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man..those tt have'nt watched tt show...YOU'RE TOTALLY missing out man...SUPERSUPER nice show...man..the boy,Morhange(sp?)...man his voice ah..SUPER PURE LAH...man...i wld put it up on my blog for all of you to hear but yea..lets juz say tt my vendor aka kenny is unable to recieve mp3 files and now i have to learn how to upload the files on my own...so yea..haha..gimme time...as it is now..there are some probs..so oh well..

anyway...yea..been gg back to mug these few days aft lessons..well..no choice...have to get into the nerd mode...and i can;t do tt at home..there is comp,TV..and recently...GUITAR!!! hahaha!!! OOOO YEAH!!! juz picked up the guitar...now i can play 3 songs..relatively ok lah..hahah...gimme time i'll perfect it..
1) its all abt you--mc fly
2) evryday i love you--boyzone
3)good riddance--green day

haha...oh well...better go slp now...gotta wake up early 2mr..got 3 hrs of maths and mugging session aft tt...man..i shdl be finishing my last bit of chem now..but..oh wel...i'll leave it to 2mr..ha..porcrastination... back to top?

haha..OOOOO YEAH!!! well..star wars was COOL!!!! despite ppl telling me it was not tt great and all..i found it quite good..i mean..the graphics and all..esp the beginning of the movie..like WHOA MAN..supersupersuper cool...and not to mention anakin skywalker looked COOL!!! haha... and all the lightsaber swishing and all..COOL!!

the stupidest thing abt it is tt i mean...anakin turned to the dark side coz..........ok..shld i spoil it for those who have'nt watched? ok..i wun lah...i kinda wonder sometimes if there are still ppl liddat in today's world..where they are willing to do anything for their loved ones...i mean anakin actually...............DAMN..gotta control from saying it...haha..another time i'll unleash the power..MWAHAHHAAH!!!!! but star wars is cool...evryone shld catch it.....i agree with the cheesy love lines part btwn anakin and padme..i was warned by melia and may lah...but i din expect it soo early in the film..i cracked up when i heard it lah..

*padme is combing her hair in the balcony..goodness noes why her hair is soooo permed..how she even manages to comb i have no idea..*

anakin : " you look soo beautiful.."
padme:" its only because i'm in love with you.."
anakin:" no..its because i'm in love with you.."
padme:" so are you trying to say that love is blind?"

*anakin smiles...i think...or did he say sth aft tt??i dunno..probably too cheesy to rmb*

like SHEESH MAN...the 2nd line oredi so cheesy...then anakin had to repeat its cheesy-ness...man...i was cracking up lah...and the other one

padme:" hold me,just like you did at lake naboo" or sth liddat... and one more...

padme:" i dun need all that...all i need is your love.."

man..goosebumps standing? wanna puke?? haha...tell you ah...tt padme ah..all her lines soo cheesy lah..no wonder anakin dunno how to reply her coz its soo damn cheesy..can only reply using the same cheesy lines...haha...

ok...have'nt studied for the past 2 days..i am screwed 2mr must redeem myself..must mug..haha..man...this sucks... back to top?

dun ask me why...but...i've been feeling like this the past week...i mean..tt is when i'm left alone and nth to distract me..i guess its also kinda tt i subconsciously tell myself tt i'm feeling lost then i start to think tt way? i dunno...but yea...loss is wad i feel now...

it seems like i have lost a lot of things...i mean...i hate conflict..esp not btwn loved ones...why did they have to quarrel? why does she have to be soo stubborn?? why practice favourtism? now gg to my grandma's is becoming so pointless and i'm starting to dread it...i belived tt i wld ever come to this point...in fact...it nvr seemed like it wld...i miss the times where i cld juz go to my grandma's hse and juz..enjoy the company of the 2 old folks..even if i din tok to them much...juz seeing tt evrything was fine was more than enuff for me...i miss my grandpa...sometimes i wish he were still here...things wld'nt be this bad..shit..i'm tearing..but its true..i nvr knew how impt his presence was only until now...its sad..tt ppl only realise how much you mean to them only aft you have left...

