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i seriously regret showing the gang the sms from *ahem*...look at wad has happened...

wad was i thinking???!!!! till this day..i will nvr forget wad tt sms was abt and my reaction and wad i did...HA...actually come to think of it...its darn funny...but showing tt sms to them was like jumping into a pool of larva...now the WHOLE gang noes abt *ahem* and they all think that...nvm...blame it on me getting shocked too easily...things were much more under control when only melia knew abt it...now...oh man..juz read the blogs lah...one incident and its already on the blogs of 3 ppl...like hello guys???!!! blogs have links lah...we dun even noe for sure tt *ahem* really does..nvm..i juz have this inkling tt one day he will find out abt it and i am gonna be soo malufied abt it esp since it is soo NOT true...whoa lao..as if i very attractive liddat *pengs* wad are the possibilities of someone liking me you tell me?? 0%...so yea...i still think its not true...you guys juz getting me paranoid...EVIL...

anyway...chem test on tues...apparently i'm the one in the gang taking the test 1st..so instead of me getting tips from others...looks like its gonna be the other way arnd...mwahha..i;m desperate for tips...i dun usually do this but i CANNOT fail this chem test...esp since my maths and bio are screwed...i shld be doing chem now..i will be..once i;m done blogging...well..went for mass today...saw val and suzanne...WHEE!! its soo good to see them again...even tho we din tok...i sent val an sms as soon as i saw her and she looked shocked and horrified...like some stalker juz msged her liddat...mwahahah...then when she saw me then she looked more relieved....yea...and on sat morning ..guess wad?? woke up early and when we got there the plant shop was closed...but it was ok..at least i had a good brkfast as compensation... and i got a PREEEEEETTY skirt for cny today...mwahha..YAY!!!!!!!! finally...now i;m left with shoes to shop for...MWHAHAAH...choir 2mr...we shld record lion slps tonight asap guys...i wanna put it on my blog!!!!!!! WHEEEEE!!!!!!! so fun..and the timing for "for the longest time " the bom wa oo wa is terrible..i jzu can't get it..i;m getting it...but i still have'nt got it...geddit?? MWHAHA....
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ok..juz for the sake of posting sth tho i noe i'm not obliged to lah...

today was a terrible day coz of STUPID bio test...retarded man..it was juz bad...major crapping session..great..so so far i screwed up maths and bio...chem nxt tues...i must NOT screw it up lah...it wun do myself justice...so yea..i WILL study for this chem test PROPERLY..i'd better..its revision for the evil topic aka organic chem...so yea..

and aft choir...the journey to dinner was traumatising while it lasted...i'm not gonna say anything more..but i'm starting to realise maybe i've been a LEEEEEEETLE bit "cold" and "mean" ...paranoia is getting over me...ok..i shld juz be myself...ARGH wadeva man...why am i fussing over this?? dun say anything...ESP daniel...juz dun comment ok?? =S

i gotta wake up early 2mr despite it being a saturday when i can sleep late..gotta go with my mum to go buy those CNY plants...you noe those type with manymany red red flowers..yea...wanted to go study with the gang 2mr...but yea..apparently not for this week..maybe nxt week..

today when we went for dinner was darn fun lah...we were walking along orchard rd from far east sinigng all the way..not like tts anything new...but we actually stopped outside taka and sang the lion sleeps tonight...oh man...we rock lah!! we shld record it down...i wanna a recording of it...it was damn nice..shld have juz stood in a line and put a cup out and sing...sure will get money one...=D then as we were singing..some J1s from CJ were crossing the road and saw some of their retarded j2 seniors singing along orchard road..then one of them actually stopped to ask something abt wad we were doing or sth...mwahaha...damn fun!!! we shld do tt more often...
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hiaz..

so far..only one word to describe the week soo far...DISSAPOINTING..hiaz...1stly...tests..ARGH!! had my freakin maths test today on NM and integration...all i ask is tt i PASS...ARGH!! when i was doing the test i was like :" ok..so far so good..." then aft the test mr foo went thru all the qns and then i realised i had juz lost 9 marks all thanks to careless mistakes...ARGHARGH!! the price to pay for getting kancheong during the test...i was like kan cheong at 1st coz i was taking too long..then i kan cheong coz i noe how to do and CHIONG thru the whole paper...STUPID!!got excited over nth lah...sheesh man...PLPLS LEMME PASS!!

there is a bio test 2mr and i'm here blogging...like wth...oh yea..on with the dissapointments of the week...had to borrow bio TYS for bio tut today..so i went over to T31 to borrow some lah..they lent and evrything..so use liao then i was collecting from all the ppl tt took from t31 oso since i was "in-charge" then while i was doing so..*argh* said tt he wld collect and return for me to t31..so i was like :" OH..ok.." i mean..knowing he is always soo enthu abt virtually almost EVRYTHING i thot he wld get it done...so i left class without a worry..focused on meeting maylyn for bio revision aft sch...then aft tt melia sent me a msg saying tt they want their TYS back..i was like :" wait..was'nt?? wad...ARGH!!" he din do it lah...wth..had to run up to class to get it for them..so irresponsible..and iwas the one tt officially borrowed lah..i wld be held responsible lah...anyway..i went up to class and got it then*argh* came running along and screamed for me to leave the door open..i was like :" did'nt you say you were gonna return???" he explained himself but all i cld hear was :" sorry sorry sorry.." well...tho he is 'forgiven"..it definitely has changed my perception of him...oh well...

