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well..since this week started...it has been back to studying once again...ugh..tho not as intensive as the preparation for the midyrs yet...it still is quite saddening...i'm such a nerd man...its not a bad thing..i'm just surpirsed tt i can actually bring myself to be so studious...haha...anyway...had chem CA and bio mock exam today...man...brain dead lah...and 2mr got GP mock..todya's test in general...ALL BAD!!! tho bio was not THAT bad coz at leats i manages ot crap sth out..and the crap made some sort of weird sense...so yea...chem ah...man..die for sure lah....if i pass ah...i gotta treat phyllis or sth...hahah..i guess i dun have to say why rite? =P

anyway...2mr..will be a special day for somebody...i'm sure tt someone will be very pleased with wad is abt to happen to 2mr when it comes..ha...more news abt it aft its over...anyway...monday is NDP celebrations in school..we get to "lancing" hahah..i very long nehber lancing liao leh..every PE lesson go and do conditioning lah..kinda forgot the steps..oh well..i'm sure i'll rmb when they start doing it..just follow...ahahaha..

and tuesday (national day itself) i will not be at home sitting at my TV watching the parade and singing along to all the national day faves as if i were still in sec 1 singing in the choir at the parade which was also at the padang..instead...i will be at tampines celebrating national day..ha..and i still dun understand why we have to meet soo early at 945am at pasir ris east cc...1st thing...WHY PASIR RIS???!!! when the blasted thing is held at tampines!! and 2nd...WHY 945am??!!!! ok..i geddit if you're a performer...but i still dun get it lah...well..remains to be seen...well..tts gonna be my week for you...and not to mention the next mock is on next saturday...MATHS MOCK!!!! ARGH!!!! then the follwoing weekk..CHEM MOCK!!! ARGH!!!! they are making a mockery out of us lah...ahahaha... back to top?

ahahaha...well...loads of well..HAPPIER events happened over this week...well..lets see...

thursday was RACIAL HARMONY DAY!!!! AHHH!!! it was sooo nice...all the diff colours and costumes...its freaking nice...the only sad thing was tt...well...I WASN'T PART OF THE COLOUR!!!! sooooo sad lah...man...all these ppl all pung seh one leh..ok..to be honest..b4 thursday i really din have the mood to dress up and all..i did in J1 well..nearly my whole class did in J1...the colour was really nice...so yea...at first audrey said she dun wan..then in the end..she ended up borrowing from liza..i din even noe...so the day b4 phyllis told me she had sth for me to wear...punjabi suit...so i was like OK!!! brought my shoes and all...got to school tried it on..was TOOO BIG!!! wld you believe it?? sth was too big for me!!! ahahaa...she told me it was big..but i did'nt think it wld be BIG..i mean...phyllis is soo small sized compared to me...so anyway..yep..ended up being one of the 7 in class with no costume...hiaz..but oh well...i enjoyed looking at all the colour and taking some pics with all tt colour...ahaha...so yea...will put the few measly pics i have up later...should have worn kebaya lah...damn it...

friday...practice for investiture of student council on tuesday evening..well..we've only sung those songs a MILLION times so yea...all it needed was polishing up..timing and all...well..all i can say is tt i, contrary to kenny, LOVE the harmony of city of god..its freaking nice and uplifting..its a matter of personal taste lah...so yea...and st. theresa's prayer...nice...hector sounds good..so i think it will be good..but besides tt..the song is a very nice song..the lyrics and all...wodner why we never sang tt in STC...i mean...its st. theresa's prayer...weird huh?? only sang the hymn ot the little flower for patron's day...anyway..yea..and we elected the new choir exco!!!! WHEEE!!!! presenting...the new choir exco 2005-2006

President:Joseph
Vice-President: Hui Hui
Student Conductor: Cheryl
Secretary: Yi Ning
Treasurer: Hui Si

i;m sure you guys will do a great job...CJ choir rocks...you all noe it...bring it out of them!!! =D and i...can finally cut down my duties..and so can the rest of the old exco..hopefully this exco will work well..or if i may BETTER than we did..it was only thru being in exco tt i really understood the importance of teamwork and understanding..yep..it was worth all tt stress and tears...=)
and yea...friday..had a great laughing session at mac's aft choir tt day...total abs workout dude!!! woohoo!!!!ppl ard us must have thot we were crazy..but HEY!!! i love it!!! hanging out wiht frens..i can totally juz..let go...ahaah...cheryl's laughter is infectious i tell you..