now..i think i'm slowly loosing friends...i mean..yea..my good frens are still by my side..THANK GOODNESS but its the rest...we're breaking up...in case you all have'nt realised..but is anyone even putting in any effort to salvage it? all this talk abt it falling apart..yea..its true..but is anyone doing anything abt it? does anyone even WANT to do sth abt it? i'm slowly turning numb to the state of the friendship...i juz can't help but feel tt..i mean..ppl know there is a problem but dun seem to be putting any effort into making it better or to juz prevent it from getting worse...its all selfish gain at the end of the day..me me me..THAT is the one thing i CANNOT stand..i'm sorry if it seems like i'm being petty,insensitive or hypocritical ( i mean..i dunno wad your impressions of me are) but tt is how i feel...i mean..if it does'nt mean anything to you..then i give up as well..we'll all juz let it dwindle and fade off..

i'm sick of all this back-stabbing,bad-mouthing,bitching..i hate it!!! its not like i dun have enuff of it within the family,now frens have to come into the eqn..i've been praying abt it...ok..it was initially getting better at 1st but all crumbled one over a movie and one over church service..WTH..thnk abt it...i think its quite...petty and stupid reasons i must say if you all really wanna salvage the friendship..if not..hey..they are good excuses to juz make the situation worse..so all of you choose juz wad exactly ou want..ok...there..i've said it..i apologose if anything here seems offensive..its juz my very emotional and "selfish" thots.. back to top?

once again...did nth...its not tt i dun wanna play anything you noe...i juz dun wanna jepordize the chances of my class winning...i mean...there are ppl in my class wayy more soprty than i am...and juz judging from PE lessons..playing games WITHIN my class alone is enuff to scare anyone off lah..the pressure is ON lah..if you're the cause of the loss ah...dun expect to be comforted or reassured tt its REALLY ok...in tt sense...its quite elitist when it comes to games in my class..its a make or break kinda thing on 1st impression of playing ...the spirit of :" ITS JUST A GAME" nvr really manifests itself in my class..i feel lah...its nvr playing "for the fun of it"..its only ok to make mistakes once you've proven yourself to be GOOD at it then make a mistake..coz its like a "nvmnvm...we KNOW you can do...juz now was juz a fluke.."...i dunno lah..tts how i feel...

so how did i spend my sports carnival day? well..if i can't support my class thru play...all i can do is cheer rite?? so yea..well...all i can say is tt we played good games despite not winning anything...but we put up a gd fight so YAY t33!! woohoo!!! and our class tee rocks man...haha...one day...somehow...i'll help our class do sth...given the opportunity to lah..maybe some "singing thingy"?? i dunno...hahah...its the best i can do i guess...well...audrey,phyllis and i FINALLY took our long-awaited neoprint..and its quite nice i must say...haha...and i got burnt as usual..my tan is once again uneven..man...need to start swimming again man..and er...as expected my mum screamed at me when i got home upon seeing how burnt i was...i mean...ok..so i dinplay but i was as exposed to the sun as all who were playing...and at least they were moving ard ..i was stationary cheering my lungs out...so yea...oh well...

now is time to start mugging liao...tts how i intend to spend my june hols...studystudy..i dun care..I WANT my promo grades for this mid yr...bloody hell lah...all the tests so far quite jia lat...the recent maths test...gonna get my 1st single digit of my life...other than the 0 in sec sch physics test...haha...was supposed to read vernier callipers...read all wrongly...0 lah!! haha...tt was dAmn funny lah...oh well...we'll see...gonna get stitches out 2mr from wisdom tooth...and watching star wars with dad and sis on sunday...WOOHOO!!! heard got some cheesy love lines from melia...we'll see...like the lovey-dovey scene in episode2 was'nt cheesy enuff...oh well... back to top?

