CUT MY HAIR!!! WHEEE!!! its shorter and i look better and..my classmates and all the ppl i've seen so far like it so..YAY!! ahaha..AND...the HSM SOUNDTRACK IS OUT!!! yay!! ahaha..saw it at HMV today..ahaha.. back to top?

this was a BAD BAD BAD weekend...i think without saturday it wld have been worse tho..thank goodness singing always makes things seem a little brighter..

next week is a HORRID week..and tt is about to commence in 4 hrs time...ARGH!!! bloody hell..i have like 2 presentations due next week and 3 essays. WTH!!!! ahhh!!! stress stress..one presentation is kinda done..just haven't got the chance to put it all together and polish up..and the other is 1/4 done..bloody hell..i'm freaking stressed...time is passing by soo damn quicky and b4 you know it...i wld have the ultimate test of the year..ANATOMY PRACTICAL..SHIT..ok lah..not of the year lah..of the sem..b4 the written exams..AHHH!! this is damn shitty..and it doesn't help tt on tuesday and wednesday this week we have extra stuff gg on after school..eats into my time ..

i just finished 1 of my essays not long ago..WAAY longer than i intended to take doing it and i have NOT started on anatomy for 2mr..am i screwed or screwed? my essay is shitty..no..seriously..it IS.. i didn't even do it in proper citation method..i didn't even realise it until i was referring to the thing on how to do referecing for sources..HIAZ....the only thing to look forward to next week? the END of the weekday and the START of hte weekend..BADMINTON!!! SINGING!!! i can't WAIT!! AHHH!!! YAY!!! tt will be my only source of motivation man..YES...its enough to supply...

i did sth REALLY stupid..DAMN DUMB i can't believe i actually did it...i'm amazed at my capabilities..i've implicated others and i've destroyed it all..such a selfish act but wads done is done...and i didn't even really mean all tt i said..and it wasn't on purpose..but i guess there's a reason why it happened and i just hope it doesn't get worse..not like its not bad enough as it is already...

i'm off to anatomy world...my torture begins..AGAIN...2mr..a day of scolding..this is becoming SUCH a routine...why do i even bother studying for it when i'll end up NOT knowing how to answer them?? UGH..seriously...i miss CJ..i'm not liking this very much now..it wld probably be better if i had choir and the gang to be ard and sing with but..nah.. tt wun happen..i can ONLY wish..and can i say sth? i really wish there were more IJ girls and SJI guys in my class and course..there really is a diff..and i miss tt diff..the atmosphere..its.......DIFFERENT.. back to top?

man..i'm actually smiling like an idiot while typing this now...

haha...tannie sent me some song by human nature..mo mo ai ni..man...as you all know..they sing english songs..but they sang this chinese song...in chinese..ahah..man..i doubt you can make out wad they are saying just by listening and considering how my chinese sucks...i had to rely on english translation...and its DAMN nice..

mo mo ai ni...wooo oh

ye se chuan guo le chuang
The colour of the night shines thru the windows
a zai wo de jian bang shang
casting it on my shoulder
xiang ti tie de hao peng you
like a caring good friend
gei wo nuan nuan yong bao
giving me a warm hug
lei gan de lian pang
with dried tears on my face
jing jing de wei xiao, jing jing de xiang
smiling quietly, thinking silently
ai ni wo bu gan qu jiang
I do not dare to tell u that I love you
jing guo ni shen pang bu zhuo ni de yan guang
Trying to capture your attention when I pass you by

CHORUS
mo mo ai ni
Secretly in love with you
ai que ge zai yan di
but love hides beneath the eyes
gei bu liao ni, tian tian de lei ji
can't give it to you, it just accumulates everyday

li ming chuan guo le chuang
Dawn shines thru the window
sa zai ni de zhao pian shang
casting it on your photo
xiang ti tie di hao peng you
like a caring good friend yao wo shou qi ta ba
telling me to keep it away
lei shi de yan kuang
with tears in my eyes
jing jing de liu lei, jing jing de xiang
crying quietly, thinking silently
ai ze me dui ni qu jiang
How do I tell you that I love you?
ba mei ci shi wang ze me kan cheng xi wang
How do I take every failure as another hopeful chance?