anyway...today..PTM...well..it went ok i guess....thank God the moment it was my tuen Mr Goh left for another class...HENG AH!!!!well...same old same old...Vanessa capable of better results...Vanessa very hardworking and capable of better results...yea..I KNOW!!! but anyone wanna tell me HOW?! how do i get better??!!! i felt tt wad ms teh told my parents the reason why i din do too well was..well..not applicable to me..she said tt first time we had to study J1 to J2 all at a shot and beign hols no one in the mood to study..but you noe wad??? i finished all the syllabus in time..well..except those "chicken feet" topics which ended up killing me...ok..hmm...maybe wad she said was kinda right..but she said it was coz we forgot all out J1 work..ARGH!!! i think i need to see her as to why i did badly...i noe D is not BAd considering how the rest of the level did but its bad considering i've done an A b4...and you noe wad?? I CAME BACK TO STUDY EVRYDAY OF THE JUNE HOLS !!!!! so i WAS studying..together with melia,alethea and norman..so..i dunno man...wad i do i have to do for prelims now??!!! help!!!!!! back to top?

thank goodness..its over!!! my depression that is...or is it not?? hmm...no idea...well..i had the worst day/night of my life yesterday..i was sleeping nearly the whole of yesterday...woke up late coz i had cramps so cld'nt go to novena with mum and dad..then lazed ard aft eating brunch watching tv...mum and dad came back..went off with mum and sis to cut hair!! AH!! Finally lah!!! finally kinda solved my "balding spot" problem...by getting a fringe! well...now its kinda messy..nice when i leave it down but i HAVE to tie it when i i go to school...so have loadsa pins in my hair now...

well..the moment i left the house felt a bit dizzy liao...went home bathed and felt nauseaus...so went to sleep...was supposed to go my grandma's hse but yea...change of plans..woke up for dinner...ahrdly ate..nausea again..ate some tropical punch youghurt..pink in colour..yum them felt sicker and wen to sleep again...woke up and vomitted...pink vomit..hahah...well..yea...was crying from all the pain and discomfort...it was really bad..slept away the whoel day...well..my puking episode did kinda pay off if not someone would still be holding a grudge against my family...i shall say no more...

the last week was a really bad week for me too...loads of depressing things gg on...loads of stuff to make me juz wonder : "WHY CLD'NT THINGS JUST BE THE WAY THEY WERE??" school,friends,family,choir...hiaz...was really depressing on friday lah...had to go to st iggy's on fri to practice for the council investitute...sheesh man...they dun even take us into consideration you noe? its like the whole school is their slaves lah...wth...wadeva..anyway...yea..choir ppl were supposed to be there by 330..well...guess how many ppl turned up?? 14!!!!!!! 14 ppl!!!! thats like quarter of a choir!!!! it was more like an a capella grp lah tt day...but we still sounded good for 12 ppl..michelle and may were conducting and playing respectively..

so yea...it was really discouraging..i was abt to breakdown tt day lah...i mean...build up...thruought the WHOLE week...ARGH!! then SC wanted to change next pract to nxt thurs instead of the initial fri..wth..juz to go support their track and field nonsense...HELLO??!! and cause trouble for evryone else??? mari had to fight for wednesday lah...sheesh man...stupid SC think they are damn big lah...well..thank goodness we got wed..hopefully more ppl turn up on wed...like the actual choir size wld be nice...thanks to those who turned up on fri tho...really appreciate it...

well..hopefully next week will be a better one..i got enuff recouperation over the weekend so i guess i'm better now..racial harmony day..hmm...is anyone wearing anything??? if no one is then i wun too...i was thinking of getting my own punjabi costume...but yea...i dunno...we'll see... a toast to a better week!!! back to top?

