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Today was such a horrible and sucky day i wish it nvr even came...the day started off fine..fun and jokes..you cld say it was the perfect day at sch...then sch was over..as i was settling down to study in the library i recived a call 4rm my mum..we are not allowed to use handphones in sch premises so i did'nt answer the call..i thot it wld be regarding the PTM later tt day...so i rushed to the toilet to answer the call when my mum called again..guess wad? she said tt my grandfather who has been in hospital 4 the past 1 week has gone into a serious,critical condition...
I panicked...i was like WHAT?? so i had to abandon my plan of staying in sch till my parents came and rush off to the hospital..it was raining soooo heavily and it was nearly impossible to flag a taxi..so i decided to take a bus down to far east to get a cab...so i waited and waited and waited somemore until it was finally my turn...
i finally reached there andmy maid was there to pick me up lah...coz actually she was supposed to go and pay the taxi ride 4 me since i thot i had no $$ bud turns out i had juz enough...so i asked her the moment i got out of the cab wad happened and she refused to tell me..i was like sooo damn fed-up liao lor...hiaz...so we got there and only then did i realize why they were all panicky..he was warded into the ICU...and i entered the waiting room where the rest of my family was waiting...my mum and my sis and grandma were all teary...i knew i was supposed to feel sth lah bud juz cld not...so we waited till we cld see him lah...in the meantime i was still ok bud worried...not crying yet..i was starting to wonder if i was human or not...
then we cld see him...i had a picture of a few tubes here and there until i saw him, then only did i realize how serious it was...he looked in pain and discomfort...i looked at him and was speechless..my gandma called the priest to come and bless him...so he was blessing him while we stood there and watched...i was totally lost 4 words...my mum told us to say a few words to him coz he can hear us bud can't reply...all i cld say was :"Kong Kong, get well soon.." and i was starting to tear liao...it was only wheni returned to the waiting room did i start to cry hysterically..my dad was also there so he suggested we say the rosary together...so we did and i was sobbing hopelessly while we were doing so and so was evryone in the roon..my maid,grandma and aunt...all sobbing...i juz cld not stop sobbing...even my dad started choking on his words when saying the 1st decade of the rosary and started crying..nvr saw my dad cry b4 so imagine tt...how worried we were...
then we finished the whole rosary and i decided to start on my work since my chem test is 2mr...i wrote my 1st point and i started crying again...i mean..think abt it...this was the man tt was my only acting grandfather..the only grandfather i ever actually knew...the guy tt took care of me as a infant while my parents were at work...together with my grandma...hiaz..so of coz i was sobbing lah...then my mum came to comfort me..she was crying too...she said if they have to go they have to go...its God's will..its easy to say and it seems easy to accept but its not...like WHY??why him? why now?why cld'nt they spot anything 4rm the previous tests they carried out?wny did they all turn out -ve results? why only now did they manage to spot the problem when its like full-blown? sux lor..then they said he may not make it lor..coz they think its lung cancer and may spread to the heart..hiaz...was sooo damn confused lor...actually more details lah bud i dunno lah...i mean i feel bad coz i was nvr really close to my grandfather lah..bud i noe he loves me...tts why..hiaz....i feel bad tts also why i cried...hiaz...see what smoking does to you?? if you have relatives tt smoke discourage them now..really...you won't wanna see them in tt state..i can't even find the right words to describe the situation...have to like show you face to face..hiaz..my mum said cancer is painful even if you pull through...so she said all they can do its to make him feel more comfortable..as to chances of survival..needs a miricle...and i dun noe if i want tt miricle to happen..really...if it does, he will be in pain all the days of his life bud if it does not,i'll miss him terribly...so i'll leave it in God's Hands...hiaz...juz came back 4rm the hospital..hope me makes it through the night and the nxt morning...hiaz...PLS PRAY EVRYONE..pray for him...PLEASE... back to top?