nxt other thing...rockafella..or rockapella??rocka----WADEVA...hiaz...gang was deciding on joining...to tell you the truth ..i was DAMN excited abt it lah..as it was approaching the end of sch i cld not concentrate anymore..i was like:"YEAHYEAH!! o-wim-a weh o-wim-a-weh...WEEEEE-EE-EE-EE-EE-O-WIM-A-WEH.." then aft choir we sat as a gang to learnt e song and discuss rockawadeva..well..aft a LONG talk discussing pros and cons...we decided not to in the end..it was simply not worth it..i mean the time and evything..ppl taking 4 subs...CTs...no mood to sing..yea...many things lah..but that ain't gonna stop us form learning the song !!! WHEEEEE!!!!!! its soo darn cool...the bass parts esp...and the "doom..uuh uuh..ah.." sounds sick...but if evryone sounds sick together..it'll sound damn nice..i juz realised tt our gang is probone of the few pplin CJ tt actually LUUURVE singing to bits...its DAMN COOL...and we are comprised soo nicely of 2 voices per section...and we sound GOOD...not like we're GOODGOOD...juz..good...like we dun zao sia often..in fact hardly..i mean..aft all we DO have piano with us evrywhere we go wad...=P i was juz daydreaming abt all of us like having some debut..was thinking of the rockafella thing..but i guess its not God's plan for us to do so..there must be a reason..tho i dunno wad..maybe there is a BIGGER debut for us somewhere...=P CHRISTMAS time this yr wld be good...we can go sing for some hotel in the lobby and maybe raise funds for some home..soo meaningful rite?? tt was wad i was telling maylyn..so the guys better do your NAPFA properly so we can all sing together for xmas k?? mwahah...scully one go in early...whoa lao..then incomplete liao...we shld all go together...and i MEAN TOGETHER to sing somewhere...share our music...its soo damn cool lah...hiaz...i'm smiling juz thinking abt it...=))))))))

and this morning...wait..lemme digress abit..i juz opened a fortune cookie and guess wad it said?? "Participation in a charity function might bring you good fortune." ha...ANYWAY...this morning..dissapointing tt there are actually ppl sooo chiidish in CJ lah...to think some immature brat wld go up to a CCA board and write some rubbish...dissapointing tt ppl are actually THAT bored that they can't find sth MORE meaningful to occupy their time...yea...ok..maybe i overreacted juz a teeny-weeny bit when norman came running towards us and exploded and burst all the bad news in our faces...only thank God the bad news ain't slime or sth or we all wld have been...slimed lah...haha...ok..lame...anyway...yea..i ..i 'm speechless..felt like some whiny brat when i approached mari and told her abt it...she was calm and cool abt it..then i realised i was kancheong-ing AGAIN over nth...hiaz...tts why she is pres and i'm not...she's cool and calm..=D mwahaha..it juz nvr fails to upset me when ppl condem choir..ok..not condemn but yea...diss choir..think its JUST singing or wadeva..ok..i'm not gonna let this escalate into another one of those "justify your stand" for choir likeone of the prev posts...if you really wanna read then go look for it by yourself thru the archives...i must say it was quite good...=D anyway...yea..wad do you expect from a choir freak?? =P the passion, the fire, the spark came from within...mwahha...sound familiar??ha...created by melia and i..ha..we shld have a choir shirt..and work along those line for our motto...mwahah..ok..back to bio...wait..i have'nt even started!!!!!! ARGH!! SCREWED!!! and YAY!! choir 2mr...hopefully aft tt we get to learn for the longest time dudes...and dudettes (if you wanna blame me for being sexist)..mitochondira...respiration...
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*Whineswhineswhines*

I WANNA SING FOR MASS!!!!!!!!! argh..for once i'm gonna say this : " screw choir!!" *realises wad she juz said* OMG..can't believe i juz said tt...but yea..screw choir only on mondays...bcoz of the 'oh-so-loved-darth-vader' who insists on coming on both wednesdays and fridays we now gotta have an extra sesssion on mon for sectionals...and having session on monday is REALLYREALLY inefficient and messy...evryone ends at diff times...its soo hard to coordinate..its such a bloody pain in the butt lah..ARGH!! and coz of tt..i dun think i'll ever get to go for acts ever again lah..ARGH! which means they'll think tt i'm no longer in and tt they will nvr even consider gettin me or melia to sing for mass... ARGH!!! i wanna cry..anyway...

