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well..there you go...last night was the last night of any choir related stuff...i've been sooo upset the whole day...like really sad...i know it sounds really retarded tt i'm treating choir as if its my life..but guess wad? IT IS...

its literally a part of my life taken away from me...i wanna cry yet i can't..my gosh..i feel soo stupid..i mean...choir allowed me to learn abt myself to develop my love for music...to let me know just what am i good at other than studies( which are not very good to begin with)..it gave me sth to be..well...proud of..its sth i am passionate abt..it really is a passion..gosh...this love for singing was in sec sch but really took a BIGBIGBIG step forward when i joined CJ choir coz there was potential in this choir...LOADS OF IT compared to STC choir..this choir is WAAAYYYY better lah..

i mean...for one i LOVE THE ALTOS to BITS!! i mean..THE WHOLE SECTION is COMMITTED...evryone turns up for extra sectionals on our own with NO complains and we nearly always have FULL attendance at choir..those absent have good reasons not to be there)and ALL of us are like passionate..i mean...just take SYF time for example..gosh..i cried lah...cried over a choir once in my life..and the best part? the J1s cried too..like...gosh only in choir for a few mnths and they feel sth for it already...isn't tt cool??!!!man..will miss all of you to bits..you all will always be the BEST altos i have ever met in my life..even if we went out of tune and cld nvr get stuff right..i love you guys all the same..its the attitude like i've always said tt matters to me..i dun mind staying till 10 pm teaching a J1 or making time to teach as long as the person has the right attitude...only the sch closes at 7pm so haha..ARGH!!!!!! I DUN WANNA LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

contrary to melia...i DON'T WANT christmas to come...once xmas comes means i wun get to sing at the xmas concert coz i may be flying off for hols as much as i am reluctant to.. i mean...spain or italy will always be there..the xmas concert only comes once..once xmas comes we wld be out of the sch,guys go to NS,A levels draw near....like wad norman says..means from now on its studies all the way..hopefully we can still make a BIT of time to sing once in a while...but then we all know..once we start we can't stop..so..ha..we'll see...i've been looking at all the pics i took over the 2 days and evrytime i see them i feel soo sad...its the memories tt will last...and most of all..thanks to all who gave me chance to explore my leadership abilities and to serve choir..it was a great honour and i will never regret it despite all the probs i faced..thanks to all who helped me along the way...CJ CHOIR ROCK ON !!! back to top?

my goodness...i just realised tt tonight will be the last performance of my life...its a bit overwhelming...i mean...I LOVE CHOIR TO BITS!!! like seriously...i love singing soooooooo much..the thot of tonight being the last time being able to perform for ppl is super saddening lah...i mean...ok..SO WHAT if we ain't the best choir around? i've never been in a gold choir..but tt doesn't make me hate or embarressed being in a choir..yea...my gosh..i love the feeling of anxiety,preparation (warming up your voices,evryone helping everyone put make up,ppl complaining how they look fat in their gowns when they actually don't, guys complaining its warm wearing the blazer and soak up their shirts etc...)and achievement( however you wish to view tt..hopefully not in terms of merit but in terms of wad you have learnt) i'll miss all that...choir has basically moulded me into who i am today..like seriously...prob only a few will understand wad i'm trying to say but yea...it all started in sec sch and i seriously dun regret choosing choir..AT ALL...my goodness...just writing all this already makes me feel soo heavy-hearted..I DUN WANNA LEAVE!!!!!

i'm gonna make sure i take pics with evryone tonight man..ok..maybe not evryone..but ppl who mean sth to me..i may not have the chance to take with EVRYONE i want to but yea...its worth a shot..ahaha...last time to see all the J2 gals in that gown ( which i am starting to grow to like...dun ask why..) and the guys in their suits ( i know its very uncomfortable wearing them..but seriously..you all look GOOD wearing them)..hiaz...this is soooo sad...i may even cry tonight man..ha...you'll see vanessa kwek cry over choir for the 2nd time in her life..and its CJ choir mind you for both times...haha..tts how much potential i see in this choir..if not..trust me..i hardly cry over stuff liddat...