dunno why...i'm slowly loosing it..its like...my life is becoming so mundane...evrything is a cycle...wake up go school,fall asleep on the bus,drag my tired body up the overhead bridge,go to class,go to lecture,come home,use comp sleep....then the cycle repeats itself...hiaz...of within the course of the day.. i have the company of frens which i am grateful for...ok...let me phrase it more accurately now...i'm not getting sick of my life...my life just has no more SPARK! no more POOF! nth interesting happening anymore...nth to keep my looking forward to...hiaz...maybe i need to find a new hobby....yea...probably..but what?
play an instrument? i already am..maybe i juz need new songs to sing and play...haha...aiyah...dunno lah..new songs din have until recently...i think its gonna turn out nice...real nice..haha...YAY!!

anyway...yea...not gonna go out 2mr...stay at home..HA! FINALLY!!! i get to juz SLACK at home...ok..i wun be slacking but u get to stay at home!!!! weird huh??!!! usually you see ppl typing :" YAY!! I'M GOING OUT 2MR!!!" and here i am happy tt i'm staying at home...well..aft a while...there really is'nt musch to do in s'pore other than shop and eat...i may go down for a swim 2mr..have'nt done so in a LOOOOONG time man..and the pool is juz downstairs....stupid rite? oh well...my back is getting worse oso..maybe its an indication...if i dun go swim 2mr..i may go play badminton...hahaha...oh wait...no one to play with...not tt keen on playing one on one with my maid anymore..yea...my sis..prob too tired aft church..ok..yea..no one to play with 2mr...MAN!!!!!! is there no one???!!!!! i guesss i have to go swimming by myself then...geez man...hiaz..need to get a new tan oso...man...1.5 yrs of PE in CJC has caused me an uneven tan...juz look at my arms!!!!!!! now my forearms are darker than the rest of the arm...ha...yea...and my back loosing its colour...hmm...yea...a swim is wad i need.... back to top?

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YEAH!!!!!!!!!1

i cld never really feel the real joy of relief from studying aft an exam...somehow it nvr really felt it to its fullest extent...welll this mid yrs...i can feel it more than i usually do...i am FREE!!!! aft slogging my guts out during the WHOLE JUNE HOLS and abt 2 weeks b4 tt all dedicated to studying...nvr went out except for the few concerts to SYC and SAF choir....tts all...nvr went out o shop or anything...so deprived rite?? evryday go back to school and mug with alethea and melia and norman...hiaz...well...rest time...till a few days later...need to start mugging for prelims soon...mr poh gave melia and i the breakdown on the amt of time we ACTUALLY have left to A'levels..which is actually a month...ONE STINKING month...lthe breakdown is too lenghty to type...but yea...wanna noe then come and ask me or melia...

well...mid yrs...were...bad...the best paper for me is like bio lah...and tt never happens....chem was bad maths was WAAY bad.. so yea...we'll see how badly i die when the papers return..for the 1st time i dun care how i do...ha..weird...

anyway...went to melia's hse today...to PLAY!!!! really play!!! not juz sit there and use comp or watch tv..we PLAYED guitar and piano when we got to her hse...then went to PLAY badminton then went to PLAY at the playgrnd....so FUUNN!!!!!haha...the swings...the swirly cup thingy and the "motorbikes"...haha...childhood memories relieved...and melia and i managed to spread the " i love to sing in parts"diesease to ru yin and kristin (sp?) anyway..yea...YAY!!! most basic song to teach ppl song is Kumbaya...so darn easy simple 3 part harmony...it was DAMN NICE!!!!!haha...well..at least she has singing partners in her class now...as for me...oh well..a totally diff story..i've nvr even heard phyllis or audrey sing as much as a note...oh well...

anyway...guys...guess wad??? my burping prob?? the one when i'm hungry and the one when i'm full..and the one which juz goes on and on and on??? yea...apparently....its stress-induced....my mum had it b4...told her abt on wed nite...coz wed was the WORST case...i actually had stomach pains lah....so yea...if i dun get it treated it can develop into a stomach ulcer...hiaz...gg doc's 2mr to get it treated...hmm....oh well...we'll see wad happens...

choir starts next week....YAY?? or YAY!!!! up to you...we'll be preparing for PAC...all J2s..strongly appeal to all of you to sing for PAC k??? if not there's not enuff ppl lah..PLEASE PASS THE WORD FOR CHOIR ON WED...and tt day got a lot of things to tell you guys other than abt PAC lah..SYF photos and other stuff...so yea..pass the word...choir on wed...=D ok...gonna zzz now...the 1st night i have spent in a month not mugging...feels good.... back to top?