enuff whining...i'm starting to feel the pressure of J2 life liao..evryday there is hmewrk,hmewrk and MORE hmewrk...tests coming up...CCA involvement...its hard to give 100% to all...unfortunately...for now i've been 100%-ing to the wrong thing..ok..not wrong lah..juz...maybe it has been 110% to choir stuff now...been neglecting my hmewrk a tad bit...and the added fact tt i just got the score to 'Ordinary Day' from maylyn and spend a lot of time trying to get it rite juz does not make it any better lah..hiaz...gotta re-think my priorities man..and stupid choir stuff ain't helping...WHY??! WHY can't ppl juz be cooperative?? how do you trust ppl tt tell you lies?? how did *ahem* even obtain tt post i dunno..wrong choice?? stupid politics...choir is juz soo freakin messy now with all these mon sect..a bloody diva for a conductor ..all these things are soooooo uneccessary now lah..why can't ppl juz STOP thinking abt themselves and try to make things a little easier?? look at the bigger pic man...we gave you the bloody post coz we thot we cld trust you and count on you..and wad the hell lah..ok..maybe i'm overreacting lah but then this nonsense has got to stop..i personally have given you many chances..always gave you the benefit of the doubt..din wanna judge you but well..yea...can't belive you gonna get the bloody pearls point at the end of the year..UNLESS sth is done..but tts gonna be a little hard coz your gang members are more or less involved..ARGH wadeva..4get it...i bet i lost a few of you 1/2way..i'm gonna bring it up..but someone has gotta remind me..evryday new probs come in..and i kinda 4get tt i put in on hold ..oh well..pressure me enuff and i will get it done sooner or later...meanwhile...

CNY is coming!! new clothes,shoes, WHEEEEE!!!!!! love dressing up..only on CNY..other than tt...i dun bother...it ain't me..only in the girly mood at CNY..coz tts the most significant time of the year tt i will DEFINITELY wear a skirt..but this yr..maybe no chance..no time to go shopping..so far only managed to get my 2 tops..oh well..we'll see...thinkin gof witching back to my green specs..the ones b4 this pretty red ones tt i'm wearing now..the lens got some scratches..the reflective layer kinda scraped of...so hmm...we'll see..i'm off to pound at the keyboard.." juz a day,juz an ordinary day..."
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YAY YAY YAY!!!

not THAT much hmewrk today..tts basically the reason why i'm blogging lah...hiaz...well nth much today other than the fact tt we had sectionals today for the J1s..i must say tt they are pretty good..i mean..lets juz say tt i was prepared for the worst..but actually they not too bad...quite fast learners and some are REAALLY hardworking...i dunno...THAT is the way it shld be..maybe coz i have'nt seen tt kind of commitment and interest in J1s esp since they are only there for 1st 3 mnths..i mean..i rmb MY 1st 3mnths..there was NO one in the alto sect except me..the others all nvr botherd to turn up regularly..i bet if we had this system last yr..no one wld turn up..not even the J2s (my seniors)...so yea..i'm really glad tt aft tt in 2nd intake all the altos were ppl tt were interested and wanted to work at getting stuff right...it was really motivating...thnx to all my fellow altos once again..=D and to the J1 altos( i doubt any of you are reading this..but yea..) GOOD JOB...seriously...WHAAAAAAT???!!! really encouraged and impressed..keep up the good work..and REALLY hope you guys stay in choir lah..nono..stay in CJ...yea..oh well...we'll see..looking forward to wed's choir session already...so exciting to hear wad we sound like with the J1s...=D

well...there was this particular J1 gal..eunice...she reminds me soooooo much of my cousin belinda..who is much older than me and is a mother to a 2 yr old(i think) boy...welll..its juz her facial features and the way she speaks and the kind of qns she ask and the tone of her voice..uncanny resemblence man..super cool..i was juz looking at her and i juz cld'nt think at tt time whoshe reminded me of..now i noe...so i'll tell her on wed..=D she has a nice raspy yet cheery tone to her voice..super cool...super nice..=)

oh well..i JUST realised that i DO have a lot of hmewrk still...damn...so much for being happy..and today PE took 2.4 timing..ok..i'm both sad and happy...sad coz not good enuff happy coz considering my lack of PE for 2mnths i still managed to do well above my expectations...but then..my expectation ain't the one required..oh well...
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WHEEEEE!!!!!!!!

friday rocks! friday rules!! friday is..er...juz so darn cool!!! YEAH MAN!! FINALLY...the last day of the week...seriously..i mean..with this 5 day work week thing..govt intend for us to wad? spend more time at home resting and all tt rubbish...like hello???!!! juz coz you DUN go to sch does not mean tt the work does not...if you ask me..this 5 day work week is juz more of a hinderance then of help lah...it is SOOO not beneficial at all..