no choir for one whole week...man...luckily the gang (part of it) met up along the course of the week to indulge in some singing...if not ah...i think i will be like a zombie now or sth...man...juz one week no choir and i already feeling liddat...i cannot imagine aft i graduate...my goodness...it will be like reliving the sec 4 horror again....choir shld have one session on wed nxt week...not confirm tho...and hopefully by then they wld have sent the report for our SYF by tues or wed afternoon or sth...i wanna noe wad the comments were and more importantly whether or not we got a high silver or not...man...

anyway...had my wisdom tooth extracted on saturday..it was a new experience...the lesson i learnt form tt is to NEVER place an ice-pack too hard on the swollen area on your face ...reults in blue blacks ON TOP of the swelling ..look as if i kena punched lah...man...monday was HILARIOUS..it was still quite swollened on monday....my whole mouth was displaced to the left lah..ha...and with the blueblack...awesome effect man...not to mention i got sick of eating porridge and mee sua...but now slowly i'm starting to eat solid foods again..but laughing and smiling is STILL a problem nontheless even tho i still do it...i mean...it comes naturally...not tt i can control it...anyway...gg for CJ drama nite 2mr...hope its worth my 7 bucks...my 7 bucks meant for the tuner...oh well..anyway..loads have been happening recently...been feeling a bit weird tho i dunno why i shld even have any reason to feel this way..OH NO! cld it be...i hope not...=S back to top?

well...its FINALLY OVER...the verdict has been passed...no need to wonder and worry anymore...well..tho not evryone (or am i right to say NO one?) is exhilarated with the results ( i admit i'm one of them) thinking back and listening to all the..er...nvm..yea..i'd say our silver was a good one...i mean..according to mrs lok she said the judges din like our pieces...so having tt in mind...plus our sunset was quite different from all the other choirs and not to mention we took it much faster than most of them (if not all) and rushed good news...we STILL got a silver...means...we REALLY good...i mean..seriously...think abt it...either tt or God was really helping us like ALL THE WAY lah...AMEN!!!

anyway guys..the thing is tt we KNOW we are good...i KNOW we are good...well..tt day juz was'nt our day..but HEY! getting a gold is juz an added bonus to all thw hard work we put in preparing for this..i mean...i think all of us have grown in some way or other thruout this whole journey...be it character-wise or like skill-wise...it was an enriching experience..i mean...the full potential of the choir has been discovered..or has it not?? hmm...its exciting..which is why i love choir..esp when i'm not in a "GOLD" choir..i mean..those choirs are like PERFECT...its SOO disciplined...such that maybe some of them have lost the fun in JUST singing..i mean...they are already there..is there still a challenge to be better when you are like THE BEST? i dunno...i really have NO idea...but i love choir...its a whole new discovery...a journey..its such a combination of things..there is always a diff way to approach the song in terms of singing it and learning it...it simply ROCKS!!! well..all ic an say is tt...guys...we did our best..even if you felt it did'nt show then..its does'nt matter,..at the end of the day..if its true to your heart(sings the 98 degrees song) tts all tt matters...i mean...self-satisfaction...yea...tts more appropriate...we ROCK! i know so..well...we got ONE MORE Chance to show our worth..'OPENING OF PAC'..so what if SYF is over?? all the more we shld sing to OUR GOLD standard..then ppl will be like :" WHOA..so nice still only can get silver ah?? man..it must be very hard to get gold.." HA!! WHICH IS TOTALLY TRUE...choral competition..HELLO???!!! 1/2 of the 16 JC choirs are CONSISTENTLY gold choirs lah..competition is HIGH...getting silver is relatively good liao...now is juz a matter of whether we got a high silver or not..ha...we'll only know another day...wait for the report...i'm anxious to find out too..

well..stayed back to claer the cupboard today...found some nice songs...YAY!!! NEW SONGS!!!! have yourself a merry little xmas...man...darn nice...haha...i know its thw wrong season..but STILL...haha...gonna be a pirate soon lah..oh well...anyway..gonna remove wisdom tooth 2mr...hopefully i can get it out 2mr...i mean...my jaw still feels funny..and if i can get it out 2mr...hope i can do my work..=S oh well..we'll see... back to top?