CHORUS

tou lu de mei jian xin shi
Secrets revealed
deng ni hui ying deng dao he shi
but when will you respond
ai yi dan you le kai shi
When loving starts
shui bu dou xi wang you mei hao de jie ju
who does not want a perfect ending?

mo mo ai ni
Secretly in love with you
ai que ge zai yan di
but love hides beneath the eyes
gei bu liao ni, wo yao de bu zhi guan xin
Can't give it to you, I wanted more than concern

mo mo ai ni
Loving you secretly
xiang wen ni zai xin di
wanted to ask you that deep down
ni de an ding hui zai shui de huai li
in whose arms will your security be?
mo mo ai ni......

i know some parts of the lyrics are missing but i can't be bothered to go look for it...its too many words..ahahaa..well..dun you think its sweet?ahhaa...if you want the song just msg me online...well..my monday today wasn't too bad...coz testing at anatomy and no electives so go home early!!! whee!! ahaha..and got more HSM songs from dan..WHEE!!! too bad the status quo song is kinda incomplete...

oh well..with regards to school..i can sense tt my whole class is starting to get a bit irritated with the lecturers...seriously..they all make it seem as if we WANT to make life hard for them and tt we PURPOSELY do badly...like sheesh..USE YOUR BRAINS MAN!!! how wld pissing you off and us doing badly benefit us in anyway...wanna consider tt your teaching method for the past donkey yrs may need some restructuring?! or sth else? stop pushing the blame on us...doesn't mean tt the same teaching method for the past 15 odd yrs have resulted in good results so far means tt its FOOLPROOF ya noe?! all of you keep saying we're not like the rest ..not as good, not as responsive, not as motivated blahblahblah....in your effort to try to motivate us to strive to be like our seniors..its just making us seem like a bunch of aliens trying too hard to be like man or sth...we just eventually..well..GIVE UP...UGH...morons...all of them...i want to say all these to the lecturers but seriously...i can't..i'll DIE...but given the chance with NO consequences wadsoeva..i WILL..its been burning within me to say everytime uma opens her mouth to lecture us on our attitude..but i can't...

oh well...yes...got projs lined up...rar...i'm looking forward to the end of this week...WHEE!! other than tt i have to study anat..heh heh... back to top?

YES...THIS is one of my FAVOURITE-ST songs form high school musical..this was THE song tt caught my attention and made the show mean SOO much more to me than JUST another teen flick..the lyrics of the song just speaks soo clearly the issue tt i've always been ever soo upset abt ..the BLOODY comparison btwn the sports and the arts and clubs..its like...its all held in diff esteem..i'll be posting the lyircs on the usual page..

somehow one gets the VIBE tt NOT being in the sports kinda ccas just makes you LESS COOL...and its true tt ppl find it hard to accept when you want to break free of the person you ARE supposed to be...its like when you learn tt a cross country runner and avid basketball player LOVES to knit or like has professional singing lessons..or when some arts or club person is actually a triathelete as well...its just..well..weird and somehow wrong..there's a hierachy in any social setting..and very evidently in school which i had been sick of in school..abt how sports achievements are held in higher regard compared to the achievements clubs and the performing arts obtian..its seen to be " NOT AS HARD TO OBTAIN" ..wad i have to say to that?

BULLSHIT

seriously...everyone knows how strongly i feel abt this whole stereotype and misconception tt ppl in any other CCA but sports ccas are just not good enough or cool enough...seriously..like i've said many times before...dun you DARE judge UNTIL you've tried your hand at it..NO ONE achievement is easier to get than the other..they ALL req hard work and effort..so yea..better stop there b4 i continue my whole debate once again..heh..

so yes...had yien's farewell yesterday..it was nice meeting up again aft soo long..hiaz...really...i miss CJ..i really really do...all my frineds and CHOIR was there...i had my life there...i cld grow there...how can you hate a place where you cld grow and discover your talent and potential and meet great friends??!!! do i see myself growing in NYP?? not at the moment but even if i do..it wun be in the sense tt i wld like it to be...like working on my gifts however normal they are..but it gives me a sense of worth..maybe its too early to say anything...i shld give this place a chance...but its really hard...trust me..it is..

and well..went to suntec today aft novena..well..apparently the WHOLE world was at suntec today..ahaha..usually no one is..ahaha..alethea's gathering was gg on there, jia cheng's bdae celebration was gg on nearby at marina..so yea..saw A LOT of familiar faces..it gets a bit weird when you see too many familiar faces when you're out ..coz well..whenever you go out with your friends, you go to places where even if you see ppl it'll be ppl tt are just acquaintances and just wave a hi and bye..when you see friends its kinda like ..i dunno like a .." you all out today ah?? why you all nvr call us along??" ahaha...tt kinda awkwardness...but yea..i knew of all the events happening today..so it wasn't that weird..ahaha..except tt i didnlt expect to be in the same location..oh well..