i mean..look at it...1stly..we gotta cover more in a shorter time span..i mean..tts of coz heaven for ppl like me tt hate studying..i mean...like who does'nt rite? anyway..yea...but its good for "subjects" like PE..yea..torture time is reduced lah..anyway...yea..with 5 day work week all the limitations come along..for example..now on mondays no CCA to be held past 530pm in sch..tues and thurs are strictly no cca days..with ppl ending at diff times and all...end up starting late..ending late..gg home late..and being short on time for EVRYTHING...go home late short on time for hmewrk,short on time for social life,short on time to perfect SYF scores..and with saturdays being inactive..argh...so neneface lah...other JCs prob faster than us liao lah...i mean..they were prob working on it while we were preparing for the xmas concert last yr...CJ band oso practicing since nov or sth..whoa lao..we are soo screwed...and we NEED to get a gold this yr..its gonna be blood,sweat and tears... getting gold is hard..getting a silver-near-gold( i think..juz noe it was a gd silver in sec sch) is already damn tiring...to get a gold...is gonna be a 1st for me..hiaz..so yea..basically..no time for evrything and anything...

nxt week j1s coming..wanna make an appeal to all j2s..PLSPLSPLS do evrything and anything within your ability to make j1s feel comfortable...like i've said b4 in the prev post and on many other occasions :' the way we carry ourselves will form the image of choir for the j1s..the environment,people..if we potray a : " aiyah..this score sucks " kind of image then the j1s may not have such a good impression of us..like you set the mode of learning and how they shld tackle it..i dunno how else to say it..if you all like slack and all then they will also feel its ok to slack..if you all put in effort to revise then they will think and KNOW tt that is expected of them...am i even making sense?? well..yea..at the end of the day..juz take note on how you behave lah..of coz dun need to be like SUPERSUPER serious and scare them off..have a balance..and i noe there will always be a grp of ppl tt will definitely do the direct opposite of wad i wish for evryone to do..but yea..hopefully with majority doing wad i hope to do..it will neutralise the bad effect...i noe ppl will make effort to behave appropriately lah..but all it tkaes is fot a small grp if not one person to spoil it all...its contagious lah the evil bug...anyway...yea...tired...got loads more to blog but too tired...btw...HAPPY-in-advance- BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!!!!!! hope you like your pressie and card...JON picked out the card and i'm sure you'll love JON's msg...=D ok..i'll stop here


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hiaz...does'nt hmewrk suck??

that was a rhetorical qn btw..no need to answer tt...juz in case got some workaholics out there..then spoil my plan sia..anyway..yea...today was a terrrble day lah..i simply HATE Thursdays from now on..hiaz...like having mass pe is not bad---well..so far not THAT bad...better stop here..scully my luck turn ard nxt week =S yea..then aft mass pe 1 hr brk then torture begins..5 hrs straight lessons no break...can die lah...and all tt hmewrk..my gosh..i wanna die lah...i shld not be blogging but here i am..as usual..well..gotts chiong later...

well..a LOT has happened since the last time i blogged...ok fine..not A LOT..its juz one day of not blogging..but a lot of events to cover...

well..yesterday was the auditions for the j1s...WHOA...i only got one word for the auditions : SIONG MAN...seriously lah...i wld freak out if i were the j1s lah...anyway...yea...we like had all these forms for mich and adela to assess them on..got X-factor and image somemore lah...=S sight reading somemore..whoa..terror man..so obviously gg back to my redundant post..so not here nor there..i was juz wandering ard trying to find sth to do...interacted with the j1s..calmed them down and all...yea..it was fun..getting to noe them and all..and the singing...the standard..high man..a lot of them good singers..got at least 4 ppl to replace our tannies and huimins..so yay??!! ok..yay..the thing is like wad mari said :" a lot of individual voices" choir operates as a whole lah..need to sound like one voice...need voices tt BLEND...oh well..hopfully that can be changed lah...well..the turn up for the orientation and auditions were good i must say..more turned up then i had expected...and well..the good thing is tt we got LOADS of tenors now but we short on bass..only got one new addition to bass...well not really NEW but yea...sth to tt effect lah...tenors...i noe there is this guy..whoa...when he was singing some song..he hit the high note with EASE lah..sounded nice man..hiaz...

well..with the addition of juniors tt can sing is definitely sth to look forward to lah..i mean..at least we noe tt there is potential of the choir moving higher up the progression ladder--if there even is such a thing..yea..hopefully with good singers..we sound better for SYF..but on the other hand...that gold may very well be lost..i noe a lot of j2s upon hearing abt the standard of the j1s and the way the auditions were carried out were discouraged..i heard many comments like : " shit lah..if we were put thru this audtition i dun think i wld have made it thru..." and many similar comments lah..i noe how you feel guys...its really weird when your junior beside you sings better than you and maybe even end up TEACHING you how to sing..oh man...i can juz imagine lah...but then again guys..we ain't that bad lah..contrary to maylyn..i think the number we will have aft putting thru the same audition wld still be abt the same as it is now..maybe with abt 3 or 4 kicked out lah..but still come on guys..have faith in yourselves...you all ain't bad lah...well...not like we're very good liddat lah..but we ain't horrid either..all i can say is that...look at it as a possible step closer to the gold tt we wan..and maybe get to noe the j1s and learn to work WITH them...can prob learn sth from each other...and rmb...wadeva you guys do will mould their image of choir..i dunno how much more i can stress this but yea..its VERYVERY true...they ain't great..they juz good...they have areas that need working on too...so you guys noe more or less wad is expected of yourselves in choir..enlighten them and help them along the way..thats wad choir is...TEAMWORK...
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mwhahahaa...