anyway..last night's performance was ok i guess..we sounded WAAAAYYYYY good in the LT lah..man..evrytime we sing in the LT its damn nice...i guess the sound there is good lah..we when we hear ourselves sounding good we become confident and sing even better..SEE!! who says choir is JUST singing?? you guys have NO idea how much mental preperation it takes to produce a good performance..just like sports.........ok...DON'T get me started...although i nearly did when one of my classmates commented sth liddat in class tt day..i nearly blew...

anyway..yea..it wasn't our best but it was ok..not as bad as the rehearsal at PAC tt day..heard commments from cheryl's friends tt it was bad BUT these ppl are like gold choir-ish? i dunno...and i dun care..we did the best we cld have given the circumstances..and the STUPID ppl switched off ALL the lights b4 we cld go off the stage lah..whoa lao..ppl fell off the risers as they were trying to get down..wth..anyway..hopefully they get their brains back tonight...and the fire twirly thing during the interval was SUPER COOL!!! my gosh..by maylyn's classmate..CJ has hidden talent man..apparently its his hobby lah..WHOA MAN!! cool or what lah..ahaha...wanna see again tonight..haha.. back to top?

ahaha...i'm FINALLY 18...well..not that i have been DYING to be 18 but yea..i am..finally...watching soo many of my frens turn 18 b4 me i guess it was finally my turn...well..lets just say tt this was one of the most memorable birthdays yet...

Firstly:i share it with another friend..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DANIEL TOO!! ahahha...

2ndly:there was the intention of me watching them buy my birthday gift..thank goodness it was still a surprise..went out with them to buy the pressie lah...sian enot?? =P lucky i had to leave for home early so yea...gave you guys a chance to still make it a surprise...

3rd:i actually saw them signing my birthday card...ahaha..ok..so i din noe wad was IN the card but yea..i saw them signing the card..tt was WAAAY worse then ppl dropping the card in front of the birthday person itself..ahahah...but not tt i mind lah..i mean...*does the mr goh thing*COME ON...aft all the birthdays we've done..I KNOW there IS gonna be a card..aahah..i guess it was kinda hard for them to get it signed too lah..i mean...i'm nearly ALWAYS around..ahaha..

4th: i got the MOST number of gifts this year from friends. seriously..really was veryvery surprised..i mean..previous years i just get a card or 2 and some birthday wishes..not tt i'm one tts particular abt ppl rmbering its my birthday and having to go thru all tt WHO-HA to gimme a surprise but i'm really touched tt ppl actually bothered to go and get sth despite busy schdules..so thanks guys..=) here's a list of wad i got,cards and wishes and all..

-amelia,maylyn,phyllis,audrey,ru yin ( tts all i guess)= poster with guitar chords and a neckalce
-norman=green teddy bear keychain
-ying= a veryvery nice birthday card she made herself
-wenshan and wanting= note holder
-alethea= glow-in-the-dark rosary
-angela= a box for the rosary
-jevon= sang a birthday song...still was a bit taken aback by it..but nice all the same..=)
-evan ah pek= kinder bueno
-chee seng= m&ms and tolberone
- 2T33= birthday wishes and song and jason trying to play happy birthday on the guitar..ahaha...
-alex= birthday ecard
-adela,alvin and lisa= friendster testimonials..hahah..appreciate it dudes..
-daniel,fio,lisa,may,amelia,AUNTY!..(can't rmb)= birthday smses
-dad= HEADPHONES!!!! WHEE!!!! FINALLY!!!
-auntie elaine= the MAGIC EYES BOOK..still having problems seein the pic in the pic..ahaha

yep..tts abt all tt i got for my birthday..its quite a lot now tt i typed everything out..ha...i am SOO LOVED!! =P ahahah!!! but yea..seriously..thank you guys!! really very touched by your gifts even if it was just a simple "happy birthday" =D OHOH!! and the card?? i think it beat the record man..the MOST number of ppl signed in a card soo far..18 PEOPLE!!! is tt COOL OR WAD??!!! 18th august,18 yrs old,18 ppl...ahaahah!! LOVE THE CARD THE MOST!! =D

then of coz the other memorable thing abt it..I HAD TO STUDY!!!! chem mock was the next day..sian enot? ahaha...but yea..went out for dinner with mum and sis at PS and took a neoprint..man..my mum looks young man..seriously...can't get over it..=P dad wasn't in s'pore for birthday but i got a sms from him lah..so yay!! ahaha..