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yeah!!! today was the last PE lesson..of the week tt is...i noe you all are rolling your eyes going:"SHEESH!" bud hey!!! i managed to live through it...had to do standing broad jump at PE today in the gym..when i heard we were going to do tt..the first word tt came to mind was DIE..can't jump 4 nuts man..i'm sooo not a leg person...can't run ,can't jump..need i say more?? :p...yea...2mr is PTM (parent-teacher meeting)...quite dumb if you ask me..apparently Bro Paul juz wants to tok to all the parents and aft the tok you can decide whether or NOT you want to meet the teachers..sheesh man..then why call it a PARENT- TEACHER MEETING??? no connection lah fren...hiaz..it starts at 7 pm so i'm gonna stay in sch till 7pm 2mr to wait 4 my parents...sch ends at 2.30 4 me 2mr so yea..got like 4.5 hrs to kill..yea...gotta study for thr chem test the nxt day...the nxt day is also SPEECH AND PRIZE PRESENTATION DAY!! well..now its called THERESIAN AWARDS DAY..s2pid lah...
mwahaha going 4 SAF (Singapore armed forces) choir..man..they totally rock man...they came to CJ to promote their concert on 17th June..they sang in the morning aft assembly..i nearly MELTED when i heard them sing...seriously..its so hard to find guys tt can sing nowadays..esp in CJ...there's like maybe only ONE guy tt can sing nicely...yea...so i went to buy the tix 4 the concert...$4.80 only lor..then the guys speak like jason liew...slang here slang there...hiaz...i'll continue another time....till then... back to top?

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wassup dawg?! mwahaha..kk..it been sometime since i blogged so yea....here i am...sch ended at 3.10 today..chinese was the last lesson and i was already preparing to fall asleep and ready to not be able to comprehend ANYTHING tt was coming out of my chinese teacher's mouth..so we waited in class 4 her arrival..she did'nt turn up aft waiting 4 5 mins...so we waited..and waited and waited somemore..and guess wad?? SHE DID'NT TURN UP!!!! mwahhaha..soo happy..so the whole period we started toking abt hymns..weird huh?? bud still... had maths test today...i was kinda panicking simply coz i did'nt prepare for tt topic...so thank goodness Audrey is nice and let me see how to do....*phew*...got bio test on wed...and got choir!!!!WHOOPEE!!!dunno how come i suddenly like choir sooo much....:p..

Newaez...did i already mention tt i was in a delimma on whether to join CAC exco?? well..if i did'nt..i'll tell you now...wanted to join CAC exco to get Leadership points 4 the PEARLS system...bud if i did join exco i wld have to place CAC as my priority have to attend every single darn meeting and cannot "ZAO" early...to go 4 choir lah...and i may even end up having to quit choir if i did join exco which i dun want to....so i guess i'll join CAC but not exco so i can get Service points and i'll get Achievement,Enrichment,and Representation points 4rm choir...as 4 Leadership..gotta fight 4 it in choir lor...yea....hiaz....kk..gotta bathe now...and got PE 2mr...TORTURE!!!!oh well..till then... back to top?

heya!!! long time never post nething here...so here i am...been busy lah..no time to post nething here...revising with my sis her maths...exams coming soon mah...yah lor..and her maths sux so muz teach her on top of doing hmewrk...i got 24/50 4 my GP essay lor....i'm soo sad...my first fail in GP..i think i was overconfident..this sux...evrytime i get overconfident i do badly lor...hiaz...2mr got GP compre...so i better do well in it to pass GP 4 this term lor...and got tests all the way 4 nxt week....sux..AND!!! i'm going back to STC 4 speech and prize presentation and 4 ONCE i'm not performing in it..I'm actually RECIEVING a prize..WHOOPEE!!!! of coz not 4 academic work lah...average student lor...its 4 CCA..CHOIR CHOIR CHOIR!!!WOOHOO!!ahah...i got hmewrk which is to prepare 4 my chinese compo 3mr..GP compre read and do my maths assignment qn lor....the 1st 2 more impt to fufil...okok..i gtg now..better start work now... back to top?