finally..a day where i cld come home early...well..i din exactly come home EARLY..juz earlier than b4..or rather recently...went to the dentist today to get my teeth done..DUH..wd else do you do at the dentist rite?? anyway..yea...was rushing off from sch lah..appointment at 430 and i was still on the bus at 430..so yea...practically RAN from the busstop to the clinic lah..was a good 1/2 hr late..oh well...

ok..i'm supposed to do hmewrk*as usual..the word here is SUPPOSED TO* and well..obviously i'm not doing it..the fact tt there is no bio tut or chem tut 2mr juz makes the choice of NOT doing the hmewrk ever so appealing to me...YEAH!! so...figured i FINALLY do the thank yee msgs to the guys...

Norman
WOOOAAAHH!! DUDE!!! man...really enjoyed all your lame jokes esp the one abt the candle melting and all...mwahahah..as much as it made me feel guilty abt leaving me mum alone on her bdae..i still rmb it..and all our lame convos on msn..the fire and sake and all...MWAHAHHAAH!!!!yea dude...and the getting high on ice mountain and your constant giggling at the chalet and all..hiaz..thanx for making my hols one to rmb...thanx for all the fun moments...well..of coz aside the fun stuff..also really wanna thnk you for showing commitment to choir... tho you were sick and lost ez link card and broke your finger*thanx to melia* and were in a bad mood and absolutely no mood for singing..your dedication and all really was one of the things that made me wanna do my job(when mari was not ard) BETTER...it motivated me to show the same kind of commitment and dedication..knowing that someone wld be able to appreciate and understand wad it ws all for...so thnks for evryhing dude...male sop....YEAH..thks for being able to sing high notes nicely...seriously...tho its bee gee like..its better than me anyway..OH! and how can i ever forget your many episodes of speed walking??? when i say speed walking.. i MEAN speed walking...whoa man..small..but fast..tts norman...=D

Jon
WHAAAAAAAT??!!! mwahaa..yea dude..thanx for your dedication and commitment * seem to be using these 2 words A LOT* anyhows..yea...seriously man...like..who wld come for all the choir practices without fail even tho they ain't performing?? well..i wld lah considering hw much of a choir freak i am..but YEAH!! i mean..for most ppl...it is quite obvious if not VERY obvious why they joined choir..THE POINTS...but ppl like you tt come without fail and dun even get to perform for the concert and i dun think i ever heard you say :" why shld i cme..not even performing for the concert??" so tts really comforting to know tt there are ppl in choir that join NOT just for the points but also coz of the love for singing...tts totally cool man..and thanks for helping me get things in order sometimes..tho you may not realise when you get the gang to " shut up,focus and listen" (esp when nearing the CCA Pasar day)...dude..i really apprecaite it lah..i'm sure you noe how hard it is to get the attention of ppl esp when you have sth impt to say rite legion VP? =P yah..its hard to do tt without coming accross as overbearing and wad not..so yea..thanks a lot man..really appreciate it..and also for being able to sing nicely..seriously...tho you hate high notes..at least you try..and when you do...it usually turns out nice..i think..anyhow..yea..and also most imptly..thnks for tolerating all our teasing sessions abt you and *ahem*...but its really FUN lah..i mean for us lah...so thanx for letting us have the fun while you "suffer"...notice the " "..yea..=D

Dan
you ah..hiaz...i really dunno wad i shld thank you for..for pointing out to me how nasal sounding i am? for constantly proposing tt i sing "A Thousand Miles"? for constantly suaning ? for giving me headaches form your generator -like tone when you hit a certain range? for never failing to bring up the topic of *AHEM* juz to get me irritated?? mwahhaha..ok lah..but seriously...tho some things tt you do or say get me irritated( tho not to the point of hating you..tts quite impossile considering my character--->rite kenny??=P) they really form the bulk of my memories in CJ and the times tt we spent together as a gang...they kind of give me some sort of weird identity..=S yea..nontheless..thanks for always being there, giving constructive and sensible advice and opinions esp when the grp has to decide on sth serious e.g the song decision thingy at kenny's place...IF you feel tt your contibution to the grp is small and insignificant..i'm sad to say tt you're wrong...have more conficence in youself dude..speak out when you noe you're rite...sing out loud..you ARE in tune and you sound good...until you hit the generator range..well.even when you do..the generator tone ain't as bad as someone..so yea...your tone is there..its nice..so stop telling yourself you can't sing...ppl may have told you tt you can't b4..well..NOW you can..i see many similarities in our characters...maybe its coz we share the same bdae?? i dunno..nontheless..its super cool...=D i dunno how sharing the same bdae is thanking you but yea..i just HAD to add tt in...=D