went to the vatican exhibition at asain civilisations museum today..IT WAS DAMN COOL!! DAMN NICE!! all the significance of stuff...ITS SOOO RICH..the faith can be depicted soo clearly and richly thru all the relics and paintings..and the nicest part was the one where there were artifacts tt had asian infulence on the design of the artifacts...its really very nice but i cldn't appreciate it to the fullest extent coz i was having my monthly cramps...so yea..will wanna go back some other time..got loads of other exhibits to see too..maybe when we're all sick of shopping and gg to orchard to hang out..museum is a nice place to go..seriously..

well..gotta cram for prelims now...NO TIME!! i haven't been pushing myself lately..still veryvery slack..but i really can't bring myself to do any studying man...ugh!! sick of it!! but i guess i have no choice now..20 days to prelims if i take the 12th as the 1st day of prelims...NO TIME!!!

OH..BTW..my...well..hatred is too strong a word to use..but my UTTER DISLIKE for a particular someone has grown..well..maybe not..but aft wad happened recently..it has reminded me why i started to have a bad impression of him and eventually begin to hate his guts..i got a feeling tt person will have absolutely NO IDEA tt i am talking abt him but oh well..we'll continue to let him live in dreamworld..i wun be unreasonable with him like most ppl are..but once he crosses the line..OFF WITH HIS HEAD I SAY!!!MWAAHAHH!!!if you know who he is..then good for you..i'm quite sure you undertand how i feel..but if you have no idea...well..i have no intention of telling you who he is either..i'm not one to go ard telling the whole wrold wad grieviences i have..i will only.. well..bitch abt him with ppl who feel the same...bitching is bad..but i guess its a good outlet once in awhile... back to top?

hahaaha....today was a day full of music-making...hahaah...well..rmb the special smething for a special someone??? YES!!!! its ALETHEA's special b'dae performnce at her house...ahahah...we went aft GP mock lah...1st we were trying to avoid her as we left school but she found us at the bus stop and so had to cook up some stupid reason why i was on tt side of school...2gether with the rest...and had to take 156 to thimson plaza instead of 132 straight coz our dear alethea takes 132 home..tt was not the end of it...as we alighted at the bus stop to wait for a bus to thomson..132 passed and alethea saw melia... got to thomson ..dan called to rush up to KFC coz they just saw alethea...WTH lah...then she came into KFC to say hi...apparently she was renting videos for her little party 2mr...so yea...ate at KFC since she already saw us..no need to da bao and so eat soemwhere else...eat finish..went to the playground to warm up...

as usual..when ppl make music in public we get attention...hahaha...so as we were singing the pieces got loads of stares...dunno if they were good or bad one but i dun care..then went down to alethea's place...turning up at her place was mean to be a surprise...i have no idea how surprised she was lah...so i dunno...ahaha...anyway..yea..sang the 3 songs and ate her mum's choc cake..damn nice...and her house is freakin big and nice...all the nice fat koi swimming ard and even when you go into the toilet..ahaha...well...ALtehea :" HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!"
well...aft tt took mrt to tiong,waited for parents to fetch me to grandma's and later to mass and later to dinner...yea...went to see the new library at bras basah there..quite nice...ahaha...so i was out the whole day...and i was just looking for ryan cabrera's chords to play...found on the way down and jesse's beautiful soul...well..wanna try 40 kinds of sadness but dunno really noe the song yet..................WHICH is why ryan is playing on the right!!! and its the MTV!!! i stole the website from dan's blog...WHEE!!!! ryan cabrera's voice just has this certain tone...sounds sooo emotional...it has some feeling of sincerity in some weird way..so its nice..and it gets you all kinda "itchy" inside...ahaha...its not anything sick fi you are thinking sick..and i miss my sis...she is in brunei now...all STC performign arts are in brunei performing for the s'pore high comission there...so wun be back to till the 10th...so lucky... back to top?