FINALLY gonna get to sing next week!! WOOHOO!! been deprived for WAAAY too long...seriously..no matter how bad it sounds...i DON'T care...i just need to sing..i need to HEAR voices BLENDING...i need to hear HARMONY..AHHHHH!!! ANATOMY!! reserving tt for last min cramming AGAIN sundays..my usual sundays...shld be typing my cross psych essay now but..heh..i'm getting to it...

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man..

so hard to find info..

1st fertility practices in india now the malay cultural beliefs..as in taboos and things like tt...nonsense...so hard to find ones tt are relevant to OTs...RAR!!!

and tried to dl friend rice paradise and life a story from sam..took soo long..nvm..can't play..UGH!!!

YAY!!! gonna get guy shirts 2mr!! no not for anyone else BUT MYSELF!!! ahaha..guys shirts are much nicer..the print..ahaha..whee...Fox is having a promotion..12 bucks each for min purchase of 2..so YAY!!! ahaha...

i need sleep...gonna try letting my hair down for the day 2mr..nvr went out b4 with my hair down the whole day..ahahaa...a new challenge i pose to myself..i hate having hair down lah..irritating..gets in the way..hot..ahahaa...oh well.. back to top?

HIIIIIIAZ...

i feel soo sad now...and in a reminiscent kinda mood...

i wanna be youngER again...i wanna be ard my friends..they dun even have to be physically ard me...just knowing they are HERE...get my drift? you will soon..

this week having 2 farewells..one for princess and one for yien..had princess's today..it was just a small farewell consisting of melia,me and princess...we met at city hall to make our way to my place for HSM (i'm starting to get sick of it...but i will NEVER hate it..heh)..its my 4th time watching it today..so anyway..we watched HSM then alethea brought her DVD of pics from her europe trip..man...italy looks darn nice..i'm always fascinated by the paintings and mosiacs on the ceilings..they are sooo fanstastic...hiaz..

then we made our way to GWC to have dinner and have some dessert at coffee bean..hiaz..we gave princess our present for her: a scrapbook..hope you like it princess...hiaz..then we all rushed home..it was short gathering but i guess making the effort to meet was the main thing..then as i walked the 2 towards TBP for them to take mrt home...i left them at the foot of the LOONG staircase...i wanted to give princess a hug but well..it all happened too fast..so yea..all i said was "take care ah princess.."...i wanted to give her a hug coz well..i dunno when will the next time i'll get to see her...i mean..yes she's only leaving next weekend but i may not get to see her again b4 she leaves..so yea..it'll be a few months b4 she comes back..hiaz...oh well...

yien's farewell on friday..was hoping tt the whole gang cld meet up cum bid yien farwell but then some ppl have guard duty and work and things like tt...so its incomplete once again..and once again only the bus-stop gang can make it..haha...hiaz...oh well..better than nth i guess...

got soo many projs lined up..ugh...i'm hating this..it doesn't help tt cross psych demands 2 essays form us...bloody nonsense...UGH...like PBL and SHS not enuff...morons...i mean MORON aka tt wala wala (sp?) lecturer of mine...hiaz...he and his SICK sense of humour...JUST because he is lazy to mark attendance or sth..he decides to thorw us an essay to write IN ADDITION to the one already set to account for out attendance tt day...RAR!!! whywhywhy??!! i need to to national library to do research for my PBL..i wanna....BLEAH!!!!!!!!!!

weekends are drawing near..means anatomy mugging is nearer...i used to love weekends btw...now i just wish it'd stay at weekdays (other than monday and thurs) ahaha...i miss school- JC and sec sch..really i do...i REALLY REALLY do... back to top?