Kenny
mwahah...YOU!!! evil creature...hiaz..where do i begin?? this guy...ABSOLUTELY nth to thank him for lah..well.unless you enjoy stress and stress and MORE stress..then yea..maybe you shld bow down and kiss the feet of this guy...mwahha..ok lah..i was juz kidding lah..well..seriously..the stress u give me ah..most of the time is "good" stress..its keeps me thinking..makes me PLAN and prepare...yea...so for that i have to thank you..well..other than tt..your threats to quit choir and all tt kind of RUBBISH..NOT appreciated lah..seriously..only noe how to put me in the spot ...other than tt..thanx for listening to me complain and whine abt stuff online..thnx for caring and asking ...and of coz..thanks for always suggesting ideas for the grp to hang out and all..seriously ah..tho many of the "proposals" to have been rejected ME * WHOA..like so DUA PAI liddat*..i think without the ones tt we have been having i doubt the grp wld be as close to each other as it is now...so for that..i MUST really thank you...i can't imagine wad it wld be like had you not proposed the orientation thingy and all..prob wld not have had the chance to meet each other regularly and in the process get to noe each other better..strengthening the bond tt we share--love for music..yea..so for tt..i thank you..tho i noe some stuff you do always have other intentions..yea..you noe lah hor..=P anyway..yea..how cld i 4get?? thanks for chopping off those locks of yours..seriously...you look VERYVERY much better now..shld have done so long ago but oh well..better late then never... =P YES..and thanks for your enthusiasm in all choir related stuff...=D

THERE..DONE!! finally..can finally sleep now..2mr J1s coming for choir..hope it turns out fine man...we'll see..=D
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hiaz..have'nt been blogging for a LOOOOONG time...

been coming home late due to frequent dining out with the gang..by the time i get home i'm too tired to even do hmewrk much less blog..i push myself to stay up to finish it but in the end i dun..oh well..well..guess the guy's thank yee msgs will have to wait AGAIN...mwhaha...yea..i dun wanna write sth half-hearted...so i'll do it 2mr..i WILL...will be home early 2mr lah...got dental at 430pm..so yeah!! can finally solve the stupid wire problem..stupid thing keeps poking my cheek and hooking on to it...gonna get ulcer man..UGH..anyway...lemme blog on prev days..

7th Jan ( Friday aka CCA Pasar)
well..wad can i say?? GOOD JOB CHOIR...esp love the poster and banner ppl...you guys ah..TOTALLY cool lah..so NIIIICE!!!!!!!!=D the gifts and all..yea...and thanx to jon,olivia,anabelle in particular...you guys ah..i saw you guys continuously pulling ppl in to join choir..seriously no idea how you did it but you did...even i wld'nt be able to do such a good job..i noe there were more ppl tt helped rope ppl in but i saw these 3 in particular...rmb to do the same for O2 k?? tt one more impt...really good job guys..i'm impressed..esp by jon..WHOA...shld have seen the number of gals (mostly IJ gals) you roped in man...talk abt charm man..*regrets saying tt..can see his head growing* and of coz you roped in some guys too..esp olivioa..whoa...you 2 ah..juz 2 of you can liao lah..each one rope one sex..jon take the gals and olivia take the guys...yea man..ok..sounds wrong..but yea...you get my drift..

well..tho we din really do joyful joyful up to standard( patially coz we were all practically yelling to bring our voices over the crowd),,,still good job nonthelss...other than me tryign to project and zao-siaed a bit on shouting..oh well...good job nontheles...and i STILL cannot believe the stupid cleaner uncle went ard tearing all th posters...you shld have seen my face man..the shock and horror..can literally see my heart tearing into 2...he crushed the nicenice "be a star" one...DANG! saw tt then the gang ran ard to salvage all the pretty posters...din manage to get all..but ok lah...

8th Jan
went back to school for rehearsal for commencement ceremony on monday aka today...the gang met early for a game of badminton at 7 am..but AS USUAL ppl came late and we started late lah...cld'nt find a way in to grandstand so we ended up playing on the J block 3 level the empty space area..coz quadrangle was taken up by odac lah..so yea...sangsang sang and in the end jon and i were selected to sing " you words are spirit and life" solo on monday..ARGH! i juz knew it was a bad idea...how long nvr sing duet liao lah..the last time was last year..ARGH! oh well..yea...then aft tt the gang went out for lunch and had to discuss some plans to give someone a surprise.. i shld not have said tt...but i have to...b4 she thinks we are being mean again...like excluding lah..oh well...