hey hey!! wassup..hiaz..my arms are aching soo badly..not tt bad now lah coz put medicine liao...hiaz..jason liew lah!! there was PE today lah,then we were waiting 4 his grand arrival in the hot sweltering sun lor...then when he came we were all anticipating a 10 rnd torture bud int he end he did'nt torture us YET..he told us its too hot and actually supposed to take 2.4 timings today but too hot so dun need to run,and he lost his voice!!!whoopee!!so we went to take height and weight (not soo yeah)..i grew 1 cm to 159 but my weight remain the same..61 kg lor...sick man...so still in TAF lor...hiaz...so damn sad...newaez..after tt jason liew told us to go do pull-ups..inclined pull-ups..do 4 sets of 10 lor..so tts 40..by the end of it my arms all no more strength liao..hiaz..then went to mass at st.berns in my sch uniform..smelly ,sticky and evrything else...mwahaha..then went to GWC 4 dinner and saw August there with his GF..think she's from ACJC lah..OH!! and saw Fio in church with her 2 sisters..okok...my class went 4 dinner 2nite..see how ..BYE!!! back to top?

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i am now suffering a horrible abdominable muscle pain 4rm mass pe yesterday...and there is pe 2mr oso lor..and gotta run 10 rnds round the track lor..wad is this lah...jason liew is such a nut lor...i hope i can live thru it 2mr and have energy to go 4 mass..my sis got maths test 2mr and she not studying properly lor...play and play with the digicam..dunno when she gonna get serious with her work..sec 2 liao lor..muz serious mah..streaming wad..hiaz...yea...she still not studying lor...2mr got maundy thurs session in the morning..I'm in charge with amelia and charissa..YEAH!!!! i think..

hiaz..i'm looking forward to a enjoyable and fruitful 2 yrs in CJC...still trying to slowly show my real self to my classmtes and choir frens and CAC ppl...then i can be comfortable with them and work effectively and efficiently...yea...feeling sleepy..juz sent val her pics 4 her internship job at some journalist thingy...need pic of me showing affection to my hp...she doing some article on a woman's essential tach gadget...yea...so gotta take a pic of me...hiaz...so mafan lor..had such a hard time sending her the pics via email in the end sent via msn..s2pid rite??

thinking of cutting my hair...shld i?? back to my old hairstyle...dunno lah..stil thinking abt it...dunno lah..more trendy lah and i'm sick of tying my hair lor...and my hairline is receeding lor...she still not studying..i noe if i nag at her one more time she's gonna blow lor...whoa lao..i juz asked her lor...she down there soo bo chap...i dun care bout her man..she go and fail 4 all i care man..she down there like noe she soo bad on the topic liao then she juz dun care since its like an uninportant test...like all these tests test your basic foundation 4 the topic if you THINK you got it bud actually dun them you are juz not gonna do well lor..HOWEVER..i juz can't seem to drive tt into her bloody think skull and into her brain lor..hiaz..leave her be lah..hope sth will motivate her soon!! like REAL SOON!!i can feel my parent's patience wearing out lor...mine is wearing out too...hiaz..hoope she wakes uo and smells the coffee soon enuff...oh well.. back to top?

yo yo!!
finally!!i changed the freaking template of the blog..still gotta add a tagboard and all bud its much better then before lah..well..today was a day of checking at school..they demanded to check our skirts again!!like wad is their problem man??hiaz..they have been checking the length of our skirts 4 god noes how long and they are still at it!! when will they check the guys and see tt their pants are falling down their butts??