10th( today)
ARGH!! today was THE day...commencement ceremony..got to sch early...ok lah..i WAS early...melia was later than me (DUH) so tts why we were late...so yea...choir was made to sing on stage..ARGH!! still can't get over the fact tt WE WENT FLAT!! argh..i was singing too bloody soft tt i cld'nt even hear myself and checking if i zao siaed lah.hiaz...and the worst part is tt jon and i came in at the interlude with the refrain so we were like : " Your Words.." tts all...coz we suddenly realised not supposed to sing..hiaz...damn funny...and i dropped my paper 1/2way the song and jon had to share with me..oh man...all i can say is Jon...REALX!! my gosh..whole hand shaking lah..i cld see the paper shaking lah..not like i damn steady or wad lah..but yea..nontheless..i still think jon has a nice a nice voice...=D nice and melodic tone to it...

ok..i gtg zzzzzzzz now...
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ok..i'm gonna delay the thank yee msgs to the guys again...its bloody late..still have maths to do..and i am STILL doing...ARGH! hate numerical methods..there always comes a stage you dun even noe wad the hell you are doing stupid man...feel helpless man...ARGH!!! this shld not be happening...i'm bloody J2 liao lah...i was liddat in J1..and i managed to do well enuff for promos it was a bloody lucky fluke lah...but now...J2 lah...cannot depend on lady luck no more..well..not like i always do lah...she just pays a visit at the right times most of the time..=S

2mr is CCA pasar..basically its CCA orientation day for the J1s...the day we supposed to pull ppl in lah..anyway..i only hope tt we manage to put up a good performance...only the 9 or 10 of us lah..been staying back late evryday in sch to pract lah..2mr is THE day..and there is still orientation and commencement lor...tts (commencement) not really a performance lah..but its like a "performance" in the sense tt its the 1st time J1s will be seeing us or rather hearing us...its will basically set the 1st impression of choir on the whole J1 population..so actually..its more jia lat then we all think it is...nontheless..dragging in a good number of J1s will still be the ultimate goal...ok..still got maths wating for me...its called retribution lah...the past few days...no hmewrk..evryone complaining abt hmewrk i was like bragging to myself : " NO HMEWRK!!" then i knew today i wld get my just rewards...oh well..
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*yawn*

juz got home not long ago...you noe wad? i'm being drained of all energy...seriously..i think i'm juz putting too much pressure on myself lah...maybe my expectation of myself is too high..the more i think abt..as in thinking of ways to comfort and tell myself its not the way it seems to be...the more the evidence is staring and telling me tt at the end of the day its all my responsibility...its all my fault if things dun work out..excuse me as i wallow in self-pity for a while longer..excuse me as i continue being a pessermist...i so was not made for this post...you all made a wrong choice..i'm serious..i dunno...am i expecting too much of myself?? i used to think the perfect leader cld never be obtained...i used to think it was humanly impossible to be a perfect leader...like MY def of a good leader...i used to think tt you cld only be NEAR perfection..but aft i came to CJ and joined choir and met someone called charlie and saw how he handled stuff and carried himself...i saw tt it was very much possible to achieve the status of a good leader...

esp since he is juz the batch before me...i feel somewhat pressured to "live up" to that name..and i'm only VP lah..i can't imagine wad marianne feels...she totally rox lah..i on the other hand..get too kancheong abt evrything and anything...how to lead ppl when you yourself kancheong? ARGH! i suck lah i suck!! this will be gg on for some time so pardon me..till i come to terms with it...
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hey dudes..

oh man..been doing homewrk till now..juz finished chem lah..not gonna do maths at all..oh well..i dun think i'll be writing much today..which also means tt the guys are gonna have to wait for their thank yee msgs 2mr or sth...=D mwahha..sorry dudes...oh..and not forgetting my sec sch pallys...you guys juz wait lah..i noe it'll seem a bit overdue but yea..better late then never i say..so yea..2mr is back to school..which means A LOT of things...so 1st things 1st..gotta sleep early..aka NOW..so yea...

btw..read melia's blog..thanx dude..seriously...all i can say is.."thats what friends are for..for good times..and bad times..i'll be by your side forever more..thats wad frens are for..." ok..to be continued 2mr...=D
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ARGH!!!!!!! NOO!!!! its 2005 ...ALREADY!!!!!! oh man...

hiaz...this is bad...i shld'nt be so pessermistic abt the new year..i mean aft all..it IS the new year..who noes wad to expect?? well..then again..tt can be both good and bad..=S argh! not making any sense...well...wanted to blog last nite...say my final goodbyes to 2004..it was not a GREAT year * i noe tts wad most think considering how much i dun wan 2005 to come* but it was eventful nontheless...was toking online to norman..the only one form the gang online..and val too..hiaz..we were like screaming :" OH NO!! 11 more mins!! NO!! TOO FAST!!" and " DANG!! 6 more mins!! we're doomed!!" mwahhaa..yea...well..was toking to melia on the phone lest nite too as we were waiting for new yr to come..so..basically..no mood to blog..tried blogging while toking on the phone b4..the entry was'nt too good..so yea..so aft we put down the phone and all..i decided to do a short reflection on 2004..did it on my foolscap paper..a lot of personal stuff lah..but basically..it was a good experience doing tt..for the 1st time..shld do tt evry year maybe..this year...was INDEED a VERYVERY EVENTFUL year..it was basically a year of change for me..a year of great change..i'm not gonna say why lah..coz some things are a bit personal and some others may come across as egoistic or wad lah..wad to do? Leo mah..=D *love tt excuse* but i guess penning down..and in this case typing out some of the events this year or the changes this year wld'nt be sucha a bad idea..i'm not like Kenny lah..say sth 1/2way then dun wanna say..sooo bloody anticlimax lah..=P

well..here are the main changes this year..