sheesh..when i heard they wanted to check ..down went my skirt and up went my socks man..i fold my skirt lah..ao all i need to do when they wanna spot check is to fold it down lah..they it went all the way down below my knees..then we all lined up 4 them to check..then they called a few of us..i was one of them and i realised tt most of the ppl called out had skirts shorter than mine...then i knew sth was wrong lor...then they call us stay back to re-spotcheck..i was fuming man..and also panicking..they wld give detention lor..i did'nt want detention..nvr had and dun ever want to have...spoil my track record ah...hiaz..then we were waiting 4 them to re-spotcheck...then we realised tt we were standing in the "skirts-too-short" area and quickly ran over to the "socks-too-low"area..then managed to go 4 re-spotcheck and got away..with NO detention*phew*..yea..other than tt..we had mass pe and nearly died like i always do..met meila and went hme with her...not really lah..she walked me down to the bus stop while she waited 4 her dad...toked to her..i haven't done so in a LOOONG time lor...miss her...hardly get to see her nowadays..end diff time..diff brk time..lect all sit in class..i realised how much more free i was when i was toking to her..as in i cld really be myself and laugh at things tt were REALLY funny(no offence lah)...hiaz...oh well...wad to do..even though we are all in choir and CAC i still hardly get to tok to her since we are all diff sections(choir) so yea...hiaz..wad to do..hope i can find someone i can be myself to in the present class lah..hiaz..till nxt time... back to top?

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i'm bored and frustrated...can't figure out how to cahnge the bloody blog title...its still "retro blog" lor..SICKENING ah..haiyoh...and i juz finished my hmewrk and posting sth in my class blog...hiaz...NEED HELP man...HOW TO CHANGE THE BLOODY BLOG??i wanna change colour too bud i can't even get started on changing the title lor...s2pid ah...oh well...supossed to be revising me bio now..dunno if i shld go our with me classmates on thurs lor...i wanna see them though not tt badly lah bud i dunno if i shld go since the nxt day-Good Friday is like a solemn day..it wld be kinda weird if i went out the night b4 and enjoyed rite? oh well..leave in the hands of the LORD...erm..still trying to settle down in new class...like get to be frens with evryone..bid they not tt willing..esp the 35 ppl and i think one of my classmates formerly 4rm 35 was very mean to this guy lor..this guy is kinda loner in the class lah..fell kinda sad 4 him..juz bcoz he is enthu they all like are disgusted with him...like SHEESH man...he was helpng this teacher to do switch on the projector so need to stand on chair rite??so he did it and one of them shouted:"ay!!at least you cld take off your shoes rite?"like really rudely..and gave tt 'i wanna whack your bloddy face' look..and you shld have seen his face man..like sooo dejected..i was damn upset abt it lor..bud no guts to stand up 4 him and develop an argument..we all juz started being classmates lor..dun wanna sour ties juz yet..hiaz..and nobody ever wants to sit with him..i dun blame them lah coz he is kinda freaky bus still they shld not make it sooo obvious rite?? so evil lor...its damn hurtful ya noe..at least be hypocritical lah at the most..so horrble..hiaz..i noe i shld do sth bud i dun noe how and whether ornot i shld..i can't juz sit there and watch him get bullied and take all the insult lor..its not tt he du noe how to fight back leh..i think he lost all his confidence and feel he got no more self-worth since even he himself succumb to the fact tt he is a loser and loner..which no one is...so he dun see the need to defend himself..in some way i admire him coz he still be himself..the self tt that gang can't stand..i dun think i wld be able to do the sameif i were him..pei fu man!!hiaz..2mr going running with steph and lee pin...in the morning..hiaz..try it out lah..i may continue..4 the sake of loosing weight and passing 2.4..we'll see... back to top?

haha..juz created my new blog...this is it..nth fancy coz i dunno how to make it fancy...i wld if i cld..oh well...i wun be using this often though..will juz put sth here whenever i feel like so yea...so to whoever comes(that is there is anyone) dun complain if its too boring coz i can't be bothered to do anything abt it..its juz to contain my thoughts so yea...mwahaha..4 me to write down sth to occupy my time if i;m bored..so yea..you cld say its like doodling paper...juz like wad i'm doing now....kk i'll leave it 4 now..till nxt time!! back to top?

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