• the MOST obvious one was coming to a new school...new environment..new faces..new system..new almost evrything..
• coping with the loss of a loved one..today was his bdae..1st jan..R.I.P kong kong..my 1st funeral involvement..not tt i look forward to anymore of it..but yea..
• having to find new frens..well..tt was made easy with melia ard..and at least i din feel soo alone..and i found some GREAT ones in the end..
• being in a SATB choir?? well..its not a major change but it sure made singing a whole lot more interesting..
• taking up a role i never was confident of doing well...refused it in sec 3..lucky i did...not tt i'm doing a fantastic job now..but i guess its ok..i'm giving it my all guys..lemme noe wad i can do to be better..
• having dealt with the full force of the leadership role esp when evryhing was thrown last min in my face..a 1st..had leadership roles..but NEVER to tt extent...good exp tho..

yea man..well..there are more lah..but nah...putiing it up wld be a bit weird lah..and guys..abt the prev entry abt the alone in class as the only choir person..i reallyreally apologise to anyone..i dunno lah..i sounded so whiny and not thinking at tt time..so selfish of me..only wallowing in self-pity at tt time..so forgive me..only upon reading it again then i realised how stupid i was..oh well..

ok..i wanted to do sth like wad kenny did on his blog..thank you msgs for all the ppl tt mean a lot to me..but then i thot..it wld'nt be nice..it wld be like so...EXCLUSIVE...and juz look at all the links lah..i can't write for sooo many lah..write until never end man..so i guess..i shld'nt?? shld i ?? ARGH!! ok fine..i'm gonna be selfish and insensitive now so pardon me...

Melia

dude..man..where wld i be without you man??you're like my closestclosest buddy in CJ now..and that is REALLY REALLY impt to me lah..in a whole new environment..seeing familiar faces and actually knowing them like personally is truely a blessing i will never ever overlook...we're like the only 2 from our gang in STC 2gether now...tts really great man..who cld ask for more man?? hiaz..i still rmb all the times in CJ when we were still tryin to get used to the way things were done ard there..gg for choir esp since we were ALWAYS late for it by 1/2 hr in 1st 3 mnths coz of CAC and having to leave CAC early for choir and all tt kinda stuff..stuff tt you wld usually feel paiseh for but with company it does'nt seem so bad..sometimes i think we rely on each other TOO MUCH..not tt its a bad thing or a good thing..well..it can be either one depending on how you look at it..well..i'm starting to not make anymore sense..well..lets juz say tt your friendship to me for the last 3 yrs is TRUELY sth tt i will neverever 4get..and it is sth *breaks out in song* " MORE THAN WOOORDs..."..thanx for tolerating with wadeva faults i have man..esp my goldfish memory..=D

Angela

tho i've only like known you properly for like 2 mnths..seriously think you're a nice gal..thoughtful and all..you made attending choir sessions esp during 1st 3 mnths a little better..at least b4 you left for band in 2nd intake and met ...................well..you noe..=D seeing a familiar face in choir other than melia was def sth i cld not ask for...esp since tt place was such a cold place(to me lah) in 1st intake..well..yea..your dedication and willingness to learn stuff at choir is really sth i admire..i mean..i wld'nt be able to handle comments regarding my voice in such amnts lah..*its the Leo thing =P* and your determination is really inspiring..keep it up dude...or dudette...=D

Maylyn

PIANO!!! WHEEEEE!!! seriously man..you shld really consider taking up tt nickname form me..it really suits you..i mean..how many ppl can walk ard and juz give you a B-flat whenever and whereever..no need for pitch pipes and composers..and tell you the pitch of the beeping of the mrt signal for doors closing?? and the pitch of the screeching of the windscreen wiper thingy ..ok..tt was not you..but still!!!!!!! cool nontheles...other than tt...thanx for always being ever soo committed to choir and the gang's own private pract sessions..playing the piano even tho i noe how much you dun wan to..you're a real team player and tts great man..not many can be tt..but you're doing a great job...=D

Ying

my fellow ALTO DUDE..ok..dudette..oh man..words really cannot describe how thankful i am tt you are in alto..seriously..look at us man..5 of us..you really make a diff to the sect..your the SUPER alto lah..you shld have been in sop..but yea..you're here..in alto..the COOLEST section dude..mwahaha...also..your contribution towards choir and our little gang's pract really are brain-generating..your ideas and comments really get us thinking and never fail to help us improve ourselves..also...your dedication and commitment is great dude...full participation whenever possible..you rock dudette..lets work towards SYF together man..ALTOS UNITE!! wheee!!

ok..i'll juz do the gals today..guys..wait for 2mr or sth..today is juz sops and altos..gotta do hmewrk now..time's a wasting..

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